Jonah had a pretty good idea to whom the black car belonged. Lainey had told him about her two English friends she used to live with, that they were good-hearted but ran a little wild. He saw the two of them watching him from the window. He took his time getting the horse some water, stalling, trying to settle his unease. Would Lainey be tempted by her friends to return to the world?
Maybe this was good, he tried telling himself as he emptied the water bucket. Now was the time for Lainey to find out if an Amish life was what she truly wanted. To be sure she was hearing God’s guidance correctly. And before his feelings for her were at the point of no return, he had to admit, hoping he hadn’t already passed it. Cautiously, he approached the cottage porch.
Lainey met him outside. “My friends are here.” She had an uncomfortable look on her face. “They think I’ve gone crazy.”
Jonah looked down at her earnest face and tried to hold back a grin. “Have you?”
Her face relaxed into a smile. “No more than usual.”
When she smiled like that, with her full-lipped mouth, it always made Jonah think of kissing her. He was seized by an urge to take her in his arms, but instead he reined in those stray thoughts and said, “Then let them see that. They’re here because they care about you. Let them see you’re still you.”
Lainey nodded and turned to go into the house. She stopped and whirled back around. “I just . . . apologize in advance for anything they say that might be considered . . . offensive.”
Jonah gave her a reassuring smile and followed behind her into the house.
Lainey gestured toward Jonah. “Robin, Ally, this is my friend Jonah Riehl.”
There was an awkward silence as the two women looked him up and down. Then the taller of the two, the woman whose mouth was pursed tightly—Robin—took a few strides forward to shake his hand. The gesture struck him as insincere; he could see a mocking intelligence in her eyes. He turned to the other woman to shake her hand. Ally had a small, round face on top of a small, round body. The image of a sparrow following behind a raptor flickered through his mind.
“I noticed one of your car tires is nearly flat,” Jonah said.
“We’ve been running on three tires since we hit Lancaster,” Robin said, as if it didn’t seem to matter.
“If you have a spare, I could change it out for you,” he offered.
Robin exchanged a curious glance with Ally. “I thought you Amish folks didn’t want anything to do with cars.”
Now it was Jonah’s turn to exchange a glance with Lainey. “Knowing about something and using it are two different matters.” He took off his coat and tossed it on a chair, then rolled up his sleeves and went out to the car.
After Jonah went outside, Ally turned to Lainey. “That sweet old man was just about to rustle something up for us in the kitchen. We’re starving!”
Sweet old man? Simon? Lainey heard a curse fly out of the kitchen and hurried in to find Simon in the middle of frying up a loaf of scrapple. He was rubbing butter on his hand. A curl of black smoke was rising up from the frying pan. Lainey grabbed a dishcloth and pulled the heavy cast iron pan off of the burner.
“Scrapple?” she asked Simon as she put his hand under cool water. “Why would you offer scrapple to my friends at this time of day?” She cracked the window open to fan out the smoke.
“They wanted something Penn Dutch,” he said, carefully examining his hand.
“Fine,” Lainey said, pulling forks out of a drawer. “If that’s what they wanted, then that’s what they’ll get.” She had just bought a loaf of scrapple in town because Simon had pestered her to get some for breakfast.
It irked her to see Simon bend over backward, acting as charming as could be toward her two friends. To her, he always sounded quarrelsome, even if he wasn’t. Why, he had never even cooked before! She pulled plates from the cupboard and napkins and took them to the table. By the time she got everyone something to drink, Jonah had returned from changing the tire. He took one look at the burnt scrapple and said he should be leaving.
“Please, Jonah. Don’t go. Sit down and visit.” She wanted him to get to know her friends and for them to get to know him. Plus, Simon was on better behavior when Jonah was around. She pointed to the place she had set for him at the table.
Too late, Lainey remembered that Jonah couldn’t sit at the same table with Simon. He hesitated, an uncomfortable look passed over his face, until she jumped up and offered him a glass of iced tea. Then, instead of sitting down, she nonchalantly leaned against the kitchen counter and he followed her lead. She had seen Caleb do the same thing once. Still respecting the rules of the church, but without making a scene or being rude to others.
Jonah took a sip of iced tea. “So, what is it you two do in Harrisburg?”
“We’re cosmetologists,” Ally said.
“They study the stars,” Simon said to Jonah, thumping the bottom of the ketchup bottle over his plate.
Robin snorted and Lainey exchanged an amused glance with Jonah. “That would be cosmology,” Lainey whispered to Simon.
“Same thing,” Simon said.
“Not hardly,” Robin said. “We work at a beauty salon.”
“Ha!” Simon said. “It is the same thing. You’re turning coal into diamonds!” He grinned at his own joke.
For some reason, it irritated Lainey even more that Simon could laugh off Robin’s correction. If she had corrected him, he would have barked at her.
Ally poked carefully at the scrapple with her fork. “What’s in this?”
“Offal,” Simon said, sawing a piece of scrapple with his fork.
Ally looked up. “Awful?”
“Yup,” Simon said. “Hog offal. Heads, heart, liver, and other scraps. All mixed together with cornmeal and flour.” He took a bite and chewed it. “Guess that’s why they call it scrapple.”
Robin made a face. “It sounds awful!”
“Yup,” Simon said. “That’s what I’ve been telling you. Offal.”
Lainey gave a sideways glance with a smile to Jonah, and Jonah smiled back at her. An intimacy passed between them that shut everybody else out. It only lasted a moment, but no one at the table missed it.
After Jonah left, Lainey showed Robin and Ally upstairs to the spare bedroom. She felt as if she should brace herself, now that they were alone.
“Why, this room is as bare looking as the downstairs!” Robin said, walking into it. There were two twin beds covered with handmade quilts, and a simple nightstand between them. No curtains on the windows, no rugs on the floor, no pictures or posters on the wall. It was a Plain room.
Lainey looked around the room as Robin and Ally did, then her gaze came back to her friends. As they stared at each other, the air seemed to acquire a prickly tension but the silence dragged out.
Finally Robin let out an exaggerated sigh. “You can’t actually be thinking of wanting to marry that simple farmer, can you?” she asked, flopping on the twin bed. “Why, he even smells like a farm!”
Lainey liked the way Jonah smelled—of hard-work sweat. It blended with the other scents of summer, of sweet clover and mown hay. He had spent the morning helping a neighbor thresh in his fields.
“Simon told us that Jonah’s house doesn’t have toilets,” Ally said, eyes as big as saucers. “Or running water.”
Lainey winced. “Rose Hill Farm belonged to his mother and she died recently. He’s installing indoor plumbing right now.” It was the very first project Jonah started work on after his mother had passed, and Bess couldn’t have been happier.
Ally sat down on the other bed. “Has he told you he loves you?”
“Not in so many words,” Lainey said, handing them towels. “The Amish don’t use terms of endearment the way we—you—do. They show how they feel about someone by example.” Like the time Jonah cut a cord of wood for her and stacked it neatly into a pile by her front door. She thought of him preparing the vegetable garden for her, then helping her to plant. Or accompanying her on medical appoin
tments for Simon. Even changing her friends’ tire today, without being given a word of thanks. Were those things not evidence of love? She knew her thoughts showed on her face, and her cheeks grew warm. “Jonah Riehl will make someone a fine husband,” she added. She wasn’t sure why she felt as if she needed to defend him.
“Oh, will he really?” Robin asked in mock amazement. “I’ll grant you this . . . if he shaved off that beard and took a shower and got a haircut and wore a T-shirt and blue jeans, he could be a looker. But what about that cane? And his limp? How old is this guy, anyway?”
“Not old at all,” Lainey said in a crisp tone. She thought Jonah was quite marvelous just the way he was: wise and kind and wonderful.
Robin stood and pointed a finger at Lainey. “And you? You always told us you weren’t the marrying kind. Not Lainey O’Toole!”
Robin’s words rankled Lainey. It was true, she had said many times marriage wasn’t for her. Hadn’t she thought this whole thing through a hundred thousand times before? But that was before she met Jonah and grew to care for him. It was a frightening thing—to realize that you wanted to love and be loved more than you could have ever imagined.
“Do you actually think he’s going to marry you?” Ally asked. “Wouldn’t he be driven off for marrying someone out of his commune?”
Lainey stiffened. “No one ever said anything about getting married.” That was the truth. Jonah had never hinted at marriage in any way, shape, or form. He seemed to carefully avoid any discussion of their future. She didn’t know if he was planning to return to Ohio or stay here in Stoney Ridge. All she knew for sure was that Sallie Stutzman had married his business partner, Mose, and he didn’t seem bothered by the news. Lainey often wondered if Jonah even thought about marrying her at all; she thought about it all the time. “And the Amish do not live in communes. Nor is it a cult.”
“But what about culinary school?” Ally asked. “You scrimped and saved for years! It was your dream!”
Lainey shrugged. “I’ve learned more about cooking in the last few months here than I ever could in a formal school. Here, food means more than nourishing a body. Sharing a meal nourishes a community. It’s like women are feeding a big family.”
“That’s another thing Simon told us about,” Ally said. “Amish women are oppressed. They’re always serving the men and the men are controlling and mean-spirited. The women can’t speak their mind and they have to do whatever their husband tells them to and they have no self-esteem and they have at least a dozen babies—”
“And you . . . Miss Independent!” Robin interrupted. “How many times have you given us a lecture about respecting ourselves and not falling in love with every guy that looks our way? About how we should have goals and plans? And how a man would only derail our dreams?”
Ally nodded in silent agreement.
Robin lifted her hands in the air. “But along comes a guy in a beard and a buggy—who walks with a cane and has a teenaged daughter, no less—and Lainey falls for him, hook, line, and sinker.” She looked back at Ally as if to say “what is the world coming to?” then turned to face Lainey. “Well, honey, if you’re not derailed, I don’t know what is.”
Lainey sat down on the bed. “Listen, you two. I’m going to become Amish. Not because of Jonah. This has nothing to do with Jonah.”
Robin and Ally exchanged a doubtful glance.
“I’m becoming Amish because that’s what I think God wants me to do.” Once she said it aloud, she realized that was exactly what it was. She truly believed God was leading her in this direction.
Robin put her hands on her temples, as if she had a headache. “I’d like to think your bonnet is on too tight, but you always did go a little overboard with the God stuff. I never imagined you’d go this far.”
Stung, Lainey felt no need to reply. Without a word, she rose to leave and went downstairs to start dinner. Still upset, she decided to go sit on the porch steps for a few minutes of solitude and watch the sunset. Why did it seem that when a person really started listening to God, others assumed that person had gone off the deep end? Maybe because God does lead us into unusual places. She looked up at the streaks of red that blazed out from the dying sun. What was it Jonah said? Red sky at night is a farmer’s delight. Red sky at morning, a farmer takes warning.
The wind unfurled strands of her loosely pinned hair and pressed her dress to her legs. She smoothed out the apron over the blue dress Bess had made for her. Maybe she shouldn’t be so hard on Robin and Ally for their concern. If someone had told her six months ago that she’d be dressing in simple garb and living a Plain life, falling in love with a Plain man, making a life in Stoney Ridge, she would have laughed out loud.
But she was here and so very glad to be . . . where life was simple, where people cared for each others’ needs, where faith in God and life blended together as one. This was where she belonged.
She noticed the first star appear on the horizon. Looking up at the bruised blue of the evening sky for a few minutes—at the vast and empty sky—always cut human problems down to size. A short laugh burst out of her as she rose to her feet. Maybe it is a little crazy. But it was a crazy that suited her.
All through dinner and into the evening, Robin and Ally tried to convince Lainey to return to Harrisburg with them, but she wouldn’t budge. She tried to explain her feelings, but they couldn’t see her point of view.
“Can’t you just be happy for me?” Lainey asked them at last. “I’m still me. I might be wearing a Plain dress and living without modern conveniences—”
“I’ll say,” Robin interrupted with a sneer.
“—but I’m really, truly happy.” Lainey could tell that they still didn’t believe her, and it hurt her. The three of them had been friends since high school; Robin and Ally were the closest thing to a family that she’d ever had. The way they looked at her—especially Robin, but Ally always followed Robin’s lead—was almost as if she had to choose one or the other, the Amish life or her old friends. Why did it have to be that way?
She would have thought it to be the other way around, that Jonah might frown on her English friends. She knew there were some Amish who avoided the English as much as possible, as if they might be corroded by worldly rust. Jonah didn’t seem to share that belief. As he left her cottage yesterday afternoon, he had quietly suggested to her that she might bring them to Rose Hill Farm tomorrow afternoon. He said he wanted them to meet Bess.
On Sunday morning, Lainey tiptoed into their room at seven to ask if they would join her for church. She thought that maybe, if they could see the gathering for themselves, if they could see the kindness and the sincerity of the people, then they would understand why she felt so drawn to this community. If they could only see what a wonderful father Jonah was to Bess, then maybe they could see why she cared for him. And if they could meet Bess, they would understand why Lainey wanted to be close to her. She wanted Robin and Ally to come to her church because it was becoming so much a part of her, the backbone of her life.
Robin opened one eye and said emphatically, “No. Way.”
Bess couldn’t wait to meet Lainey’s English friends. Her father had told her what he knew about them, but it wasn’t much. Lainey had mentioned their names to Bess once or twice, but then she would change the subject, as if she just wasn’t sure how to combine her past with her present. Bess was curious about them. She knew they were important to Lainey, and she was eager to know everything she could about her. Lainey fascinated Bess.
After a light lunch that followed church, Bess, Jonah, and Lainey returned to the cottage. As Jonah hitched the horse’s reins to the fence post, they heard Simon singing. It sounded slurry and strange and off-key. And loud. Very, very loud. Jonah motioned for the two to stay put while he went inside. He opened the door carefully, then pushed it wide.
He looked back at Lainey with a look of sheer disgust. “Er is gsoffe.” He is drunk. Jonah’s patience for Simon hung by a thread.
Laine
y and Bess went to the door. A near empty bottle of an amber-colored liquid was on the floor and Simon was sprawled on the couch, singing at the top of his lungs. The smell of alcohol oozed from him, sour as old sweat. His eyes shone too brightly.
Lainey stomped over to him and picked up the bottle. “Where did you get this?”
Simon’s chest heaved as he drew in a ragged breath. “Don’t even think about sharing,” he said, slurring his sibilants.
“Your English friends is my guess,” Jonah said. He took the bottle from Lainey and poured it out on the grass.
“Did Robin and Ally give that to you?” Lainey asked.
“They . . . might have . . . left it behind,” Simon said. “They went into town to get a new tire, then came back and waited for you, but you took too long. They had to get to Philly by nightfall for a rock concert. Said to say goodbye.” He waved his hand carelessly in the air.
Silence covered the room. Bess saw the disappointed look on Lainey’s face. Jonah saw it too. How could her friends leave like that?
But then Lainey stiffened her spine. “Did you ask them to buy you that booze?” she asked.
“All of you, quit looking down your noses at me!” Simon snapped. “People been looking down their pointy little judgmental noses at me for as long as I can remember. Nobody believes in me! Nobody has ever been in my corner!”
Eventually his voice grew slower, his hand movements less exaggerated. His arms fell to his sides, and soon his head began to hang as if it were a great weight. Then he stopped altogether. His face was white, but he was not going to ask for mercy, or understanding, or a second chance.
Bess felt a surge of pity for him. She took in his thin, greasy hair and his long, white narrow face. There was some sincerity in the way he spoke. If this was his version of his life, then this was his life.
“Very well, then,” Lainey said. Something in her tone made them all look at her. “You should leave now, Simon. If that’s how you feel, if that’s what you think—after all Bertha went through to bring Jonah and Bess here, and after all Bess went through to donate her bone marrow, and after all I’ve been doing just to get your sorry hide healthy—if that’s how you feel, you should leave this afternoon.”
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