by Joanne Fluke
“You were involved in an auto accident three weeks ago. You’ve had a rough time, but you’re going to be just fine.”
“I was in a coma for three weeks!?”
Dr. Bennett nodded and turned to head for the door. “Just rest for a minute, Maura. There’s somebody here who wants to see you.”
The moment the door had clicked shut behind him, Maura struggled to sit up in bed. Her legs moved easily under the sheet. Nothing wrong there. But her arms felt sore, and there was a large, multicolored bruise on her elbow.
Wincing a little, Maura reached up to touch her head. It was bandaged in a turbanlike arrangement of gauze and tape that completely covered every inch of her scalp. She must have had some sort of head injury; that much was clear. She just hoped they hadn’t shaved off her hair!
The door opened again and Dr. Bennett strode in, followed by a pretty girl with long, blond hair. Was she a classmate? She looked very familiar, but Maura couldn’t quite place her.
“I’m so glad you’re all right!” The girl rushed to the bed and bent down to kiss Maura’s cheek. Even though she was smiling, she was blinking back tears. Who was this girl? And why was she so concerned?
Maura did her best to remember, but she drew a complete blank. Perhaps she was one of the new girls from the dorm. She’d met them all at a get-acquainted dinner, but she hadn’t sorted out all the names and faces yet.
“How do you feel?” The girl was staring at her anxiously.
“Not too bad, considering.” Maura reached up to touch her turban bandage. “Do you know if they shaved off my hair?”
The girl turned to Dr. Bennett. “Did they? You were here when they brought her in.”
“Since there were no skull fractures, they just clipped it short. Don’t worry, Maura. You’ll look like a punk rocker for a couple of months, but it’ll grow back.”
A punk rocker? Maura frowned slightly. She’d never heard that particular phrase before. It must be funny, because the girl was laughing.
“Come on, Uncle Steve! That’s the last thing she needs to hear!”
Uncle Steve? Maura raised her eyebrows in surprise. The blond girl and Dr. Bennett were related. But she was almost sure she hadn’t met any girls named Bennett. Of course he could be her uncle on her mother’s side. Or even . . .
“Sorry, Maura.” Dr Bennett turned to her, interrupting her train of thought. “I know you’d rather visit, but I’m afraid I have to ask a few more questions. What is your address?”
“Room two-thirteen, Andrews Hall. It’s a girls’ dorm on campus. I’m a sophomore at San Diego State.”
Dr. Bennett looked startled and so did his niece. She must not be a dorm girl after all. But what was so surprising about living on campus?
“You live in San Diego!?”
“Yes, I do.” Maura frowned slightly. Of course she lived in San Diego. It was much too far to commute from her parents’ home in Brawley. She was about to ask them what was wrong, when a delivery boy came through the door.
“Oh! How lovely!” Maura couldn’t help but react as he set the beautiful arrangement of pink roses on the bedside table. “Who sent them?”
“They’re from your husband. He ordered them by phone this morning.”
“My husband?” Now it was Maura’s turn to look startled. It took her a moment to figure it out, but then she realized what had happened. “Sorry. You’ve got the wrong room.”
“You’re not Mrs. Thomas? In room five-fourteen?”
“No.” Maura shook her head. “I’m Maura Rawlins. And I’m not married.”
Dr. Bennett and his niece exchanged a worried look. What was going on? Then the niece reached out and took her hand.
“You really don’t know me, do you?”
There was such terrible longing on her pretty face, that Maura was tempted to lie. But something about this girl’s level, green-eyed gaze told her she had to tell the truth.
“I’m so terribly sorry.” Maura felt tears well up in her own eyes. “I recognize you. And I know that I know you. But I just can’t seem to remember.”
“Oh!”
It was a cry of pure anguish, and tears spilled over to run down the girl’s cheeks. Before Maura had time to think about how inappropriate it might be, she was pulling her close to hug her and stroke her soft, golden hair.
“Don’t cry, honey.” Maura blinked back her own tears. “I never meant to hurt you. I . . . I love you!”
Dr. Bennett’s niece raised her head and gave Maura a tremulous smile. “Everything’s going to be all right. I’ll help, I promise. And I love you, too, Mom.”
CHAPTER TWO
There was a gentle tap on the door, and a nurse stepped into the room. She smiled as she set a small leather suitcase on the bedside table. “Here’s your suitcase, Mrs. Thomas.”
“Thank you.” Maura smiled back, although she felt more like frowning. A full week had passed and she still wasn’t used to her married name. Everyone had assured her that she was, indeed, Mrs. Keith Thomas. She’d even met the man she’d supposedly married two years ago. He seemed nice enough, and he was very handsome, but Maura still felt as if she were in a movie, playing the part of his wife. She had absolutely no memory of her husband or the life they’d shared before her accident. Nothing seemed personal, and she couldn’t help feeling that the past twenty-three years of her life had happened to someone else.
“Your daughter’s in the lobby. Just call the desk when you’re ready and she’ll come in to take you home.”
Maura nodded. She didn’t remember her daughter, either, but Janelle seemed much more familiar than Keith Thomas. Jan, as she liked to be called, had come to the hospital every day. And as they had visited, waiting for the day when Maura would be released, Jan had done her best to fill in some of the blanks.
Maura now knew that Keith Thomas was her second husband. Jan’s father, Maura’s first husband, was dead. Maura had married Paul Bennett right after her senior year of college. Paul had been a lieutenant in the Navy, and they’d lived in an apartment in San Diego until he had been killed in a routine training mission, five months before Jan’s birth. Jan had never known her father, and in some strange way that information had made Maura feel a little better. She had no memory of Paul Bennett, and neither did Jan. They could learn about him together.
After Jan had been born, her uncle Steve had come into their lives. Steven Bennett was Paul’s older brother, and he’d arranged for Maura and Jan to move to Los Angeles. Paul’s life insurance benefits had been enough to make a down payment on a condo, and Steve and his wife, Donna, had financed Maura’s clothing boutique. The Bennetts had found a wonderful housekeeper to look after Jan while Maura was working, and Nita Ramos was still with Maura in her new, expensive home in Brentwood.
Maura, Jan, and Nita were part of the Bennetts’ extended family. They spent every summer at Steve and Donna’s cottage in Malibu, learned to ski at their mountain cabin in Big Bear, and attended frequent dinner parties and social functions at the Bennett home in Beverly Hills. Since Steven and Donna had no children, Jan had been like a daughter to them. They’d organized birthday parties for her, gone to all of her school plays and concerts, and even helped her with her homework.
It wasn’t just Jan the Bennetts had helped. They’d supported Maura financially, until her boutique had begun to show a profit, and Donna had used her social connections to send high-profile customers to Maura’s little shop. Donna had encouraged Maura to market original designs, and some very prominent Beverly Hills women had started to wear Maura’s creations. Maura’s line of clothing, which she called “Mystique,” had grown from a few designer gowns to a full line of high fashion women’s clothing. But the Bennetts had given Maura much more than money and encouragement.
Maura had found a loving family to rely on. Uncle Steve and Aunt Donna had never been too busy to babysit when Maura had gone on buying trips, or been forced to work late at the boutique. They’d always been there when Maura had
needed a shoulder to cry on, or when she’d needed advice. They’d helped her celebrate special occasions, like birthdays and holidays, and Maura, Jan, and Nita had always been included on their vacations. With such a wonderful family, Maura hadn’t seemed to need anyone else . . . until Jan had gone away to college and she’d met Keith Thomas.
Jan hadn’t told Maura much about her stepfather. She’d dutifully answered questions, but Maura had the uneasy feeling that her daughter didn’t really like Keith. It wasn’t anything Jan had said; it was what she hadn’t said. Jan had shared all sorts of wonderful stories about Nita, and Uncle Steve, and Aunt Donna. She’d even cried when she’d told Maura about Aunt Donna’s battle with the cancer that had eventually taken her life. But Jan hadn’t volunteered any information at all about Keith, and she’d seemed almost reluctant to talk about him.
“Would you like me to help you, Mrs. Thomas?”
Maura looked up, startled, to see that the nurse was still in the room. “Oh, no, thank you. I’m sure I can manage.”
“I’ll leave you then.” The nurse turned at the door, and gestured toward Maura’s suitcase. “That’s gorgeous luggage, Mrs. Thomas. Your daughter said it was your favorite.”
Maura waited until the door had closed, and then she reached out to touch the soft leather of her suitcase. The nurse was right. It was gorgeous. Although she couldn’t remember seeing it before, a name popped into her head. Mario Ammante. This luggage was from the Ammante line, and it came in three colors. This lovely butterscotch, a deep rich black, and a warm, mahogany brown.
But how did she know that? Did she carry this line of luggage in her boutique? There were so many questions, Maura’s head began to pound. She reached out for the bottle of pain pills on her bedside table, but she stopped short of opening it. Although the pills alleviated her pounding headaches, they made her slightly woozy. She’d settle for aspirin, instead. Her headache wasn’t that severe, and it was better to have all her wits about her for her return home.
Home. Maura’s heart raced in her chest. The last home she remembered was her dorm room at San Diego State, over twenty years ago. When she walked in the door of her house in Brentwood, would it jog her memory? Would she miraculously be cured when she was back in familiar surroundings? Steve had called in an important specialist, and he had told her that it could happen that way. But he’d also warned her that it might take much longer to regain the years of memories that she had lost.
Maura’s hands trembled slightly when she unzipped the small leather suitcase and lifted the lid. Nestled inside was a dark green suit. Was this lovely green her favorite color? Had she worn this suit before? Maura blinked and sudden tears came to her eyes. She seemed to remember touching this material before, but that could be wishful thinking.
Under the suit was a frilly, white blouse, and tucked in a side pocket of the suitcase were silk undergarments. She found fashionable leather shoes in a zippered shoe bag, and a pair of gold earrings and a necklace in a jewelry case. The jewelry was obviously expensive, and that brought up another series of unanswered questions. Had the jewelry been a gift? Or had she purchased it herself? She’d forgotten to ask Jan about her finances. Was she as wealthy as this jewelry seemed to indicate?
Maura felt like a little girl playing dress-up as she slipped into the unfamiliar clothes. The skirt was a bit loose around the waist, but Steve had told her that she’d lost some weight while she’d been in the hospital. That was something else she’d have to ask Jan. Was she one of the incredibly lucky women who could eat anything she wanted without gaining an ounce? Or did she have to watch every calorie to keep her trim figure?
When she was completely dressed, Maura risked a glance in the bathroom mirror. She had short red hair with blond highlights, green eyes that were the color of the sea on a calm day, high cheekbones that were nicely defined, a generous mouth which seemed to smile naturally, and delicate skin that looked as if it might burn with too much exposure to the sun.
Maura sighed as she gazed at her reflection. The face that stared back at her was almost familiar. She was getting used to her appearance, but she still felt a bit like Rip Van Winkle. Each time she looked at her image in the mirror, she expected to see a young college girl, eager to discover what life was all about. She was always slightly shocked when she encountered this attractive woman in her early forties, who might have been her mother.
There was another tap on the door, and Maura turned away from the mirror. “Come in.”
“Hi, Mom!” Jan was smiling as she hurried over to hug her. “You look great!”
Maura smiled back. “Thank you. So do you . . . I think.”
“Uh-oh.” Jan looked a little guilty as she glanced down at her blue jeans. They were ripped at both knees. “They’re fashionable, Mom . . . honest. And I didn’t rip them. I bought them this way.”
Maura laughed. “That’s definitely an example of marketing genius. What’s next? Presoiled T-shirts?”
“Mom!” Jan’s mouth dropped open and she looked completely shocked. “That’s what you always say!”
“I do?”
Jan nodded, and then she began to smile. “That’s a great sign, Mom! I think your memory’s beginning to come back. It’s just like Uncle Steve said. Familiar things might jog your memory, and you’ve seen me wear these jeans about a million times.”
“I see.” The corners of Maura’s mouth began to twitch. “Does that mean you’re going to live in those jeans until I remember everything?”
Jan’s eyebrows shot up and she giggled. “No, Mom. I’ll change when we get home if they bother you. And I promise I won’t wear them to any of your fancy family dinners.”
“Fancy dinners?” Maura took a deep breath. “I know this is a strange question, Jan . . . but am I a good cook?”
Jan nodded. “Gourmet caliber. Uncle Steve says your Coquilles St. Jacques à la Parisienne is the best he’s ever tasted.”
“Oh. I see.” Maura smiled at her daughter, but when she turned to pick up the expensive leather purse everyone said belonged to her, there was real worry in her deep green eyes. Not only had she forgotten how to make Coquilles St. Jacques à la Parisienne, she didn’t even know what it was!
* * *
Maura’s head was aching by the time Jan pulled her little blue Miata into a driveway off Cliffwood Avenue and stopped before a pair of ornate, wrought-iron gates. Jan had pointed out various sights as they’d driven here from the hospital, and although Maura had tried her best to remember, she hadn’t recalled seeing any of them before.
“Do you know where we are, Mom?”
Jan looked hopeful, and Maura didn’t have the heart to disappoint her. “Of course I do, honey. We’re home.”
“Mom!” Jan reached over to squeeze her hand. “You remembered!”
For a moment, Maura almost went through with the deception. But she couldn’t start out what she’d begun to think of as her new life by lying to her daughter. She took a deep breath, and shook her head. “No, honey. I don’t remember.”
“Then how did you know?” Jan looked puzzled.
“I didn’t. This is the address on the driver’s license I found in my purse, so I assumed it had to be our house.”
Jan looked thoughtful for a moment, and then she smiled. “You do a great job faking it, Mom. I think you’re going to get along just fine, even if you never get your memory back.”
There was a frown on Maura’s face, as Jan turned to press some numbers into the keypad mounted on a pole by the side of the driveway. She didn’t even want to consider the possibility of not regaining her memory,
“Mom?” Jan turned to her again. “I don’t suppose you remember the gate code, do you?”
“No, but it’s probably 1984.”
“That’s right!” Jan looked utterly amazed. “But how did you guess?”
“It wasn’t a guess. I started using 1984 for my personal code when I was still in high school. It was the combination of my locker, the last
four digits of my phone number, and the number of my personal license plates.”
“Why in the world did you ever use . . . ?” Jan stopped suddenly and started to grin. “I get it! You were a big Orwell fan?”
“Right.” Maura smiled back. “I didn’t really believe Orwell’s predictions could happen, but 1984 seemed so far in future, none of us really knew. It was a kind of landmark date. We all wondered what we’d be doing then, where we’d be living, whether we’d be married and have children. And now 1984’s come and gone . . . and I don’t remember one single thing about it.”
Jan looked worried as her mother’s smile faded, and she reached over to pat her shoulder. “I’ve got all those magazines you saved for me. You know . . . the year in retrospect? That sort of thing? We’ll look through them together and I’ll tell you everything I remember. And if there’s something I don’t know, we can call it up on the data bank.”
“Data bank?”
“It’s a service I’ve got for my computer. You do remember computers, don’t you?”
Maura nodded. “Of course. But . . . you actually own one?”
“Sure. You bought an Apple for me, my last year in high school.”
Maura tried to look as if she understood. Obviously, computers had come down in price. And this “apple” that Jan had referred to, it must be a type of computer. But suddenly, before she could make any comment at all, Jan started to laugh.
“Oh, boy, am I a dunce! I keep forgetting where you’re coming from, Mom. For you, it’s still the early seventies, when computers were priced out of sight, and no one had ever heard of compact, home models. It’s like you’re caught in a time warp . . . or don’t you know what that is?”
“Star Trek.” Maura nodded. “It was my favorite television show. And you’re right, Jan. It is a little like a time warp. Is Star Trek still around?”
“Sort of. Now we’ve got spin-offs. There’s Star Trek, the Next Generation, and Deep Space Nine, but nothing beats the originals. They made some movies, too. My favorite is Star Trek IV. That’s when they come back to earth to . . . no, I won’t tell you.” Jan turned to grin at her. “I’ve got it on tape and we’ll watch it in the living room tonight, if you’re not too tired. Is that okay?”