by Lila Kane
Humiliated, I reached around him to grab the wine. “Fine. I can see you’re trying to think of a lie to make me feel better.”
“No, Evie.” He turned at the same time I did, his hand brushing mine. “Damn it—your hands are freezing.”
“Like you care.”
He snatched the glass from me and set it aside, making my mouth drop open in surprise.
“Brett—”
His hands closed around mine and the words died in my throat. “I don’t hate you. Why didn’t you wear gloves?”
“Uh…” How was I supposed to answer that question when his fingers were massaging warmth into mine? When he was standing close enough I could feel his chest rise and fall with each breath? “I forgot.”
“We’ll start a fire,” he said, releasing me.
I opened my mouth to protest, but he was already walking to the living room. He started stacking logs in the fireplace while I shakily poured myself another glass of wine. A big one. He didn’t hate me? Then what was going on?
“You want a glass?” I called across the room.
“A beer will do. Or a shot,” he muttered.
I chuckled, but grabbed a beer from the refrigerator to start. I opened it, but froze at the edge of the kitchen. Firelight played on Brett’s face, lighting his sharp cheekbones, casting his dark eyes in shadows. His arms were crossed, muscles bulging as he stared at me from across the room.
“I’m not ignoring you,” he said.
I ventured closer to hand him the beer. I took a long swallow of my wine before I said, “Okay.”
“Okay? That’s all. Because you seemed pretty upset about it.”
“I wasn’t upset.” Yes, I was. “I was…”
“What?”
“I was hurt, okay?”
He cursed. He drank half his beer in one gulp and shook his head. “That’s not what I was trying to do. I wasn’t trying to hurt you. I was trying not to hurt you.”
“Then why were you ignoring me? Why—”
“Stop.” He rubbed the back of his neck, releasing a long breath. “Please. I already feel bad enough.”
“I’m not trying to make you feel bad.”
Brett’s eyes locked on mine, making goosebumps race up my arms. “Trust me, I know. That’s the last thing you’d ever do because that’s not the kind of person you are. Which is why it’s so easy for people to take advantage of you.”
“Take advantage? What?”
He grabbed a blanket off the back of the couch and spread it in front of the fire. “Sit and get warm.”
I halfway expected him to sit on the couch, just to keep his distance, but instead he joined me on the floor. I hadn’t eaten anything since lunch and I was feeling a comfortable buzz as my extremities warmed. It got even warmer when Brett sat close enough to reach out and touch. There wasn’t any part of him that didn’t turn me on. His hair, his chiseled features, his muscles, his height.
I downed the rest of my wine, needing something to do with my mouth. Before I could stand to refill it, Brett snatched it from me and walked to the kitchen.
My irritation turned to amusement. It was the wine, I was sure, but it was kind of cute that he seemed shy all the sudden. So I leaned back on the blanket, pillowing my head on my arms, and closed my eyes.
“Maybe you’ll talk to me if I don’t look at you,” I said.
I heard his footsteps, saw the flicker of light through my eyelids, and smiled. Now, this was a vacation. Warm by the fire, filled with wine, and laying on a blanket next to the sexiest man I’d ever known.
“You think that’ll help, huh?” Brett asked.
His voice was fluid and deep, and made a ball of desire form in my stomach. He could probably make me come with his voice alone. And if I could keep him talking, well…maybe tonight would be a little more exciting than I thought.
He walked back to the blanket, but I continued to recline. “I think it’ll help.”
I heard him sit and set my glass nearby. I kept my eyes closed. Maybe it was easier for me, too, to talk with him when I didn’t have to meet his gaze.
“What did you mean?” I asked. “About people taking advantage of me?”
When he spoke again, I was surprised to hear him right next to me. “Guys will take advantage of you. I’ve seen it before. In high school and from then on. And I…” He cleared his throat. “I didn’t want it to look like I was one of those guys. Your brothers would kill me if they thought I was fooling around with you.”
My eyes whipped open. He was staring at the fire. “You didn’t…I mean…you thought about fooling around with me?”
When he finally looked at me, my whole body went hot. “More than fooling around with you. There are times I want you so bad, I can barely stop myself. It’s better to stay away.”
My clit throbbed at the heat in his gaze. I took a chance, a risk I wish I would have taken months ago. No years.
“What if I didn’t want you to stay away?” I whispered.
Brett’s jaw clenched. His chest moved as he exhaled, like it was taking every ounce of his control not to make a move.
So I did. I sat up and reached out, my hand touching his cheek.
He gripped it immediately. I thought for a moment that he’d fling it away, but then he squeezed it. Turned his face to it and breathed in deep. “Evie…”
“Kiss me.”
There was only one split second of hesitation, and then his lips were on mine. His hand tangled in my hair, jerked my head back so my mouth lifted to his. He plunged his tongue inside, hungry, full of need.
“Evie,” he murmured, barely coming up for air.
I shifted and crawled into his lap. He squeezed my hips, and then lowered his forehead to mine. “I shouldn’t…”
“Why?” I asked, heart racing. “We’re adults. I want you. Please don’t tell me you don’t want me.”
“Fuck. Evie. I want you so bad it hurts.”
His cock twitched beneath me and my throat dried. Oh, God, this was finally happening. I couldn’t let him back out now.
“Don’t think, just feel.”
He gave a choked growl. Like he was trying so hard to fight himself, but he just couldn’t stop from wanting me. I’d never been so turned on in my life.
Brett ravaged my mouth again, and I was so lost in sensation I could barely keep up. His tongue massaged mine, drawing out a long moan. At the same time, his hands skimmed down my arms and back up, his thumbs just brushing the sides of my breasts.
That short bit of contact already had my brain exploding. My nerve endings tingling. I wanted him on top of me. In me. Every way I could have him.
Brett. The boy I’d been in love with as a child. The man I still loved, who seemed to care for me, too.
How long had he felt like this?
I let my hands wander, tracing his jaw as he continued to kiss me. Then I touched lower, running my fingers over his hard pecks and reaching for the bottom of his T-shirt. I yanked it up, pulling it over his head.
His eyes glinted in the firelight, boring into mine. Holding me captive.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispered.
My heart ached with the words. Knowing how he really felt about me. Knowing I could be with him now, after all this time.
His thumb brushed my lower lip, then slid inside my mouth to touch my tongue.
“I’ve wanted you for so long. Now I need to take my time.”
I shivered in response, pressing my body closer to his. The hard peaks of my nipples touched his chest through my shirt. He groaned and whipped my shirt off, eyes dropping to my bra. A simple white lace one that I wouldn’t have chosen if I’d known who’d be seeing me in it. But Brett only exhaled and bent his head to trace his tongue over the swell of my tits.
Then a phone rang.
My breath caught, and Brett’s head jerked up.
“It’s probably just Jeff checking to make sure you made it,” I said. “Ignore it.”
His jaw shi
fted, then he gently eased me off his lap and stood. “He’ll worry if he doesn’t hear from us.”
Damn it. Since when had Brett become so responsible? Looking out for me as a kid? Making sure my brother knew we were safe?
Why couldn’t he just let that restraint break and take me already?
Brett’s voice was still deep and husky when he answered the phone. He turned and looked at me from across the room. “Hey, Jeff. Yeah, I made it. Evie’s here.” He gave something like a laugh—one that sounded painful—and lowered his chin. “I’ll make sure she’s okay.”
Of course. No wonder Brett felt like he couldn’t show me his feelings. He was constantly “taking care of me” for my brothers. Trying to do the right thing.
And to him, the right thing probably didn’t feel like fucking me in front of the fireplace at my family’s cabin.
Brett hung up the phone and walked back to the blanket. He plucked his shirt off the floor. I didn’t miss the way his eyes dropped to my breasts, but he looked back up immediately. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have gotten carried away like that.”
“It’s not your fault. And not mine either. We can’t help how we feel.”
He exhaled and grabbed my shirt off the floor to hand it to me.
“Unless…” I held my shirt against my chest, hating that I had to say these words. “Unless this doesn’t really mean anything to you.”
Brett snagged his beer from the coffee table and squeezed it so tight, I thought it might break. “I just want to do the right thing.”
With that, he walked off.
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