by J. M. Walker
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Control Us (Next Generation, #1)
Copyright 2020, J.M. Walker
FAMILY TREE
PROLOGUE
ONE
TWO
THREE
FOUR
FIVE
SIX
SEVEN
EIGHT
NINE
TEN
ELEVEN
TWELVE
THIRTEEN
FOURTEEN
FIFTEEN
SIXTEEN
SEVENTEEN
EIGHTEEN
NINETEEN
TWENTY
TWENTY-ONE
TWENTY-TWO
TWENTY-THREE
TWENTY-FOUR
TWENTY-FIVE
TWENTY-SIX
TWENTY-SEVEN
TWENTY-EIGHT
TWENTY-NINE
THIRTY
THIRTY-ONE
EPILOGUE
BONUS SCENE
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
ABOUT
Angel and Genevieve “Jay” Rodriguez
(Grit, King’s Harlots #1/Grim, King’s Harlots #3)
Angelica “Gigi”
Ryder
Meadow
Asher and Meeka Donovan
(Stain, King’s Harlots #2)
Aiden
Ashton
Coby and Brogan Porter
(Rude, King’s Harlots #4/For You, King’s Harlots #7)
Zachary “Zach”
Dale and Maxine “Max” Michaels
(Numb, King’s Harlots #5)
Piper
Vincent “Stone” and Creena Stone
(Rust, King’s Harlots #6)
Luna
Vincent Junior
Greyson and Eve Mercer
(Greyson, Hell’s Harlem #1)
Jaron
Tray and Zillah Lister
(Tray, Hell’s Harlem #2)
Beatrix “Bee”
John and Beatrix “Trixie” Butcher
(Hell’s Harlem Series)
Cyrus
Samson “Sammy”
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Zach
DARKNESS SURROUNDED ME. IT swallowed me whole, enveloping me in a blanket of bliss as I curled into myself on the hard cement beneath me.
My stomach twisted and churned, the agony of having no food in my belly making it hard to concentrate on anything but the hunger ripping through me. I could try sleeping. Maybe that would make the pain go away. But slumber was lacking no matter how long I kept my eyes closed.
Footsteps sounded above me. They became closer and closer. With each step, my heart thumped, pounding against my rib cage. My skin broke out in a cold sweat. Fear rippled down my spine like icy fingers danced along my small, frail body.
Please, God. Make her stay away. Make her forget I even exist.
But my prayers went unanswered. No one heard them. It was like as soon as I sent up my prayer, the steps only became louder and faster.
I tried moving away from the sound but the chain around my ankle prevented me from going very far.
“Come out, come out wherever you are,” she sang.
Pretending to be asleep did nothing. I would only get whipped awake. So instead, I brought my knees up to my chest, curled my arms around them, and waited for whatever punishment I would get.
“You’ve been a bad boy, haven’t you, Zachary?” Her voice was louder as she stood on the other side of the closed door. The locks released, revealing the person who invaded my nightmares.
“Aww, my little toy. Why are you so scared? I’m only doing this to make you stronger. You know that.”
A whimper escaped me, even though I didn’t want it to. I couldn’t control it. This woman terrified me.
“I have some food for you, but I need something first.” Her bright blue eyes flicked to mine. “You want food, don’t you?”
I nodded. I would give anything for even a piece of moldy bread.
“I’ll unchain you and you can come with me. Same thing as last week. Understand?”
“Please,” I croaked through my parched, cracked lips. “Not again.”
“I know you’ll do anything for this food. Can you smell it?” She smirked. “So good. I made it myself.”
I swallowed hard, knowing the food was laced with something. I may have been just a boy, but I knew when food tasted funny. But at that point, I didn’t care. She could kill me. As long as I had a full belly, I would die happy.
My stepmother came farther into the small room and unlocked the chain from around my ankle. “Come with me, Toy, and I’ll give you your food after you give me what I need.”
I spent the next couple of hours doing everything she asked of me, just so I could have a slice of moldy cheese on stale bread. She had promised me a full meal but lied. That sandwich gave me the strength to survive through another night of hell. I didn’t know how long it would be until I got my next one, so I savored it.
I savored every damn crumb.
Zach
I WOKE IN A COLD sweat. My sheets were stuck to me, my hair matted to my forehead. I hadn’t had a nightmare in months. I didn’t like them. The way they made me feel. The terror they forced through the marrow of my bones. The vulnerability. But the lack of control was even worse. I needed to get it together for fear I would lose myself completely. The demons of my past threatened to take over my life. I worked out. A lot. It was the only way I could mute the noise in my head. But sometimes, even putting myself through that rigorous activity didn’t help.
The dreams were few and far between now but when I had them, they stuck with me for a while. My parents had tried getting me to speak to someone, but I refused. There was only one person I could talk to and even then, she didn’t know everything.
Sitting up in bed, I pinched the bridge of my nose and waited for the remnants of the nightmare to fade away. It did but not enough. That quiet little voice was still there.
Nagging. Nudging. Poking at me. Reminding me that it had control over my life. As much as I didn’t care to admit it.
A soft knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. “Come in.”
My mother peeked her head into the room. “You okay?” she asked, her eyes holding wrinkles at the corners from years of happiness with my father.
I glanced at the clock. It was almost five in the morning. “What are you doing up?” I asked her instead of answering her question.
She smiled softly, her dark eyes shining with a hint of sadness I saw every so often. She didn’t think I noticed but I did, and it always made me sick to my stomach whenever she was hurting.
“I could ask the same about you.” She sighed. “Your dad couldn’t sleep.” Which meant she took care of him in any way possible.
Sex.
I wasn’t oblivious to their ways. Although they were my parents, they were open enough to tell me how they took care of each other. Especially after I accidentally found the shackles beneath their bed.
“Anything I can do to help?” I asked even though I already knew the a
nswer.
“No.” She opened the door fully but still remained in the hall. “Want to talk about it?”
I nodded. She had been the only woman I talked to lately. The only woman I actually trusted enough to tell my problems to. Or that was what I tried telling myself anyway. There was someone else. But I wasn’t good enough for her and she had a father. A large fucking father.
My mother left the room and closed the door softly behind her.
Brogan and Coby Porter adopted me when I was ten. They took me from a horrible situation that no child should ever go through and welcomed me into their home with open arms. They gave me love, support, and never-ending encouragement no matter how difficult I had been. But it still wasn’t enough. I wasn’t sure why. I never felt this way when I was a kid but now that I was getting older, there was something missing from my life. That nagging little voice inside of me told me what it was, but I always chose to ignore it. There was no point. She deserved better and whenever she got too close, I pushed her away. It was the only way I could protect myself from getting hurt.
I quickly threw on pajama pants and a hoodie and made my way out into the kitchen. No matter what time of night it was, if Dad or I had a nightmare, Mom was always there to talk us through it.
She handed me a mug of hot chocolate with three marshmallows swimming in the steaming liquid. I smiled softly. It was always the same ever since I was a little boy.
“Here.”
I sat at the table when Brogan placed a mug in front of me. “What is it?”
She smiled softy. “Hot chocolate with three marshmallows. My brother used to make this for me when I was your age.”
I looked up at her. “Did you have nightmares?”
“Yeah, sweetheart. I did.” Brogan sat beside me and cupped my hand that was resting on my lap. “I’m here, Zach. For however long you need, I’m always here. Both of us are.”
Ever since then, I had looked forward to the hot chocolate. It had been a special bonding time for Mom and me. A part of me wondered if Dad knew that, so he would let her take care of me before asking me about the nightmares later on.
“Was it the same nightmare as last time?” Mom asked, sitting across the table from me with her own mug. Even though she was now older, the only wrinkles that sat on her face, were at the corners of her eyes. She always said they were her love lines because the love she had for my father and me, made her smile.
“Kind of. It’s been awhile but this one was intense.” I stared down at the marshmallows in the hot chocolate. “I almost forgot what they could be like.”
“Your father goes through the same thing.” Her gaze hardened. “If I could murder the woman who destroyed you, I would.” She shrugged. “But I have to behave. I am a mother now after all.” It had been something she said often. She wasn’t lying when she said she would kill her. Mom was part of a female motorcycle club that could give most men a run for their money. She had a past. A history. They never talked about the woman who hurt my dad, but everything told me that she was no longer breathing.
“Why are you looking at me like that?” she asked, her cheeks reddening.
“Just thinking how amazing you are.”
She laughed. “You are so much like your father, it’s unreal.”
I smiled, taking a sip of the hot chocolate. Even though we weren’t blood related, I had taken on a lot of my adoptive father’s traits. He protected my mother. His wife. His best friend. And I only hoped I could be half the man he was.
“Have you considered seeing Dr. Santos like we talked about?” Mom asked, pulling the elastic free from her dark curly hair and putting it back into a messy bun on top of her head.
“No.” I hated talking. It opened up too many old wounds that I just didn’t want to think about.
“I know it’s hard, but you really should.” She raised her hand. “Before you argue with me, just give it some thought. Please.”
“So this is what you do when I don’t find you in bed beside me.”
Both of us laughed as my dad joined us at the table.
“You good, Son?” he asked me, cupping my shoulder.
“Nightmare,” was all I said.
He grunted, kissed Mom on the temple, and sat down beside her. “Sucks. Doesn’t it?”
“Yeah.” But at least he had someone who could take care of him after. Mom helped me through it as well, but it wasn’t the same. I needed someone I could spend the rest of the night holding, talking to, just being beside. It didn’t have to end in sex. I just needed something other than hot chocolate.
While they talked quietly amongst themselves, I continued drinking from my mug, distracting myself.
Once I finished the hot chocolate, I brought the mug to the kitchen. When I returned to the dining room, I wrapped my arms around my mother’s shoulders. “Thank you for the hot chocolate, Mama.” I kissed her cheek.
She patted my hand. “Anything for you, sweet boy. Try and get some sleep.”
“You heading to the city today?” Dad asked me, rising to his feet.
“I am.” My dad owned half the high-rises and hotels in the city that was a couple of hours away, thanks to my grandfather before him. Since retiring officially from the navy a few years ago, this business was all Dad had. And it left a cozy cushion for his family which was why I followed in his footsteps.
“You are allowed a day off,” Dad chided. “You’ve been going strong for the past few months. People are going to begin to think your boss is running you ragged.”
I chuckled, clapping him on the shoulder. “The business is all I have right now. Until I get a family of my own, I need this.” I was working toward taking over the business so he could retire officially and spend time with his wife. But it was taking a little longer seeing as Dad didn’t want to retire just yet. Instead, I was learning as much as I could from him.
“I understand.” He looked down at his wife. “It was all I had before you.” He cupped her cheek, brushing his thumb over her mouth.
She smiled up at him.
Looking away, I cleared my throat and excused myself.
I loved them. They took me from hell and brought me into their home. I hadn’t always been easy to get along with. I knew that. But sometimes their love was overwhelming. Was I jealous? Maybe. I didn’t know anymore. I dated a few times, but it never resulted in anything more than that. No pussy was going to tame this beast inside of me. Or that was the rumor that went around anyway. Truth was, I hadn’t had sex in over a year. The rumors still went around that told a different story, but I never corrected them. What was the point? I was wild in my high school days and people assumed it followed me into my twenties. It didn’t. Sex was an out for some but for me, it wasn’t enough. This need for more was only getting worse and I knew I needed to do something about it before it consumed me completely.
Luna
I COULDN’T SLEEP. IT was past five in the morning and I had been laying there like a damn lump for the past couple of hours. The house I lived in with my three best friends was eerily quiet and it made me uncomfortable. Our house was never this quiet. No matter what time of the day it was, someone was usually always up. Whether it be a random stray that one of my best friends brought home or just someone who spent the night after drinking too much, there was always noise. But tonight, the loudest sound going on, was inside my brain. I hated nights like this.
Rolling over onto my stomach, I reached for my phone and texted the only other person I knew who could possibly be up at this hour.
Me: You awake?
Zach: Yeah.
My stomach twisted that he had responded so quickly.
Me: Nightmare?
A couple of minutes went by and I still hadn’t gotten a reply. Everyone knew that Zach Porter had a shitty childhood but none of us was aware how far it went or what exactly had happened. He was always quiet and withdrawn. He threw himself into his work and stuck mostly to himself even though we had all grown up together thanks to al
l of our parents being friends. But for whatever reason, I had been the only person he actually opened up to. Even though I had known him since I was a little girl, I had a feeling that I still didn’t know him completely.
My phone chimed, making me jump.
Zach: How did you know?
Me: That’s usually why you’re awake at this hour.
A video call came through, revealing Zach’s handsome face. My heart skipped a beat. My skin became flushed. Good thing it was dark in my room, so he couldn’t see the damn blush in my cheeks that he always caused. It was no secret that I had a crush on the guy. I just wasn’t sure if he knew it or not.
“You are the only guy I would even consider video chatting with while I’m in my pajamas.” I laughed, not looking him directly in the eyes. The dark, almost black orbs sucked me in every time. I could spend hours getting lost in them.
“You’re beautiful, Moonbeam.” Zach smirked, that tiny dimple in his right cheek, popping at the movement. “You have nothing to be embarrassed over.”
My cheeks warmed at the childhood nickname he had given me after finding out my name meant moon in Italian. My stepmom loved it. My dad, not so much.
“Why did you call?” I asked Zach, turning on the lamp and leaning against the headboard.
“You know I hate texting.”
“But you always text me,” I pointed out.
“That’s because I want to make you happy.”
My heart stuttered. “Well...uh…thank you.”
“So...” He waggled his eyebrows. “What are you wearing?”
I giggled, shaking my head.
“I love your laugh,” he murmured, his deep voice hitting every nerve inside of me.
I smiled softly. Our flirting back and forth had always been fun, fresh, light. Nothing more. But as the years went on, my feelings for him grew. I wasn’t sure how he felt though. He probably still looked at me like I was the little girl in pigtails who had a crush on the older boy.