I let go of his wrist. I could see him thinking about stabbing me with his shard of ashtray. His eyes were red with bridled excitement. He was on the move for the first time in weeks and he wanted to cut loose. The taste of murder was in his teeth. I waited for him to try it.
But he wasn’t just cunning, he was smart. He checked the halls and gracefully eased toward the east exit. It opened up onto the back grounds, the landscaper’s shed, and the staff parking lot.
I followed him to the door and watched him unlock it and push through. I stayed behind. It was too chancy to shoulder my way into his escape more than I already had. He turned around. I waited. He rushed back.
His voice was returning. He tried a few more words. They didn’t sound like English. He spoke again and I recognized what he was saying. “Come on, old man. Let’s go.”
“Hey,” I told him, “I’m here for voluntary committal. I’m depressed, not nuts. Choose one of the other loons for your big breakout.”
“Now or you’ll get the same thing that bastard Harding did.”
“What do you want me for?”
“I might need help along the way.”
“How do you know I’ll be any help?”
“Because I’ll stab you in the heart if you’re not.”
I had been threatened with a lot of things in my time, but never a shiv made from a ceramic ashtray. I recognized the ashtray too. It was Barry’s. I couldn’t help picturing him working the clay, squeezing it, getting his hands slippery, and—Christ, I shook my head, I didn’t want to think about it. He’d made it for his mother. On visitor’s day she’d shown up with the family priest and tried a kind of impromptu exorcism to drive away what she called his “naughty touch demons.” They’d given it a real go. The priest calling down the power of the holy spirit, Barry’s mother wailing on about the power of Jesus, and Barry turning red and twitching, trying his damnedest to keep from tugging out his mushroom. The Kid must’ve filched the ashtray while everyone had been watching the show.
The Kid and I crept along the outer wall of the hospital. Jenkins and the nurse would be coming around in five minutes or so to hand out the meds. We didn’t have long to get to Harding’s car.
The Kid tried the remote unlock and an SUV tweeted. We rushed to it and the Kid tried to hop into the driver’s seat. I told him, “Move over.”
“What?”
“Let me drive.”
“Why?”
It was a good question. I didn’t have a good answer. I spun the smoothest lie I could. “Forty years without an accident or a speeding ticket.”
“We’ve got to ram the gate and outrun the security trucks.”
Point taken. “I live in town. I know this area. I can lose anyone who comes after us. Can you?”
I knew he couldn’t. The Kid was new to the area. “If you fuck up,” he said, “I’ll kill you.”
“I won’t.”
“Remember what I said.”
I started it up and felt the thrum of the engine work into my chest, my hands, the back of my skull. There were only 22k miles on it. She’d been well taken care of. I put it in drive and grooved on the feel of my foot on the pedal. Driving with the slippers was almost like driving barefoot. I hadn’t been behind the wheel in three months, the longest period of time since I was fourteen years old, nearly a half century ago. I circled the lot once before heading for the gate. I wished to Christ I’d had time to put on some clothes. The pjs and robe just weren’t proper attire for a crash-out.
I centered myself, tamped down my rage, agitation, and impatience and let the cool take me over. The problem wasn’t getting through the gate. An SUV had more than enough muscle to break through. I could outmaneuver the security detail in his truck.
The trouble was the state trooper station about three miles up the highway. They’d radio our escape and the staties would catch us in a roadblock or just chase us all to hell until they ran us down.
If we floored it in the other direction we’d wind up in a state park that ran out to a spit of land surrounded by the bay. It would be impossible to hide. The Kid would get nervous and try to take someone hostage. Or he’d make a grab for a boat at the nearby marina, and the water patrol would nab us before we got around the point.
“What are we waiting for?” the Kid said. He held his shiv to my throat.
“I’m working out a plan.”
“Just go!”
“That’s not a plan.”
There was really only one choice. I eased down on the pedal and headed for the gate. No other visitors or employees were heading out, so it was shut. The guards didn’t have guns but they did have tasers. They stood in their little booth talking and watching a little television. There was a direct phone line to the staties in there. I didn’t gun it. I drove slowly while the Kid got more and more anxious. He liked the throat, it called to him. His eyes were fixed on my jugular. He liked to make a mess and splash blood.
The rage started to climb to the surface again and I pushed it back, not so easily this time. I took deep breaths and pulled up to the booth.
When the two guards showed their faces I smiled and said, “Get the fuck out now.”
I put Harding’s SUV in reverse, got up some ramming speed, and then floored it.
The guards hung in there until the last second. Maybe they were trying the staties, maybe they were calling in the rest of security from the perimeter and the hospital. They weren’t going to have time. I sped towards them. The assholes inside finally realized I was serious. They both dove out the door. I spun the wheel at the last second and hit the booth broadside. It wasn’t a paragon of architecture and went over like a kid’s tree house. I straightened the SUV out and smashed into the gate. It was thicker than it looked but not by much. The front end of the truck buckled a bit, but we only lost one headlight and the hood stayed clamped down.
The locking mechanism on the gate screeched and the mangled fencing exploded as we went through. I twisted the wheel in order to keep from rolling over, overcorrected and we went up on two tires. I rode it like that for forty feet and we came down on all fours again in the middle of the road. I headed for the highway.
They would call the other security guards first. Then radio the cops. The cops would call in their own cars before informing the staties. It would take an extra four or five minutes. That was enough time to burn right past the trooper station. I got to triple digits and kept punching the engine.
“Jesus, you can drive,” the Kid said.
“I’ve had a lot of experience.”
“Yeah? Where?”
“All over.”
“You said you knew this area.”
“I do. I’ve lived out this way for a long time.”
“Where’s a good place to lay low?”
I grinned at him. “I know the perfect spot.”
“Where?”
“My granddaughter’s place.”
“And where’s she?”
“Away.”
I got off the highway and onto the parkway, heading for the safe house. Things were rolling the right way now. I turned on the radio and clicked in an oldies station. I expected the Kid to give me shit but he kept quiet. We listened to a few crooners, Frankie and Dino, with me humming along.
I jockeyed among the thickening traffic. I took Sunset Highway through Port Jackson. I felt good for the first time in twelve weeks.
“So what are you so depressed about?” he asked.
“I’ve got issues.”
“And what would they be?”
“I’ve been having trouble enjoying life lately.”
“Are you fucking with me?”
“No.”
“You sound as if you’re fucking with me.”
“I’m not.”
“You’re smiling and singing. I guess you’re on the upswing.”
“I think maybe I am.”
“You’re never as full of life as when you’re on the edge of death.”
; “That’s as clich?d as they come.”
“Maybe,” he said, “maybe, but it’s true. Don’t you feel your heart racing like it wants to bang out of your chest?”
“No.”
He got in close. He whispered in my ear. “You’re not afraid of me? Of what you just saw back there?”
“No.”
“Not afraid of dying either. The way you took out that security shack, we almost rolled, but you kept your head. You didn’t panic. Not even when I was this close to cutting your throat.”
“No.”
He snorted. “You are a lunatic.”
“That’s a matter of opinion. Tell me something. Why did you take the watch?”
“What?”
“Harding’s watch. Why’d you snag it?”
“It’s a nice watch.”
“But you can’t even read the time, his dried blood covers the crystal.”
“Who the hell wants to know what time it is?”
He let out a barking laugh. The entire time his voice had been getting stronger. He sounded confident, effectual, his words and laughter resonating. I laughed along with him. He was going to start recognizing sites soon. I circled Port Jackson and went by the supermarket, the high school, the bank, the homeless shelter, the police station, the post office, the jewelry store.
The Kid said, “Where are we?”
“Port Jackson.”
“Slow down.”
I slowed down. I hung a left and cut into a housing development.
“Go back,” he said.
“Go back?”
“Around the block and onto the main road again.”
“Why?”
“You do what I tell you, right?”
“Okay.”
I drove around the block and let him get his bearings. He nodded to himself. His face broke into a self-satisfied grin. He flipped the oldies station and put on something loud and obnoxious and unbearable. It was just as well. The rage was welling up in me. He was going to cut me soon. It would be a small cut, just to get my attention. Just to prove that he had the capacity, that he was capable. I glanced at my face in the rearview mirror. I’d been cut and beaten before, plenty of times. One more scar wouldn’t mean much.
“Thank you,” he said.
“For what?”
“Taking me where I needed to go.”
“Where’s that?”
“Never mind.” He looked at me and grinned. It was a warm and amiable smile, the kind that young girls would fall for. “How far is it to your granddaughter’s place?”
“A couple miles. We’re almost there.”
“We have to stop somewhere first.”
“Where?” I asked.
“The post office.”
“Kid, we’re dressed in hospital pajamas, robes, and slippers. Shouldn’t we keep a lower profile?”
“Pull over.”
“What?”
“Pull the fuck over.”
I pulled over. I turned in my seat and said, “Kid, you should listen to me here. If you—”
He reached out and slashed me on the forehead with his little shiv. It was so sharp that I barely even felt it, but the blood immediately began to pour into my eyes. The cut was small but there are a lot of blood vessels close to the skin on your head and any wound will bleed like a bastard.
That’s what he’d been counting on. He thought the blood would rattle me. It was an old trick. It was a bad bet. He already knew I kept calm under pressure, but it hadn’t mattered. He fell back to type. The Kid was growing edgy. The months of inactivity had worn down his composure. He was getting excited.
I tore the pocket off my pajama top, folded the cloth and held it to the cut. I tied it there with the belt of my robe. I looked at him through the blood dripping off my eyelashes. He was self-satisfied, his eyes alive and bright. Blood had leaked down my chin and smeared across the front of my shirt.
He said, “When I tell you to do something, you do it. You understand me?”
“Sure.”
“Let’s go.”
With the wadded tail of my robe I wiped the blood off my face as best I could and drove over to the post office. He said, “Come on.”
“You want me to come with you?”
“Quickly. We’re in and out in under a minute. And I don’t trust you.”
“Take the keys. I’ll wait.”
“You’re still arguing. Should I cut you again?”
“No.”
“You’ll come with me. Now.”
I went with him. We walked in the front door. The employees and the folks buying stamps and mailing letters gasped and squeaked and backed away. I didn’t look like a depressive who’d voluntarily committed himself. I looked like a maniac who’d probably killed somebody. The Kid pulled a key out of his pocket and walked confidently towards a PO box. He unlocked it and pulled out a satchel. He couldn’t contain himself and let out a giggle.
I thought again of his innate willpower. To swallow the key before he went into the hatch, and then to shit it out and hide it on his person for months, lying there on his coma couch dreaming of the day when he’d get back here.
I glanced up at the cameras in the corners. My face was obscured by the bandage and the belt and the blood. The Kid turned and shoved me out the door. We got back in the SUV and I drove down towards the small house that Emily had rented right on the beach. It was a six month lease, paid up front. She used to lay out in a bikini and sun herself while I jogged along the shoreline.
“What’s in the satchel?” I asked.
“None of your fucking business, old man.”
The wind was up and the ocean road was obscured with sand and sawgrass. I had to drive over a couple of drifts. The sand spun out from our tires. I pulled into the cracked driveway. The Kid said, “This is it?”
“Yeah.”
“It’s a total shithole! You let your granddaughter live in a junker like this?”
“It’s a bungalow, tucked away on a private beach. A good cool off spot. The cops will drop their search in a couple of weeks. They’ll figure we made it out of state.”
“Where’s your grandkid again?”
“Away.”
“She lives here alone.”
“Yeah.”
I climbed out and opened the garage door. Then I pulled in and parked. He was going to go for my throat soon. We walked into the bungalow through the inside garage door and the Kid said, “Thanks for the ride, old man, but—”
I spun on him reaching out with the shiv to slash me the same way he’d done Harding. I caught his wrist and wrenched it to the left. The snap was loud in the empty house. The opening note of his scream was even louder. I let it ring and ring, a nice tremolo. He dropped the shiv and I punched him in the Adam’s apple. He gagged and went to his knees, tears leaking from his eyes. He huffed air. In agony he turned his eyes up toward me and I gripped the back of his head and drove my knee into his face. He flopped onto his back, out cold.
I checked the satchel. All the jewelry was there. It was worth just under a million on the market. Any good fence would take eighty percent off the top. There was no way to clean jewelry except get it out of the country or sell it to private collectors. That’s why a professional crew almost never took down a jewelry shop. The return just wasn’t worth it. But our team had been small and tight and the payoff was good enough to give it a go.
I showered and shaved and got my own clothes out of the closet. The cut on my forehead wasn’t all that bad, it wouldn’t even scar. I cleaned it with peroxide and put a tiny band-aid on.
I sat on the couch and looked at the Kid. His nose was pulped, his face mottled, and he was still sucking air through his teeth. He’d been smart and sharp and paranoid, but not paranoid enough. The jewelry score could’ve been a pretty sweet deal if only he hadn’t gotten greedy.
I knew the Kid wouldn’t recognize me.
We hadn’t been formally introduced. He’d been chosen last minute by Cole as a r
eplacement for Wellington who’d been picked up for flooring it through a yellow light, the prick. He’d had a shootout with the cops and been iced.
I wanted to call the score off, but funds were too low. Emily talked me into rolling the dice. Cole knew somebody who knew somebody who knew the Kid, who was fresh to the coast. Hershaw okayed the replacement.
We still should’ve moved the plan back a week or two and gotten a feel for the Kid. But there was no time. I’d picked him up and he’d climbed into the car and sat behind me. I’d caught his eyes once in the rearview. I hadn’t suspected anything hinky. I’d done my job and driven to the shop and planned on getting us back to the safehouse without incident, where we’d wait a couple of weeks together until the heat was off. Emily and I would lounge around another month or two after that until the end of summer and then split.
I pulled up to the shop and Cole, Hershaw, and the Kid had gotten out. The three of them had entered the place while I kept an eye out for the cops.
My Blackberry rang almost immediately. It was Emily. She wasn’t supposed to call. I answered and realized she was sending me video. I watched as the Kid’s face filled the screen as he approached her. I could see Cole and Hershaw dead on the floor behind him. The Kid had popped them both in the back of the head with a pipsqueak .22. Up close it was an almost silent kill, I knew.
She had set her own Blackberry aside on the counter and it kept sending footage. I watched him reach out toward her and listened to her squeal in pain. That was him cutting Emily’s forehead to get her attention and keep her from hitting any alarm. Then he asked about the jewels. She tried to explain that she was in on the score but he got antsy and slashed her throat. He was fast.
There was nothing I could do but drive away.
If I’d stayed, he would’ve popped me too. That was his plan all along.
I didn’t carry a gun. No driver did.
Someone had hit an alarm. I pulled into the supermarket lot across the square and watched the door. He bolted through two minutes later, still on schedule. He looked around for the car and did a tiny dance of anguish. The police station was less than a minute away. They were already coming.
He’d been smart. He’d planned ahead for contingencies. He’d already taken out a PO box. He ran into the post office and hid the satchel of jewelry and then swallowed the key in case he got picked up. But he had no wheels. There was nowhere to run. He couldn’t be caught on the street.
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