by Willow Rose
You have no idea how much they love you, do you? Don’t you even remember their love for you? Don’t you remember how much you love us?
I grabbed her hand in mine. I could tell she was a little anxious. It was hard on her every time. But it had to be done. I opened the book and let her look at pictures of herself, then with me, then with her father and Victor. She forced a smile and went through them, nodding.
“I know these people. Dad has even been here to visit me, remember? I know all I need to know about them.”
The bread popped up in the toaster and I went to get it. I put a piece of cheese on top of it and put it on the table in front of Maya. She grabbed it and ate.
Without even a wrinkle of the nose. You hate that kind of cheese, Maya. You don’t like it, and now you’re eating it like you’ve been eating it all of your life. How, Maya? How am I going to make you remember who you are?
I stood by the sink and looked out the window while Maya ate and drank. I pressed back my tears, as I had done so many mornings before this. I wanted to cry, I wanted to yell. Hell, I wanted to scream at my daughter to make her remember. All the other mornings, I had done the dishes in silence, praying quietly that this would be the day when Maya came back to me. But, this day, I was done being quiet. I felt the frustration plant itself throughout my body, and I opened my mouth to just let it out.
But someone beat me to it.
8
July 2014
“WHAT WAS THAT?” Maya asked, for the first time showing some sort of emotion: fear.
Victor didn’t even look up from his cereal.
“I don’t know,” I said, startled. “It sounded like it came from next door.” I looked out the window and saw the Curtain Company’s red van parked outside in the driveway. The street was empty. Everything seemed quiet.
“I don’t know,” I repeated. “Maybe someone was hurt in there. Maybe the curtain guy fell off his ladder or something.”
I bit my lip, wondering if I should go in there and check to see if they were all right. But, then again, he probably wasn’t alone in there. The nice couple had to be there.
I returned to my dishes with a strange unsettled feeling. The scream didn’t sound like someone getting hurt. It sounded like someone was afraid. Not just afraid. More like terrified. I turned on the faucet and started washing the pan from last night’s dinner. I couldn’t escape this strange feeling that something was terribly wrong. I looked out the window again, but the street remained calm.
I turned my head to look at my kids. Should I just go and check on the neighbors? I would want to know that my neighbors were looking out for me, wouldn’t I?
But, I didn’t want to come off like a nosy neighbor either.
“Only bad witches are ugly.”
“What was that, Victor?” I asked. I looked at my son. He had stopped eating, but still wasn’t looking at me.
“It’s from The Wizard of Oz,” Maya suddenly exclaimed. She clapped her hand over her mouth. “Oh, my God. I remember something. Mom, I remember the movie. I remember watching it with Grandpa when I was six. You and Dad were away for the weekend, remember? Now, where did you go?”
I stared, baffled, at my daughter. I was about to break down and cry. I forgot everything else.
Her eyes met mine. “Berlin, right? You brought us back that hideous porcelain sculpture that’s still in my room.”
“The one that was supposed to be Winnie the Pooh, but you thought he looked scary.”
“You had to hide it at night because it gave me nightmares. Mom, I remember. I remembered something!”
Maya had tears in her eyes, and so did I. Victor was still staring at the table. I sat in a chair next to my daughter and grabbed her hand. I felt so overwhelmed with emotions; I was about to explode.
“The Wizard of Oz, huh?” I said. “Maybe we should watch it later today. Would that be good?”
“Yes, Mom,” Maya said. “I would very much like that.”
“MOM!” It was Victor who was now yelling. He rose to his feet and held his hands to both his ears.
“What is it, honey?” His body was shaking. This was serious. “What’s wrong, baby?”
“She’s wearing the shoes. She’s wearing the ruby red slippers!”
I looked at Maya. “More Wizard of Oz stuff?” I asked. I hadn’t seen the movie since I was a child, but I did remember the shoes.
She nodded. I looked at Victor again. It seemed very urgent, and I got to thinking about the scream coming from next door. Victor had this special gift of sensing things that no one else did. Maybe that was what this was. Maybe he was telling me something.
“She’s wearing the shoes, Mommy. She’s wearing the shoes!”
I got up from my chair and threw my apron on the table. “Stay here. Maya, you’re in charge while I’m gone.”
9
July 2014
I RAN INTO the street and towards my new neighbor’s house with my heart pounding hard in my chest. Victor was never wrong about these things. He knew before the rest of us, and I had to take him seriously. Even if I felt a little stupid and risked being the most annoying neighbor from now on.
I stormed to the front door and saw that it was open. I knocked on it, as I walked inside. “Hello?”
No answer.
“Hello? This is Emma Frost. Your next-door neighbor. I thought I heard something, and thought I’d stop by to…”
The house was so quiet, I doubted anyone was even in here. But I had seen the curtain van outside the house and the couple’s car was in the driveway. There had to be someone in here, right?
I had a bad feeling as walked into the living room, only to find it empty. I continued into the kitchen, then the bedroom.
Then I stopped.
The sight was too gruesome to bear. I felt like the walls of the room were closing in on me and I was suffocating. What the hell was this? Blood was everywhere. The floor was soaked in it, the white bed sheets were soaked in it, and it was dripping from the bed onto the floor. The walls were sprayed with blood. On top of the bed lay two mutilated bodies, which I recognized as the couple from yesterday. They were both naked, and the woman was wearing a pair of glittering ruby red slippers.
Ruby red shoes. She’s wearing the shoes, Mommy!
On the floor next to the bed, a pair of legs stuck out. They were dressed in a dark blue pair of pants.
The curtain guy! He’s moving. He’s alive!
I rushed towards him. He was still fully dressed, but lying with his face in the blood.
“Sir? Are you alright?” I asked and turned him around. He groaned. I kneeled next to him. “Are you okay?”
“What…what happened?”
“I think you fainted.”
He opened his eyes wide. “Oh, my God! The bodies!”
He tried to get up, but felt dizzy, and fell back into my lap. His hair was smeared with the blood from the floor. Now, it was all over my pants and hands.
“They’re still there,” I said, trying hard to calm myself down.
Don’t panic. The worst thing you can do now is panic. Stay calm. You have to stay calm and focused.
“Stay down,” I said, feeling slightly lightheaded myself.
Remember to breathe. If you stop breathing, if you hyperventilate, you’ll faint too. Keep breathing.
I found my phone in my pocket and called Morten, my boyfriend and a police officer on the island. My voice was shaking heavily as we spoke.
“You need to come. Something terrible has happened.”
I fought to keep the tears back. I took a deep breath to calm myself.
“Where are you?”
“They just moved in, Morten. They just bought the house and now…now they’re gone. It’s my neighbors, Morten. It happened right next to us. While we were in our house. It could have been us. Why did this happen to them, Morten? They were nice people. They seemed so nice.”
“Emma, you’re rambling. I’m in my car now. Tell me. A
re you in your neighbor’s house? Is that it? Is that where I need to go? Talk to me.”
I was breathing heavily now. I found it hard to focus. The room was spinning. The curtain guy was groaning.
“We need the doctor too. There’s a guy who fainted.”
“Okay, I’ll call for him. What else, Emma? What happened to your neighbors? Where are they?”
“They’re…they’re…they’re on the bed. There’s a lot of blood, Morten. A lot.”
Morten went quiet. I heard him take a deep breath as well. “Okay. So…so you believe they’re dead? …Emma?”
“I’m nodding,” I said, sobbing. “They were so young, Morten. They’d just gotten married. Just bought their first house. Who would do such a thing? They had their whole lives ahead of them. They were supposed to have children soon. They were considering it, they told me when I asked. Who…? Why?”
“We can’t answer that now, Emma. They were new to the island. We don’t know anything about these people. I’m parking outside the house now. I’ll keep you on the phone till I see you. Now, where in the house are you?”
“The bedroom.”
10
July 2014
THE NUMEROLOGIST SAT behind the wheel of her old Toyota, keeping an eye on the house across the street. She had been sitting there every day for nearly a week now, keeping up with Emma Frost’s daily routines and writing everything she did down in her little notebook.
This morning was particularly active for the dear author in the big house. Usually, it was her children that kept her busy, that and the few hours of writing she managed to squeeze in between chores. But today was different. Today, the numerologist had seen Emma storm into the neighbor’s house. She had a feeling she knew what Emma was going to find in there, since the numerologist had been sleeping in her car ever since she started the stake-out, and she had seen someone leave the house next door very late last night. A man with a ponytail and leather vest. The numerologist had detected a bad aura surrounding the man, and knew something was off. He had hurried away, walking with his head bowed, like he didn’t want to be seen, and with a smirk on his face that the numerologist had recognized. Whatever he had done in there, he had enjoyed immensely. No doubt about it.
Not that she cared.
Not even when she heard the scream. She wasn’t there to keep an eye on those neighbors. No, she was there to spy on Emma Frost, the woman who had ruined everything for her.
There were a couple of people on the numerologist’s list. But Emma was the one that the numerologist really wanted to kill.
Now, Emma Frost’s annoying boyfriend, who, by the way, had also made the numerologist’s list, drove into the driveway in the island’s only police car, and hurried inside. The numerologist followed him with her binoculars and noted in her book once he was inside. A few minutes later, the island’s only doctor arrived with messy hair and his bag in hand.
“The house number is 38…ouch,” she mumbled. “Well, bad things were bound to happen in this place, I guess. They had it coming. Too bad people are so ignorant when it comes to the power of numbers. When will they ever learn?”
The numerologist grabbed a cracker from her bag and ate it while waiting for Emma Frost to come back out of the neighbor’s house. She took out another and took a bite. Misty was fussing in the passenger seat.
“What’s up with you?” the numerologist asked.
The rat looked at her. Its long whiskers were vibrating.
“Oh, you’re hungry too. Of course,” the numerologist said, and handed the cracker to the rat. “It’s been a long night for the both of us.”
The rat nibbled the cracker. It made the numerologist chuckle. Misty was so cute, so adorable with her brown eyes and pointy nose.
Once the rat was done taking its bite, the numerologist finished the rest of the cracker. She flushed it down with some orange juice and threw the empty bottle on the floor. The car was filled with trash, and she knew she would need to clean it up soon.
She watched as Misty plunged into the sea of trash on the floor. Then, she smiled. Misty was having such fun with it. Maybe later, she thought to herself. She was, after all, almost done with her intensive surveillance. She had taken so many notes on Emma Frost’s whereabouts the last week that she was now ready for the next move. It was all about getting to know Emma’s weak spots, finding out where she was vulnerable, and the numerologist had found just that. She and Misty would soon go back to the small room they had rented at an old nasty lady’s house and prepare for round two.
11
April 2009
THEY PUT HIM away. Louise could hardly believe what she had heard on TV. The judge had found Bjarke guilty of killing his girlfriend and her two children, who were seven and nine years old.
It’s just not right, Louise thought to herself. He told me himself that he didn’t do it. I believe him. Why won’t they?
She had written him back, and he had asked her to call him on the phone. He was allowed to make and receive calls. They had talked for an hour. That was as long as he was allowed to. He had explained to her that he was devastated. That he was innocent and had no idea what happened to his ex-girlfriend Rikke and her sons.
“They haven’t even found their bodies,” he said. “I don’t know why they think I killed them.”
“Why, this is outrageous,” Louise had said. “You can’t go to jail for something you didn’t do. It’s not fair.”
“Well, the world isn’t always fair, now is it?” Bjarke replied.
He was right, she thought. He was so smart, it startled her. “But they don’t even know if they’re dead or not,” she argued. “Maybe they just left the country, or maybe they’re hiding somewhere.”
“I don’t know where they are,” he answered. “And, to be honest, I don’t know what to do. They said they found blood in the house, but that could have been from one of the boys hurting themselves. That happened all the time. I loved them, Louise. You must know that. I really loved them.”
“I believe you. I believe you loved them.”
“I feel so alone. No one wants to hear my side of the story. It’s like they don’t even care.”
“I care. I want to hear it,” Louise said.
Bjarke took a deep breath. Louise felt like he was so close at that moment and held the phone tighter.
“I know you do. I’m so grateful for that. I can’t tell you how much it helps to know that I have you. Please, don’t leave me. Everybody leaves me. My mom, my girlfriend, my friends, everyone.”
“I won’t,” Louise said. She could feel his loneliness and it almost made her cry. How could they ever think that sweet man would kill anyone? Just from talking to him, she knew he could never have done any of all those horrible things they accused him of.
“You know they think I killed my mother as well, right? They just didn’t have enough evidence to convict me. That’s what they say…that they now, finally, have me.”
Louise bit her lip. She believed him. But the thing about the mother bothered her. “What…what happened to her, anyway?”
A deep sigh followed. Louise was afraid she had gone too far. “You don’t…you don’t have to answer that,” she continued.
“No, no. It’s okay,” he said.
Louise felt relieved. She didn’t want to lose him.
“To be perfectly honest with you, and I have a feeling that I can be perfectly honest, am I right?”
“Yes. Yes, you can. Of course. I’m here to listen,” Louise said, fearing slightly what would come next. She wanted him to be innocent. She believed he was. Of everything.
“I think she killed herself,” Bjarke said. “I mean, they never found her, but I think she might have walked down to the lake and drowned herself. She threatened to do so on several occasions when I was growing up. One day, she was simply gone. I came home from work…I was working at an auto shop at the time, learning to fix cars and thought that was what I was supposed to do with my life, you kno
w? Then, bam, your life is changed forever. My mom wasn’t at the house and her sister accused me of having killed her. She never liked me much. She thought I was dangerous. I have no idea why she felt that way. I had never harmed a fly up until that point. But my aunt always thought I had ruined my mother’s life…that I was to blame for the way her life turned out or something. I don’t know. But she blamed it all on me and told the police I had threatened to kill my mom several times. Then they found the axe in the garage that had my fingerprints on it. But, of course, it had; I mean, I used it to chop wood for our fireplace. I helped my mom in every way I could, you know? There was some blood on the axe too, they claimed, but it was mine. They said I lucked out. They never believed for one second that I could be innocent. Can you imagine that? Can you imagine having to fight for people to believe you like that?”
Louise thought long and hard, but had to realize she had no idea how that felt. She had never been in a position like that. To her, Bjarke was so experienced in life; he was so smart…and so misunderstood. It was all just a series of very unfortunate events.
Now, she looked at the TV screen while the reporter told the viewers that Bjarke Lund had been sentenced to spend sixteen years behind bars.
He also said that Bjarke Lund immediately appealed the judgment to the Supreme Court, but there wasn’t much chance that they would accept the appeal.
“In my opinion, there’s no doubt about it,” the reporter finished his piece. “Bjarke Lund is going away for a very long time.”
12
July 2014
I WAS DEVASTATED, to put it mildly. Morten arrived at the house, and soon after, doctor Williamsen stormed into the bedroom, looking perplex and confused.
Morten was still looking at the victims as the doctor entered.
“Oh my,” the doctor exclaimed when he saw the bodies. He held his chest with his left hand and dropped the brown bag that had been in his right.