by Simms, Nikki
"Aww shit, aww aw" Tammi said releasing all her juices.
"Fuck," I said filling the condom up with my seeds. I stood there for a minute and blew out a deep breath.
After I caught my breath, I pulled out and fixed my clothes. I looked at my phone and told Tammi it was time for her to go.
“What you mean it’s time for me to go?” she snapped.
“Just what the fuck it sounds like. You got what you came here for, now it’s time for you to go. What happened between us tonight, will never happen again. I could’ve been making love to my girl but I’m over here fucking yo ass.”
She got up and fixed her clothes. She walked over to me and tried to smack me but I grabbed her hand. “Fuck you, Justice. I’ve known you for nine years and you never pushed me aside like you have been doing me lately. What is it about this chick, huh? I mean, I know she’s pretty but I’m the mother of your kids. No bitch should come before me.”
“Tammi, get the fuck out of here with that shit. It’s plenty of niggas out there that’s not with their baby mother. You won’t be the first. Like I said, it will never happen again. I fucked up and it’s not fair to Jaz.”
“Fuck that bitch! You don’t care about her because if you did you wouldn’t have fucked me. You’re still in love with me and you know it.” She said grabbing her keys and walked out of my house. She slammed the door so hard my pictures fell. I wanted to go smack the shit out of her. Instead, I just shook my head and picked them up. I walked upstairs and hopped in the shower. I was starting to feel guilty. I know I really fucked up by fucking Tammi and if Jaz ever found out she really wouldn’t want shit to do with me then. What did I just do? I thought while letting the hot water run down my back. After I washed up and dried off, I changed my clothes, grabbed my keys and locked up my house.
I got in my car and tried to call Jaz but she didn’t pick up. I knew she was mad at me but I didn’t know what for. I wasn’t supposed to be there anyway. She’s the one that said it was going to just be her and the boys. The entire drive back to her crib, I couldn’t help but think that Jaz knew. I wasn’t trying to lose her behind this and all I could do was take it to my grave and pray she never found out.
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As I walk the shadow of death
I’m praying at this moment
God please fight these devil seeds that is growing
Before I’m weak, lose my sanity, they don’t want it
Pull up and squeeze, that’s the old me, I don’t want it
Cause I seen a new year 2014, counting blessings,
Praying for my enemies
I was in my 2015 Black Mercedes S550 listening to Praying For My Enemies by this underground rapper name PacmanSlash that Harlem got me hooked on. Harlem was big on underground rappers. He liked listening to shit nobody ever heard of before and after listening to Pain by Pacmanslash, I couldn’t stop listening to his music. I got up early this morning to go get Jaz and my boys some breakfast. When I got to Jaz’s place last night, she wouldn’t even sleep in the same room with me. I knew I had to do something to get her out of that attitude she got. Since Jordan and Javier would be with us, I was going to take them to Carowinds.
After getting breakfast from Mama’s Kitchen, I headed back to Jaz’s. When I walked in, she had already cooked and Jordan and Javier was eating. “You could’ve told me you were going to cook. I went out and brought breakfast.” I said when I walked in the kitchen. I put the bags in the fridge. Her back was turned to me and she was still giving me the silent treatment.
“Damn Jaz, are you going to ignore me the entire time I’m here because if you are then I can bounce?” I said taking a seat at the table and grabbing a piece of bacon off Jordan’s plate.
“Nah dad, you need to get your own.” He said and I told him to shut up. I did the same to Javier and he snitched on me.
“Jaz, tell my dad to stop stealing our food.”
“Justice, leave them alone.” She said dryly.
“So, you only know how to speak when they talk to you?” I said walking over to her and turning off the stove. I grabbed her hand but she snatched back. I picked her up and put her over my shoulder.
“That’s right, show her who’s boss dad,” Javier laughed.
I walked her to the room and threw her on the bed. “What’s up with you and that fucking attitude? I ain’t feeling that shit, Jaz. What the fuck I do?”
“I don’t have an attitude Justice.” She replied sitting up.
“Well, why are you giving me the silent treatment?”
“I’m not” she said walking towards the bathroom. I grabbed her hand and threw her back on the bed but this time I got on top of her so she wouldn’t move. “Move Justice!”
“I can lay here all day.” I said and stretch out.
“Move Justice, damn. I don’t have an attitude.” She said trying to push me off her. I kissed her lips and asked was she mad at me. She tried to fight it but eventually gave in and kissed me back.
“You still mad at me?” I asked. She shook her head no and I told her to go get ready. She asked where we was going and I told her don’t worry about and to get ready.
While waiting for Jaz and the twins to get ready, I rolled me a blunt of Cali Kush. I lit the tip and sat back thinking about how good life would be if Jaz was living with me. I knew it would be a hard thing to do because she was on this whole independent shit but I didn’t want to spend another day apart from her. Jordan and Javier needed a mother figure in their life because Tammi was not doing her job. I knew I would have to talk with them and see how they felt about it first. But with Jaz, I wasn’t taking no for an answer. If I had to pack up all her shit then so be it.
Jordan and Javier came out first in their matching True Religion jeans, a white crew neck tee shirt and black LSG Nike boots. They had their gold chain and red snapback hats. “Dad, why we got to dress alike? I don’t want to look like him.” Javier said.
“I don’t want to look like you either, bruh” Jordan said bumping into Javier.
“Aye, chill out with all that, aite.” I said putting a stop to a fight I knew was coming. I took this as my time to see how they felt about Jaz. “Sit down and let me talk to y’all real quick.” I said and they did as they were told. “What do y’all think of Jaz? Do y’all like her?”
“Yea, she’s cool.” They both said
“I like her, we be having mad fun. She’s always nice and gives us whatever we want.” Jordan said.
“Yea I like her too and if you don’t want her dad, let me know.” Javier said and I laughed.
“You trying push up on my woman?” I said and grabbed him. I tickled him until Jordan jumped in. I had both of them in the headlock when Jaz walked in.
“Justice, get off of them.” She said and I let them go. They ran and hid behind her like her little short ass could protect them. I looked her over and licked my lips. She had on some baggy cut up jeans, a black Tommy Hilfiger sports bra and a black and red plaid shirt that she had tied around her waist. Her red and black Jordan’s topped her look off perfectly and her hair was naturally curly. I told her to pack an overnight bag because she was staying the night with me.
After she packed her bag and locked down her spot, I told them it was time to go. When we pulled up to Carowinds, Jordan and Javier went crazy. I paid for the tickets and asked Jordan and Javier which ride they wanted to ride first. They both wanted to ride something different. The entire time there, I hardly spent any time with Jaz, they were pulling us in every direction of the park and Jordan wanted her all to himself. If I didn’t know any better, I would think Jaz was trying to turn my son against me. He didn’t want to do shit with me unless Jaz was doing it. I didn’t have a problem with it, though. Shit, I like that the boys loved Jaz. It made it easier for me to fall in love with her.
It was getting dark and we were there almost all day. I told them it was time to go and they threw a fit, until Jaz spoke up and told them to calm down. They didn’t even
put up a fuss, just got in the car and played on their tablets. I looked over at her and she winked. I couldn’t do anything but smile and shake my head.
It took almost 30 minutes just for me to get home. Jaz and the twins went to sleep on me. I tapped her to wake her up and called Jordan and Javier name for them to get up. They were so tired that they just went to bed. I walked Jaz to the bedroom and helped her out of her shoes.
“You want to take a bath?” I asked taking off my hat and jewelry.
“What you think?” she said and I looked at her. “Yes, I would love to.” I walked to the bathroom and filled my Jacuzzi tub up with hot water and added some scented bubble bath. I lit a few candles and turned on the radio to K97.5. Nice and Slow by Usher came on and I walked downstairs to get a bottle of wine and some wine glasses. I told Jaz to follow me and dimmed the lights. She took her clothes off and I couldn’t help but stare. Her body was perfect. She was thick in all the right places. I watched as she dipped her feet in the water before getting in. I passed her the wine and glasses, then took off my pants and boxers. She bit down on her bottom lip and motioned for me to come here. I got in behind her and washed her up. She did the same to me then turned to face me.
“I had fun today.” She said and kissed me.
“That’s what’s up. I had fun too, besides the fact that Jordan and Javier wouldn’t let me get close to you.” I said and smirked.
“Aww, are you jealous? I can’t help that they’re cuter than you.” She reached down and stroked my dick.
“Don’t play with it if you ain’t ready.”
“Who said I wasn’t ready?” She said kissing me. I pulled her closer to me and parted her lips with my tongue. My dick was standing at attention and I was ready to mark my territory. I picked her up and carried her to the bedroom, gently laying her on the bed. I kissed her lips then her neck, making my way down to her sweet spot. I dipped my tongue in savoring her juices, then circled the pearl. “Damn Justice,” she moaned. I kissed both thighs before going in for the kill. I sucked then nibbled on her clit until it was swollen just like daddy liked it. Her hand went to the back of my head for me to go deeper. “Mmm, I’m coming baby.” She moaned and I told her to do her thang. She released her juices and I licked her clean.
I stood up and pulled her to the edge of the bed. I wasn’t even worried about her returning the favor, I was just ready to feel inside of her. I slid the head in, she gasped and tilted her head back. “You aite?” I chuckled then kissed her lips. She wrapped her arms around my neck as I pushed deeper. “Damn Jaz, you tight as fuck.” I said trying to get it all in.
“Wait Justice, it’s too big,” she stopped me like every second telling me to wait. I finally got it in and stayed there for a minute so she could get used to the size.
I slowly started to thrust in and out of her. Jaz’s pussy was like being in heaven. She was so tight and wet that I didn’t want to leave. I felt myself about to nut. I didn’t want to be the first one to tap out. So instead of pulling out, I came inside of her. I think she could tell I bust because my dick got soft. It didn’t take me long to get back hard. I kissed her neck then her lips.
“Mm Justice, what are you doing to me?” She moaned before wrapping her legs around my waist. She looked at me with tears in her eyes. “I love you, Justice.” She said and I wasted no time saying it back.
“I love you too ma,” I think I fell in love with Jaz the first day I met her. It was just something about her that I wanted and now I know. I wanted her and I’ll be damned if I fuck up again. I didn’t want to lose her, especially behind Tammi.
We made love for the rest of the night. I made her come 5 more times and wasn’t trying to stop until she begged me to. After she squirted and I nutted the last time, we both fell on the bed and went to sleep.
CHAPTER 20
JAZMYN
4 MONTHS LATER
“Are you going to tell me what’s been going on with you or am I going to have to beat yo ass to get it out of you?”
“What are you talking about?” Samya said wiping her hands on her jeans and laughing nervously.
I was on my way to the store to get the stuff I needed to make my homemade mashed potatoes and green beans casserole for this family dinner Mama Rochelle was having at her place Sunday. I was in charge of the vegetables while Samya had the desserts. Everything else was left up to Mama Rochelle. On my way over to the grocery store, Samya called and said she wanted to tag along.
“I’m talking about the way you’ve been acting lately. I know it’s something up with you and you might as well tell me because you know I will get it out of you one way or another.” I said grabbing a bag of potatoes.
“It’s nothing. I’m sorry if I’ve been a little distant lately. I have just been really busy with work and trying to find a location for the store has been hectic.” She said but I knew she was lying.
“Mya, who do you think you are fooling? That shit might work with Harlem but not with me. What is going on? We barely talk or hangout. When I call, you don’t answer your phone. I would’ve thought it was Harlem who is taking up all your time but even he said he barely sees you.” I gave her a look that let her know she had to come up with something better than that.
“Jaz, I don’t want to talk about this right now ok. Can we just please just talk about this later? The grocery store is not the place to have this conversation.” She said walking off without giving me a chance to respond. I was going to let it go for now but she was going to have to talk to me sooner or later.
When we finished getting everything we needed, our baskets were full. The total came up to 247 dollars. All we were supposed do was come in here and get the stuff we needed for this dinner. It was a good thing I had Justice’s Black card or else all this shit would’ve went back.
“Jaz, I swear she’s a bitch.” Samya smirked referring to my 2014 white 4 door Maserati. “You be thinking you cute, huh?”
“Oh ain’t no bitch in him. That’s big daddy and no I don’t think, I know.” I said loading up the trunk of my car. Justice bought this for me the day after I moved in with him. No matter how hard I tried to stay at my place, Justice wasn’t having it. Eventually, I gave in and everything has been going good with us lately. I was finally happy. I had a man that adores me with 2 beautiful but bad little boys. Life couldn’t get any better than this. I felt like I was on cloud 9 and couldn’t nothing stop my happiness.
I pulled up in front of my mother’s house to invite her to dinner this Sunday. Rochelle asked us to invite her because she wanted to meet her future daughter in laws mother. I wasn’t really sure about my mother meeting Rochelle. My mother’s mouth is something terrible. She didn’t know how to bite her tongue, she speaks her mind and is very blunt with it. You might take it as an insult but she just calls it like she see it. For the past few months that I’ve known Mama Rochelle, she has the exact same attitude. All I can do is pray that they get along.
After listening to my mother talk for what seemed like forever and confirming she was going, I headed home. Mya said she was staying with mama. I didn’t have a problem with that I was just relived that I didn’t have to take her home. I had a long day at work today and all I really wanted to do was go home and get in the shower.
I pulled up in my driveway and popped the trunk. I was about to get the bags out myself but decided against it. I walked in the house to find Jordan and Javier in the living room playing the game. They know they are not allowed in the living room.
“Hey,” I said putting my bag on the counter. I looked around at all the soda cans, chip bags and noodle bowls lying around. I walked over in front of them and told them to clean this mess up.
They said ok but never took their eyes off the game. Javier tried to look pass me but I turned it off.
“Come on, mom” Jordan said trying to turn it back on.
“No, clean this mess up right now, or I’m taking the cords and you won’t get it back for a week.” I demanded. They g
ot up to do as they were told but Javier said something under his breath. “And when you’re done, get the groceries out of the car for me.” I said going to me and Justice’s bedroom.
I didn’t know what has gotten into Javier lately. When I first moved in, he was so happy. We did a lot of things together. I was very active in their lives. I didn’t want them thinking that I was just here for Justice. I wanted them to know that I loved and cared about them just as much as I do their father, maybe even more. For the past couple of weeks, I’ve detected a vibe from Javier. It was like he didn’t want me around. Whenever I told him to do something, he would just walk right pass me. I tried talking to him but he wouldn’t open up to me. He used to call me mom like Jordan but even that had stopped, not saying I wanted him to. I was fine with them just calling me Jaz, they started calling me that on their own.
I’m thinking about taking them somewhere after the dinner at Rochelle’s, just the three of us. I needed to know what’s bothering him and if I did something he didn’t like that hurt his feelings.
When I walked in the room, Justice was lying on the bed smoking a blunt and watching TV. “What’s up bae?” He said when he saw me.
“Hey, what are you doing here? I didn’t see your car outside, so I didn’t think you were home.” I said kissing his lips.
“Yea, I let Harlem hold the Benz until his car gets out of the shop.” He replied. I sat on the bed and took off my shoes. He massaged my shoulders and asked me how was work.
“Stressful. After I confirmed three meetings that took me three months to set up, Mr. Grant told me to cancel all of them because he’s going out of town with his 19 year old girlfriend. His 56 year old wife is suing him as we speak for alienation of affection but does he listen to me? No. He’s driving me crazy babe, it’s like I do more than he do and I don’t get paid enough for that.” I said all in one breath.
“I told you to quit that fucking job anyway. I don’t know why you just won’t chill and let me take care of you.” He said and I got up to go shower.