Newborn Needs a Dad / His Motherless Little Twins

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by Dianne Drake


  “Actually, I think I estimate you just right. And what I’ve estimated so far is about perfect.”

  “Don’t,” she whispered to him raggedly. “Please, don’t have expectations of me.”

  It took approximately thirty minutes to get Shawn stabilized and down to the rescue spot on a makeshift stretcher Eric lashed together from tree limbs. It was an amazing thing, watching him. He was so resourceful in the woods, not a moment of hesitation. Born to do this, she thought as she fashioned splints to the boy’s legs. “He’s warming up,” she called, as Eric was cutting the last of the tree limbs. “Pulse is evening out, blood pressure’s up.”

  “I just heard from Neil and they’ll be en route as soon as we signal. Also, the second crew found William Dawson and they’re taking him out right now. He’s about a mile upriver, conscious, extreme hypothermia, back injury, possible internal injuries. The raft got caught in river debris, they got tossed around pretty badly on the rocks. He was trapped in the water, leg caught between a couple of rocks, couldn’t get loose, so Troy tried to carry Shawn out…”

  Not a great ending, but not a horrible one, either. For that, she was relieved. “Your father and brother are fine,” she told Shawn, as Eric came back with the last of the tree limbs.

  “We’re going to take you to the hospital, and you’ll be fine in no time. Just a little while longer…” She glanced up at Eric, his rugged form stunning, even though the only light on him now came from their flashlights. “We did it. I mean, we actually did it.”

  “You’ve got good instincts out here.”

  “I was so afraid I’d slow you down, or do something wrong, something that could have been dangerous.”

  He bent, took Shawn’s pulse then steadied the boy’s neck as they lifted him onto the makeshift stretcher. “This is what you need to do, Dinah. Rescue, nursing…either one, or both. You’re wasting your time in that kitchen.”

  “And my ex-fiancé, Charles, said I was wasting my time as a nurse.”

  “Then he’s an idiot on two counts. One, for letting you go. Two, for not recognizing how extraordinarily talented you are.”

  Together, they carried Shawn to the rendezvous point, where Neil met them and took over from there. The night had finally dropped down on them, and Dinah felt a huge sense of relief once she saw the stretcher being lifted into the helicopter, with Shawn strapped in. She didn’t glance away until the chopper had made a wide turn and was headed away from the river, its lights a shining beacon of success against the black sky. That’s when the true feeling of relief washed over her that all three of the Dawsons would be safe. That’s also when her knees gave out and she sat down, cross-legged, on a boulder near the river.

  Eric propped himself against the rock, but didn’t sit. Rather, he leaned, arms folded casually across his chest. “From here, winding our way back along the river, it’s going to take about three hours.”

  Dinah’s reply was a groan.

  “We could cut back through the woods and save some time, but I’m not especially interested in a tough hike at this point, which is what that would be. So…”

  “So, let me rest for a few minutes,” she said, every ounce of tiredness creaking its way into her voice.

  “Do you like camping?” he asked.

  “You mean, staying here tonight?”

  “Get a good night’s sleep, head back in the morning.”

  “I’m not much of a camper,” she said. “But I wasn’t much of a climber either, and that turned out pretty well, considering how I was scared to death.”

  “Well, there’s nothing to be afraid of out here. We’ll build a campfire…”

  If it weren’t for the fact that she was weary to the bone, that could have sounded romantic.

  “I could camp.”

  “You could do anything you set your mind to. I’m not sure you believe that, but I believe in you out here, Dinah. Depended on you as much as I depend on any one of my rescue team.”

  “You shouldn’t have,” she whispered. “In the end, it just doesn’t work out. I know we had a good outcome today, but maybe it could have been better if you’d put your trust in someone else.”

  Eric expelled an impatient breath. “See, that’s how you always react. You pull back. Don’t want anybody to trust you. It’s damn frustrating, Dinah, because I see how good you are. Everybody sees that but you, and I don’t know what it would take to make you see the same thing we all see in you.”

  “What you see in me isn’t real,” she said, her voice totally flat.

  “Why, Dinah? Tell me what this is about? Let me understand.”

  “There’s nothing to understand.”

  “That’s you pulling back, Dinah. Or pushing me away. And I want to know why. We’ve worked together, saved lives together…I need to know why the things you do so well are the things that make you so sad.”

  “Because I lost a little girl once, Eric. A patient. Her name was Molly, and nobody loved her enough to stay with her. She was abandoned, and forgotten because she wasn’t lucky enough to have been bestowed with anything that could be construed as a good quality of life.”

  “What was wrong with her?” he asked, his voice going from agitated to gentle.

  “Anencephalic. On life support for her few short weeks.”

  “I’m sorry,” he whispered.

  “So was I. And in the end it broke my heart. She trusted me. I mean, I know that most people would say she didn’t even know I was there, but I think she knew, and I couldn’t…” She drew in a deep, ragged breath. “After it was over, I just sat there for hours, holding on. I wouldn’t let her go…couldn’t. They tried to take her away from me and I couldn’t…wouldn’t let go. I mean, I knew she’d died. Knew all along she couldn’t survive. But in the end, I just…” Tears broke free from her eyes, and she swiped at them with the cuff of her sleeve. “They had to physically remove me from the room. They took her away from me and sedated me. Afterwards, Charles recommended I take a long leave of absence, or reconsider whether or not I should even be a nurse because he thought I might not be emotionally fit to care for patients, getting involved the way I did. And he might be right. I…I don’t know. But Molly’s the reason I couldn’t walk away from this rescue. It’s not in me to leave a child who needs my help. And she’s also the reason I can’t get involved…because I’m afraid my emotions might cloud my judgment. In a kitchen, the worst I can do is burn my sauce. But in a hospital…”

  “I’m so sorry for your loss,” he said, his voice so controlled it was barely audible against the night sounds beginning to start up from the bushes and trees.

  “I expect you’ve had your share of patient losses. And I know it’s not easy. But for me, I’ve never gotten past the place where it’s personal. Taking care of every one of my patients…my children…is so personal. I can’t detach myself the way some of my colleagues did.”

  “Which is what makes you better than just about any nurse I’ve ever seen. Which is why your little Molly knew you, Dinah. She felt your heart, felt your love. Charles was wrong. Getting involved is what makes you so good.”

  “But getting involved broke my heart.”

  “Because you had no one there to support you. And I’m sorry you didn’t. You deserved better, Dinah.” He lowered himself to the ground and pulled her down with him. Then sitting there, at the base of the rock at the river’s edge, he pulled her into his arms. “You really deserved better.”

  “Why do you believe in me so much?” she whispered.

  “Because until you came along, I was still a married man. In my heart, I’d never seen the need to be any other way. It worked. I got along. Then you…”

  “You took off your wedding band for me?”

  “No, I took it off for me. And for my girls. They need me to move on with my life, because they’re growing up, becoming individuals who need more than a father who stopped his life years ago. And I need me to get past this because it’s time. That one I give you t
he credit for. You’ve made me get involved again, made me aware of my girls in new ways.”

  “I thought it must have been very difficult for you. Especially since you have the girls there every day to remind you of the things you wanted in your life, things that you’ll never have.”

  He took hold of her hand, but not to hold it so much as to caress it. To rub his thumb over the sensitive mound beneath her thumb and massage the areas above with his forefinger. Slow, gentle swirls tracing from side to side, moving up to her knuckles, exploring each one with delicacy and such skill…surgeon’s hands. Then he explored her fingers, one by one, starting at the base and with his thumb and first two fingers, moving to the tip, stroking gently, over and over. Each finger. Again and again.

  By the time Eric finally took hold of her whole hand, she was as seduced as if he’d made passionate love to her, as sated as she’d ever known she could be. All that from only a touch. The jolt of it sizzling all the way down to her toes. As he took a firmer grip, her toes curled, and the muscles in her legs tightened. She wanted to be seduced. Oh, how she wanted to be seduced. But she wasn’t sure that was Eric’s intent. “If we do spend the night here I have candy bars,” she said, her voice in a wobbly whisper. Of all the silly things anyone could possibly say at a moment like that, here she was, babbling on about candy bars. “And crackers with peanut butter. Bottles of water, a flashlight, a lighter, which I have to take good care of because it belongs to—”

  “You’d flunk my course,” he said, his voice in low harmony with the night sounds of the forest. Seductive, full of suggestion. Primal.

  “Your course?”

  “Wilderness survival.” He leaned over and kissed her on the jaw. “I’m a very good instructor.”

  “Are you sure about this?” she asked as ribbons of moonlight flowing played wickedly with him…casting him in a half-hidden aura that was so seductive she had to force herself to breathe. Was she ready for this? Was Eric ready? Last time they’d saved a patient together they’d come together in a kiss. But this time a kiss wouldn’t be enough.

  “I have rules, Dinah. They’ve governed everything I am, everything I do, for such a long time.”

  “Do you want to break them?” It was a hopeful question, but she feared the answer, because even if he did want to break his rules, she still wasn’t sure she could, or would, break her own. It was a dangerous line they were walking now, skirting the obvious, so close to toppling over. Afraid of what would happen when they did. Or if they didn’t.

  “I loved my wife, Dinah. It was a good marriage. No problems. Patricia was everything I’d ever wanted and she made me happy beyond belief. Sometimes, when I go home from work, I still expect to find her there. Except I’ve had as many years without her now as I had with her. And I wonder if I want to be stuck where I am, if it’s a subconscious choice or if something else is stopping me from moving forward. I mean, right now we should be naked together. Wrapped up in your blanket, getting warm from each other’s body heat. But here I am, talking about my wife. Make no mistake, though, I really want to get naked with you.”

  “Maybe it’s not the right time for us. It happens. The right people meet at the wrong time. I mean, I came to White Elk set on spending this part of my life being alone and trying to figure out all the mistakes I’ve made in the other parts of my life so I don’t make them again. Getting naked in the forest with a handsome doctor was nowhere in those plans, not even at the bottom of the list.” Although had there been a real list, being naked with Eric anywhere would have been climbing its way to the top at this very moment.

  “But what if it’s the right time, and we’re so dead set on being resistant that we don’t see it?”

  “Ah, yes, breaking down the barriers. Sometimes the hardest ones to destroy are the ones we can’t see.”

  “Are you threatened by my feelings for Patricia?”

  “Not threatened. I like knowing how passionate you were about her. It tells me what kind of man you are.” The kind she’d never been lucky enough to find. Until now. Although she did worry some that if she let herself get involved with Eric, Eric might not let himself get involved with her. Not in the way she needed. It wasn’t his fault, and it wasn’t even necessarily something she wanted to discuss with him because, as of this very moment, they weren’t involved. Flirting with the idea, yes. Doing the deed…she simply didn’t know if that could ever be a reality for them.

  “So what do we do?” he asked. “Right now, when any man in his right mind would be seducing this beautiful woman rather than sitting here on the river bank listing all the reasons why he’s not, what should we do?”

  “Start over. Take it a step at a time, with no expectations.” But full of realization.

  Eric pulled off her bandanna and ran his fingers through her tangled hair. “Well, then, beautiful stranger, my name is Eric Ramsey, and I’m quite capable of rescuing a fair damsel lost in the woods should the need arise.”

  “And I’m Dinah Corday, lost in so many ways, who would welcome a rescue should the need arise.” She took his hand in hers and felt the immediate sensation between them. A spark, or maybe a sparkle. Or maybe an illumination as bright as the stars above.

  “How will I know when the need arises?”

  “It’s arising,” she said, her voice as tranquil as the rustling leaves on the trees surrounding them. Sliding her hand up his arm, she liked the feel of it. Strong arm. Lean. Well-muscled, and larger than her grasp around it. Was she causing goosebumps on him somewhere the way merely the feel of his arm was causing them on her? “I’m not an old-fashioned girl, Eric. My life may have suited me better had I been, but there are only so many moments given us for the things in which we find pleasure, and we waste too many of them.” No, she was not old-fashioned, but not smart in love, either. Yet this wasn’t love, she was telling herself hard and fast as her fingers refused to cease their journey over his flesh. Not love. Not love. Couldn’t be. She wouldn’t let it be.

  He chuckled, the rumble of it resonant in his chest. “There’s no way I ever had that impression of you.”

  “And that’s good?” Suddenly she wasn’t sure why she was being so bold. Did she want to be seduced by him? Or to seduce him? Silly questions. Of course she did. She had almost from the moment he’d left her standing in the rain with his umbrella while he’d driven off.

  “It is, if you’ve got that blanket you said you did.”

  “I had a pillow, but it went with Shawn,” she added, reluctantly letting go of his arm so she could pick up her backpack. If ever there’d been a time when she didn’t want to lose the feel of flesh to flesh, this was it, for she feared that in the mere seconds it would take to unzip the pack and pull out the blanket, he would change his mind.

  Or she would lose her nerve.

  “What I have in mind doesn’t require a pillow.”

  After she’d pulled the blanket from the backpack, she saw exactly what Eric had in mind. Somewhere in the urgent tumble of shedding clothes and exploration so frantic that it promised to explode, the blanket was totally forgotten, and the pile of discarded clothes on the bed of pine needles was enough. They were naked and entangled, the night was chilly, and neither one of them noticed anything but each other while the natural heat of so many emerging emotions cocooned them in a fire that wasn’t even touched by the raw elements surrounding them.

  “Are you sure?” he asked, much more quickly that he’d anticipated. More quickly than he’d wanted. He’d come prepared, and debated whether or not he should. Debated whether or not he could go through with this, of if guilt would pull him away from her. But now…

  “We don’t have to,” she whispered, sensing his apprehension.

  “Yes,” he choked, “we do.”

  “Then I’m sure…”

  He responded with a guttural moan then plunged deep and hard, bringing her to an immediate climax that coaxed him to his own. To start with the final act the way they did…Dinah liked that. She
also liked that afterwards they spent their leisure pleasuring each other with the less urgent things that came of lovers taking their time to get to know each other. The little pleasures, the little discoveries. It was nice…nicer than she’d ever dreamed this could be. She craved the slow exploration of his hand on her, craved the building of a trust she’d never thought she could have. Because here, with Eric, she was vulnerable and trusting. And for the first time in her life, it didn’t frighten her. It’s exactly what she wanted to be—with him, and for him.

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  ANOTHER blanket would have been nice, but they were wrapped so tightly in each other that it didn’t matter. Nothing about them was cold. And everything was perfect. His body matched hers, inch for inch, in a hard press. Sensually, though. Not sexually. He felt good, squeezed tight to her, pulling her into his contours. She felt the way a woman should feel with a man so close to her they were practically sharing one heartbeat. “I’ve never done…this outside,” she whispered, as the kisses he was trailing down her neck threatened to rob her of breath. The chill of the sensation radiated all the way down to her kneecaps, tiny little prickles of pleasure with every kiss.

  “Neither have I,” he said, breaking a perfect cadence just long enough to start a new journey from her neck down to her breasts. “But I think it’s already become my favorite thing to do in the great outdoors.”

  “Are you going to add this to your wilderness survival course?” she gasped, as he teased her nipple with his tongue first, then his teeth. She arched to him, wanting more.

  He didn’t stop long enough to answer. Rather, he mumbled a very rough “Uh-uh” as his hand came up to claim the breast his mouth hadn’t yet claimed.

  In the distance she heard the call of a night bird…was he courting his lady love? Or was he alone, looking for a lady to love? It was a sad, mournful call, one she knew so well in her heart. One that had temporarily fled from her.

  “What was that sigh?” he asked, finally pulling back a little.

 

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