by Frank Norris
He smoked the cigarette slowly, inhaling as much of the smoke as he could. This quieted him for an hour, but he had the folly to smoke again at the end of that time, and at once — as he might have known — was hungry again. Until dark he struggled along, drinking water continually, chewing chips of wood, toothpicks, bits of straw, anything so that the action of his jaws might cheat the demands of his stomach. Toward half-past seven in the evening he returned to his room in the Reno House. If he could get to sleep that would be best of all. On the stairs of the hotel, while going up to his room, the strong smell of cooking onions came suddenly to his nostrils. It was delicious. Vandover breathed in the warm savour with long sighs, closing his eyes; a great feebleness overcame him. He asked himself how he could get through the next twelve hours.
An hour later he went to bed, hiccoughing from the water he had been drinking all day. By this time he had torn the paper from one of his cigarettes and was chewing the tobacco. This was his last resort, an expedient which he fell back upon only in great extremity, as it invariably made him sick to his stomach. He slept a little, but in half an hour was broad awake again, gagging and retching dreadfully. There was nothing on his stomach to throw up, and now at length the hunger in him raged like a wolf. Vandover was in veritable torment.
He could not keep his thoughts away from the money in his pocket, a nickel and two dimes. He could eat if he wanted to, could satisfy this incessant craving. At every moment the temptation grew stronger. Why should he wait until morning? He had the money; it was only a matter of a few minutes’ walk to the nearest saloon. But he set his face against this desire; he had held out so long that it would be a pity to give in now; he was not so very hungry after all. No, no; he would not give in, he was strong enough; as long as he used his will he need not succumb. It was just a question of asserting his strength of mind, of calling up the better part of him. Even better than eating would be the satisfaction of knowing that he had shown himself stronger than his lower animal appetite. No; he would not give in.
Hardly a minute after he had arrived at this resolution Vandover found himself drawing on his coat and shoes making ready to go out — to go out and eat.
The gas in the room was lit, his money, the nickel and the two dimes, was shut in one of his fists. He was dressing himself with one hand, dressing with feverish, precipitate haste. What had happened? He marvelled at himself, but did not check his preparations an instant. He could not stop, whether he would or no; there was something in him stronger than himself, something that urged him on his feet, that drove him out into the street, something that clamoured for food and that would not be gainsaid. It was the animal in him, the brute, that would be fed, the evil, hideous brute grown now so strong that Vandover could not longer resist it — the brute that had long since destroyed all his finer qualities but that still demanded to be fed, still demanded to live. All the little money that Vandover had saved during the day he spent that night among the coffee houses, the restaurants, and the saloons of the Barbary Coast, continuing to eat even after his hunger was satisfied. Toward daylight he returned to his room, and all dressed as he was flung himself face downward among the coarse blankets and greasy counterpane. For nearly eight hours he slept profoundly, with long snores, prone, inert, crammed and gorged with food.
It was the middle of Sunday afternoon when he awoke. He roused himself and going over to the Plaza sat for a long while upon one of the benches. It was a very bright afternoon and Vandover sat motionless for a long time in the sun while his heavy meal digested, very happy, content merely to be warm, to be well fed, to be comfortable.
Chapter Eighteen
That winter passed, then the summer; September and October came and went, and by the middle of November the rains set in. One very wet afternoon toward the end of the month Charlie Geary sat at his desk in his own private office. He was unoccupied for the moment, leaning back in his swivel chair, his feet on the table, smoking a cigar. Geary had broken from his old-time habit of smoking only so many cigars as he could pay for by saving carfare. He was doing so well now that he could afford to smoke whenever he chose. He was still with the great firm of Beale & Storey, and while not in the partnership as yet, had worked up to the position of an assistant. He had cases of his own now, a great many of them, for the most part damage suits against that certain enormous corporation whom it was said was ruining the city and entire state. Geary posed as one of its bitterest enemies, pushing each suit brought against it with a tireless energy, with a zeal that was almost vindictive. He began to fit into his own niche, in the eyes of the public, and just in proportion as the corporation was hated, Geary was admired. Money came to him very fast. He was hardly thirty at this time, but could already be called a rich man.
His “deal” with Vandover had given him a taste for real estate, and now and then, with the greatest caution, he made a few discreet investments. At present he had just completed a row of small cottages across the street from the boot and shoe factory. The cottages held two rooms and a large kitchen. Geary had calculated that the boot and shoe concern would employ nearly a thousand operatives, and he had built his row with the view of accommodating a few of them who had families and who desired to live near the factory. His agents were Adams & Brunt.
It was toward half-past five, there was nothing more that Geary could do that day, and for a moment he leaned back in his swivel chair, before going home, smiling a little, very well pleased with himself. He was still as clever and shrewd as ever, still devoured with an incarnate ambition, still delighted when he could get the better of any one. He was yet a young man; with the start he had secured for himself, and with the exceptional faculties, the faculties of self-confidence and “push” that he knew himself to possess, there was no telling to what position he might attain. He knew that it was only a question of time — of a short time even — when he would be the practical head of the great firm. Everything he turned his hand to was a success. His row of houses in the Mission might be enlarged to a veritable settlement for every workman in the neighbourhood. His youth, his cleverness, and his ambition, supported by his money on the one hand, and on the other by the vast machinery of the great law firm, could raise him to a great place in the world of men. Gazing through the little blue haze of his cigar smoke, he began to have vague ideas, ideas of advancement, of political successes. Politics fascinated him — such a field of action seemed to be the domain for which he was precisely suited — not the politics of the city or of the state; not the nasty little squabbling of boodlers, lobbyists, and supervisors, but something large, something inspiring, something on a tremendous scale, something to which one could give up one’s whole life and energy, something to which one could sacrifice everything — friendships, fortunes, scruples, principles, life itself, no matter what, anything to be a “success,” to “arrive,” to “get there,” to attain the desired object in spite of the whole world, to ride on at it, trampling down or smashing through everything that stood in the way, blind, deaf, fists and teeth shut tight. Not the little squabbling politics of the city or state, but national politics, the sway and government of a whole people, the House, the Senate, the cabinet and the next — why not? — the highest, the best of all, the Executive. Yes, Geary aspired even to the Presidency.
For a moment he allowed himself the indulgence of the delightful dream, then laughed a bit at his own absurdity. But even the entertainment of so vast an idea had made his mind, as it were, big; it was hard to come down to the level again. In spite of himself he went on reasoning in stupendous thoughts, in enormous ideas, figuring with immense abstractions. And then after all, why not? Other men had striven and attained; other men were even now striving, other men would “arrive”; why should not he? As well he as another. Every man for himself — that was his maxim. It might be damned selfish, but it was human nature: the weakest to the wall, the strongest to the front. Why should not he be in the front? Why not in the very front rank? Why not be even before the front ran
k itself — the leader? Vast, vague ideas passed slowly across the vision of his mind, ideas that could hardly be formulated into thought, ideas of the infinite herd of humanity, driven on as if by some enormous, relentless engine, driven on toward some fearful distant bourne, driven on recklessly at headlong speed. All life was but a struggle to keep from under those myriad spinning wheels that dashed so close behind. Those were happiest who were farthest to the front. To lag behind was peril; to fall was to perish, to be ridden down, to be beaten to the dust, to be inexorably crushed and blotted out beneath that myriad of spinning iron wheels. Geary looked up quickly and saw Vandover standing in the doorway.
For the moment Geary did not recognize the gaunt, shambling figure with the long hair and dirty beard, the greenish hat, and the streaked and spotted coat, but when he did it was with a feeling of anger and exasperation.
“Look here!” he cried, “don’t you think you’d better knock before you come in?”
Vandover raised a hand slowly as if in deprecation, and answered slowly and with a feeble, tremulous voice, the voice of an old man: “I did knock, Mister Geary; I didn’t mean no offence.” He sat down on the edge of the nearest chair, looking vaguely and stupidly about on the floor, moving his head instead of his eyes, repeating under his breath from time to time, “No offence — no, sir — no offence!”
“Shut that door!” commanded Geary. Vandover obeyed. He wore no vest, and the old cutaway coat, fastened by the single remaining button, exposed his shirt to view, abominably filthy, bulging at the waist like a blouse. The “blue pants,” held up by a strap, were all foul with mud and grease and paint, and there hung about him a certain odour, that peculiar smell of poverty and of degradation, the smell of stale clothes and of unwashed bodies.
“Well?” said Geary abruptly.
Vandover put the tips of his fingers to his lips and rolled his eyes about the room, avoiding Geary’s glance; then he dropped them to the floor again, looking at the pattern in the carpet.
“Well,” repeated Geary, irritated, “you know I haven’t got all the time in the world.” All at once Vandover began to cry, very softly, snuffling with his nose, his chin twitching, the tears running through his thin, sparse beard.
“Ah, get on to yourself!” shouted Geary, now thoroughly disgusted. “Quit that! Be a man, will you? Stop that! do you hear?” Vandover obeyed, catching his breath and slowly wiping his eyes with the side of his hand.
“I’m no good!” he said at length, wagging his head and blinking through his tears. “I’m — I’m done for and I ain’t got no money; yet, of course, you see I don’t mean no offence. What I want, you see, is to be a man and not give in and not let the wolf get me, and then I’ll go back to Paris. Everything goes round here, very slow, and seems far off; that’s why I can’t get along, and I’m that hungry that sometimes I twitch all over. I’m down. I ain’t got another cent of money and I lost my job at the paint-shop. There’s where I drew down twenty dollars a week painting landscapes on safes, you know, and then—”
Geary interrupted him, crying out, “You haven’t a cent? Why, what have you done with your bonds?”
“Bonds?” repeated Vandover, dazed and bewildered. “I ain’t never had any bonds. What bonds? Oh, yes,” he exclaimed, suddenly remembering, “yes, I know, my bonds, of course; yes, yes — well, I — those — those, I had to sell those bonds — had some debts, you see, my board and my tailor’s bill. They got out some sort of paper after me. Yes, I had forgotten about my bonds. I lost every damned one of them playing cards — gambled ’em all away. Ain’t I no good? But I was winner once — just in two nights I won ten thousand dollars. Then I must have lost it again. You see, I get so hungry sometimes that I twitch all over — so, just like that. Lend me a dollar.”
For a few moments Geary was silent, watching Vandover curiously, as he sat in a heap on the edge of the chair, fumbling his greenish hat, looking about the floor. Presently he asked:
“When did you lose your job at the paint-shop?”
“Day before yesterday.”
“And you are out of work now?”
“Yes,” answered Vandover. “I’m broke; I haven’t a cent. I’m blest if I know how I’m to get along. Lately I’ve been working for a paint-shop, painting landscapes on safes. I drew down fifty dollars a week there, but I’ve lost my job.”
“Good Lord, Van!” Geary suddenly exclaimed, nodding his head toward him reflectively, “I’m sorry for you!”
The other laughed. “Yes; I suppose I’m a pitiable looking object, but I’m used to it. I don’t mind much now as long as I can have a place to sleep and enough to eat. If you can put me in the way of some work, Charlie, I’d be much obliged. You see, that’s what I want — work. I don’t want to run any bunco game. I’m an honest man — I’m too honest. I gave away all my money to help another poor duck; gave him thousands, he was good to me when I was on my uppers and I meant to repay him. I was grateful. I signed a paper that gave him everything I had. It was in Paris. There’s where my bonds went to. He was a struggling artist.”
“Look here!” said Geary, willing to be interested, “you might as well be truthful with me. You can’t lie to me. Have you gambled away all those bonds, or have you been victimized, or have you still got them? Come, now, spit it out.”
“Charlie, I haven’t a cent!” answered Vandover, looking him squarely in the face. “Would I be around here and trying to get work from you if I had? No; I gambled it all away. You know I had eighty-nine hundred in U.S. 4 per cents. Well, first I began to pawn things when my money got short — the Old Gentleman’s watch that I said I never would part with, then my clothes. I couldn’t keep away from the cards. Of course, you can’t understand that; gambling was the only thing that could amuse me. Then I began to mortgage my bonds, very little at first. Oh, I went slow! Then I got to selling them. Well, somehow, they all went. For a time I got along by the work at the paint-shop. But they have let me out now; said I was so irregular. I owe for nearly a month at my lodging-place.” His eyes sought the floor again, rolling about stupidly. “Nearly a month, and that’s what makes me jump and tremble so. You ought to see me sometimes — b-r-r-r-h! — and I get to barking! I’m a wolf mostly, you know, or some kind of an animal, some kind of a brute. But I’d be all right if everything didn’t go round very slowly, and seem far off. But I’m a wolf. You look out for me; best take care I don’t bite you! Wolf — wolf! Ah! It’s up four flights at the end of the hall, very dark, eight thousand dollars in a green cloth sack, and lots of lights a-burning. See how long my finger nails are — regular claws; that’s the wolf, the brute! Why can’t I talk in my mouth instead of in my throat? That’s the devil of it. When you paint on steel and iron your colours don’t dry out true; all the yellows turn green. But it would ‘a’ been all straight if they hadn’t fired me! I never talked to anybody — that was my business, wasn’t it? And when all those eight thousand little lights begin to burn red, why, of course that makes you nervous! So I have to drink a great deal of water and chew butcher’s paper. That fools him and he thinks he’s eating. Just so as I can lay quiet in the Plaza when the sun is out. There’s a hack-stand there, you know, and every time that horse tosses his head so’s to get the oats in the bottom of the nose-bag he jingles the chains on the poles and, by God! that’s funny; makes me laugh every time; sounds gay, and the chain sparkles mighty pretty! Oh, I don’t complain. Give me a dollar and I’ll bark for you!”
Geary leaned back in his chair listening to Vandover, struck with wonder, marvelling at that which his old chum had come to be. He was sorry for him, too, yet, nevertheless, he felt a certain indefinite satisfaction, a faint exultation over his misfortunes, glad that their positions were not reversed, pleased that he had been clever enough to keep free from those habits, those modes of life that ended in such fashion. He rapped sharply on the table. Vandover straightened up, raising his eyes:
“You want some work?” he demanded.
“Yes; that
’s what I’m after,” answered Vandover, adding, “I must have it!”
“Well,” said Geary, hesitatingly, “I can give you something to do, but it will be pretty dirty.”
Vandover smiled a little, saying, “I guess you can’t give me any work that would be too dirty for me!” With the words he suddenly began to cry again. “I want to be honest, Mister Geary,” he exclaimed, drawing the backs of his fingers across his lips; “I want to be honest; I’m down and I don’t mean no offence. Charlie, you and I were old chums once at Harvard. My God! to think I was a Harvard man once! Oh, I’m a goner now and I ain’t got a friend. When I was in the paint-shop they paid me well. I’ve been in a paint-shop lately painting the little pictures on the safes, little landscapes, you know, and lakes with mountains around them. I pulled down my twenty dollars and findings!”