But I think of Daniel. I think of him searching through the hellish streets and digging through brothels for a year and a half, looking for Naomi. I think of all we went through together. And I know if I went missing, he’d tear the world apart to try and find me.
He’d never stop.
And . . . I smile. I’m with the right man. I might have had to go through hell to get to his side, but I’m where I need to be now.
Mike returns my smile tentatively, but he’s clearly confused. “You want to come in, honey?”
“No,” I tell him. “And I’m not your honey anymore. Becca is now.” I clasp his hand. “I hope you two are very happy together.”
“But . . . no,” Mike begins. “Regan, I want you—”
I shake my head. “I’m here to give you closure, Mike.” I give his hand a little squeeze. “You and I are done. I’ve moved on, and you did, too.”
He starts to cry again, and Daisy’s expressive face has gone from scowling to horrified all over again, which I’ll laugh about later when I tell Daniel all about this. “But, Regan, I love you, not Becca.”
“Then I suggest you give her some closure, too,” I say lightly and give him an impulsive hug. I pull away before he can entangle me in his arms again. “Goodbye, Mike.”
I hear his blubbering goodbye as Daisy and I walk down the hall. He doesn’t come after me. Mike’s not the type. And before, I wasn’t the type of girl that thought she needed that kind of guy.
Guess we’ve both changed.
Daniel
REGAN TELLS ME THAT SHE has visited Mike and that he’s happy she’s moved on. I give two shits about Mike’s mental state and still think that I’d be doing the world a favor by putting him down like the diseased worthless dog he is, but I figure Regan would not be okay with that. All that really matters is that she’s happy.
We had a good time visiting her parents again. They still treat me like I’m a god—as if falling in love while she has amnesia is some great accomplishment. The one good thing about visiting her parents is that they give us a ton of food that Regan and I eat for a couple days after. Maybe I should look into a cooking class. Regan’s not the best cook, and neither am I. One of us is going to have to learn to operate the stove for something other than heating up soup.
I did make a mistake of complaining about the cold, which prompted her dad to produce an old jacket that made me look like I was the Stay Puft Marshmallow Man. Later that night she had us watch Ghostbusters, which was, she said, sort of a horror movie. Regan asked me to put on the jacket, and she stuck two pieces of paper on my head to mimic the creature’s hat. I did so because she was laughing so hard that there were happy tears in her eyes. I would act out mime sketches in the park if it would keep that jaw-dropping smile on her face. But she agreed I needed warmer clothes, so the next day we went to one of the banks where Naomi had deposited the money she stole from the drug dealers. Regan was stunned by the amount. I kind of expected it. Naomi had been treated well primarily because she was so valuable.
“You can be a lady of leisure,” I joke as we leave the bank. I’d just wanted enough cash to buy my own jacket, one that didn’t feel like I was walking around wearing two pillows stitched together, but the amount in this one account leaves me thinking I could buy that island compound.
“That sounds terrible,” she says. “I’d go crazy sitting around doing nothing.”
“On the bright side, it’s a good thing you know about accounting.”
“I don’t think my calculator goes up that high,” she answers with disgruntlement.
Kissing her forehead, I place an arm around her shoulder as we walk to the bus stop. “Just think, you can put a sticker on your backpack that says ‘My other bag is Hermes.’”
She punches me in the gut, but the padding of the coat completely shields me. Huh, maybe this is good for something.
I keep myself busy doing handyman work for Nick. For a guy who could watch a mark for hours without moving, he’s showing surprisingly little patience with the mundane things around the apartment building.
“You really think that being a landlord is the right occupation for you?” I call after Nick’s retreating back as he stomps out of the first floor apartment to turn the water off. We are attempting to hook up the sink, but apparently we’ve done something wrong. I’m pretty good at breaking shit, shooting guns, and running cattle—but wiring and plumbing? That’s like trying to figure out the inner workings of a female mind. It takes time and patience, neither of which Nick is displaying nor am I interested in exerting.
Regan is off at the university trying to argue that she should be allowed to take her tests and get her degree, rather than go through an entire semester’s worth of classes again. One thing about living in a world with rules, you can’t hold a gun to someone’s head and force them to do your will. Or I guess I could, but Regan wouldn’t allow that. I flip the wrench in my hand. It’s heavy and the ratchet end would do a lot of damage. I could kill a man with a well-placed blow to the temple. Definitely incapacitate someone by a strike to the knee or the elbow. I swing out my arm to test the air resistance against the heavy steel tool.
“What are you doing?”
Jerking up, I see Regan at the door left ajar by Nick. “Ah, nothing?” I prevaricate, moving from my lunge position where I was kneecapping an imaginary foe with my new weapon. Guiltily, I set the wrench behind me on the counter and stride toward her.
“Looks like you were practicing some kind of assassin moves.” Skepticism is clear in her face and voice.
Pulling Regan into my arms, I place wet kisses along the column of her throat. “You never know when I’ll need to protect you from a spider or cockroach. I can’t allow my skills to get rusty.”
Tilting her head the side, she allows me greater access to the sensitive skin on her neck. She shudders when I reach the hidden spot behind her ear. Her arms slide around me and thoughts of home repair drop out of my head to be replaced by the feel of her lush body against mine. Regan’s been eating regularly since we've left Brazil, and it looks good on her—not to mention how much I enjoy the feel of her roundness in my palms.
“God, you are so fucking hot. Let's go upstairs.” Without waiting for a response, I lift her over my shoulder and squeeze one delectable ass cheek.
“I’m losing all the blood in my head,” she complains.
“Not to worry. Soon it will be between your legs.” This is a good position because she can’t see my smug expression.
“That’s you, baby boy.”
“I thought we’d agreed you’d call me Huge Dicked Daniel.”
My reward is a few more pummels to my back, but those little punches turn to caresses once we are inside the bedroom and my head is between her legs. Her hands knead my shoulders as I concentrate on the taste and smell of her fantastic pussy.
When I finally do enter her, she rewards me with a dreamy smile and a breathy observation. “You do have a huge cock, Daniel.”
“It’s getting bigger with every compliment,” I grunt, clutching the flesh at her hips and driving hard into her sweet warmth.
“It’s humongous. Bigger than an elephant.”
My quakes are from laughter, and I allow her to flip me over and ride me like I’m a wild mustang. Sex with Regan is glorious—fun, intense, passionate.
After a sweaty bout of bed play, Regan swirls her index finger in the whorls of my chest hair. If I had any sensation left in my body this might have been ticklish, but she has worn me out.
“You seem restless lately.”
“I think we need a bigger bed. Not enough room in here to really do everything that I’ve been fantasizing about.”
She tugs on a few hairs. “I’m serious. I’m worried about you. I don’t think general handyman is what you want to do for the rest of your life.”
I roll her over and pin her arms above her head. “If the rest of my life is spent with you, then it’s all good. That’s the only thing I h
ave going on of any importance.”
“Then you should stick your cock inside me again.” Her voice is playful, but her eyes contain a worry I don’t really know how to dispel. “Do you want to go home?”
“I am home.” I’m not deliberately misunderstanding Regan. It’s the truth. My home is with her. “As long as you love me, I’m complete.” She looks like she wants to protest or argue some more, but I’ve got other ideas. Swinging her up in my arms, I carry her to the shower, where I show her how good home feels. It doesn’t matter that I can’t go home until Naomi is done with her thing in Russia because I wouldn’t leave Regan anyway. Not for all the ranch land in Texas.
The next day, I’m back working on the sink. Nick’s at art class, and I’m getting a lot done without him around to curse in Ukrainian and kick the pipes. The bathroom sinks are connected, and I have to add a U trap and connect the garbage disposal and I’ll be done. Regan is wrong. I’m getting the hang of the fix-it stuff, and I don’t mind it. I’m so caught up in my work that I don’t hear the door open or the footsteps that trample into the apartment. I don’t even realize I’m not alone until I crawl out from underneath the sink to see my old man standing next to Regan, looking like he’s about thirty years older than his actual age.
“Dad,” I say warily, pulling off the leather work gloves and tossing them into the sink. “You’re a long way from the ranch.” I can’t remember the last time my old man left Texas. I blink a few times to make sure I’m not hallucinating.
“It was a direct flight from Dallas,” he says shortly and looks around the room at everything but me. I take the opportunity to look quizzically at Regan, but she just smiles mysteriously. “Nice place.”
“Not mine.” I can match him word for short word if that’s what it comes to. Regan throws up her hands like she can’t believe me and turns a brilliant smile on my dad. Given that Regan is hotter than a dozen Dallas Cowboy cheerleaders, that smile works on my dad better than bacon grease on a skillet. He blinks a couple of times in stunned appreciative silence, and then she takes mercy on him by walking over to me and slaying me with the same look.
Fortunately I’m building up immunity to it, so I’m only out of it for half the time. “So, Dad, it’s good to see you. Mom with you?”
He shakes his head. “Your sister . . .” He stops and clears his throat. The mention of Naomi makes me stiff as a board. “Your sister called and said she’s working on a project and that she can’t come home yet.”
“She emailed and said she was doing good.” I tell him. Part of my deal with Vasily is regular contact; sometimes he has to interrupt her to get her to conduct her daily check-in. Naomi gets lost in her own world a lot of the time.
Dad nods. “Yes.”
And then there’s nothing else we say to each other until Regan throws up her hands and cries, “For God’s sake. You two are impossible. Naomi called me and asked why we hadn’t gone to the ranch, and I said you couldn’t go home until she got back. She then told me she didn’t know when she was coming back, so we called your parents together. Daniel, your parents want you to go back.”
A rush of emotion rolls over me, and I stagger a step, grateful that Regan is right beside me. “Is that true?”
Dad nods, looking down at the floor at first, and then raises his wet eyes to meet mine. “We miss you, son. Your momma, she needs her boy.”
It’s hard to speak because I’ve got a big old frog in my throat, but after a minute I’m able to turn to Regan. “You wanna come see my home?”
She gives me that heart slaying smile and says, “I’m with you until my last breath.”
Thirty-One
Regan
WE DRIVE DOWN FROM MINNESOTA to Texas so I can take my boxes of DVDs, my clothes, and my tiny hatchback car with us. Daisy weeps the entire time we say goodbye, promising to come visit. Nick looks as stoic and Ukrainian as ever, though he and Daniel exchange a quick, one-armed bro-hug before we depart.
It’s strange, but I’m not sad to be leaving Minnesota behind. It’s a clean break. I’m transferring my college hours to a local university. I don’t have much left in Minnesota that I can’t take a weekend and visit. And if Daniel is going to Texas, then that’s where I want to be.
We take a few days and drive down, stopping at rest-stops and taking pictures next to “WELCOME TO—” state signs for fun. We hit up a few tourist traps, eat at greasy spoon diners, and park the car and make love in the cramped backseat when we can’t stand it any longer. It’s the most fun I’ve ever had on a road trip. Every day that I wake up and see Daniel’s face next to mine in the bed, I am so thankful that he’s all for me, that he never gives up on me, even when I’m at my most needy and demanding. Not every guy would take up with a damaged girl fresh out of a whorehouse. But Daniel has never made me feel dirty or used or anything but incredibly beautiful.
So if he wants to go to Texas and help his parents on the farm? We are heading to Texas. There’s not a question in my mind.
Texas is definitely not what I expect. I guess I have nonstop cowboys and longhorns on my mind, so it’s surprising to me when I notice that the biggest thing about Texas is that . . . it’s flat. It’s flat for miles and miles around. There are some stumpy trees, but overall, there’s endless rolling grass. Daniel tells me that west Texas, which is where we are headed, is different from east Texas, which is nothing but trees. I think he’s pulling my leg, but whatever.
The Hays ranch is right smack dab in the middle of nowhere. I’m surprised when we turn off a road and see a big metal gate with a sideways H bisected by a D. “That’s our brand,” Daniel tells me, and there’s a hint of pride in his voice. It’s fascinating.
“And what is it exactly that you brand?” I ask him as we drive through the gate.
“You know. Steer, calves, blondes that don’t behave.” He gives me a waggle of his eyebrows that makes me snort.
“Guess I’d better behave, then,” I tell him in a sultry voice, and I love the fact that he groans and clutches at my knee.
“You’d better,” he tells me. “Because I can’t have wood in my pants when I hug my mom.”
I’m giggling as we roll down the long driveway and park in front of the ranch house. It’s a monstrosity of wood and stone and has a long, wrap-around porch. In any other state, it’d be called a mansion. Here, it’s called home.
As soon as we get out of the car, two people come out of the house. It’s Daniel’s dad and a woman with a cap of gray hair that must be his mother. She’s weeping and has her arms outstretched even before she makes it off the porch. Then she’s hugging Daniel and crying and his dad piles on, and they’re lost in their own little world for a few minutes.
Then, Daniel’s mother breaks away, wiping at her cheeks, and heads for me with her arms outstretched. “Oh my. This must be Regan. She’s so beautiful, Daniel.” And she envelops me in a warm hug before I can sidle away.
Her touch makes me stiffen for a moment, but then Daniel’s hand goes to my shoulders, and I’m okay. “Mom, I told you—”
“Oh,” she gasps, her hands flying away. “I’m so sorry—”
“It’s okay,” I say quickly, before anyone can get offended. “I’m fine.”
She gives me a sweet smile. “I was so excited to see my new daughter.”
New daughter? Is there something I don’t know about? I give Daniel a suspicious look, but he only pulls me in for a kiss. “I told her we were a package deal. I think she took that as we’re getting married.”
“Oh,” I say, startled. “Like . . . right now?”
Daniel laughs. “Maybe not right now, but . . . soon?” There’s a question in his eyes, and I’m surprised and pleased all at once.
“Maybe when I get a real proposal,” I tease him, sass in my voice.
“Demanding little fighter,” he says, a grin on his face.
And then his mother is chattering up a storm, and his father has this patient look on his face that reminds me so much o
f Daniel in his quieter moments, and like that, we’re home.
Hours later, I’m crawling into bed with Daniel. The ranch house has a split-house plan, which I’ve never seen before. Daniel and I are in what feels like a separate little house, connected to the main house by a covered walkway in the back. There’s a bedroom, a luxurious bathroom, and even a tiny kitchen. Across from our little house is the pool, and in the distance are the stables. Daniel tells me the house was built as a mother-in-law cabin, but was never used until now. It’s perfect, really. We’re private enough from his family but close enough to spend lots of time with them.
The day has been a busy one. I’ve been given the grand tour of the ranch, complete with hundreds of longhorns, a trip through the barn, and a ride around the perimeter. It’s like they own their own little island of land.
I like that. It’s like a mini-fortress, but instead of gunmen, there are cattle. Either way, it makes me feel safe.
Daniel seems to be happy, too. There’s a light in his eyes that I never saw in Rio, and when he looks at me, he can’t stop smiling. I know what it is—his picture is complete. He’s found Naomi, and even though she won’t come home, she’s safe. He’s home with his family. He’s got me.
“Tomorrow,” he tells me as he drags my body against his and begins to press kisses on my neck. “Tomorrow, we ride horses, and I’ll show you the newborn baby goats. You’ll like those. Cute little buggers.” His hand slides to my breast and cups it.
“Mmm.” I drag my fingers through his hair. “Are you planning on turning me into a farm girl? Because I’m warning you, the moment something poops, I’m out of there. You might be disappointed.”
He chuckles and rolls my nipple between his fingers, distracting me. “Fighter, I am never disappointed with you.”
For some reason, this brings tears to my eyes. “No?” It comes out a little softer and more tear-warbled than I wanted it to be. Daniel thinks I’m strong, but I seem to be weepy.
“Never,” he tells me fervently and rolls on top of me. Then, he gazes down at me, his fingers grazing my jaw. “How could I ever be disappointed in you, Regan? You’re a little damaged. So am I. Maybe we’re both a little more fucked-up than normal, but we’ll be nice and fucked-up together. And someday, we’re going to have a family, and Naomi will be home, and we’ll all manage the land together.”
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