by Bill Myers
The two slunk toward the back under the amused smiles of the group.
“Now, where were we?” Eli asked.
“You was gonna tell us ’bout some company,” a teen in a sleeveless T-shirt replied.
“But you hadn’t decided what type,” a heavyset mother added.
An elder in a frayed sports coat spoke up. “Make it an insurance company.”
“How ’bout a beautician school?”
“Or a—”
“Thanks,” Eli grinned, “I think I’ve got one.” He took a brief moment to gather his thoughts. Conrad scanned the group. He estimated there were nearly thirty people there.
Thirty Southern black folks sitting in the hot, Texas sun waiting to hear some West Coast Jewish kid weave a story. He shook his head in amusement. The miracles just kept coming.
Eli began. “Once there was a computer software company.”
“That will work,” the elder agreed.
“The owner was a genius. I mean, this guy created the absolute, top-of-the-line software. He invested wisely, hired the best managers, the best employees—”
“Had great health care benefits?” the mother asked.
The group chuckled, and Eli agreed. “Had great health care benefits, plus a retirement plan, plus a day-care center, plus profit sharing. I mean this guy had it all. Plus money—
lots and lots of money.”
“All right, Bill Gates.”
“I’m talking bigger than Bill Gates.”
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than camaraderie. It was a joy and a love that he had for them, for each of them. And it was a love they sensed and readily returned.
Eli continued. “Eventually he goes off on a long trip.
Spends the summer in Switzerland.”
“How ’bout Bermuda?” a younger woman called out.
“Let the man speak,” the elder insisted.
“Sorry.”
“Anyway, when he logs on to check how things are going, he realizes that the managers have locked him out. They’ve built a firewall he can’t go around. So he calls up one of his corporate vice presidents and asks him to visit the plant to find out what’s happening. But the guy—”
“Or gal,” the younger woman corrected.
Eli nodded. “Or gal, shows up, and the managers won’t let her in. Not only won’t they let her in, but they slap a restraining order on her, refusing to let her anywhere near the place.”
“They can do that?”
“Let the man speak.”
“So the owner, he tries again with another corporate V.P.
Only this time they beat him and throw him out with all kinds of threats on his life.”
“So he finally comes back himself?” the mother asked.
Eli shook his head. “No, not yet.”
Conrad watched as Eli grew more and more involved, almost as if he were taking the story personally.
“He sends yet another V.P., and he too is beaten and thrown out. So finally, finally, he decides to send his own son, his heir who will one day inherit the company. I mean, surely they’ll respect his own son, right?”
The group listened, unsure how to respond. They had also noticed Eli’s growing intensity.
“But they don’t. Not in the slightest. Instead, when the owner’s son finally arrives and enters the building, they grab him. Then they beat him. Worse than that . . .” He took a deep breath. “Worse than that, they eventually decide to kill him.”
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Finally Brother Hudson, one of the visiting clergy, spoke up. “Why’s that?”
Eli turned to him, then quietly answered, “You tell me.”
The visitor stiffened under his gaze.
“So they can have all the profits,” the young woman suggested.
Eli turned to her and nodded.
“Or maybe so they can stay in power,” another offered.
“What happens next?” the elder asked.
Eli looked at him a moment, then continued. “Finally the owner has had enough. He comes back home. With the sheriff and a truckload of deputies, he enters the building. And what do you think he does?”
“Fires ’em all,” the teen in the sleeveless T-shirt shouted.
“And tries the managers for murder,” another said. “That’s his son we’re talkin’ about.”
Eli nodded. “Yes, he fires everyone on payroll, and he presses charges against all of the department heads for murder.”
“What happens to the company?” the young woman asked.
“Ah . . .” Ever so slightly the sadness lifted from Eli’s eyes.
“This is where it gets interesting. The owner then goes out into the streets and hires anyone who wants to work for him.”
“Anyone?” the teen asked.
“That’s right,” Eli smiled. “Anyone at all. It doesn’t matter how unqualified they are—how bad their work record has been. Not only does he make them his new employees with even greater benefits, he also allows them to become co-owners of the company.”
The group approved. A few clapped.
“And the moral to all this is . . .” It was Brother Hudson again. “What exactly are you trying to say?”
A large man sitting with his wife and kids answered, “The owner, he’s supposed to be like God, right?”
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Eli looked at him, his smile broadening. “That’s right.”
“And the company,” the teen added, “that’s like the whole world.”
“No, fool,” his buddy chided. “It’s like the religious establishment or somethin’, ain’t that right, Eli?”
“Right again.”
“And those vice presidents?” the young woman asked.
It was the pastor’s turn to answer. “I believe those are the prophets of God, the ones who kept trying to turn the people back to Him.”
“Oooh,” an older woman teased. “Very good, Pastor.”
He chuckled, flashing his gold tooth. “Why thank you, Sister Benson.”
“And the managers?” Reverend Caldwell’s voice came from the back. It was brittle and cool.
Eli turned to him but did not answer.
Caldwell cleared his throat and repeated a little louder.
“And the managers that were thrown out, who exactly did you intend them to be?”
Eli’s smile slowly faded. “It sounds to me like you already have your answer,” he said.
“Why don’t you enlighten us?” Reverend Hudson replied.
“The answer lies in the Scriptures you are so fond of quot-ing.” Slowly, Eli rose to his feet. The group exchanged glances, unsure what was about to happen. Eli began to quote,
“‘The foundation which the builders rejected, the very cornerstone, is the chief cornerstone for the entire building.’”
The two visitors remained unmoving, staring hard at Eli.
He took a step closer, his voice growing more quiet, even more intense. “And every person, regardless of their education, regardless of their wealth, regardless of their high religious position . . . every person who falls upon this stone will be broken to pieces.” The group remained silent. Only the clatter of dry leaves stirring in the afternoon breeze could be heard.
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Eli continued, speaking directly to the two men. “And whoever this stone falls upon will be smashed and ground into dust.”
The silence grew as the entire group digested what had been said. But Conrad already understood. And he was already lowering his eyes, already shaking his head. Eli had done it again.
v
“Maybe I wouldn’t have to go other
places if my needs were met here!”
“How dare you!”
“Daddy, don’t leave!” Julia was between them, in the living room.
“Maybe if I got the respect I deserve I wouldn’t have to—”
“Respect! Don’t you dare talk to me about respect!”
“Please, Daddy . . .”
“You with your bimbos, your—”
“Rachel is twice the woman you’ll ever be. She’s—”
“Get out!”
“At least she knows how to treat a man.”
“Get out!”
“Mommy!”
“She knows how to be a real woman!”
“Get out!” Her mother’s voice was breaking . “Get out!”
“My pleasure!” He spun around and headed for the door.
She started after him. “Daddy!”
But he was outside and slamming it before she arrived.
The windows in the old house shuddered.
“DADDY!”
But Daddy was gone. Daddy was gone and only her mother remained, sobbing.
“Don’t cry, Mommy.” She raced to her mother and threw her arms around her legs, clinging tightly, burying her wet face into her skirt. “Don’t cry, Mommy, don’t cry.” Her mother’s hand reached down, absentmindedly stroking the hththt 5/14/01 11:35 AM Page 193
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top of her head. Julia looked up at her through the tears. “He’ll be back,” she choked. “He promised. He’ll never leave me. He promised . . .”
But he did not come back. Never again. At least to them.
Now, twenty years later, Julia leaned against the doorway of her old room, staring out into the living room, lost in the memory. It had been a long, excruciating day. Too long. She turned and headed into her bedroom, suspecting that tomorrow would be no different.
v
“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”
“I wasn’t sure until last night. Trevor’s waiting outside to take me to the bus station now.”
Conrad remained standing near the door. He watched as Suzanne flitted about the camper she’d been sharing with Maggie. The place always smelled of scented candles, a mixture of orange and cinnamon, he thought. And it always contained a certain warmth and hominess. A peace. Except this morning. This morning Suzanne scurried about, busying herself with last-minute preparations to leave. He knew she was upset. He could tell by the way she kept her back to him, the way she wouldn’t let their eyes meet.
“Did you talk to Eli?” he asked. “Does he know?”
He caught a moment’s hesitation before she answered.
“Yes.”
“What did he say?”
“He said what he always says, ‘Michael’s sickness is for the glory of God.’”
“I mean about your leaving, what did he say about your leaving?”
Suzanne slowed to a stop, her back still to him. She took a trembling, uneven breath. Conrad immediately spotted it and crossed to her. He wrapped his arms around her. “It’s okay,” he whispered, “it’s okay.”
She sniffed softly.
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“What did he say?” Conrad repeated more gently.
She took another breath, steadying herself. “You know how he’s always saying our life is made of choices?”
Conrad nodded.
“He said if I choose to follow him, if that’s my decision, then I must hate my life. I must hate my mother and father, I must hate my sister . . . and I must hate my brother.”
“He said that? To you?”
She looked down and nodded.
Conrad grew cold with anger. This was too much. “Where is he?”
“At the overpass. There’s a homeless woman there that lives in the cemetery. People think she’s possessed.”
Conrad knew the place. It was a quarter mile away, easy walking distance from the campground where they’d spent the night. He released her and turned toward the door. “I’ll talk to him. Don’t leave until I—”
She grabbed his arm. “Connie, no.”
He turned back to her. “Why?”
“Because . . . he’s right.”
“What?” She still would not look at him. He continued.
“Telling you that you’re supposed to hate yourself, that you’re supposed to hate your brother?” There was no holding back his indignation. He wanted to pace, but there was little room in the camper. “What about all this talk of love, all of this—”
“No.” She finally looked up to him. “He’s not saying I shouldn’t love my family.”
“Then what is he—”
“He’s talking about comparison. He’s saying my love for him should be so great that by comparison it’s like I hate my family.”
“That’s crazy. They’re your family. Michael’s your brother.
And Eli’s just your . . . your . . .”
“My what?” she asked.
Conrad looked at her but said nothing.
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“He claims to be the Lord, Connie, the only way to his Father.”
Now it was Conrad’s turn to avoid Suzanne’s eyes. It was one of the incongruities he still struggled with.
“And I believe he is.”
His eyes raised to hers.
She nodded. “I do. But . . .” She took a ragged breath. “But he’s not my Lord, not if I put my family ahead of him. Not if I love them more.”
“What are you saying?”
“I love them more than him, Connie. I love my family more than the Lord. And if that’s the case . . .” She swallowed hard. “If that’s the case, then I can no longer follow him.” She turned, looking for something to busy herself.
Conrad stared, dumbfounded. Then suddenly he declared, “I’m going too.”
“No.”
Her response surprised him. “Why not? Listen, if you’re not good enough for him, then I’m certainly not—”
She turned back to him. “But you are, Connie.”
“What?”
“Following Eli has nothing to do with how good you are.
It’s about how much you love him. And you love him, Connie. Look where you are, how far you’ve come. You’ve even walked away from your work, something I could never have dragged you from.”
“I’m on a sabbatical.”
She shook her head. “No. You love him more than your work, Connie. You love him more than your friends, your family. In truth, you love him more than—”
“No.” He shook his head. “I do not love him more than you!”
She looked up into his eyes, holding his gaze. “Yes, you do,” she whispered softly.
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He shook his head, but before he could continue, she gently pressed her finger to his lips. “And you should.”
He stood, searching her face. A moment passed before she suddenly reached over and scooped up a large, black gym bag from the counter. “He needs you, Connie. And you need him.
More than you’ll ever need me.” She threw the bag over her shoulder and started for the door.
“Suzanne . . .” He moved to block her, his voice growing hoarse. “I lost you once . . .” He struggled against the emotion.
“Please, I don’t want to lose you again.”
She looked sadly at him. “What is it Eli says? In order to find your life, you have to lose it? To keep something, we have to let it go?”
He searched her eyes. They were as shiny with tears as his. But he had no argument. And she knew it. Ever so gently, she raised up on her toes and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Then, without a word, she moved past him, opened the door, and stepped out into the morning sun.
He remained standing, head spinning, putting his hand on the counter for support.
“That all you taking?” Trevor called. Conrad turned and looked out to see her approach the boy’s beat-up Toyota.
“It’s all I need,” she said. She opened the passenger door and tossed the gym bag into the back. Then, before ducking inside, she turned to Conrad and spoke one last time. “Everybody has priorities. Everybody has to make a choice. This is mine.”
“Suzanne . . .” But he stopped, having no idea what he could say.
She paused, giving a sad sort of smile. Finally she turned, entered the car, and shut the door.
“Suzanne . . .” He eased down the aluminum steps.
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mouth and turned away. Conrad knew she was crying, though it was hard to see through the moisture in his own eyes. He continued watching as the car bounced along the gravel surface, raising a small cloud of dust, before it pulled out onto the main road and disappeared.
Not two minutes later, Conrad was storming toward the overpass, ready to give Eli a piece of his mind. Suzanne was the best there was, worth all of the others put together. And the best still wasn’t good enough? Then who was? “For the glory of God,” he’d said. Yeah, right. More like for his own egotistical pleasures. “Hate others and love him.” It was definitely time for a wake-up call.
Hot humidity already saturated the Texas morning air, and as he walked, there was no missing the smell of sage and mesquite. He’d barely crested the rise to the overpass when he saw the police cars. Two of them. And a third down on the highway below. He picked up his pace, breaking into a stiff jog. As he approached, he moved closer to the steel railing for a better look. Down below was a red-and-white tow truck with the name Sorbet Towing painted across its door. The driver was busy hoisting up a white Dodge Caravan, its windshield shattered in two, maybe three places, the rest covered with spiderwebbing. Not far away, another tow truck had just pulled beside a burgundy Lexus. Its front end had been completely demolished, and its windshield was as shattered as the Dodge’s. Directly below, scattered across the pavement, were the bodies of several dead animals. A dozen, maybe more. Cats, from what he could tell.
He glanced up and spotted Jake and Leon heading his way. “Hey,” he shouted, then slowed to catch his breath.