“I sorta reckined–” the old man began, the surrendered, and tailed off, “but if’n it’s business–”
“It is not business,” the Boss said. “It is pure pleasure. At least I’m aiming for it to be before I’m through.” Then he laughed and got up from the table, and gave his wife a smack of a kiss on the left cheek, slapped his son on the shoulder in that awkward way fathers have of slapping their sons on the shoulder (there is always a kind of apology in it, and anybody, even the Boss, who slapped Tom Stark on the shoulder had better apologize, for he was an arrogant bastard and when his father that night slapped him on the shoulder he didn’t even bother to look up). Then the Boss said, “Don’t wait up,” and started out the door. Sugar-Boy and I followed. That was the first news I had had that I was going to take the night air. But it was all the warning you usually got from the Boss. I knew enough to know that.
The Boss already sitting up in the front by the driver’s seat when I got to the Cadillac. So I got in the back, and prepared my soul for the experience of being hurled from one side to the other when we hit the curves. Sugar-Boy crawled under the wheel, and touched the starter, and began to make a sound like “Wh-wh-wh-wh–” A sound like an owl tuning up off in the swamp at night. If he had enough time and the spit held out, he would ask, “Where to?” But the Boss didn’t wait. He said, “Burden’s Landing.”
So that was it. Burden’s Landing. Well I ought to have guessed that.
Burden’s Landing is one hundred and thirty miles from Mason City, off to the southeast. If you multiply one hundred and thirty by two it makes two hundred and sixty miles. It was near nine o’clock and the stars were out and the ground mist was beginning to show in low places. God knew what time it would be when we got back to bed, and up the next morning to face a hearty breakfast and the ride back to the capital.
I lay back in the seat and closed my eyes. The gravel sprayed on the undersides of the fenders, and then it stopped spraying and the tail of the car lurched to one side, and me with it, and I knew we were back on the slab and leveling out for the job.
We would go gusting along the slab, which would be pale in the starlight between the patches of woods and the dark fields where the mist was rising. Way off from the road a barn would stick up out of the mist like a house sticking out of the rising water when the river breaks the levee. Close to the road a cow would stand knee-deep in the mist, with horns damp enough to have a pearly shine in the starlight, and it would look at the black blur we were as we went whirling into the blazing corridor of light which we could never quite get into for it would be always splitting the dark just in front of us. The cow would stand there knee-deep in the mist and look at the black blur and the blaze and then, not turning his head, at the place where the black blur and blaze had been, with the remote, massive, unvindictive indifference of God-All-Mighty or Fate or me, if I were standing there knee-deep in the mist, and the blur and the blaze whizzed past and withered on off between the fields and the patches of woods.
But I wasn’t standing there in the field, in the dark, with the mist turning slow around my knees and the ticking no-noise of the night inside my head. I was in a car, headed back to Burden’s Landing, which was named for the people from whom I got my name, and which was the place where I had been born and raised.
We would go on between the fields until we hit a town. The houses would be lined up along the streets, under the trees, with their light going out now, until we hit the main street, where the lights would be bright around the doorway of the movie house and the bugs would be zooming against the bulbs and would ricochet off to hit the concrete pavement and make a dry crunch when somebody stepped on them. The men standing in front of the pool hall would look up and see the big black crate ghost down the street and one of them would spit on the concrete and say, “The bastard, he reckins he’s somebody,” and wish that he was in a big black car, as big as a hearse and the springs soft as mamma’s breast and the engine breathing without a rustle at seventy-five, going off into the dark somewhere. Well, I was going somewhere. I was going back to Burden’s Landing.
We would come into Burden’s Landing by the new boulevard by the bay. The air would smell salty, with maybe a taint of the fishy, sad, sweet smell of the tidelands to it, but fresh nevertheless. I would be nearly midnight then, and the light would be off in the three blocks of down-town the. Beyond the down-town and the little houses, there would be other houses along the bay, set back in the magnolias and oaks, with the white walls showing glimmeringly beyond the darkness of the trees, and the jalousies, which in the daytime would be green, looking dark against the white walls. Folks would be lying back in the rooms behind the jalousies, with nothing but a sheet over them. Well, I’d put in a good many nights behind those jalousies, from the time I was little enough to wet the bed. I’d been born in one of these rooms behind the jalousies. And behind one set of them my mother would be lying up there tonight, with a little fluting of lace on the straps of her nightgown, and her face smooth like a girl’s except for the little lines, which you wouldn’t be able to make out in the shadow anyway, at the corners of her mouth and eyes, and one bare arm laid out on the sheet with the sharp, brittle-looking, age-betraying hand showing the painted nails. Theodore Murrell would be lying there, too, breathing with a slightly adenoidal sibilance under his beautiful blonde mustache. Well, it was all legal, for she was married to Theodore Murrell, who was a lot younger than my mother and who had beautiful yellow hair scrolled on top of his round skull like taffy, and who was my stepfather. Well, he wasn’t the first the first stepfather I had had.
Then, on down the row, behind its own live oaks and magnolias, there would be the Stanton house, locked up and nobody behind the jalousies, for Anne and Adam were in town now, and grown up and never went fishing with me anymore, and the old man was dead. Then on down the row, where the open country began, would be the house of Judge Irwin. We wouldn’t stop before we got there. But we’d make a little call on the Judge.
“Boss,” I said.
The Boss turned around, and saw the chunky black shape of his head against the brightness of our headlights.
“What you gonna say to him? I asked.
“Boy, you never know till the time comes,” he said. “Hell,” he amended, “maybe I won’t say anything to him a-tall. I don’t know as I’ve got anything to say to him. I just want to look at him good.”
“The Judge won’t scare easy,” I said. No, I didn’t reckon the Judge would scare easy, thinking of the straight back of the man who used to swing off the saddle and drop the bridle over a paling on the Stanton fence and walk up the shell walk to the veranda with his Panama in his hand and the coarse dark-red hair bristling off his high skull like a mane and the hooked red nose jutting off his face and the yellow irises of his eyes bright and hard-looking as topaz. That was nearly twenty years before, all right, and maybe the back wasn’t as straight now as it had been then (a thing like that happens so slowly you don’t notice it) and maybe the yellow were a little bleary lately, but I still didn’t reckon the Judge would scare easy. That was one thing on which I figured I could bet: he wouldn’t scare. If he did, it was going to be a disappointment to me.
“No, I don’t count on him scaring easy,” the Boss said. “I just want to look at him.”
“Well, God damn it,” I popped out, and came up off my shoulder blades before I knew it, “you’re crazy to think you can scare him!”
“Take it easy,” the Boss said, and laughed. I couldn’t see his face. It was just a black blob against the glare of the headlights, with the laugh coming out of it.
“I just want to look at him,” the Boss said, “like I told you.”
“Well, you sure picked a hell of a time and a hell of a long way to go look at him,” I said, not feeling anything but peevish now, and falling back on my shoulder blades where I belonged. “Why don’t you get him to see you in town sometime?”
“_Sometime__ ain’t ever now_,” the Boss sai
d.
“It’s a hell of a thing,” I said, “for you to be doing.”
“So you think it’s beneath my dignity, huh?” the Boss asked.
“Well, you’re Governor. They tell me.”
“Yeah, I’m Governor, Jack, and the trouble with Governors is they think they got to keep their dignity. But listen here, there ain’t anything worth doing a man can do and keep his dignity. Can you figure out a single thing you really please-God like to do you can do and keep your dignity? The human frame just ain’t built that way.”
“All right,” I said.
“And when I get to be President, if I want to see somebody I’m gonna right out and see ‘em.”
“Sure,” I said, “in the middle of the night, but when you do I hope you leave me at home to get a night’s sleep maybe.”
“The hell I will,” he said. “When I’m President I’m gonna take you with me. I’m gonna keep you and Sugar-Boy right in the White House so I can have you all handy. Sugar-Boy can have him a pistol range in the back hall and a brace of Republican Congressmen to be caddy for him and set up the tin cans, and you can bring your girls right in the big front door, and there’s gonna be a member of the Cabinet to hold their coats and pick up hair pins after ‘em. There’s gonna be a special member of the Cabinet to do it. He’s gonna be the Secretary of the Bedchamber of Jack Burden, and he will keep the telephone numbers straight and send back any little pink silk articles to the right address when they happen to get left behind. Tint’s got the build, so I’m gonna get him a little operation and put flowing silk pants on him and a turban and give him a tin scimitar like he was a High Grand Shriner or something, and he can sit on a tuffet outside your door and be the Secretary of the Bedchamber. And how you like that, boy, huh?” And he reached back over the back of the front seat and slapped me on the knee. He had to reach a long way back, for it was a long way from the front seat of the Cadillac to my knee even if I was lying on my shoulder blades.
“You will go down in history,” I said.
“Boy, wouldn’t I!” And he started to laugh. He turned round to watch the lit-up road, and kept on laughing.
Then we hit a little town and beyond it a filling station and lunch stand. Sugar-Boy got some gas and brought the Boss and me a couple of cokes. Then we went on.
The Boss didn’t say another word till we hit Burden’s Landing. All he said then was, “Jack, you tell Sugar-Boy how to find the house. It’s your pals live down here.”
Yes, my pals lived down there. Or had lived down there. Adam and Anne Stanton had lived down there, in the white house where their widowed father, the Governor, lived. They had been my friends, Anne and Adam. Adam and I had fished and sailed all over that end of the Gulf of Mexico, and Anne, who was big-eyed and quiet-faced and thin, had been with us, close and never saying a word. And Adam and I had hunted and camped all over the country, and Anne had been there, a thin-legged little girl about four years younger than we were. And we had sat by the fire in the Stanton house–or in my house–and had played with toys or read books while Anne sat there. Then after a long time Anne wasn’t a little girl any more. She was a big girl and I was so much in love with her that I lived in a dream. In that dream my heart seemed to be ready to burst, for it seemed that the whole world was inside it swelling to get out and the world. But that summer came to an end. Time passed and nothing happened that we had felt so certain at one time would happen. So now Anne was an old maid living in the city, and even if she did look pretty good yet and wore clothes that didn’t hurt her any, her laugh was getting brittle and there was a drawn look on her face as though she were trying to remember something. What was Anne trying to remember? Well, I didn’t have to try to remember. I could remember but I didn’t want to remember. If the human race didn’t remember anything it would be perfectly happy. I was student of history once in a university and if I learned anything from studying history that was what I learned. Or to be more exact, that was what I thought I had learned.
We would go down the Row–the line of houses facing the bay–and that was the place where all my pals had been. Anne, who was an old maid, or damned near it. Adam, who was a famous surgeon and who was nice to me but didn’t go fishing with me any more. And Judge Irwin, who lived in the last house, and who had been a friend of my family and who used to take me hunting with him and taught me to shoot and taught me to ride and read history to me from leather-bound books in the big study in his house. After Ellis Burden went away he was more of a father to me than those men who had married my mother and come to live in Ellis Burden’s house. And the Judge was a man.
So I told Sugar-Boy how to get through town and to the Row where all my pals lived or had lived. We pulled through the town, where the lights were out except for the bulbs hanging from the telephone poles, and on out the Bay Road where the houses were bone-white back among the magnolias and live oaks.
At night you pass through a little town where you once lived, and you expect to see yourself wearing knee pants, standing all alone on the street corner under the hanging bulbs, where the bugs bang on the tin reflectors and splatter to the pavement to lie stunned. You expect to see that boy standing there under the street lamp, out too late, and you feel like telling he ought to go on home to bed or there will be hell to pay. But maybe you are home in bed and sound asleep and not dreaming and nothing has ever happened that seem to have happened. But, then, who the hell is this in the back seat of the big black Cadillac that comes ghosting through the town? Why, this is Jack Burden. Don’t you remember little Jack Burden? He used to go out in his boat in the afternoon on the bay to fish, and come home and eat his supper and kiss his beautiful mother good night and say his prayers and go to bed at nine-thirty. Oh, you mean old Ellis Burden’s boy? Yeah, and that woman he married out of Texas–or was it Arkansas?–that big-eyed thin-faced woman who lives up there in that old Burden place now with that man she got herself. What ever happened to Ellis Burden? Hell, I don’t know, nobody around here had any word going on years. He was a queer ‘un. Damn if he wasn’t queer, going off and leaving a real looker like that woman out of Arkansas. Maybe he couldn’t give her what she craved. Well, he give her that boy, that Jack Burden. Yeah.
You come into the town at night and there are the voices.
We had got to the end of the Row, and I saw the house bone-white back among the dark oak boughs.
“Here it is,” I said.
“Park out here,” the Boss said. And then to me, “There’s a light. The bugger ain’t in bed. You go on and knock on the door and tell him I want to see him.”
“Suppose he won’t open up?”
“He will,” the Boss said. “But if he won’t you make him. What the hell do I pay you for?”
I got out of the car and went in the gate and started up the shell walk under the black trees. Then I heard the Boss coming after me. We went up the walk, with him just behind me, and up the gallery steps.
The Boss stood to one side, and I pulled open the screen and knocked on the door. I knocked again; then looking in through the glass by the door I saw a door open off the hall–where the library was, I remembered–then a side light come on in the hall. He was coming to the door. I could see him through the glass while he fumbled with the lock.
“Yes?” he asked.
“Good evening, Judge,” I said.
He stood there blinking into the dark outside, trying to make out my face.
“It’s Jack Burden,” I said.
“Well, well, Jack–well I’ll be jiggered!” And he put out his hand. “Come in.” He even looked glad to see me.
I shook hands and stepped inside, where the mirrors in the peeling gold frames glimmered on the walls in the rays of the not bright side light, and the glass of the big hurricane lamps glimmered on the marble-top stands.
“What can I do for you, Jack?” he asked me, and gave me a look out of his yellow eyes. They hadn’t changed much, even if the rest of him had.
“Well,”
I began, and didn’t know how I was going to end, “I just wanted to see if you were up and could talk to–”
“Sure, Jack, come on in. You aren’t in any trouble, son? Let me shut the door first, and–”
He turned to shut the door, and if his ticker hadn’t been in good shape for all his near three scores and ten he’d have dropped dead. For the Boss was standing there in the door. He hadn’t made a sound.
As it was, the Judge didn’t drop dead. And his face didn’t show a thing. But I felt him stiffen. You turn to shut a door some night and find somebody standing there out of the dark, and you’ll take a jump, too.
“No,” the Boss said, easy and grinning, taking his hat off his head and stepping inside just as though he’d been invited, which he hadn’t been, “no, Jack isn’t in any trouble. Not that I know of. Nor me either.”
The Judge was looking at me now. “I beg your pardon,” he said to me, in a voice he knew how to make cold and rasping like an old phonograph needle scraping on an old record, “I had forgotten for the moment how well your needs are provided for.”
“Oh, Jack’s making out,” the Boss said.
“And you, sir–” the Judge turned on the Boss, and slanted his yellow eyes down on him–for he was a half a head taller–and I could see the jaw muscles twitch and knot under the folds of red-rusty and seamed skin on his long jaw, “do you wish to say something to me?”
“Well, I don’t know as I do,” the Boss remarked offhand. “Not at the moment.”
“Well,” the Judge said, “in that case–”
“Oh, something might develop,” the Boss broke in. “You never can tell. If we get the weight off our arches.”
“In that case,” the Judge resumed, and it was an old needle and an old record and it was scraping like a file on cold tin and nothing human, “I may say that I was about to retire.”
“Oh, it’s early yet,” the Boss said, and took his time giving Judge Irwin the once-over from head to toe. The Judge was wearing an old-fashioned velvet smoking jacket and tuxedo pants and a boiled shirt, but he had taken off his collar and tie and the collar button was shining just under the big old red Adam’s apple. “Yeah,” the Boss went on, after he’d finished the once-over, “and you’ll sleep better if you wait before going to bed and give that fine dinner you had a chance to digest.”
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