"Nobody asked you to do that," he said, still scowling like I was the one at fault.
A little background information about me was that I sometimes threw things when I was mad. I had done it like ten or twelve times in my whole life, so it wasn't like it was a problem or anything, but for what it's worth, there had been several times over the years where I let go of whatever I was holding because I was too mad to hold it anymore. It was never anything big or dangerous, but I had been known to let whatever was in my hand go flying in a moment of frustration, and that's exactly what happened.
I was so frustrated by my own inability to reason with him that I flung my hands out, letting the sausage go flying in one direction and the mace go flying in the other.
I took a deep, calming breath as I stared straight at Jacob. My eye then roamed to Larry who was staring intently in the direction of the sausage. Again, I focused on Jacob. I was mad at him for being so mean.
"Cole's mom and some other woman tried to pull this same crap you're pulling," he said. "Coming over here, thinking they can talk me into coming over for dinner." He paused and shook his head. "I’m not trying to make friends," he said. "I just want to be left alone."
"Well, that's just too bad, because we don't treat people like that around here."
"I'm not treating you like anything," he insisted. "You're the one trespassing on my property." He looked down at Larry and said, "Go," causing the dog to take off in search of the sausage.
I barely spared him a glance before regarding Jacob again. I was quiet for a second, deciding what to say. His jaw was set into a rigid line as he stared at me without the slightest hint of a smile.
"I'm sorry, but I just couldn’t get a new neighbor and not come over here to introduce myself. That's just not how we do it around here."
We stood there looking at each other for a second before he spoke again. "Don't lie," he said. "You came over here because you found out who I was. You wanted to see Neil Fox's son."
"I did not!" I said stubbornly, even though I wasn't exactly sure if it was the truth. Maybe if it were some other random person from out-of-state who moved in, I wouldn't feel the same way. As I stood there and looked at him, I honestly couldn't say for sure what my motives were.
Chapter 4
"I don't know anything about your dad," I said.
I stood there with my hands on my hips for a second before bending over to pick up the bag full of food that was still sitting between my feet.
"Oh please," he said sarcastically.
I held the bag of food out as if telling him to reach out and take it. "Look, truce, okay," I said, shaking the bag to remind him to reach for it.
He didn't reach out. He just stood in the same place ten feet away and shook his head. "There's nothing between us that would call for a truce," he said, regarding me as if I was a little loopy. He gestured with a sweep of his finger to the dirt driveway. "Do us both a favor and forget you even know I'm out here."
I returned his scowl, and shook my head disappointedly at him. "You can't possibly be this uncompromising."
He scoffed at me. "Uncompromising?" He looked around like he was missing something. "There's nothing to compromise. I asked you to go back the way you came and leave me alone, and that's what I expect you to do."
Larry was still chewing the sausage as he made his way back to his owner's side. I absentmindedly noticed him since I was preoccupied with Jacob the impossible. I was so frustrated that I threw the bag of food to him from where I was standing. I held it to my chest and sent it launching with both hands like you would a basketball. I didn't do it too hard because I wanted him to catch it. I hated for the food to go to waste, after all.
"You have a bad habit of throwing things," he said after catching the bag.
I shrugged stubbornly. "I don't usually," I said. "And you didn't leave me any other choice, since you wouldn't walk over here and take it from me like a man."
"Me not wanting you out here has nothing to do with my manhood," he said.
I was already mad, but I could feel my face turning red at his words. I shook my head, and turned to walk back to my car, planning on driving off without saying another word to him.
"Aren't you going to get your mace?" he asked, seeing that I was headed to my car.
"Not really," I said without looking at him.
"I saw where it landed."
"If I go over there and get it, I'm liable to use it on you, so it's better we leave it where it is. I'll get a new one since my family owns the freaking mace store." I said that last part as if was delivering some major cut down and didn't realize how silly it sounded until after it came out of my mouth. I continued walking toward my car, feeling too stubborn and angry to glance at him.
"Your family owns a mace store?" he asked. I could tell by the sound of his voice that he wasn't smiling, but he was clearly giving me a hard time, which was at least a tiny glimmer of some humanity. Unfortunately, I was already too angry to care.
"I told you I was Cole's cousin, so you know what store my family owns. And, yes, we do sell mace there."
"Why would you get a new one when your old one's just right over there?"
I stopped walking, turned, and glared at him through narrowed eyes. "Because you, mister, made it abundantly clear that you wanted me off of your property."
"Never mind, then," he said. "Just leave it there and get yourself a new one at your daddy's store."
"I will," I said.
"Good," he said. "I needed some mace, anyway."
I flashed him a narrow-eyed expression, but didn't say anything else. After several paces toward my car, I turned to him again and said, "I was trying to be nice, you know."
I was walking around the gate to get to my car when he said, "Don’t waste your time."
"Don't worry, I won't!" I said. "You got your wish. You'll never see or hear from me again."
Somewhere way down deep I said that hoping the statement would knock some sense into him and he would reconsider being so cold, but it didn't work. Jacob Fox just stood there and watched me get into my car and pull out of his driveway.
I was seeing red—maybe the maddest I had ever been in my whole life. I once heard that, most of the time, when people are angry it stemmed from embarrassment, and that was the absolute truth in my case. It was difficult for me to comprehend how he could be so cold and mean after all the effort I had gone through to be nice to him. I was also mad at myself for going there twice in one day. I should have known to stay away by how he treated me the first time, and I couldn't believe I had tried it twice in a row like that. I made myself too vulnerable, and I felt sick to my stomach because of it.
I had plans to go over to my parent's house that night for dinner, but I didn't. I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone (or to eat, for that matter).
"Why didn't you come over?" my little sister asked as she came in the side door of my house, which led into my kitchen. I was sitting in the living room eating ice cream straight out of the pint container. Amelia, the youngest of us three girls, was about to start her senior year of high school. The instant she caught sight of me on the couch, she made a grossed-out face that only a teenager could make. I hadn't even had the chance to answer her initial question about not coming over for dinner when she said, "What's wrong with you?"
"Nothing, why?" I asked.
"Because you look like you've been sitting like that for about three days."
"I was at work all day today," I said, defending myself.
"It's only six o'clock in the afternoon," she said, watching me walk toward her as I met her in the kitchen.
I realized I still had on a headband from when I took a bath. That, combined with my pajamas and the fact that I was eating ice cream straight out of the container, might be why she was taken aback. Amelia had a plate and a bowl both covered in tin foil. She set them on the counter and stared down at her phone for a second before stashing it in her pocket and turning to me again.
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"Are you sick or something?"
"No," I said, peeking at the plate, which was rice and gravy with some stew meat. I lifted the foil just far enough to see what it was before closing it again. "I just felt like getting a bath and watching TV," I said. "I told Mom not to worry about sending anything over here."
Amelia shrugged before jumping up to sit on my kitchen counter. She reached out and pulled off my bath-time headband as if it would help me reenter the land of the living.
"Why didn't Wynn come?" I asked, going to get a fork out of the drawer.
Our middle sister was going into her junior year of college. She went to UL in Lafayette, but she lived with my parents and Amelia during the summer. She was about to head back to school for the fall semester.
"She wasn't home," Amelia said. "I think she went to Claire's house. Mom was mad that she cooked all that food and neither of y'all came by."
"I just didn't feel like it," I said, opening the foil again now that I was armed with a fork. I took a bite of the meat, which was still somewhat warm. I was unable to tell whether it was pork or beef, but it was good, whichever it was. My sister watched me as I chewed, wearing a slightly disgusted face the whole time.
"What's wrong with you?" she asked again.
I shrugged like I didn't know what she was talking about as I continued to chew.
"You're being all weird and quiet," she said.
"No I'm not."
She laughed, still looking at me funny. "Yes you are." She looked down at her phone again while I took a few more bites. "That TV preacher-guy moved in down the street," Amelia said out of nowhere.
"What's that have to do with anything?" I asked, maybe a little too defensively.
"It doesn't," she retorted, screwing up her face at me for snapping at her.
"How'd you even hear about it?" I asked.
"He's friends with Cole, even though Cole won't really say much. I heard Mom and Aunt Debbie talking about it. Aunt Debbie said he wasn't very friendly. Claire's brothers ran into him down by the gas station, too, and they said the same thing."
"He just wants to be left alone," I said.
Was I really defending him after everything that had just happened? I felt nauseated thinking about it. I closed the foil and stashed the plate and bowl in my refrigerator.
"I looked him up," she said. "I think he'd be hot, but it's hard to tell because he seems miserable in all of his photos."
She was telling the truth about him looking miserable in all of his pictures. I had searched his images as well, and couldn't find a single picture on the internet where Jacob looked happy. He was without a smile, even in the ones that were a little older. My heart ached for him in a way that was not at all right for someone who hated my guts. It should have been easy for me to hate him, but I found it impossible. I was inexplicably sad as a result of his sadness.
Empathy had always been a problem for me. I so identified with people's pain that it would affect me on a personal level. I hated seeing people suffer. I quit watching the news all together when I was a teenager, and I hadn't looked back. Anyway, I told myself this was why I couldn't get Jacob off my mind, but I really wasn't sure if that was the truth. It felt like more. Maybe somewhere deep down, I thought he was cute, and I was checking him out—maybe that's why the rejection hurt so bad.
"You look like your dog just died," my sister said, calling me from my thoughts.
"I think you should tell anyone who's talking about that guy to just mind their own business," I said. "Especially if they're being mean."
"Why do you care?"
"Because he's got good in him, and all he wants is to be left alone."
"Did you talk to him or something?" she asked.
"I might've," I said, shrugging one shoulder.
Amelia shot me a look that said I should just go ahead and tell the rest of the story, which made me shrug again. "It was nothing," I said.
"Where'd you see him?"
"I went by there."
"Why?"
"I wanted to welcome him to Louisiana or whatever, and I was curious, I guess."
"Is he cute?" she asked. She paused and waited for my answer like the question was really important.
I shrugged again, this time staring at her like she was the crazy one. "I don't know," I said. "He just told me to get off of his property before we could really see each other clearly." It was a blatant lie, and I hated telling them, but that's just how humiliated I felt. I saw him plain as day, and he saw me back. We took a good, long look at each other, and he still told me to get off of his property.
"He fussed at you?" she asked, wide-eyed.
"He just yelled and said I should have obeyed the signs."
She scoffed. "What a jerk."
"I was the one who went onto his property," I said. I didn't add that I did it twice or that I bought him food, or that he was really much jerkier than I'd already said.
"It's so random that that dude would move in right down the road," she said.
"Not really," I said. "Him and Cole were friends way back. I'm sure he just wants to disappear for a little while after all the media crud he's been through. I don't think he's mean deep down. I think he wants to be by himself for little while. None of us understand that because we're all up in each other's space all the time."
"Coming from the girl who lives by herself," Amelia said.
"Hey, I'm twenty-five and it's the first time in my whole life that I've lived alone. And don't act like I don't see y'all just about everyday."
"I don't even know what you're saying right now," she said. "Are you trying to defend him or something? Because I don't really care."
"I don't know what' I'm trying to say," I said. "I guess I'm just saying we should respect his wishes and leave him alone even if we can't fathom why he wouldn't want to be around us."
"I don't really care if he wants to be around us or not," she said. "I just thought it was crazy that that same guy from all that drama moved in right down the street."
"It is crazy," I said even though it was an understatement for the whirlwind of feelings I was experiencing because of it.
Chapter 5
There was a bottle of mace sitting on my porch the next morning when I left for work. I went out the side door, and wouldn't have seen it had I not glanced at the front of the house as I pulled out of the driveway.
There was a foreign object sitting on the porch railing when I looked that way. I didn't know what it was at first, but as I got closer to it, I could see that it was indeed the bottle of mace that I had thrown into the woods at Jacob's house. I picked it up and stared down at it.
I thought about Jacob looking for it and then going out of his way to bring it back. I wondered how he knew which house was mine. These lots were wooded, and you couldn't see my house or car from the road. I vaguely remember telling him I lived four doors down, so I thought maybe he just counted driveways. I stood there and stared at it for several seconds before it hit me that the very person who was so against trespassing had been on my property.
I did what anyone in my position would do.
I decided to go to his house again.
I knew a different side of him existed, and I found myself wanting to find it—expose it. I was looking for an excuse to see him again, and confronting him for trespassing on my property was just as good as any.
I was able to set my own hours as long as I got my work done, thus I was in no real hurry to get to New Orleans. I decided to go straight to Jacob's house, mostly because I knew that if I didn't go right then, I would think better of it and change my mind.
His gate was open this time, so I drove straight to his house. I put my car in park, and prepared for a barking dog to come jump on my window, but that never happened. I waited there for several long seconds, but the only movement I saw was a few chickens and ducks on the other side of the yard. I got out of the car, holding my mace in the ready position just in case.
I happ
ened to love this house, and I admired it as I walked up the steps and onto the front porch. It was a traditional, Acadian style house, and Mr. Breaux was an architect, so there were beautiful details that I could only appreciate now that I had gone through the process of building a house myself. I couldn’t help but take them in as I walked tentatively onto the front porch.
I knocked twice and then took a step back, preparing myself for whatever was on the other side. I told myself it could be a booby trap and that I should be ready for anything. I heard the dog bark, and then a few seconds later, the sound of the door opening. It cracked slowly, and the next thing I knew I was standing eye-to-eye with Jacob. There was still a screen door separating us, but it was as close to him as I had ever been. I couldn't stop my eyes from roaming over in his face.
He was staring at me with that same stone-faced expression he wore every time. He cocked his head at me and let out a long, agitated sigh that basically asked what I was doing there.
I was too nervous to speak right away or even remember why I was there. I glanced down at the dog, who was standing patiently by Jacob's side, before glancing over his shoulder at the open living room. It didn't look like it used to when the Breauxs lived here. There wasn't much furniture at all. It looked like some sort of workshop.
Jacob adjusted his stance slightly to move in front of my line of vision. "Is there something I can help you with, Ms. Martin?" he asked.
I glanced at him and wasn't surprised to see that he was still not smiling. It was then that I remembered why I came. I held up that mace bottle and gave it a shake, returning his perturbed expression.
"This!" I said, triumphantly.
"What about it?"
"You, mister, had to trespass onto my property for it to end up on my front porch."
"Do you have a sign?" he asked.
I hesitated, wondering for a second if you had to have a sign for it to be considered trespassing. "You don't have to have a sign," I said, even though I wasn't really sure. "And you had to walk right up to my porch to put it where you did."
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