In. The. Least.
Still, I wasn’t sure if I had the will or strength to stop what was happening. Hell, I wasn’t even sure if I really wanted to. This fucked-up connection between us was hitting its peak, and I felt powerless to stop it. I also wondered if he was going to unleash my powers again. While a scary thought, I wanted this.
I wanted this.
Griffin’s hands slid into my hair in a painful, tangled grip, and his eyes locked onto mine as he begged me to concede. “Baby, please…”
I wanted to say no. My mind was still semi-functional, and it was trying to remind me of all the things we still didn’t know. It was trying to warn me how dangerous this was. It was trying to rationalize that I had no idea what giving myself to Griffin might do. If I was already having trouble staying away from him, what would it be like after letting him claim me?
“I…I don’t know…I’m scared,” I confessed. “The intensity is scaring me.” His face softened again, but this time, I didn’t want to slap him. This time, I wanted to lose myself in everything that he was.
“I’ll never hurt you, Avalon,” he vowed. “Never.”
“I don’t know that,” I argued.
“Yes, you do,” he replied confidently, and that just confused me more.
“No, I don’t.”
He didn’t reply immediately, but when he finally did, it wasn’t with words and there was no doubt I was going to be screwed both literally and figuratively.
Chapter 19
Griffin~
I wasn’t going to fuck her.
Oh, I wanted to.
I wanted to bury my dick so deep inside her that she’ll be left feeling like I was living insider her permanently. Still, I’ve waited eighteen years for this fucking girl and our first time was not going to be in a goddamn linen closet at school. No fucking way.
Our first time was going to be at my house where we’d have privacy all night. It was going to be at my house where there’d be no interruptions and I’d have all the time in the world to worship that tight, little body of hers.
However, I’d been feeling fucked the hell up all day, and even though I knew it was because she had turned eighteen, I still needed to take the edge off before I did something too stupid to be able to come back from.
Like mount the girl in front of God and everyone.
After I left her house that night, I had gone home and had done my best to come up with a Plan B since seduction had been taken off the table, but I hadn’t been able to come up with anything. I’ve stayed away from this girl every day since because I’d still been trying to come up with another way to get her to trust me and be with me, but I hadn’t been able to come up with not one goddamn idea.
Easton had been no help, either. He’s been too busy brooding because he wasn’t going out of his mind like I was, and…well, regret was a real motherfucker. He was starting to panic over his situation with Neve, and while I loved him and felt for him, I had my own goddamn problems.
Holding the beautiful girl’s gaze, I placed my hands on the top of her bare thighs-thank God for gym shorts-and slid them upward until my thumbs were resting just centimeters away from her pussy lips. I watched as her eyes were about to go white, but then I quickly raised my left hand to cradle her face. “Stay with me, baby,” I urged. “Stay with me and I’ll make this so good for you.”
“I don’t think I can,” she admitted, but her eyes were back to their brilliant blue shade.
“Then limit it to this room,” I instructed.
Avalon shook her head. “I don’t know if I can,” she said. “I’ve…I’ve never done this before.”
“Look at me,” I told her. “Look at me and don’t turn away, okay?” Avalon nodded, and it felt like the best kind of victory.
With my left hand still cradling her face, I let the fingers of my right hand inch their way forward, doing my best to keep us both grounded. However, since I was also new to this, I couldn’t guarantee that my attempts would be successful. This was the first girl that I’ve ever touched, so there was a good possibility of me losing my shit, too.
My fingers slowly crept inside her shorts and I used them to yank on the fabric of her shorts to create room for my hand. The sound of tearing fabric added to the lust that was already engulfing us in this room, but it sounded right. It sounded desperate and that’s exactly how I felt.
Fucking desperate.
My thumb slid between Avalon’s wet pussy lips and her eyes closed on a moan that shook the shelves.
Literally.
“Baby, look at me,” I urged again. “Stay with me, Avalon.”
She did as I asked, but her eyes weren’t completely blue as she stared back at me, moaning as my thumb slid through her soft folds, her body jerking every time it hit her sensitive clit. Watching her body react to my touch was almost enough to forgive my father for making us sit through those godawful orgies to learn how to please a woman.
Almost.
“Does that feel good?” I knew it did, but I needed her to focus, so that she didn’t move the entire building to another location. Her abilities were riding at an all-time high right now that it was her birthday, and I wouldn’t be surprised if she was strong enough to do it. After all, I knew what she was feeling. When I had turned eighteen, I had felt invincible.
“Yes,” she whimpered. “So good…”
I stepped closer, and when I slid a finger inside her tight channel, the shelves shook again as her head dropped back on a low, throaty moan. “Relax, baby,” I said, though the grip she had on my finger was damn near making me lose my mind.
“More,” she begged. “I need more, Griffin.”
My hand tangled in her hair and I forced her head up. “Look at me,” I demanded. “Stay with me, Avalon.”
She opened her eyes, and that white film was still a soft layer over her brilliant blue. “I need more,” she insisted.
I dropped my forehead on hers, sure I was going to go insane before I left this room. I wanted this girl more than I wanted to take my next breath, and I wasn’t sure how much longer I could control us both. I had my finger in her pussy, and she was responding exactly as I had hoped she would. Still, with my hard dick fighting to break free, I hadn’t realized just how bad this idea was until now. However, like a moth to a flame, I had stayed away from her long enough, and I just couldn’t help myself anymore.
Giving into her demands, I slid another finger inside her and I knew my dick was going to shoot off the second I got inside her. Avalon was so tight that there was no way I was going to last long enough to make it pleasurable for her. I was going to have to drive her insane with foreplay when the time came.
When the second finger joined the first, Avalon’s hips pushed forward, and I wished with all my soul that it was my dick penetrating her and not my fingers. “I think I’m losing my mind,” I panted honestly.
Her hands fisted in my shirt, and she was getting more and more aggressive, and I knew it was the maturity of her powers causing such violent responses from her. “Griffin, I need you.”
“Baby, you have me,” I promised. “You have me forever.” And as much as I loved hearing her say it, I knew it was the bond speaking, and I hated my father for that. Had we grown up together like we should have, it’d be me she liked. It’d be me she was craving. It’d be me who she wanted to be with. Everything she was feeling now was a combination of it being her birthday and sheer, unadulterated lust. We were going to be bound together for life, but that didn’t mean Avalon would ever come to like me. She might just give in because what we were feeling right now was some powerful and addicting shit. I couldn’t imagine what having sex with her was going to feel like.
Fuck it.
I pulled my fingers out and Avalon let out a desperate whimper, but I ignored it. No way was I leaving her unsatisfied. I grabbed the waistband of her shorts and yanked them off, forcing Avalon to lift her ass or rip the fabric off completely.
The second the mate
rial cleared her feet, I dropped to my knees, tossed her thighs over my shoulders, then buried my face in her pussy. My tongue ran the entire length of her folds, and when it reached her clit, I slid two fingers back in her cunt, and I ate her out with all the frantic yearning that I was feeling.
That I’ve been feeling.
Her hands gripped fistfuls of my hair and shit started flying all around us. My only hope was that if someone did walk in, Avalon would be shocked enough to get her shit under control. But until then, I wasn’t giving a shit about anything other than making this girl cum on my face.
“Oh, God…Griffin…oh, God…”
I let her moan out her pleasure as I worked her long enough to finally bring her to orgasm. As soon as I felt her pussy contracting around my fingers, I pulled back long enough to be an asshole. “Cum on my face, so I can taste you for the rest of the day. Because, baby, you’re out of your mind if you think you won’t be bleeding all over me tonight.”
When I went back to eating her pussy, I bit down on her clit, and Avalon let out a scream as she came all over my face and fingers. “Griffin…”
For good measure, I pulled a second one from her, but when the door shook, I stood up, then withdrew my fingers from her convulsing, virgin cunt.
I also kissed her.
I smeared her release all over her lips and tongue, and she didn’t stop me. She didn’t stop anything. She just held on as I went crazy with need.
When I finally broke off the kiss, I reached down, grabbed her shorts, then put them back on her. Avalon stood quietly as I redressed her, and I wondered what she was thinking. I wondered if it was going to be regret or resignation in her eyes.
“Griffin?” she finally whispered.
I looked down at her. “Yeah, baby?”
“You scare me,” she confessed, her eyes closed with her confession.
“Not half as much as you scare me,” I said, confessing myself.
Chapter 20
Avalon~
After…after what happened in the linen storeroom, Griffin had put me to rights, and had just held me afterwards. It had been the most confusing experience I’ve ever been through.
Of course, I wasn’t confused by the lustful part of it all because teenage hormones were no joke, even without all the extra crap Griffin and I had going. Still, the holding me afterwards had mattered more than what had occurred earlier between us.
I had felt whole, safe, and loved.
It had been scary as hell.
After a while of holding me, Griffin had let me go, and we had cleaned up the scattered towels and gym clothes that had flown around the room, and that was another thing. I had no idea how to control my abilities when Griffin had me feeling so out of control. However, after my first orgasm ever, I wasn’t necessarily opposed to practicing if I had to.
When Griffin had walked us out of the storeroom, he had given me a kiss on the forehead and had told me he needed to check in with his brother, but he had warned me that we were far from over. With no choice but to let him go, I had redressed-gym class forgotten-and had waited for Neve by her American History classroom. I was also kind of relieved when Bonnie had sent me a text to tell me that she and Gale were heading out to get some fast-food for lunch. I had turned down her invitation as I had pretended to tease her about giving them some privacy.
And unfortunately for my sister, as soon as the bell had rung for lunch, I had abducted her and had dragged her out to the baseball field, lunch sacrificed for what was I about to tell her.
Because this was big.
“Okay, so what was so important that you feel the need to starve me,” she asked. “I’m already half out of my mind today, I seriously don’t need to starve on top of it.”
“Your powers messing with you, too?”
“The sensations haven’t lessened a bit since this morning,” she admitted. “I still feel higher than a dope fiend in a meth lab.”
“Anything from Easton?”
She shrugged. “He was giving me the stink-eye all during first period this morning, but that’s about it.”
I thought about that. “I wonder why you’re not feeling this thing the way I am,” I muttered, thinking out loud. “It’s so odd.”
“Maybe it’s because you’ve never been with another boy,” she suggested. “Maybe Griffin being your first kiss is…I don’t know. Maybe it’s making you more loopy than normal.”
That was my cue.
“Speaking of firsts…”
Neve’s eyes widened. “Yeah…?”
I gnawed on my lower lip for a few seconds before I blurted out the entire sordid, sexual escapade that had taken place in the linen storeroom. And though I probably should have, I left nothing out. I told her how Griffin had skipped second base and had gone straight to third. I even told her how he had gotten stuck somewhere in between third base and a home run in leaving his face buried between my thighs as he rocked my world.
Neve didn’t say anything for what felt like eons, but really was only a few seconds. She was looking at me like she’s never seen me before and it was making me feel even weirder, if you could even imagine that, considering how this day’s been going.
Finally, she spoke and asked, “What?”
I let out a deep, long, pathetic sigh. “C’mon, Neve,” I grumbled.
“Avalon, that’s not like you,” she pointed out. “You’ve never even kissed a boy before. How…why?” Neve shook her head. “I don’t understand.”
“It has to be the bond,” I said. “There’s no other explanation for…for that insanity.”
Neve snorted. “Or teenage hormones finally surfacing.”
“It was more than that,” I argued. “Neve…the way he held me afterwards was…strange.”
Her brows furrowed. “What do you mean? How stranger can this day get?”
I laughed. “Touché.”
She grinned. “I’m not trying to downplay what happened, I’m just staying shit’s fucked-up.”
I nodded because I totally agreed. “It’s just…as explosive as what happened was, having Griffin hold me close afterwards felt so…defining.” I shook my head, frustrated. “I don’t know how to explain it, but…I’m confused about what’s supposed to happen.”
“What do you mean?”
“Okay, so…so say I agree to date.”
“Okay…”
“Do we live here forever? Is he going to expect me to go live with him somewhere else?” I asked. “And what if I decide not to date him? What happens to me? Am I just supposed to go on with my life and pretend that he doesn’t exist? That what we have doesn’t exist?”
Neve’s face softened and I knew it was because I was sounding unhinged. “I’m afraid that those are all questions that only he can answer for you, Avalon,” she said, and I knew she was right. “Or…”
“Or…?”
“We could always drive up to Rýkr and find out the answers ourselves,” she suggested. “I mean, Mom and Dad don’t have them and Griffin and Easton both have their own personal agendas with this thing. Maybe we can drive up there and ask to talk to someone who knows what’s going on. Find out why this is happening to us.”
I wasn’t opposed to her suggestion, but I was past needing answers. Now, while I wanted them, I was at the point where I needed to know if I could survive without Griffin in my life. With every passing second and every thought, look, touch, kiss, and that craziness that happened earlier, I felt like I was…fusing myself to him. If soulmates truly did exist, then that’s what this had to be. He said my soul recognized his, and I was starting to believe him.
“Look, I’m not afraid to leave Mom and Dad because we were going to do that after graduation anyway,” I said. “The plan was to grow up and be adults, so it’s not…moving away that I’m concerned with.”
“What is it, then?”
“It’s being thrust into a world that I don’t understand,” I told her. “I know what to expect in this world, Neve. I have no
idea what it’d be like to live in Rýkr. To live in a place where there are others like us. Where…I don’t know. I don’t want to think it’s this sinister place, but…I’m not sure that it isn’t.”
My sister’s arms wrapped around me and I knew it was because she was worried for me. So far, her bond with Easton seemed optional. She wasn’t going out of her mind, and she wasn’t craving him the way I was craving Griffin. There was still hope for her if this wasn’t what she wanted. I wasn’t sure if there was any hope left for me.
When Neve pulled back, she said, “Look, after school today, we’ll go home, talk with Mom and Dad, eat dinner, then make our way to wherever those two assholes live and demand answers.”
I laughed.
Only Neve could make me laugh in a middle of an honest-to-God freak out. “Grand plan,” I chuckled.
Neve smiled. “Look, I’m starving, and I need to eat,” she said. “Let’s go get some food, ignore the Keenstones for the rest of the day, then commence with our plan.” She looked her arm in mine. “Besides, we still have to graduate, Avalon. That still give us a few more months before we have to decide anything, right?”
I nodded. “Good point.”
As we made our way back to the cafeteria, I confessed, “Even though it’s a crazy feeling and I feel like I’m losing my mind, I kind of wish you were experiencing the same thing. It’d make me feel better if we were going through this together.”
Neve shrugged. “Maybe they got it wrong, and I’m not really paired up with Easton,” she said.
I looked over at her. “You really don’t feel anything for him?”
She scrunched her nose. “I mean…I felt the attraction, but that’s not saying much since his looks are what they are,” she replied. “I just…I don’t feel the pull that you keep describing. When I get past Easton’s looks, I feel…annoyed.”
“What a mess,” I grumbled.
“True,” she agreed. “But now that we have a plan, I’m feeling much better.”
I leaned my head on her shoulder. “Thanks, Neve.”
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