by Katie Cross
“What does a peacock symbolize, Bianca?”
“Beauty and power.”
“Fantastic ideals, aren’t they? Especially together.” She twirled the feather between her fingertips as she approached my desk. “Now, smell this and tell me what it’s made out of.”
She extended the bottle of ink.
“I can’t smell anything.”
“Strange, don’t you think? Most ink has a bitter scent. What you don’t smell is ink made from the juice of unripened white mulberries.”
She dipped the feather in the liquid and held it up. The tip didn’t change. “It’s a very special ink because it’s the only white ink ever created.”
Miss Mabel wrote across the top of the Veritas potion directions. Nothing showed up. She picked it up and motioned for me to take it to the hearth, where a low fire burned. “Go,” she said. “Hold it up to the heat and see what it says.”
Obeying her command, I crouched down near the flames. As if written that moment, Miss Mabel’s words appeared.
Amusing, isn’t it?
She came up behind me.
“Invisible ink?” I asked.
“Not exactly,” she said, “but you’re not far off. The combination of the peacock feather and that particular ink results in handwriting you can’t see until it’s exposed to heat from birch log fire. Most of the other Networks don’t have access to birch trees, so this makes it easier for us to protect our documents. If you pass the Esbat mark and attend, you’ll use this ink to take notes.”
She turned around and walked back to her desk.
“I want you to do an analysis of the white mulberry ink and write a full report on its implications. It must be written in the Almorran language you are learning, in white ink that you make.”
I was about to stand when another line of words appeared at the bottom of the page. Her voice faded into the background.
Experience overpowers ignorance.
My thoughts raced. What could this mean? It must have something to do with Veritas because it was written on the potion directions.
“Bianca?”
When I realized she had asked me a question, I whirled around. “Yes?”
She studied me, suspicious.
“I said that you need to finish this scroll of paperwork by tomorrow morning and complete a paper summarizing truth potions.” Her eyebrow lifted in displeasure. “Is that a problem?”
“No, Miss Mabel.”
She dropped the scroll on my desk.
“Best get to work now,” she said. “The third brew will take more attention to detail than the first two did. And you have quite a few scrolls to catch up on.”
“Yes, Miss Mabel.”
She disappeared, leaving me with my unconnected thoughts and the beginnings of a plan.
After spending a day writing the paper and preparing the potion and two hours making white ink, I dissolved another drop of Veritas in some water and crept back out the side door, glass of water in hand. I still had scrolls stacking up, but couldn’t stay inside any longer.
An icy wood embraced me when I slipped through the shadowed, naked trees. My breath billowed like a cloud. Not even my thick cloak provided enough protection from the heavy chill. When I couldn’t see the light coming from the school, I downed the concoction in a single swallow and hoped for the best. The conversation with Leda haunted me.
Do you ever think before you act?
Unfortunately this time, I had thought about it. My decision remained the same.
My belly warmed with a flare of fire just before the blinding wall of vertigo. Expecting the dizziness didn’t give me much of an edge, I still doubled over and wanted to die. This time, I covered myself with my cloak, locked myself into a ball, and didn’t move.
Within minutes my throat ached from holding back the words. Even though no one would hear, I wouldn’t allow myself to speak. I had to practice enduring it without talking.
Experience overpowers ignorance.
If my interpretation of this obscure phrase was correct, Veritas acted like a sickness. The more exposure, the faster the cure.
Bracing myself for more lightheaded agony, I burrowed my head into my arms and let the Veritas take control.
Without speaking, the rolling dizziness lasted almost three times as long. By the time it faded, my teeth ached and my head throbbed in pain. I crawled through the trees, my fingers and toes numb. By the time I made it back to the school, the dark hallways sat like tombs.
I collapsed onto my mattress and fell into a deep sleep.
The potion turned into a sludge not unlike loose tar by the end of the second brew the next morning. The acrid scent intensified my headache. Bleary-eyed, I read through the potion instructions again.
Miss Mabel walked into the room wearing a dress made of deep purple silk and white lace trim. Because of my second attempt with Veritas the night before, my sleep-deprived nerves left me with little patience. Attempting to hide my exhaustion was impossible, and I hoped she dismissed my bloodshot eyes as the result of trying to keep up with my homework.
“Starting the third brew?”
“Yes, Miss Mabel.”
“Wonderful. We will test it in a couple days. Hand me your scroll. You missed a couple on the homework you turned in at lunch yesterday.”
My heart took a sudden dive. I couldn’t pretend that her words surprised me. Instead, I awaited her judgment.
“Redo them today on top of the rest of the scrolls.”
She handed them back.
“What did I miss?”
She smiled. “You’ll have to figure that out, won’t you?”
My nostrils flared. Not trusting myself to speak, I simply nodded once and accepted the scroll back. This would take a long time. I’d have to pay more attention to how I answered in the future.
“Miss Scarlett is teaching a lesson that fits in with the Esbat training on deception spells. She has an absolute talent for them, so you will sit in on her class today. You have one hour before it begins.”
“Yes, Miss Mabel.”
“When you return from the class,” she spun around at the doorway, “you’ll find several more scrolls of homework. Leave the first on my desk tomorrow morning and have the others ready when the Veritas is complete. I’m attending a meeting at Chatham Castle with the High Priestess and won’t be back for two days, possibly three. While I’m gone, report to Miss Celia every morning. I have a list for you to complete by my return.”
She strolled out and disappeared with the closing of her office door. I wondered what Priscilla would think of my supposed one-on-one learning time with Miss Mabel if she knew how little we interacted.
I turned back to the potion directions, knowing I preferred to learn from Miss Mabel from as far away as possible.
Deception Spells
Miss Scarlett didn’t waver.
The third-year classroom was off-limits to first-and second-year students. As Assistant, I was the only exception. Most of the first-years didn’t mind. We appreciated having a reason to not run into her. Her strict adherence to the simplest of rules quickly grew tiresome.
Not sure what to expect from her classroom, the bright silks and heady scent of cumin startled me. A warm, almost sultry breeze drifted through the air. Swatches of red and muted orange fabric hung from the rafters. Deep tones of burgundy and wine painted the walls, like stepping into a fire.
Miss Scarlett had a large desk in the back corner. A chalkboard filled most of the front wall, and several bookcases stood at the back. A massive brick fireplace in the middle of the farthest wall danced with flames. The calico cat sprawled on the stones of the hearth, asleep.
Sitting close to the fire and far from the others, I watched the students wander in. Most of them ignored me. Priscilla shot me a scathing glare and took her seat. Miss Scarlett’s red bracelets announced her entrance at the very second the hour began.
“We shall begin now.” She stood at the front of the room
like a soldier at attention. The door slammed shut, the lock clicking. “Never be late.”
I couldn’t fathom why the third-year students seemed to have such a warm, kindred relationship with Miss Scarlett.
The class was smaller than I’d anticipated and involved only the few third-years working to get their Curses and Hexes mark. Priscilla and Jade sat in the front row, right next to Miss Scarlett’s walkway. Unlike Miss Bernadette, who walked around the room to involve everyone and spoke in a quiet voice, Miss Scarlett remained rigidly in one spot.
“Deception spells are quite simple,” she began. “They duplicate an object, deceiving you from the original.”
Jade raised her hand, her blonde hair waving about her jaw, already prepared with questions.
“Can deception spells work on people?”
“Very astute question, Jade. A simple deception spell like we are learning today would not work on people. There are some that can create a replica of another person, but they are very advanced. You saw a perfect example during the third match.”
Two students glanced in my direction, but I ignored them.
“Now, a deception spell has one major weakness. The person who cast the spell cannot tell the truth for its duration. It would run counter to the nature of the spell. No one, not even the High Priest or Priestess, can tell the truth while spinning a deception spell.”
Miss Scarlett waved her hand. Several glowing embers leapt from the fire behind me and flew to the front of the room. They fell onto a spot on her desk but did not burn the wood.
“Observe these embers.”
She put her sharp eye on all the students, ensuring she had their attention.
“Under the power of a deception spell, these embers would produce doubles that looked exactly the same. If you try to touch the identical object, it disappears. The spell would need to be recast.”
She spoke the incantation aloud, and the embers multiplied into a new pile of glowing bark that could not be distinguished from its original. They popped with a blip when she touched them.
“Do you have any questions? No? Good. Split into partnerships. I’m going to have you practice on mushrooms.”
The girls instantly slipped into pairs, leaving one person at the front alone. Michelle looked back, then stumbled through the desks with her awkward gait and long arms until she fell into the empty seat next to me.
“Hi,” I said, surprised to see her in a class like this. What could baking have to do with the Curses and Hexes mark?
Her eyes flickered to mine through her thick bangs, then looked away.
“Hi.”
We stayed quiet until Miss Scarlett approached.
“You’re an Assistant now, Bianca. I expect Assistant-level results. If it’s not perfect, I’m sending you back to the attic, and you can explain to Miss Mabel why you failed a third-year class.”
Nice to see you too, Miss Scarlett, I wanted to say. I’m already failing my own mark, thank you very much. I’m sure I don’t need your help in showing Miss Mabel that I’m in over my head.
Michelle averted her eyes to the floor as Miss Scarlett handed us two bulbous mushrooms and a paper with instructions.
“Michelle, you did a remarkable job on the Everyday Hexes test,” Miss Scarlett said with a softened tone. “I have full faith that you will complete this well.”
Once Miss Scarlett departed, Michelle peered at me from between clumps of hair.
“Does she scare you when she’s that strict?” she asked.
I watched Miss Scarlett walk to the front of the class and sighed.
“No, because she’s right. I should be able to do it. Does she scare you?”
“No. She’s a really good teacher. I like her. She lets me study in her office sometimes because it’s quiet.”
She looked as if she wanted to say something else but stopped. I knew why she studied in there. Too many third-years gave her a hard time because of her gangly arms and large body. Seeking refuge with Miss Scarlett didn’t help her reputation, but she didn’t seem to mind.
Holding the paper so both of us could read it, I skimmed through the instructions. They were succinct, like Miss Scarlett, but easy to read. When I finished, I looked up to Michelle.
“Have you ever–”
Stopped by something that didn’t look right, I glanced down to the table to find three identical mushrooms, in addition to mine. A hot blush crept across Michelle’s face as she looked away.
“You already know how to do a deception spell?” I asked.
She popped the extra mushrooms.
“I learned awhile ago.”
“Who taught you?”
“My older brothers.”
“How many brothers do you have?”
“Five.”
“Do you have any sisters?”
She shook her head, and her bangs swayed. Her family makeup explained her tomboyish characteristics.
“You did a perfect job.” I studied the mushrooms. “Really.”
Blushing again, she looked down.
“Thanks.”
“Will you show me?”
Michelle demonstrated the right way to sound out specific syllables, and within my first two attempts, I made three duplicates of the mushroom. It felt so good to learn a magical skill again, to step away from the blasted scrolls choking me, that my awful mood began to be alleviated. Miss Scarlett popped them when she came to loom over us.
“Do it again,” she commanded.
Michelle’s nearly inaudible voice worked the spell. Another mushroom appeared onto the desk, and Miss Scarlett gave a nod.
“Good.” Her approving tone shifted back to all business again as soon as she turned to me. “Now it’s your turn.”
I duplicated my mushroom with ease. Miss Scarlett left with only a nod of approval. We popped the mushrooms as she departed and sat in the quiet.
Michelle gazed up at me with her timid brown eyes.
“I’m glad you won the Competition,” she said. “I knew I wouldn’t have liked being Assistant. At first I felt stupid because I didn’t make it past the first round. But when I saw Miss Mabel, I realized that I’m glad I didn’t win. She’s so beautiful and confident that she scares me.”
“Then why would you compete?”
She shrugged, and her cheeks flushed. I wondered if her desire to win the Competition had something to do with wanting more friends.
“Why are you here at Miss Mabel’s?” I asked to clear the air. Her face lit up.
“I want to be a baker at Chatham Castle.”
“Really?”
“Yes.” She looked away. “It sounds wonderful.”
“You’re taking the Culinary mark now, aren’t you?”
“Yes. It’s just Rebecca and me in the class, but I like it that way. I don’t really like crowds, and Rebecca is nice. Miss Celia’s been able to teach me a lot I didn’t know already.”
“Then why are you taking this class?”
“I still like doing other forms of magic. Then, if baking doesn’t work out, I have a backup plan. It was my father’s idea.”
Miss Scarlett interrupted by calling our attention to the front.
“Thanks for working with me,” I said and smiled at her. Struck with shyness again, Michelle mumbled a reply, grabbed her mushroom, and rushed back to her desk. She knocked over Priscilla’s books and apologized profusely while she gathered them, her face a flaming red. Priscilla bestowed an exasperated look on her and rolled her eyes when Michelle walked away.
I tried to picture Michelle as the Assistant. When the image couldn’t collect, I turned my attention back to the lesson with a sigh.
Sometimes I couldn’t picture myself as the Assistant either.
Loyalty
I woke up the next day panting, sweaty, and disoriented.
Trying to figure out where I was only confused me further until I took in the familiar drapes on the window. The nightmare began to slip away, into the tendrils of night
and my subconscious. I let the details go with it, not wanting to remember.
The wet pillow slapped my cheek when I dropped back, as I tried to work my way into reality for far too long. It did little to remove my fear of the upcoming interrogation.
Miss Mabel is gone. She is not questioning you. Miss Mabel is gone.
My desk stood against the door, barring the way out in case I tried to leave while under the influence of the Veritas. Taking it for the third time the previous night guaranteed a repeat of the same grueling experience, shortened not at all. Was I putting myself through this for nothing? I was no farther along than after the first exposure to Veritas.
Exhausted, but unable to relax enough to go back to sleep, I climbed out of bed and got dressed. Miss Celia would be up to get breakfast ready by now. I would go get my instructions for the day from her. Relief that I didn’t have to face Miss Mabel propelled me down the stairs earlier than usual. I loved an early start to the day, even if I felt tired enough to fall asleep while walking down the stairs.
While she worked, Miss Celia hummed a quiet tune to herself that greeted me when I entered the kitchen. She jumped in surprise when she saw me.
“Bianca!” she cried, putting a hand on her chest. “You scared me! What are you doing, standing there like some kind of ghost?”
“I’m sorry, Miss Celia. I didn’t mean to startle you.”
She gave me a dirty look, but it softened when she regained her breath.
“What are you doing up so early?” she asked.
“I couldn’t sleep. I thought I’d come report to you and get an early start on my lessons for the day.”
She pulled a piece of paper from her apron pocket.
“That’s very wise of you. Miss Mabel assigned you a heavy load.”
Wish I could say that was a new occurrence.
“Thank you, Miss Celia.”
Four new scrolls in a different language, two books to read, and a class with Miss Amelia on trust potions. I folded the instructions back into a small square and hesitated before turning to go.
Despite being so busy with homework that I studied while I ate, I felt a twinge of pity for Miss Celia, working all alone in the kitchen, day in and day out. I knew how that felt. It was no secret that she liked having people around, and I would do anything to avoid hitting the books again.