Evening Class

by Maeve Binchy

  CONTENTS

  TITLE PAGE

  DEDICATION

  AIDAN

  SIGNORA

  BILL

  KATHY

  LOU

  CONNIE

  LADDY

  FIONA

  VIAGGIO

  ABOUT THE AUTHOR

  BOOKS BY MAEVE BINCHY

  COPYRIGHT

  To Gordon with all my love and

  grazie per tutto

  AIDAN

  There was a time back in 1970 when they would love filling in a questionnaire.

  Aidan might find one in a newspaper at a weekend. Are You a Thoughtful Husband? or possibly What Do You Know About Show Biz? They scored high on the answers to Are You Well Suited? and How Well Do You Treat Your Friends?

  But that was long ago.

  Nowadays if Nell or Aidan Dunne saw a list of questions, they didn’t rush eagerly to fill them in and see how they scored. It would be too painful to answer How Often Do You Make Love? (a) More than four times a week? (b) Twice a week on average? (c) Every Saturday night? (d) Less than this? Who would want to acknowledge how very much less than this, and look up what kind of interpretation the questionnaire sages had applied to this admission?

  The page would be turned nowadays if either of them saw a survey asking Are You Compatible? And there had been no row, no falling out. Aidan had not been unfaithful to Nell, and he assumed that she had not strayed either. Was it arrogant to assume this? She was an attractive-looking woman; other men would definitely find her worth a second glance, as they always had.

  Aidan knew that a great many men were just smug and unobservant, and were genuinely astounded when it was proved that their wives had been having affairs. But Nell was different. Nell wouldn’t meet anyone else, make love to another man. He knew her so well, he would know if this was the case. Anyway, where would she have met anyone? And if she had met someone she fancied, where would they have gone? No, it was a ludicrous idea.

  Possibly everyone else felt like this. It could well be one of the things they didn’t tell you about getting older. Like having aches and pains in the backs of your legs after a long walk, like not being able to hear or understand the lyrics of pop songs anymore. Maybe you just drifted apart from the person you had thought was the center of the world.

  It was quite likely that every other man of forty-eight going on forty-nine felt the same. All over the world there could be men who wanted their wives to be eager and excited about everything. It wasn’t only about lovemaking, it was about enthusiasm for other things as well.

  It had been so long now since Nell had asked about his job, and his hopes and dreams in the school. There was a time when she had known the name of every teacher and many of the pupils, when she would talk about the large classes, and the posts of responsibility and the school excursions and plays, about Aidan’s projects for the Third World.

  But now she hardly knew what was happening. When the new minister for education was appointed, Nell just shrugged. I suppose she can’t be worse than the last one, was her only comment. Nell knew nothing of the Transition Year except to call it a bloody luxury. Imagine giving children all that time to think and discuss and…find themselves…instead of getting down to their exams.

  And Aidan didn’t blame her.

  He had become very dull explaining things. He could hear his own voice echoing in his ears, there was a kind of drone to it, and his daughters would raise their eyes to heaven wondering why at the ages of twenty-one and nineteen they should have to listen to any of this.

  He tried not to bore them. Aidan knew it was a characteristic of teachers; they were so used to the captive audience in the classroom they could go on for far too long, approaching every subject from several sides until they were sure that the listener had grasped the drift.

  He made huge efforts to key in to their lives.

  But Nell never had any stories or any issues to discuss about the restaurant where she worked as a cashier. “Ah, for heaven’s sake, Aidan, it’s a job. I sit there and I take their credit cards, or their checks or their cash, and I give them change and a receipt. And then at the end of the day I come home and at the end of the week I get my wages. And that’s the way it is for ninety percent of the world. We don’t have issues and dramas and power struggles; we’re normal, that’s all.”

  It was not intended to wound him or put him down, but still it was a slap in the face. It was obvious that he himself must have been going on and on about confrontations and conflicts in the staff room. And the days were gone…obviously long gone, when Nell was waiting eagerly to know what had happened, always rooting for him, championing his cause and declaring that his enemies were her enemies. Aidan ached for the companionship, the solidarity, and the teamwork of other times.

  Perhaps when he became principal it would return.

  Or was this fooling himself? Possibly the headship would still hold little interest for his wife and two daughters. His home just ticked along easily. Recently he had an odd feeling that he had died some time ago and they were all managing perfectly well. Nell went to and from the restaurant. She went to see her mother once a week; no, Aidan needn’t come, she had said, it was just a nice family chat. Her mother liked to see them all regularly to know they were all right.

  “And are you all right?” Aidan had asked anxiously.

  “You’re not with the Fifth Years now doing amateur philosophy,” Nell had said. “I’m as all right as anyone, I suppose. Can’t you leave it at that?”

  But of course Aidan couldn’t leave it. He told her it wasn’t amateur philosophy it was Introduction to Philosophy, and it wasn’t Fifth Years, it was Transition Years. He would never forget the look Nell had given him. She had begun to say something but then changed her mind. Her face was full of distant pity. She looked at him as she might have looked at a poor tramp sitting on the street, his coat tied with a rope and drinking the dregs of a ginger wine bottle.

  He fared no better with his daughters.

  Grania worked in the bank but had little to report from it, to her father at any rate. Sometimes he came across her talking to her friends, and she seemed much more animated. And it was the same with Brigid. The travel agency was fine, Dad, stop going on about it. Of course it’s fine, and the free holiday twice a year, and the long lunch hours because three girls covered two hours.

  Grania didn’t want to talk about the whole system of banking and whether it was unfair to encourage people to take loans that they would find difficult to repay. She didn’t invent the rule, she told him, she had an In basket on her desk and she dealt with what was in it each day. That was it. Dead simple. Brigid didn’t have any views on whether the travel trade was selling tourists some kind of dream it could never deliver. “Dad, if they don’t want a holiday nobody’s twisting their arms, they don’t have to come in and buy one.”

  Aidan wished he were more observant. When had all this happened…this growing apart? There was a time when the girls had sat all clean and shiny after their bath time in pink dressing gowns while he told them stories and Nell would look on pleased from across the room. But that was years back. There had been good times since then. When they were doing their exams, for example, Aidan remembered doing out revision sheets for them, planning how they should study to the best advantage. They had been grateful then. He remembered the celebrations when Grania got her leaving certificate and later when she was accepted in the bank. There had been a lunch on each occasion in a big hotel, the waiter had taken photographs of them all. And it had been the same with Brigid, a lunch and a picture session. They looked a perfectly happy family in those pictures. Was it all a facade?

  In a way it must have been, because here he was now only a few short years later and he coul
d not sit down with his wife and two daughters, the people he loved most in the world, and tell them his fears that he might not be made principal.

  He had put in so much time in that school, worked so many extra hours, involved himself in every aspect of it, and somewhere in his bones he felt that he would be passed over.

  Another man, almost precisely his own age, might well get the post. This was Tony O’Brien, a man who had never stayed on after hours to support a school team playing a home match, a man who had not involved himself in the restructuring of the curriculum, in the fund-raising for the new building project. Tony O’Brien, who smoked quite openly in the corridors of a school that was meant to be a smoke-free zone, who had his lunch in a pub, letting everyone know it was a pint and a half and a cheese sandwich. A bachelor, in no sense a family man, often seen with a girl half his age on his arm, and yet he was being suggested as a very possible successor as head of the school.

  Many things had confused Aidan in the last few years, but nothing as much as this. By any standards Tony O’Brien should not be in the running at all. Aidan ran his hands through his hair, which was thinning. Tony O’Brien, of course, had a huge shock of thick brown hair falling into his eyes and resting on his collar. Surely the world hadn’t gone so mad that they would take this into consideration when choosing a principal?

  Lots of hair good, thinning hair bad…Aidan grinned. If he could laugh at some of the worst bits of the paranoia, maybe he could keep self-pity at bay. And he would have to laugh to himself. Somehow there was no one else to laugh with these days.

  There was a questionnaire in one of the Sunday papers: Are You Tense? Aidan filled in the answers truthfully. He scored over 75 on the scale, which he knew was high. He wasn’t, however, quite prepared for the terse and dismissive verdict. If you scored over 70, you are in fact a clenched fist. Lighten up, friend, before you explode.

  They had always said that these tests were just jokes really, space fillers. That’s what Aidan and Nell used to say when they emerged as less well than they had hoped from a questionnaire. But this time, of course, he was on his own. He told himself that newspapers had to think of something to take up half a page, otherwise the edition would appear with great white blanks.

  But still it upset him. Aidan knew that he was jumpy, that was one thing. But a clenched fist? No wonder they might think twice about him as headmaster material.

  He had written his answers on a separate sheet of paper lest anyone in the family would find and read his confessional of worries and anxieties and sleeplessness.

  Sundays were the days that Aidan now found hardest to bear. In the past when they were a real family, a happy family, they had gone on picnics in the summer and taken healthy, bracing walks when the weather was cold. Aidan boasted that his family would never be like those Dublin families who didn’t know anywhere except the area they lived themselves.

  One Sunday he would take them on a train south and they would climb Bray Head and look into the neighboring county of Wicklow, another Sunday they would go north to the seaside villages of Rush and Lusk and Skerries, small places, each with its own character, all on the road that would eventually take them up to the Border. He had arranged day excursions to Belfast for them too, so that they would not grow up in ignorance of the other part of Ireland.

  Those had been some of his happiest times, the combination of schoolteacher and father, explainer and entertainer. Daddy knew the answer to everything: where to get the bus out to Carrickfergus Castle, or the Ulster Folk Museum, and a grand place for chips before getting on the train back home.

  Aidan remembered a woman on the train telling Grania and Brigid that they were lucky little girls to have a daddy who taught them so much. They had nodded solemnly to agree with her, and Nell had whispered to him that the woman had obviously fancied Aidan but she wasn’t going to get her hands on him. And Aidan had felt twelve feet tall and the most important man on earth.

  Now on a Sunday he felt increasingly that he was hardly noticed in his home.

  They had never been people for the traditional Sunday lunch, roast beef or lamb or chicken and great dishes of potatoes and vegetables, the way so many other families were. Because of their outings and adventures, Sunday had been a casual day in their home. Aidan wished that there was some fixed point in it. He went to Mass. Nell sometimes came with him, but usually she was going on somewhere afterward to meet one of her sisters or a friend from work. And, of course, nowadays the shops were open on Sundays, so there were plenty of places to go.

  The girls never went to Mass. It was useless to talk to them. He had given up when they were seventeen. They didn’t get up until lunchtime and then they made sandwiches, looked at whatever they had videotaped during the week, lounged around in dressing gowns, washed their hair, their clothes, spoke on the phone to friends, asked other friends in for coffee.

  They behaved as if they lived in a flat together with their mother as a pleasant, eccentric landlady who had to be humored. Grania and Brigid contributed a very small amount of money each for bed and board, and handed it over with a bad grace, as if they were being bled dry. To his knowledge they contributed nothing else to the household budget. Not a tin of biscuits, a tub of ice cream, or a carton of fabric softener ever came from their purses, but they were quick to grizzle if these things weren’t readily available.

  Aidan wondered how Tony O’Brien spent his Sundays.

  He knew that Tony certainly didn’t go to Mass, he had made that clear to the pupils when they questioned him: “Sir, sir, do you go to Mass on Sundays?”

  “Sometimes I do, when I feel in the mood for talking to God,” Tony O’Brien had said.

  Aidan knew this. It had been reported gleefully by the boys and girls, who used it as ammunition against those who said they had to go every Sunday under pain of mortal sin.

  He had been very clever, too clever, Aidan thought. He didn’t deny the existence of God, instead he had made out that he was a friend of God’s and friends only drop in to have a chat when they are in good form. It made Tony O’Brien have the inside track somehow while Aidan Dunne was left on the outside, no friend of the Almighty, just a time server. It was one of the many annoying and unfair things about it all.

  On a Sunday Tony O’Brien probably got up late…he lived in what they called a town house nowadays, which was the equivalent of a flat. Just one big room and kitchen downstairs, and one big bedroom and bathroom upstairs. The door opened straight onto the street. He had been observed leaving in the morning accompanied by young women.

  There was a time when that would have ended his career let alone his chances of promotion…back in the 1960s teachers had been sacked for having relationships outside marriage. Not, of course, that this was right. In fact, they had all protested very strongly at the time. But still, a man who had never committed to any woman, to parade a succession of them through his town house, and still be considered headmaster material, a role model for the students…that wasn’t right either.

  What would Tony O’Brien be doing now, at two-thirty on a wet Sunday? Maybe around to lunch at one of the other teachers’ houses. Aidan had never been able to ask him since they literally didn’t have lunch, and Nell would reasonably have inquired why he should impose on them a man he had been denouncing for five years. He might still be entertaining a lady from last night. Tony O’Brien said he owed a great debt of gratitude to the people of China since there was an excellent take-away only three doors away…lemon chicken, sesame toast, and chili prawns were always great with a bottle of Australian Chardonnay and the Sunday papers. Imagine, at his age, a man who could be a grandfather, entertaining girls and buying Chinese food on a Sunday.

  But then again, why not?

  Aidan Dunne was a fair man. He had to admit that people had a choice in such matters. Tony O’Brien didn’t drag these women back to his town house by their hair. There was no law that said he should be married and bring up two distant daughters as Aidan had done. And
in a way it was to the man’s credit that he wasn’t a hypocrite, he didn’t try to disguise his lifestyle.

  It was just that things had changed so very much. Someone had moved the goalposts about what was acceptable and what was not, and they hadn’t consulted Aidan first.

  And how would Tony spend the rest of the day?

  Surely they wouldn’t go back to bed again for the afternoon? Maybe he would go for a walk or the girl would go home and Tony would play music; he often spoke of his CDs. When he had won £350 on the match four of the Lotto, he had hired a carpenter who was working on the school extension, and paid him the money straight out to make a rack that would hold five hundred CDs. Everyone had been impressed. Aidan had been jealous. Where would you get the money to buy that many CDs? He knew for a fact that Tony O’Brien bought about three a week. When would you get the time to listen to them? And then Tony would stroll down to the pub and meet a few friends, or go to a foreign-language movie with subtitles, or to a jazz club.

  Maybe it was all this moving around that made him more interesting and gave him the edge on everyone else. Certainly on Aidan. Aidan’s Sundays would be nothing that would interest anyone.

  When he came back from late Mass around one o’clock and asked would anyone like a bacon-and-egg, there was a chorus of disgust from his daughters: “God no, Daddy!” or “Daddy, please don’t even mention something like that, and could you keep the kitchen door closed if you’re going to have one?” If Nell were at home, she might raise her eyes from a novel and ask, Why? Her tone was never hostile only bewildered as if it were the most unlikely suggestion that had ever been made. Left to herself Nell might make a salad sandwich at three.

  Aidan thought back wistfully to his mother’s table, where the chat of the week took place and no one was excused without a very good reason. Of course, dismantling this had been all his own doing. Making them into free spirits who would discover the length and breadth of County Dublin and even the neighboring counties on their one full day off. How could he have known it would lead to his being displaced and restless, wandering from the kitchen where everyone heated up their own food in a microwave, to the sitting room where there was some program that he didn’t want to see on television, to the bedroom where it was so long since he had made love with his wife, he could barely endure looking at it until it was time to go to sleep.