by A. Anders
Jaxson watched as his brother prepared the shower for him. This was something that Jayson had never done before. Standing naked with his brother in front of the tub made Jaxson remember their times as kids. The feeling made him stronger.
“That should be good,” Jayson announced flicking the water off his finger tips.
Jaxson pulled back the shower curtain and got in. Planting himself under the wide showerhead he leaned against the wall allowing the warm water to sooth him. The water filled his beard and drained in a stream to the ground.
With his eyes closed focusing on the sound of the droplets, he heard the shower curtain open again. Looking back he saw Jayson walk in behind him. Unsure of what to do, he stared as his brother’s muscular naked body joined him under the shower.
Jayson grabbed the loofah and shower gel from the soap caddy, soaped the loofah and then rubbed it across his brother’s back. Jaxson closed his eyes and enjoyed the sensuality before turning toward the wall.
Jayson scrubbed the rough sponge over his brothers back taking his time getting as close to Jaxson as possible. Sliding his arms around his brother, Jayson pressed his chest against his brother’s body as he reached around and washed his hairless chest. Jaxson tilted his head back in delight.
Resting his chin on his brother’s muscular shoulders, Jayson moved the loofah down to his stomach. Rubbing his hand in the soap, Jayson lowered the loofah to his brother’s cock. He found Jaxson’s cock fully hard. He hadn’t seen his twin’s cock since they were kids, but from the feel of it he knew that it had grown as much as his.
Jayson gently rubbed the rough cloth over his brother’s eight and a half inch tool and then moved it to his balls. With his hand he caressed his brother’s hard shaft and slipped the loofah between his legs. Jaxson rubbed the side of his head gently on Jayson’s wet hair. He wanted more from his brother but knew he couldn’t ask.
Not letting go of his cock, Jayson moved the loofah to his brother’s firm ass. Slipping it between his cheeks he gently rubbed Jaxson’s asshole while stroking his cock. The sensation brought Jaxson to life.
“Ahhh!” Jaxson moaned.
Jaxson, still wanting more from his brother, slowly reached his hand back for his brother’s cock. Finding Jayson’s thigh he traced his finger to the inside of his leg. Moving it further upwards, the first thing he touched was Jayson’s tight balls. Jaxson knew that meant that his brother was hard, but his brother pulled away before Jax could feel his cock.
Letting go of Jaxson’s cock, Jayson left the tub. Disappointed, Jaxson again lowered his head and felt the raining droplets caress his neck. In a minute, however, Jayson was back.
“Turn around,” he gently ordered.
Jaxson perked up and turned around. Looking first at Jayson’s cock, he found that it was hanging four inches below his balls. He knew he was right, Jayson had been hard when he was bathing him. But it made him more confused trying to figure out why Jayson had pulled away.
“I’m going to shave you,” Jayson announced looking into his brother’s light brown eyes.
Jaxson liking the idea stepped further out from under the droplets. Watching Jay’s hands as he lathered up made him feel good. And when Jay raised the razor to Jaxson’s firm jaw line, Jaxson could do nothing but relax. He had never had anyone else shave him before. It made him feel like crawling into his brother’s skin and never coming out.
When Jayson was done he touched his twin’s smooth face. He imagined that touching Jaxson must be what it felt like when other people touched him. Jayson imagined that their faces were identical once more.
Jaxson was about to step toward the shower curtain when his twin gently rested his hand on his stomach.
“I’m not done yet.”
Jaxson stared at his brother unsure of what he meant. When he saw Jayson get onto his knees, it made his long soft cock hard.
Jayson lathered his hands with the shaving gel and rubbed it over his twin’s pubes. Working his way around Jaxson’s stiff tool, he shaved his brother’s crotch until it was bare. Next he lathered up his brother’s balls and shaved that too. Without the water droplets to hide it, Jayson noticed as Jaxson’s long cock dribbled pre-cum. So when Jaxson was completely bald, Jayson brushed the cum up the shaft of his cock and smeared it on the cock’s head. Jaxson twitched at the feeling.
Jayson returned to his feet and rested the razor and shaving cream on the shower caddy. Looking into Jaxson’s eyes and with one hand on his brother’s chest, Jayson spoke. “Now we look like twins again,” he said with a smile. “That feels a lot better.”
Jaxson looked down at his brother’s cock. It was also hard. And as Jayson had implied, he too was also shaved.
Letting his hand linger on his brother’s chest, Jayson pulled back the curtain. “Let’s go.”
Jaxson watched his brother leave and stood allowing the droplets to pelt his back.
“Come on Jaxson. Let’s go,” Jay called from on the other side of the curtain.
Jaxson, snapping out of his trance, turned to the knobs, shut off the water and left the tub. By the time he was with his brother, Jayson was already dry and had his underwear on. It was hard for Jaxson to tell, but he thought that Jayson was no longer hard. Seeing his brother’s deflated cock made him feel lonely again, so trying not to think about it, Jaxson reached for a towel and dried himself off.
Naked, Jaxson followed his brother back into the bedroom. Rifling through the drawers and closet, Jayson picked out something for his twin to wear. Handing it to him Jayson watched him get dressed. He found him every bit as alluring as he always had. And realizing it, he looked away.
“Crap,” he mumbled.
When both were dressed, Jayson opened the bedroom door and led Jax down the hallway. Brittany ran from the kitchen to see the two men enter the living room. She examined Jaxson and was stunned.
“Holy shit! How did you possibly do that?” she asked touching her boyfriend’s shaved face.
“We should grab an early dinner. Is Balfours still open?” Jayson asked looking at the couple.
“Yeah, but…” Brittany began.
“Then it’s decided. It’s my treat.”
The three drove to Balfours, the only upscale restaurant near their South Nebraska home. The place served a mixture of French and seafood and was a place that the brothers had often seen when they were kids. It was their shared secret to one day eat there, but Jayson was the only one who could now do it without financial regret.
Jayson ordered the lobster for both himself and Jaxson. Brittany, saw their selection and ordered the steak. All three enjoyed their meal in silence. Waiting for dessert Brittany spoke up.
“So, Jax told me that you two were separated at eight years old? I can’t imagine having a twin and then moving a thousand miles away.”
“Yeah, it was tough,” Jayson offered.
“For some of us more than others,” Jaxson chimed in for the first time tonight.
“Well, it wasn’t easy on either of us.”
“What were your parents thinking? It seems almost cruel.”
“I guess they figured that there were two of us and two of them. They didn’t see us as a matching set.”
“Huh!” Jaxson huffed reaching for his wine.
“Do you have something that you want to say to me?” Jayson asked sensing something bubbling up in his brother.
“Yeah, I have something to say to you.”
“Come on dear,” Brittany interrupted seeing her boyfriend losing his cool.
“You stroll back into town after two years and what? Huh? What, rescue your poor twin? Is that it? You think you can swoop in, do what you do, show off your money then leave and everything will be alright?”
“Jax…” Brittany began putting her hand on his leg.
“What, are you impressed by my twin? When you look at him do you think you got the short end of the twin stick? Well, let me tell you something about my brother over here. He’ll leave you. It doesn�
�t matter if you need him or not. He’ll take off and he won’t even tell you why.”
“Come on Jax,” Brittany requested again.
“What, you think because he has some money he shouldn’t hear what he needs to hear? Maybe if someone talked him like he was a person instead of some pretentious internet fancy man, he would get his head out of his ass and remember who the rest of us are.”
“That’s not fair Jaxson. I didn’t choose to leave. Dad took me and it could have easily have been you.”
Jaxson leaned across the table getting as close as he could to his brother. “I’m not talking about when you left with him. I’m talking about the fact that you never came back.”
“I invited you to come live with me dozens of times. You turned me down,” Jayson replied feeling his anger build.
“Bullshit! You knew I couldn’t leave Mom. What was I supposed to do, leave her on the farm by herself? Bullshit!”
“I don’t what to talk about this here,” Jayson announced reaching for his wine.
“Oh what? Because you spoke it, so shall it be?”
“Baby, don’t do this.”
“What, you think Jayson can’t take it? Jayson, tell Brittany how you used to beat up those kids in school for me. Go ahead, tell her.”
Brittany turned to Jayson looking for an explanation.
“What Jaxson is trying to point out is that he was the one who always protected me in school. Whenever some kid would pick on me, he would stop them.”
“You damn right I did. I always protected you. But when I needed somebody, where were you? Nowhere, that’s where.”
“We were seven,” Jayson protested.
“It didn’t matter. I would have always been there for you.”
“Maybe I didn’t want to always need your help. Maybe I wanted to be able to do things on my own.”
Jaxson leaned back in his seat. “You see what I mean, baby. He doesn’t give a shit about anyone but himself.” Jaxson reached for his glass and finished the wine. “We’re gonna need another bottle.”
By the time they left the restaurant neither man was in any condition to drive. Jayson, who had planned to stay for four days, had said that he would leave the next morning and that this would be his last trip. Jaxson, who absolutely wanted his brother to stay, said that he agreed wholeheartedly and couldn’t wait to have him gone. That made the car ride back very quiet.
When the group arrived home Jayson made a halfhearted offer to go to a hotel.
“What, you can’t even stay here for one night?” Jaxson spit with subtle desperation.
Brittany pointed Jayson to his childhood room and when Jayson returned from the shower, Jaxson was awkwardly busying himself in the living room. Jay wasn’t sure if he should retire for the night or talk to his brother, so he did neither.
“Where are you going?” Jaxson asked as Jay headed for the front door in his flannel sleeping pants and flip flops.
“I’m gonna take a walk,” Jayson announced before heading to the porch.
Jayson looked out onto the wheat field in front of the house. Theirs was a small farm totaling only a few hundred acres. On it they grew hard red winter wheat which was harvested in late May. It being mid-May, all of the wheat was at full height and it danced back and forth in the moonlight.
Jaxson came out onto the porch to join his twin.
“Aren’t you cold? Your thin California skin not freezing tonight?”
“It’s about 78 degrees,” Jayson said with contempt.
“Yeah, but don’t you Californian’s get cold at 80?”
“I’m Nebraskan.”
“Barely.”
“What’s wrong with you? Seriously? I only came because your girlfriend told me that you needed me here. And now that I’m here, you’re doing everything you can to make me leave. What the hell do you want from me?”
Not waiting for an answer Jayson took off toward the wheat field. Walking in the moonlight through the husks was something that he loved sneaking out to do whenever he came for a visit. It was the thing that he looked forward to most.
“There you go, running again,” Jaxson said catching up to his brother. “Always running away. The same scared kid you always were.”
About to enter the path through the field he turned to Jaxson. “I’m scared? Which one of us was the one too scared to live anywhere but the one place, no, the one house that they’ve always lived, huh?”
“You think I didn’t join you because I was scared?”
“You tell me.”
“Hey, I cared about Mom. That’s why I didn’t leave.”
“Two years. She’s been gone for two years and still you can’t leave this place.”
“Ah, bullshit. You didn’t want me there and you know it,” Jaxson said switching the tables on his twin.
“I didn’t want you there? Is that why I invited you God knows how many times?”
“Is it because you’re ashamed of me, huh? You didn’t want all of your hoity toyty friends seeing how much of a hick your twin is?”
“That’s such shit.”
“Is it that you were scared that I couldn’t hack the big city and you would have to support me?”
“Oh that’s a laugh. What is that, the things that made you too scared to live with me?”
Jaxson jogged in front of his brother, grabbed him by the arm, shook him and yelled at him. “Stop walking, I’m talking to you! Tell me why it is that you didn’t want me to come. Tell me why!”
“Because I was ashamed, alright?” Jayson finally said under his brother’s duress. “I was ashamed.”
Jaxson let him go. Straightening himself up he peered intensely at Jayson. “You were ashamed of me. Alright. So now were telling the truth.”
“What? No. I wasn’t ashamed of you.”
Jaxson looked at his brother confused. “Then what were you ashamed of?”
“I was ashamed of myself,” Jayson admitted no longer able to hold his brother’s eye contact.
“What do you have to be ashamed of?”
Jayson was slow to respond but felt it had to be said. “I fell in love with someone.”
Jaxson was even more confused. “Why would you be ashamed about that?”
“Because, it’s a man.”
Jaxson swallowed at the news. “OK. That’s cool. If you’re gay I’m not gonna think less of you or something.”
“Gay? I don’t know what I am.”
“What do you mean? You said it was a man, right?”
“Yeah.”
“Then what is it, one of those she men or something?”
“What? No!” Jayson said with rebuke. “No, I was ashamed because the man lives here in town, and every time I would come here, I couldn’t help but feel a certain way. I couldn’t handle it.”
“Is that why you never came home?”
“Yeah,” Jayson said lowering his head.
Jaxson, feeling an incredible weight lifting, grabbed his twin’s chin and lifted it until they were looking into each other’s eyes. “That was a shitty reason not to come home. You think I couldn’t accept that about you. I don’t care if you wanted to fuck our whole school grade, I would have accepted you for it. Who was it?”
Jayson tried to pull away from his twin’s grip but couldn’t.
“No, who was it? This can’t sit in between us anymore. You have to tell me who it was.”
“You, alright. I fell in love with you.”
Stunned, Jaxson loosened his grip on his twin’s face. Jayson, more embarrassed than ever, continued down the path.
“Wait,” Jaxson said calling up to his brother.
Jayson sped up to a jog trying to get away as quickly as he could.
Jaxson, processing everything he had heard, turned toward his fleeing twin. “Wait.” Still not stopping, Jaxson ran as fast as he could to catch up. “Stop!”
Jayson, jogging in flip flops, was no match for Jaxson running bare foot. “Stop, I said.”
Jaxson caught up to his twin. Unable to slow down, he threw himself on top of him sending him tumbling into the wheat stalks. Caught underneath him, Jayson fought to get out.
“Let me go!”
Jaxson, pinning his twin down, did his best to look him in the eyes. When their gaze finally met, Jaxson took aim and pressed his lips against his twin’s. Jay struggled a little less until he was lost in the thing that he had always wanted the most.
Jaxson swept his tongue around in his twin’s mouth. When their identical muscles touched they twisted around each other twirling and dancing with an excitement that neither had ever experienced before. Each touch pulled their minds further into the lust that they had both fought for so long. Finally resigned to it, they could no longer resist the other.
Jaxson breathed in the long remembered scent of his twin as he pulled off his shirt. With their bare chests laying on one another, both felt their cocks get hard.
Jaxson pulled away from Jayson’s mouth and lightly kissed his twin’s chin. He always loved how strong his brother’s jaw was and the feeling of it against his lips drove him wild. He reached up and took Jayson’s head in his hand. Moving passionately he kissed his way up the side of his face before nibbling on his ear. With his hand on Jayson’s chest he felt his brother’s heart race with every bite. And when he stuck his tongue in his ear, Jayson moaned.
“Yes,” Jay said with his body squirming against his brother’s.
Unable to handle any more, Jayson used all of his strength to roll his brother over onto the soft hay stalks and climbed on top of him. Interlocking his fingers with Jaxson’s, he kissed his twin’s neck moving down further until his lips were firmly planted on Jaxson’s quarter-sized areolas. Chewing softly, Jaxson thrust his chest up in pleasure.
Jayson, moving from one nipple to the next, rubbed his smooth cheek against his lover’s chest. He wanted to feel his brother’s body against every part of him, and his sensitive cheek and lips were only the start.