Holding on to Zee’s promise, I said, “If I’m being completely honest, I don’t know why I’m doing it, other than it’s what’s supposed to be done. Does that make sense?”
“Zee would be happy to know they’re being taken care of. She loved those trees and these berries.”
With a sad smile, I said, “I know.”
I went to get my wallet. “Let me pay you now for your help before I forget. What’s your going rate for mulberry harvesting? Whatever it is, I’m sure it’s not high enough, so don’t lowball.” I planned to double the number, no matter what she said. I didn’t know what I’d have done without her help. “I know you’ll put the money to good use at college.”
When she didn’t answer right away, I faced her. “Summer?” There were tears in her eyes. I rushed over. “What’s wrong?”
She threw herself into my arms, and after a stunned moment, I held on to her, and the sweet scent of honeysuckle filled my nose.
“I don’t know what to do, Anna Kate.”
“About what, sweetie?” Sweetie? Good God, this town was taking hold, but right now, as Summer sought comfort from me, I didn’t find that such a terrible thing.
“College.” She sniffled and pulled back. Swiping her eyes, she said, “I don’t know if I can go after all.”
“What? Why? Of course you can go. Is this about your father?” As strong as her desire was to go to college and further her education, she talked a lot about not wanting Aubin to feel alone when she was gone, despite his insistence that he’d be fine.
“No, it’s about money.” A tear leaked down her cheek. “I filed my FAFSA late and didn’t get near enough in loans to cover what I need.”
I knew from experience that the time to file for financial aid packages and scholarships was long past. By at least six or seven months. With a lot of the aid, it was first come, first served.
“I’m short eight thousand dollars.” Her chin trembled, and she took a deep breath. “Which is mostly room-and-board fees.”
I leaned against the sink, quickly trying to come up with a way to fix this. “Maybe you can find a cheaper place off campus, cook your own meals…”
“Not possible. It’s a requirement for freshmen to live on campus. I’ve been saving up as much as I can, but it’s not going to be enough, even with the school’s payment plan. I’m starting to panic. I’ve waited so long to go to college, and now this…”
“What’s your father say?”
A guilty flush made her cheeks turn red. “I haven’t told him.”
“Summer…”
“I don’t want to worry him. He’ll do something crazy like sell the house to come up with the money, and I can’t let him do that. I’d rather never go to school than let him sell the house he and my mama built together. Maybe I should just defer this year…”
I sighed, trying to think of a solution. What would Zee do? She’d take over, that’s what, and fix the problem. “Don’t panic yet. How long do you have?”
“About a month. That’s when I need to pay the first installment, which is a few thousand.”
“Totally doable,” I said, hoping I sounded more confident than I felt. “We’ll figure something out.”
“We will?” Her big blue eyes filled with hope.
“I’m no stranger to financial aid woes. I’ve been down this road before. It’ll all work out. Have you applied for any on-campus jobs?”
A burst of honeysuckle scented the air as she shook her head. “Not yet.”
“Then that’s your homework. Get online and see what you can find. Let me worry about the rest for now.”
She threw her arms around my neck again. “Thank you, Anna Kate.”
I patted her back. “I haven’t done anything yet.”
“That’s just not true.” She gathered up her belongings. “I need to get home to tend to my nighttime chores. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
I watched her hurry off, wondering if she moved at any speed other than fast-forward. I already had two ideas on how to raise money, one that I’d put into action first thing tomorrow morning. The other, I needed to think about some more. Because for that plan to work, I needed to tell Aubin what was going on.
As I headed upstairs to take a shower, I could only shake my head at my strategy to keep people at arm’s length.
It had proven impossible.
I’d done the complete opposite.
I’d become a hugger.
18
Anna Kate
By Thursday night, I was exhausted from the busy week. As I tended the gardens, I tried to think of ways to change the café’s schedule around to include a day off once in a while.
Contemplating schedule changes was easier than thinking of Doc, and how I’d told him when he stopped in for coffee this morning that I wouldn’t be at Sunday supper this weekend.
I wasn’t ready to go back quite yet.
Much to my surprise, Seelie had come into the café a few times this week. She never stayed very long, but went out of her way to make small talk with me. It was awkward, but not completely terrible. Natalie had informed me that Seelie was on a mission to find out as much about my mother as she could.
It was a sweet gesture. One twenty-some years too late, but I couldn’t find it within myself to hold that against her anymore.
Not wanting to dwell on the Lindens, I went back to thinking of days off. Not just for me, but for Bow and Jena as well. I never knew anyone who worked so hard. I wanted to lighten their load.
Then it hit me that we only needed to tough it out for another month, when the café would be closing. I’d set the date at July twenty-fifth. That would give me enough time to clean it up and get it ready for the real estate agents to come through before I left town. Which reminded me that I needed to check in with Gideon to find out how long he thought the whole real estate and probate process would take.
The humidity suddenly felt more oppressive than ever as I knelt down in front of the zucchini plants and pulled my weeding bucket closer. My lungs ached as I took a deep breath, and I wasn’t sure if the thick air or the thought of leaving this place behind was to blame.
Because I suspected it was the latter, I shoved the thoughts out of my head and tried to focus on pulling weeds. But as I worked, I couldn’t help wondering what was going to happen to Jena and Bow. And Mr. Lazenby and Pebbles. And Summer and her beautiful brown eggs. What was going to happen to the zucchini plants? Would anyone water them?
And what was going to happen to the blackbirds?
I turned to look at the mulberry trees. Summer and I had been harvesting like crazy, and she would be here in a couple of hours to collect more berries and can them well into the night.
Without the love, the trees will wither and die.
My breath caught in my throat, and I choked back raw emotion. If there weren’t pies, the trees were going to die.
I couldn’t let the trees die. I couldn’t.
But I needed to go to medical school. I’d made a promise.
What I really needed was to find a solution that would include both. I turned toward the trees again. “I could use a little guidance,” I said, hearing the naked plea in my voice.
The trees rustled in the breeze.
I pulled in another breath, ignored the squeezing in my chest, and knee-walked along the grass, counting the weeds I pulled to keep my brain occupied with numbers instead of things I couldn’t change.
I was at forty-three when a pair of gray-blue eyes peered out at me from the patch of lemon balm.
I leaned back. “Hi, Mr. Cat.”
He stepped out from his hidey-hole, stretching one leg at a time, and I reached out to rub his ears. He quickly put a good bit of distance between us.
“All right. Obviously, you like your personal space. I can respect that. Did you see I put out some water and food for you? It’s on the deck.” I pointed at the bowls. Bow had warned me that I was practically inviting every raccoon and possum within a mil
e’s radius to stop by, but I hated thinking that this cat hadn’t enough to eat or drink. Especially in this weather.
He flicked an ear, then took two steps in the direction of the gate and looked back at me.
“What now?” I asked. “Is Gideon stuck on the roof again?”
Mr. Cat took two more steps, looked back.
“I really need to get this weeding done.”
He yowled, reminding me suddenly of Ollie when I made the mistake of not doing what she wanted immediately.
“Fine.” I pulled off my gloves and stood up, thinking to myself that I shouldn’t give in to his dictator-like behavior. I held open the side gate for the cat and let out a harsh laugh when I realized what I was doing. “Come along. I need to get back soon.”
“Miss Anna Kate? You all right?”
“Hi, Mr. Boyd. I’m fine. How’re you doing?”
Mr. Boyd was a constant presence in the side yard, while the other birding visitors tended to come and go.
“Good, good. How about that birding magazine wanting to do an article on the blackbirds?”
The freelance writer had called earlier, asking to observe the blackbirds and conduct interviews. He’d be arriving soon. “I’m not sure the blackbirds need any more attention.”
I could’ve sworn the cat sighed as he sat behind Mr. Boyd’s chair, waiting for me.
Mr. Boyd said, “I don’t think you understand what a big deal these birds are. I’ve been studying birds for more than half my life, and I’ve never seen birds behave the way they do. They’re special.”
He didn’t understand quite how special, but his enthusiasm made me smile.
He gestured toward the mulberry trees. “And the midnight singing? How’d you train them to do that?”
“I’ve been in town less than a month. No time to train anything.”
“And the pies…” He trailed off as if debating whether to bring up the subject at all.
He’d scoffed when he first heard the legend of the pies and how extraordinary they were. Yet he kept coming back every day for another piece. “Have you been having unusual dreams?” I asked.
Frowning, he scratched his beard. “Funny you should say so. I’ve been hearing my mother’s voice in my sleep. She’s been lecturing me to find someone to settle down with and to write that book I’ve always been meaning to write. She always was one to nag. She thinks I’m lonely.”
I wanted to laugh at his discomfited tone, but there was a tenderness to his voice that stopped me. “Are you?”
He shrugged. “I’m content enough. I have hobbies.”
“Clearly,” I said, gesturing wide.
“It’s the strangest thing, those dreams. I’ve never had any like ’em. It’s as though her voice is right there in my ear, talking to me.” He pressed his lips together, then pushed them out in a sour pucker. “There’s something else she said…”
Waving a fly away from my face, I waited, feeling like Mr. Boyd needed to get out whatever was on his mind.
“It’s been a good twenty years since she’s been gone. She’d fallen on a patch of ice and hit her head. I raced to the hospital, but she’d died by the time I got there.”
“I’m so sorry.”
He gave me a wan smile. “Since then I’ve carried a good bit of guilt for not being there, but in one of the dreams I’ve had this past week, she told me not to feel badly for not saying goodbye. That it had been her choice to go before I got there—because she didn’t want me to see her suffering. She asked me to remember her the last time I saw her.” The corners of his eyes wrinkled as he grinned. “It had been Christmas, which was her favorite holiday. She’d smiled and laughed the whole day long, singing carols and dancing around while wearing a Santa hat.” Slumping, his chest puffed out as he exhaled deeply, lost in the memory. Then he blinked and straightened, standing tall. “Sorry, Miss Anna Kate. Didn’t mean to tell you my life story. I must sound like a crazy man.”
“Not at all. You sound like a man who loves his mother.”
With a nod, he said, “I want to believe those dreams are messages, like the legend says. I truly do, but it’s just so unfathomable.”
“Reow!”
“Hold on,” I said to the furry dictator.
Mr. Boyd looked around. “Hold on?”
“The cat is growing impatient.”
“Cat?”
“He’s right over—” But the cat was gone. I sighed. “I should get going. My advice to you about those dreams is to listen to your heart. It’s as simple as that, Mr. Boyd.”
“You and I must have differing opinions on the word ‘simple.’”
“I bet you we don’t.”
With that, I left him standing by his chair. I walked among the tents, saying, “Here, kitty, kitty,” but there was no sign of the gray cat. When I reached the sidewalk in front of the café, I looked both ways. Mr. Cat was sitting near the walkway leading up to Hill House’s front door.
“You didn’t have to run off like that,” I said as I approached him.
I started up Hill House’s walkway, thinking that Gideon was once again in need of some sort of rescue, but to my surprise, the cat kept going straight. I had to backtrack and jog to catch up to him. People on the sidewalk didn’t seem to pay the cat any mind as he led me along. A few called out hellos to me, but didn’t stop to chat.
As I walked along, I couldn’t help but notice the NOW HIRING signs set prominently in many storefront windows, along with an abundance of blackbird merchandise. Hodgepodge had found blackbird plushies, and the next storefront down—a pottery gallery—was selling blackbird bowls and mugs. Another shop had blackbird artwork. Adaline’s, an ice cream shop, had recently reopened and had added a blackbird flavor to the menu—blackberry with chocolate chips.
It warmed my heart to see that the town had embraced—and was capitalizing on—the blackbird brand, but it also caused me to worry. Right now the town was flourishing. There was an energy in the air, happiness. I didn’t want that to end. What would happen if the mulberry trees died? Where would the blackbirds go?
Would they find another passageway?
Or would they stay in the Land of the Dead—for good?
I didn’t have an answer to that—it hadn’t been included in Zee’s blackbird story. Not knowing bothered me. A lot.
It wasn’t until the cat and I were almost upon the cemetery that I realized it was where he was leading me. The entrance was marked by a pair of stacked stone columns that supported a rusty metal archway. The cat went ahead, walking along a narrow paved road flanked by rows of tulip trees and a freshly mown lawn. He didn’t look back, and eventually he disappeared around the bend that led to the graveyard.
I’d stopped at the columns—I didn’t particularly want to go in. My grief was already too close to the surface today, bubbling up with thoughts of leaving the café and Zee’s gardens soon. Seeing her burial plot might push me over the edge of despair.
Hot winds blew through the valley, and I picked up the scent of impending rain mixed in with the sweetness of cut grass. I leaned against a column, and heat from the stacked stones filtered through my shirt and shorts.
Tall ornamental grasses planted at the bases of the columns swayed. Robins hopped around, their heads tilted to the ground listening for worms. Cars with license plates from Indiana and Missouri drove past on their way into town. A truck from Florida went by, towing a camper. Birders, I assumed, arriving for the weekend.
The cat didn’t come back.
I decided to wait five more minutes for him to return before going back to the café. Time was almost up when a flash of movement in the sky caught my eye. I squinted, wondering if I was seeing things. Because if my eyes weren’t playing tricks, a blackbird had landed on a low branch of the nearest tulip tree inside the cemetery.
I didn’t think twice. I went in.
Light bounced off the fluttering, glossy green leaves of the tree and the eyes of the blackbird. In the daylight it was e
asy to see the blackbird’s light, mottled chest, her orange beak, and the thin pale green rings around her dark pupils—green being the original color of her eyes. It was a trait that hadn’t been noticed by the birders, but if they ever did spot the color, it was just one more oddity for Mr. Boyd to question.
“What are you doing here?”
She took wing, skimming low to the ground as she followed the curve of the lane leading toward the graveyard.
I hesitated only a second before following and kept my gaze averted from the freshly turned earth where Zee had been laid to rest. It didn’t matter that I knew her spirit lived on as a blackbird—the visceral reaction to seeing that hole in the ground during her funeral services had nearly ripped me apart from the inside out.
My mother soared high, then swooped low behind the Linden family monument. I paused only a moment at my father’s grave marker. It was also the place where my mother’s ashes had been secretly scattered by Zee four years ago. It had always been my mother’s desire to be laid to rest with him.
I glanced away from the granite stone and caught sight of the blackbird on the far side of the cemetery. She coasted, dipping out of sight as she landed in a maple tree. When she didn’t reappear, I broke into a sprint. Between the humidity and the exertion, I was out of breath by the time I reached the tree and stumbled to a full stop when I came upon Aubin Pavegeau. He was sitting in front of a headstone next to the tree.
Aubin looked up at me and said, “You best sit yourself down and catch your breath. Though I suppose if you’re aiming to die, you picked a good place to do it. Take out the middleman of it all.” He smirked.
I wasn’t as amused, considering my lungs were on fire. Gulping air, I looked for the blackbird in the dense foliage above my head, but she had vanished. Instead, I saw the gray cat watching me from next to the tree trunk. His tail swished rhythmically in short bursts, as though he’d been impatiently waiting for me to arrive.
Honestly, I was surprised he wasn’t out and out tapping his foot.
Between the cat and the bird I had no doubt I’d been brought here for a reason—a reason I hoped would reveal itself soon, because I had no idea what was being asked of me.
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