by Sue Grafton
“You got pushed too hard and you broke,” I said, hoping I wasn’t overplaying my hand. “You waited until he and Nikki left town and then you used Diane’s keys to get into the house. You put the oleander capsules in his little plastic vial, being careful to leave no prints, and then you left.”
“I hated him,” she said, mouth trembling. She blinked and a tear splashed on her shirt like a drop of rain. She took a deep breath, words coming out in a rush. “He ruined my life, took my kids, robbed me blind, insulted, abused—oh my God, you have no idea. The venom in that man . . .”
She snatched up a napkin and pressed it to her eyes. Amazingly, Rosie didn’t seem to notice her distress. She sat at the bar, probably reading Ann Landers, thinking At Wit’s End should have turned hubby in for the obscene calls he made, while a customer confessed to murder right under her nose. To her right, the little television set flickered a Muppets rerun.
Gwen sighed, staring down at the tabletop. She reached over and picked up her glass, taking in a big slug of Scotch, which made her shudder as it went down. “I didn’t even feel bad about it, except for the kids. They took it hard and that surprised me. They were far better off with him gone.”
“Why the affair?” I probed.
“I don’t know,” she said, folding and refolding the paper napkin. “I guess it was my revenge. He was such an egotist. I knew he couldn’t resist. After all, I’d insulted the hell out of him by having an affair with someone else. He couldn’t tolerate that. I knew he’d want his own back. It wasn’t even that hard to engineer. He wanted to prove something to himself. He wanted to show me what I’d passed up. There was even a certain amount of jazz to the sex for once. The hostility was so close to the surface that it gave us both a sick charge. God, I loathed him. I really did. And I’ll tell you something else,” she said harshly. “Killing him once just wasn’t enough. I wish I could kill him again.”
She looked at me fully then and the enormity of what she was saying began to sink in.
“What about Nikki? What did she ever do to you?”
“I thought they’d acquit her,” she said. “I never thought she’d go to jail, and when the sentence was handed down I wasn’t going to stand up and take her place. By then it was too late.”
“So what else?” I said and I noticed that my tone was getting sullen. “Did you kill the dog too?”
“I had nothing to do with that. He got hit Sunday morning. I drove Diane over there because she’d remembered that she’d left him out and she was upset. He was already lying in the street. My God, I wouldn’t run over a dog,” she said emphatically, as though I should appreciate the delicacy of her sentiments.
“And the rest just fell into place? The oleander in the yard? The capsules upstairs?”
“One capsule. I doctored one.”
“Bullshit, Gwen. That’s bullshit.”
“It’s not. I’m telling the truth. I swear to it. I’d thought about it for a long time but I couldn’t see a way to make it work. I wasn’t even sure it would kill him. Diane was a wreck about the dog anyway so I drove her to my place and put her to bed. As soon as she was asleep, I took her keys and went back and that’s all it was.” She spoke with an edge of defiance, as though having opened up this far there was no point in mincing words.
“What about the other two?” I snapped. “What about Sharon and Libby Glass?”
She blinked at me, pulling back. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Oh the hell you don’t,” I said, getting up. “You’ve lied to me since the first minute we met. I can’t believe a goddamn word you say and you know it.”
She seemed startled by my energy. “What are you going to do?”
“Give the information to Nikki,” I said. “She paid for it. We’ll let her decide.”
I moved away from the table, heading toward the door. Gwen grabbed her jacket and purse, keeping pace with me.
Out on the street, she snatched at my arm and I shook her off.
“Kinsey wait . . .” Her face was remarkably pale.
“Blow it out your ass,” I said. “You’d better hire yourself a hot attorney, babe, because you’re going to need one.”
I moved off down the street, leaving Gwen behind.
25
I locked the door to my place and tried dialing Nikki out at the beach. The phone rang eight times and I hung up, pacing the room after that with an unsettled sensation in my chest. There was something off. There was something not right and I couldn’t put my finger on what was bothering me. There was no feeling of closure. None. This should have been the end of it. The big climax. I’d been hired to find out who killed Laurence Fife and I had. The end. Finis. But I was left with half a case and a lot of loose ends. Gwen’s killing of Laurence had been part premeditation and part impulse, but the rest of it didn’t seem to fit. Why wasn’t everything falling into place? I couldn’t picture Gwen killing Libby Glass. Gwen had hated Laurence Fife for years, titillating herself perhaps with ways of killing him, maybe never even dreaming that she’d actually do it, never imagining that she could actually pull it off. She’d come up with the oleander scheme and suddenly she’d seen a way to make it work. A perfect opportunity had presented itself and she’d acted. Surely Libby Glass’s death couldn’t have been that easy to arrange. How did Gwen know about her? How did she know where she lived? How could she have gotten into that apartment? And how could she have counted on her taking medication of any kind? I couldn’t picture Gwen driving to Vegas either. Couldn’t imagine her shooting Sharon in cold blood. For what? What was the point? Killing Laurence had wiped out an old grudge, satisfied an ancient and bitter hatred between them, but why kill the other two? Blackmail? Threat of exposure? That might account for Sharon but why Libby Glass? Gwen had seemed truly self-righteous in her bewilderment. Like her denial of any responsibility for killing the dog. There was just that odd note of genuine outrage in her voice. It didn’t make sense.
Unless there was someone else involved. Someone else who killed.
I felt a chill.
Oh my God. Lyle? Charlie? I sat down, blinking rapidly, hand across my mouth. I’d bought into the notion that one person killed all three, but maybe not. Maybe there was another possibility. I tried it out. Gwen had murdered Laurence Fife. Why couldn’t someone else have spotted the opening and taken advantage of it? The timing was close, the method the same. Of course it was going to look like it was all part of the same setup.
I thought about Lyle. I thought about his face, the strange imperceptibly mismatched eyes: sullen, watchful, belligerent. He said he’d been with Libby three days before she died. I knew he’d heard about Laurence’s death. He was not a man who possessed a giant intellect, but he could have managed that much, imitating the cunning of someone else—even stoned.
I called my answering service. “I’m going down to Los Angeles,” I said. “If Nikki Fife calls, I want you to give her the telephone number of the Hacienda motel down there and tell her it’s important that she get in touch. But no one else. I don’t want it known that I’m out of town. I’ll check in with you often enough to pick up whatever calls come in. Just say I’m tied up and you don’t know where I am. You got that?”
“All right, Miss Millhone. Will do,” she said cheerfully and then clicked off. God. If I’d said to her, “Hold the calls. I’m slitting my throat,” she’d have responded with the same blank good will.
The drive to Los Angeles was good for me—soothing, uneventful. It was after nine and there wasn’t that much traffic on the darkened road south. On my left, hills swelled and rolled, covered with low vegetation— no trees, no rocks. On my right, the ocean rumbled, almost at arm’s length, looking very black except for a ruffle of white here and there. I passed Summerland, Carpinteria, passed the oil derricks and the power plant, which was garlanded with tiny lights like a decorative display at Christmastime. There was something restful about having nothing to worry about except having a wreck and
getting killed. It freed my mind for other things.
I had made a mistake, a false assumption, and I felt like a novice. On the other hand, I’d made the very assumption that everyone else had made: same M.O., same murderer. But now I didn’t think that was true. Now it seemed to me the only explanation that made any sense was that someone else had killed Libby Glass—and Sharon too. I drove through Ventura, Oxnard, Camarillo, where the state mental asylum was located. I’ve heard that there is less tendency to violence among the institutionalized insane than there is in the citizenry at large and I believe that. I thought about Gwen without surprise or dismay, my mind jumping forward and back randomly. Somehow I was more offended by the minor crimes of a Marcia Threadgill who tried for less, without any motivation at all beyond greed. I wondered if Marcia Threadgill was the new standard of morality against which I would now judge all other sins. Hatred, I could understand—the need for revenge, the payment of old debts. That’s what the notion of “justice” was all about anyway: settling up.
I went over the big hill into Thousand Oaks, with traffic picking up; tract housing stretched out on either side of the road, then shopping malls packed end to end. The night air was damp and I kept the windows rolled down. I felt over into the backseat for my briefcase and fumbled with the catch. I tucked my little automatic into my jacket pocket, encountering a wad of papers. I pulled them out and glanced down. Sharon Napier’s bills. I’d stuck them in my windbreaker on the way out of her place and I hadn’t thought about them since. I’d have to go through them. I tossed them on the passenger seat and looked at my watch by the icy wash of highway light. It was 10:10—forty-five minutes of driving left, maybe more given traffic on the surface roads once I got off the freeway. I thought about Charlie, wondering if I’d blown a perfectly nice relationship. He didn’t seem like the type to forgive and forget, but who knew. He was a lot more yielding than I was, that was for sure. My thoughts rambled on disjunctively. Lyle had known I was driving to Vegas. I wasn’t sure how Sharon connected, but I’d figure that out. Blackmail still seemed like the best bet. The letter I couldn’t figure at all. How had Libby come by that? Or had she? Maybe Lyle and Sharon were in cahoots. Maybe Lyle got the letter from her. Maybe he was planting the letter among Libby’s effects, not trying to take it away. It was certainly to his advantage to reinforce the idea of Libby’s romantic tie to Laurence Fife. He had known I was stopping back through to pick up her boxes. He could have made it back to Los Angeles well in advance of me since I’d stopped for the night to see Diane. Maybe he had deliberately timed it closely to incite my curiosity about what might have been tucked away there. My mind veered off that and I thought about Lieutenant Dolan with a faint smile. He was so sure Nikki had killed her husband, so satisfied with that. I’d have to put a call through to him when I got back. I thought about Lyle again. I didn’t intend to see him that night. He wasn’t as smart as Gwen, but he might be dangerous. If it was him. I didn’t think I should jump to conclusions again.
I checked into the Hacienda at 11:05, went straight to room #2, and put myself to bed. Arlette’s mother was on the desk. She is twice as fat.
In the morning, I showered and got back into the same clothes, staggering out to the car to retrieve the overnight case I kept in the crowded backseat. I went back to my room and brushed my teeth—oh blessed relief—and ran a comb through my hair. I went down to a delicatessen on the corner of Wilshire and Bundy, where I ordered scrambled eggs, sausage links, a toasted bagel with cream cheese, coffee, and fresh orange juice. Whoever invented breakfast really did it good.
I walked back up to the Hacienda to find Arlette waving a massive arm out the office door for me. Her round face was flushed, her little cap of blonde curls in a flyaway state, her eyes squeezed almost to invisibility by the heavy cheeks. I wondered when she’d last seen her own neck. Still, I liked her, irksome as she was at times.
“There’s someone on the phone for you and she sounds real upset. I told her you were out but I said I’d flag you down. Thank goodness you’re back,” she said to me, out of breath and wheezing hard.
I hadn’t seen Arlette so excited since she found out that panty hose came in queen-size. I went into the office with Arlette hard on my heels, breathing heavily. The receiver was on the counter and I picked it up.
“Hello?”
“Kinsey, this is Nikki.”
Why the dread in her voice, I thought automatically. “I tried calling you last night,” I said. “What’s the matter? Are you okay?”
“Gwen’s dead.”
“I just talked to her last night,” I said blankly. Killed herself. She’d killed herself. Oh shit, I thought.
“It happened this morning. Hit-and-run driver. I just heard it on the news. She was jogging along Cabana Boulevard and someone ran her down and then skipped.”
“I don’t believe it. Are you sure?”
“Positive. I tried calling you and the service said you were out of town. What are you doing in L.A.?”
“I’ve got to check out something down here but I should be back tonight,” I said, thinking fast. “Look, would you see if you can find out the details?”
“I can try.”
“Call Lieutenant Dolan at Homicide. Tell him I told you to ask.”
“Homicide,” she said, startled.
“Nikki, he’s a cop. He’ll know what’s going on. And it may not be an accident anyway, so see what he has to say and I’ll call you as soon as I get back.”
“Well, okay,” she said dubiously, “I’ll see what I can do.”
“Thanks.” I hung up the phone.
“Is someone dead?” Arlette asked. “Was it someone you knew?”
I looked right at her but I drew a blank. Why Gwen? What was happening?
She followed me out of the office and toward my room.
“Is there anything I can do to help? Do you need anything? You look awful, Kinsey. You’re pale as a ghost.”
I closed the door behind me. I thought about that last image of Gwen, standing on the street, her face white. Could it have been an accident? Coincidence? Things were moving too quickly. Someone was beginning to panic and for reasons I still couldn’t quite understand.
A possibility flashed into my head and out. I stood stock-still, running it by me again like an old film clip. Maybe so. Maybe yes. It was all going to come together soon. It was all going to fit.
I threw everything into the backseat of my car, not even bothering to check out. I’d mail Arlette the damn twelve bucks.
The drive to the Valley was a blur, the car moving automatically, though I paid no attention whatever to road, sun, traffic, smog. When I reached the house in Sherman Oaks where Lyle was laying brick, I saw his battered truck parked out front. I didn’t have any more time to waste and I didn’t want to play games. I locked the car and went up the drive, going around the side of the house to the back. I caught sight of Lyle before he caught sight of me. He was bending over a pile of two-by-fours: faded jeans, work boots, no shirt, a cigarette in the corner of his mouth.
“Lyle.”
He turned around. I had the gun out and trained on him. I held it with two hands, legs apart, meaning busines. He froze instantly where he stood, not saying a word.
I felt cold and my voice was tight, but the gun never wavered an inch. “I want some answers and I want them now,” I said. I saw him glance to his right. There was a hammer lying on the ground but he made no move.
“Back up,” I said, stepping forward slightly until I was between him and the hammer. He did as instructed, the pale blue eyes sliding back to mine, hands coming up.
“I don’t want to shoot you, Lyle, but I will.”
For once, he didn’t look sullen or sly or arrogant. He stared straight at me with the first sign of respect I’d seen from him.
“You’re the boss,” he said.
“Don’t fuckin’ smart-mouth me,” I snapped. “I’m not in the mood. Now sit down in the grass. Out there. And don
’t move a muscle unless I tell you to.”
Obediently, he moved out to a small stretch of grass and sat down, eyes on me the whole time. It was quiet and I could hear birds chirping stupidly but we seemed to be alone and I liked it that way. I kept the gun pointed right at his chest, willing my hands not to shake. The sun was hot and it made him squint.
“Tell me about Libby Glass,” I said.
“I didn’t kill her,” he shot back uneasily.
“That’s not the point. I want to know what went on. I want to know what you haven’t told me yet. When did you see her last?”
He shut his mouth.
“Tell me!”
He didn’t have Gwen’s poise and he didn’t have her smarts. The sight of the gun seemed to help him make up his mind.
“Saturday.”
“The day she died, right?”
“That’s right, but I didn’t do anything. I went over to see her and we had a big fight and she was upset.”
“All right, all right. Skip the buildup. What else?”
He was silent.
“Lyle,” I said warningly. The muscles in his face seemed to pull together like a drawstring purse and he started to weep. He put his hands up over his face pathetically. He’d kept it in for a long time. If I was wrong about this, I was wrong about everything. I couldn’t let him off the hook.
“Just tell me,” I said, tone dead, “I need to know.”