Guarding His Heart

by J. S. Cooper

  “Nice.” I nodded, imagining him surfing.

  “And I’ll order some pizza.” He laughed. “And watch some movies.”

  “Sounds fun.” I smiled at him as he ran his hands through his golden-blond hair and paused.

  “You’re welcome to come over if you want.” He said hesitantly. “I mean to hang out and chill. Or whatever.”

  “Or whatever?” I grinned at him, my heart racing as I reached over and rubbed his cock slowly. “What does ‘or whatever’ mean?”

  “I think you know.” His eyes sparkled into mine. “And if you don’t have any plans on joining the mile high club, I’d stop that.”

  “What if I don’t want to stop that?” I asked quietly as I felt him start to harden beneath my fingers.

  “Hannah.” He groaned and his hand grabbed mine and held it still. “If you get me excited, I will need a release and it won’t be in my pants.”

  “I don’t care.” I giggled, suddenly feeling happy. He wanted to see me again. He wanted to spend the weekend with me. Yeah, it wasn’t the same thing as him asking to be my boyfriend, but it was just as good. Okay, it wasn’t just as good, but it was something. Leo wanted to spend more time with me. He wanted to be around me. He was the one that suggested it. That told me that things weren’t going to be awkward. Maybe we could really make this work. Maybe I could be a modern twenty-first century girl. Maybe I could be one of those girls who slept with a guy without being in a relationship. I knew it would be hard, but a part of me felt that I’d be able to do it. Especially if it was someone like Leo.

  “Hannah.” His voice was hoarse as I continued to squeeze his cock through his jeans.

  “Yes Leo?” I asked softly, starting to feel very turned on myself.

  “Are you going to suck my cock?” He whispered in my ear and groaned.

  “No.” I laughed and kissed him on the cheek. He looked devastated at the news and I laughed before whispering in his ear. “Meet me in the bathroom in two minutes, I’m going to do even better than that.” I unbuckled my seat belt and stood up. Leo sat there with a stunned expression on his face and I grinned at him as I made my way back to the bathroom. We were pretty close to the back of the plane and so there weren’t a lot of people there to figure out what was going on. I made my way into the stall and waited. I sniffed for a second and made a face. It didn’t smell that great in the stall and it was a lot smaller than I’d remembered them being. I actually wasn’t sure how this was going to work. Within seconds I heard a small knock on the door. I opened it quickly and Leo shimmied in with a huge grin on his face.

  “Hey.” He said with sparkling eyes as he took up every available inch in the stall.

  “Hey.” I said back to him, my body wedged against the toilet and his body.

  “So we’re going to join the mile high club together?” He grinned and I leaned forward and kissed him. He pushed himself against me and I felt his hardness next to my stomach. I reached down and squeezed him again, though my hand was pressed up against both of us. I unzipped his pants and he groaned as my hand came into contact with his bare cock.

  “Your hands are cold.” He muttered against my lips and I bit his lower lip softly in response. His hands moved under my skirt and rubbed my ass. “Okay how do we do this?” He muttered as he tried to adjust himself next to me. “We don’t really have much space do we?”

  “I guess you can lift me up and I’ll have my back against the door?” I said thoughtfully and he nodded and tried to pick me up.

  “I can’t move you, Hannah.” He groaned as his cock brushed up against me hard.

  “Well thanks, I’m not that fat.”

  “It has nothing to do with you being fat, I can’t lift you up and push you against the door. There’s not enough space.”

  “Let’s try and change positions.” I mumbled. “Then you should be able to lift me up.”

  “Okay.” He nodded. “Let’s do it.” We both stood there and attempted to move, but there was no way for us to shift in the confined space. “That’s not going to work.” He shook his head. “Let me see if I can enter you like this.” His finger slipped under my skirt and he moved my panties to the side. I felt his finger grazing my clit, but only for a brief second. The next thing I knew his cock was sliding in between my legs.

  “Oh yeah.” He grinned as the tip of him rubbed my clit and I moaned. “Just step up a little bit, I can’t enter you in this position.”

  “Where’s the condom?” I asked him slowly as I held onto his shoulder.

  “Oh shit.” He looked annoyed. “Hold on.” He tried to pull his wallet out, but there wasn’t enough room. “I can’t get to the packets, can’t I just pull out?”

  “No, where are you going to pull out and cum?” I shook my head. “Not on my skirt or top.”

  “Hold on,” He groaned and tried again, this time banging his elbow into the door. “Ouch.” He muttered and then we both froze as we heard a knock on the door.

  “Are there two people in that bathroom?” A loud screechy voice asked. “It is against federal regulations for two people to copulate in an airline bathroom.” She said again and we froze.

  Leo looked at me sheepishly and pulled his cock out from between my legs.

  “I guess that’s that.” He sighed as he zipped himself back up.

  “We tried.” I nodded as he opened the door. We walked out of the bathroom stiffly, the air stewardess and a few other passengers staring at us in shock.

  “My nurse was just taking my temperature.” Leo said lightly as we left the room. “Everything’s okay though, I don’t have a fever.”

  I followed him back to our seats with a red face and avoided all eye contact with everyone else on the plane.

  “Well that sucked.” He grinned at me as we sat down.

  “I can’t believe we almost got caught.” I whispered and he laughed.

  “I can’t believe you weren’t going to let me just pull out.”

  “Why would I let you pull out, Leo?” I shook my head in disbelief. “That is not a foolproof contraception method.”

  “It’s better than coming inside of you.” He licked his lips. “Though that would have been even nicer. Maybe you should get on the pill.”

  “Why should I get on the pill?” I shifted in my seat, as I started to feel even hornier.

  “Wouldn’t you prefer to feel me inside of you when I orgasm?”

  “I do feel you inside of me when you orgasm.” I laughed and tried not to remember just how many times I’d already felt him inside of me.

  “But that was wearing a condom. It’s different without a condom.” His fingers touched my lip. “It’ll be a whole new experience.”

  “I thought you didn’t want to see me again in that way after New York?” I asked him softly.

  “Well, we’re hanging out this weekend.”

  “I can’t just go to Walgreens and pick up the pill when we land.” I said with a laugh. “It requires a doctors’ trip and a prescription.”

  “Then get one next week.”

  “Why?”

  “Because I want you to.”

  “What do you care?” I asked softly. “I thought you weren’t interested in seeing me as more than an assistant in Los Angeles.”

  “Well, I’m not looking for a relationship, but that doesn’t mean we can’t still have fun, right?”

  “Fun?” I repeated softly.

  “Yeah, I mean I’m down for friends with benefits if you are.”

  “You want to be friends with benefits?”

  “Or assistant with benefits.” He grinned. “Does that work for you?”

  “I don’t know.” I bit my lower lip and stared at him. Could I really do this? One fling in New York and then going back to the normal way of life was one thing, but sleeping with him and working with him might be completely different. It was a huge risk to my career and my heart.

  “What would you like? We can create a list of rules so both of us is happy.”


  “I guess that could work.” I nodded, my head running a hundred miles a minute. “If we do this then no one can know. I don’t want people in the office talking about me behind my back.”

  “That’s fair.” He agreed. “So no public affection or lovemaking.” He paused. “However, I would like to make love in the office.”

  “That seems like it goes against the rule of no public lovemaking.” I frowned, though I was starting to feel excited.

  “When I said public, I mean other people seeing.” He grinned. “You better believe I’m fucking you over my desk on Monday morning.”

  “Will that be before or after your coffee?” I giggled, starting to feel excited.

  “Both.” He raised an eyebrow at me. “Okay next rule, no expecting phone calls or blowing up each others phones with texts.”

  “Sounds like a good rule to me.” I agreed.

  “No expecting to stay over every night.” He said again. “And no expectation of dates and going out and meeting the family.”

  “Or friends.” I added, thinking of Lisa. There was no way I wanted him to meet Lisa, I had no idea what she’d say to him.

  “Yes, no friends.” He nodded quickly and I felt a little hurt.

  “Okay, so we have to keep it private at work and not expect any access to each other’s private lives.” I said slowly. “Anything else.”

  “You need to get on the pill.” He grinned at me. “Please.”

  “I’ll think about it.” My heart started beating fast at the thought of what we were embarking on. Was this really going to work? Could we work together and be friends with benefits without anything blowing up in or faces.

  “Is there anything you want from me?” He asked softly. “Any particular manscaping or anything?”

  “No.” I shook my head and smiled. “I like you just the way you are.”

  “Great.” He sat back and sighed. “You’re too sweet, Hannah.”

  “And you’re too hard.” I smiled at him with a sultry expression as I rubbed his cock slowly. He groaned and I laughed. “I think you should take care of that soon.”

  “I’ll take care of you soon.” He growled and I laughed as the plane hit the tarmac.

  “So I’ll see you tomorrow?” Leo kissed me lightly as I got out of the cab.

  “Sure.” I nodded and yawned as I grabbed my bag. “I’m all ready for the beach.”

  “Good. I’ll call you before I come and pick you up.” He smiled and looked at my apartment building. “It looks nice in there.”

  “It’s a dump.” I laughed. “But it’s fine, it’s my dump.”

  “Maybe I can see it sometime.” He said softly and I could see the cabdriver rolling his eyes at us.

  “Yeah, maybe.” I nodded. “Have a great night, Leo.”

  “Night, Hannah.” He smiled and I walked away from the cab with my bag. Why was he mentioning seeing my place? Hadn’t we just said in the rules that we didn’t want to get too close and intimate?

  “But you have to fuck somewhere, Hannah.” I mumbled to myself as I climbed up the staircase to the apartment. “It will either be your place or his place, it’s not like you’re going to be renting hotel rooms.” I shook my head at myself as I realized that there was a possibility that Leo and I would have sex in my bed and on my couch. I wasn’t sure how I felt about that. I wasn’t sure that I wanted to have that memory when things ended. Because ultimately it would have to end. Friends with benefits wasn’t something that could last forever. I wasn’t sure that I wanted to have memories of coming on his face in my own bedroom.

  “I’m home.” I called out into the apartment as I opened the door. “Oh my God, what happened?” I shouted as I surveyed the mess. “Lisa.” I screamed as I dropped my bag on the floor.

  “Hey,” Lisa walked out of the kitchen with a grin on her face. “What’s up Slutty nurse?”

  “Lisa, what is all this mess?” I groaned as I surveyed the trash and shopping bags. “What’s going on?”

  “Oops, sorry. I was about to tidy up.” She made a face. “But I got sucked into a Murder She Wrote marathon on TV.”

  “Lisa, really?” I sighed as I picked up my bag and walked to my room. Thank God, Leo hadn’t tried to come up with me. I couldn’t imagine the look on his face if he had seen this dump. He might have called off the friends with benefits plan right away.

  “Sorry, Hannah.” Lisa followed me into my bedroom. “I’ll tidy up now. You know it will go a lot faster if you help me.”

  “Are you joking?” I shook my head and turned to face her. “I just got back from a business trip. I don’t want to be cleaning up your mess. How many pizzas did you order?”

  “Two.” She grinned. “Antonio gave me the rest for free.”

  “What, why would Fakio do that?” I asked, surprised.

  “Because he got to do me.” She grinned and my jaw dropped.

  “You did not sleep with Fakio.” I asked shocked and she giggled.

  “Yes, I did.” Her eyes lit up. “And let me tell you, Fakio has a Bronx accent when he cums.”

  “Lisa,” I groaned. “I do not need to hear about what Fakio does when he has sex.”

  “He has a crooked dick as well.” She laughed. “Have you ever had sex with a guy with a crooked dick? It’s amazing.”

  “How crooked is crooked?” I laughed, suddenly feeling lightheaded and wanting to tell her about my adventures as well.

  “Let’s just say that he could live on a cul-de-sac.”

  “No way.” I shook my head as we walked back to the living room. “There’s no way his dick is that crooked.”

  “Trust me, it was. And his tongue was long as well.” She walked into the kitchen and brought back some black garbage bags. “I’ve never come so much in my life.”

  “Who knew Fakio had all that going for him?” I laughed and started picking up the trash.

  “Not me.” Lisa giggled and paused. “But enough about my fabulous sex life, what went down with you and DiCaprio?”

  “His name is Leo.” I rolled my eyes. “And let’s just say you’re not the only one that got laid last night.”

  “What?” She screamed and dropped her bag as she ran over to me. “You did not sleep with your boss?”

  “I did.” I nodded slowly and I could see the shock in her eyes. “And we’ve decided to be friends with benefits as well.”

  “Get out of town.” Lisa collapsed on the couch and rubbed her hands in excitement. “Okay, I need details, lots and lots of details.”

  “Fine.” I dropped my bag and sat down next to her. “Where should I start?” I laughed.

  “First of all does he have a crooked penis?” Lisa asked and I laughed at her question.

  “No,” I said slowly, “but he is known as ‘The Stallion’.” I sat back into the couch and grinned, warmth spreading through my body as I started to tell Lisa about the last couple of days. All of a sudden, the doubt and worry left me. Maybe I wouldn’t be cut out for friends with benefits, but at least I was going to try. If there was anyone I’d want to try it with, it was Leo Maxwell.

  Chapter Eleven

  Leo

  To: Hannah Will

  From: Leo Maxwell

  Re: Emails aren’t texts

  Hey,

  What you doing right now?

  Leo

  I pressed send and waited for Hannah’s response. I lay back in bed and stared at my room in annoyance. I felt lonely and I was pissed. I never felt lonely. I didn’t do lonely. I heard the beep coming in quickly and grinned and opened my email. Hannah was fast! I saw a notification from American Express that my credit card bill had cut and sighed. It wasn’t her after all. I jumped out of bed and put my phone in my pocket as I made my way down to the kitchen and grabbed a beer and walked into the living room. I thought about calling Zane to see if he wanted to hang out, but I knew that if he was able to get away he’d just start talking about how great Lucky was. I didn’t need to be reminded once again tha
t his life had changed and that he could no longer hang out and do the regular guy things we always used to do. It was his fault that I was bored.

  Beep beep. I pulled my phone out slowly hoping not to get too excited this time. I grinned when I saw it was a reply from Hannah.

  To: Leo Maxwell

  From: Hannah Will

  Re: Emails aren’t texts- so what?

  I’m in bed watching TV and eating popcorn listening to my friend Lisa snoring. What does email not being texts have to do with anything?

  I laughed as I thought about her friend snoring and I wondered if she knew that she snored as well.

  To: Hannah Will

  From: Leo Maxwell

  Re: It matters because I’m not breaking the rules

  What are you watching? What kind of popcorn. And did you know you snore as well. Also, where is Lisa sleeping? In your bed? If you say yes, I’ll be officially jealous.

  I pressed send and waited.

  To: Leo Maxwell

  From: Hannah Will

  Re: I do not snore

  Yeah, she fell asleep while we were watching a movie called The Quiet One’s. We always watch horror movies together because we get scared. Btw, I do not snore. You do though. Big bear snores that keep me awake at night.

  I grinned and pressed reply quickly.

  To: Hannah Will

  From: Leo Maxwell

  Re: It’s not my snores that keep you awake

  Never heard of that movie. Sounds boring. I’ll help keep you safe next time you want to watch a horror movie. What about the popcorn? Tell me and let me fantasize about having some.

  I gulped down some more beer as I waited for her reply.

  To: Leo Maxwell

  From: Hannah Will

  Re: Are you touching yourself right now

  I’m so laughing if you put your hands down your pants when you read my subject line. Why are you emailing me? I thought we weren’t meant to bother each other. Or am I already forgetting the rules of our friends with benefits arrangement? And nothing fancy. Just cheap ol’ kettle corn.