by Henry James
XI
CATHERINE listened for her father when he came in that evening, and sheheard him go to his study. She sat quiet, though her heart was beatingfast, for nearly half an hour; then she went and knocked at his door—aceremony without which she never crossed the threshold of this apartment.On entering it now she found him in his chair beside the fire,entertaining himself with a cigar and the evening paper.
“I have something to say to you,” she began very gently; and she sat downin the first place that offered.
“I shall be very happy to hear it, my dear,” said her father. Hewaited—waited, looking at her, while she stared, in a long silence, atthe fire. He was curious and impatient, for he was sure she was going tospeak of Morris Townsend; but he let her take her own time, for he wasdetermined to be very mild.
“I am engaged to be married!” Catherine announced at last, still staringat the fire.
The Doctor was startled; the accomplished fact was more than he hadexpected. But he betrayed no surprise. “You do right to tell me,” hesimply said. “And who is the happy mortal whom you have honoured withyour choice?”
“Mr. Morris Townsend.” And as she pronounced her lover’s name, Catherinelooked at him. What she saw was her father’s still grey eye and hisclear-cut, definite smile. She contemplated these objects for a moment,and then she looked back at the fire; it was much warmer.
“When was this arrangement made?” the Doctor asked.
“This afternoon—two hours ago.”
“Was Mr. Townsend here?”
“Yes, father; in the front parlour.” She was very glad that she was notobliged to tell him that the ceremony of their betrothal had taken placeout there under the bare ailantus-trees.
“Is it serious?” said the Doctor.
“Very serious, father.”
Her father was silent a moment. “Mr. Townsend ought to have told me.”
“He means to tell you to-morrow.”
“After I know all about it from you? He ought to have told me before.Does he think I didn’t care—because I left you so much liberty?”
“Oh no,” said Catherine; “he knew you would care. And we have been somuch obliged to you for—for the liberty.”
The Doctor gave a short laugh. “You might have made a better use of it,Catherine.”
“Please don’t say that, father,” the girl urged softly, fixing her dulland gentle eyes upon him.
He puffed his cigar awhile, meditatively. “You have gone very fast,” hesaid at last.
“Yes,” Catherine answered simply; “I think we have.”
Her father glanced at her an instant, removing his eyes from the fire.“I don’t wonder Mr. Townsend likes you. You are so simple and so good.”
“I don’t know why it is—but he _does_ like me. I am sure of that.”
“And are you very fond of Mr. Townsend?”
“I like him very much, of course—or I shouldn’t consent to marry him.”
“But you have known him a very short time, my dear.”
“Oh,” said Catherine, with some eagerness, “it doesn’t take long to likea person—when once you begin.”
“You must have begun very quickly. Was it the first time you sawhim—that night at your aunt’s party?”
“I don’t know, father,” the girl answered. “I can’t tell you aboutthat.”
“Of course; that’s your own affair. You will have observed that I haveacted on that principle. I have not interfered, I have left you yourliberty, I have remembered that you are no longer a little girl—that youhave arrived at years of discretion.”
“I feel very old—and very wise,” said Catherine, smiling faintly.
“I am afraid that before long you will feel older and wiser yet. I don’tlike your engagement.”
“Ah!” Catherine exclaimed softly, getting up from her chair.
“No, my dear. I am sorry to give you pain; but I don’t like it. Youshould have consulted me before you settled it. I have been too easywith you, and I feel as if you had taken advantage of my indulgence.Most decidedly, you should have spoken to me first.”
Catherine hesitated a moment, and then—“It was because I was afraid youwouldn’t like it!” she confessed.
“Ah, there it is! You had a bad conscience.”
“No, I have not a bad conscience, father!” the girl cried out, withconsiderable energy. “Please don’t accuse me of anything so dreadful.”These words, in fact, represented to her imagination something veryterrible indeed, something base and cruel, which she associated withmalefactors and prisoners. “It was because I was afraid—afraid—” shewent on.
“If you were afraid, it was because you had been foolish!”
“I was afraid you didn’t like Mr. Townsend.”
“You were quite right. I don’t like him.”
“Dear father, you don’t know him,” said Catherine, in a voice so timidlyargumentative that it might have touched him.
“Very true; I don’t know him intimately. But I know him enough. I havemy impression of him. You don’t know him either.”
She stood before the fire, with her hands lightly clasped in front ofher; and her father, leaning back in his chair and looking up at her,made this remark with a placidity that might have been irritating.
I doubt, however, whether Catherine was irritated, though she broke intoa vehement protest. “I don’t know him?” she cried. “Why, I knowhim—better than I have ever known any one!”
“You know a part of him—what he has chosen to show you. But you don’tknow the rest.”
“The rest? What is the rest?”
“Whatever it may be. There is sure to be plenty of it.”
“I know what you mean,” said Catherine, remembering how Morris hadforewarned her. “You mean that he is mercenary.”
Her father looked up at her still, with his cold, quiet reasonable eye.“If I meant it, my dear, I should say it! But there is an error I wishparticularly to avoid—that of rendering Mr. Townsend more interesting toyou by saying hard things about him.”
“I won’t think them hard if they are true,” said Catherine.
“If you don’t, you will be a remarkably sensible young woman!”
“They will be your reasons, at any rate, and you will want me to hearyour reasons.”
The Doctor smiled a little. “Very true. You have a perfect right to askfor them.” And he puffed his cigar a few moments. “Very well, then,without accusing Mr. Townsend of being in love only with your fortune—andwith the fortune that you justly expect—I will say that there is everyreason to suppose that these good things have entered into hiscalculation more largely than a tender solicitude for your happinessstrictly requires. There is, of course, nothing impossible in anintelligent young man entertaining a disinterested affection for you.You are an honest, amiable girl, and an intelligent young man mighteasily find it out. But the principal thing that we know about thisyoung man—who is, indeed, very intelligent—leads us to suppose that,however much he may value your personal merits, he values your moneymore. The principal thing we know about him is that he has led a life ofdissipation, and has spent a fortune of his own in doing so. That isenough for me, my dear. I wish you to marry a young man with otherantecedents—a young man who could give positive guarantees. If MorrisTownsend has spent his own fortune in amusing himself, there is everyreason to believe that he would spend yours.”
The Doctor delivered himself of these remarks slowly, deliberately, withoccasional pauses and prolongations of accent, which made no greatallowance for poor Catherine’s suspense as to his conclusion. She satdown at last, with her head bent and her eyes still fixed upon him; andstrangely enough—I hardly know how to tell it—even while she felt thatwhat he said went so terribly against her, she admired his neatness andnobleness of expression. There was something hopeless and oppressive inhaving to argue with her father; but she too, on her side, must try to beclear. He was so qui
et; he was not at all angry; and she too must bequiet. But her very effort to be quiet made her tremble.
“That is not the principal thing we know about him,” she said; and therewas a touch of her tremor in her voice. “There are other things—manyother things. He has very high abilities—he wants so much to dosomething. He is kind, and generous, and true,” said poor Catherine, whohad not suspected hitherto the resources of her eloquence. “And hisfortune—his fortune that he spent—was very small!”
“All the more reason he shouldn’t have spent it,” cried the Doctor,getting up, with a laugh. Then as Catherine, who had also risen to herfeet again, stood there in her rather angular earnestness, wishing somuch and expressing so little, he drew her towards him and kissed her.“You won’t think me cruel?” he said, holding her a moment.
This question was not reassuring; it seemed to Catherine, on thecontrary, to suggest possibilities which made her feel sick. But sheanswered coherently enough—“No, dear father; because if you knew how Ifeel—and you must know, you know everything—you would be so kind, sogentle.”
“Yes, I think I know how you feel,” the Doctor said. “I will be verykind—be sure of that. And I will see Mr. Townsend to-morrow. Meanwhile,and for the present, be so good as to mention to no one that you areengaged.”