by Alex Barclay
‘He did, but I never said—’
‘Apparently, you denied, under caution, having an argument with Katie. He thinks you lied and he has it all written down in his notebook.’
‘What does “under caution” mean? Like “anything you say or do can be held against you”?’
‘Something like that.’
‘Well, then he didn’t caution me. I swear to God, Dad. I don’t get this. We were just talking.’
‘Jesus Christ, I’m gonna look like an idiot—’
‘Why?’ said Shaun.
‘Nothing. Come on, you and me are gonna have to go down to the station now to talk to them, clear up a few of these things. I’d like to know myself, Shaun, what the hell is going on.’
Ray walked backwards out of his apartment, pulling a black bag with him. He hauled it over his shoulder and walked to the metal bins lined up on the road at the end of the cul de sac. He flung the bag across the top and it landed with a stink onto the others. It was then he saw the tear across it.
‘For fuck’s sake, Ray,’ said Richie striding up behind him.
Ray turned around.
‘Look,’ said Richie, pointing to the mess Ray had left along the road from his house.
‘Well done, Garda Richie,’ said Ray. ‘You have successfully followed a trail. They’ll make you a sergeant yet.’
‘Shut your face, Carmody. And clean that up.’
‘Why are you so interested in what comes out of my sack?’ Ray smirked.
Richie grabbed Ray’s arm between his thumb and middle finger and squeezed hard.
‘Ow,’ said Ray. ‘You wanker.’ He couldn’t pull his arm free.
‘If I come home to this shit tonight,’ said Richie, looking back at the rubbish, ‘I swear to fuck, I’ll shove it in your letterbox.’ He released his grip.
‘I get it now,’ said Ray. ‘Cleaning up the streets of Mountcannon.’
‘Do you even own your apartment?’ said Richie.
‘What the fuck is that supposed to mean?’ said Ray.
‘Do you own it?’
‘I’m renting. But what’s that got to do with you? Just because you and your boyfriend clubbed together and bought a little love nest.’
‘I own the place. Oran rents from me.’
‘Why are we having this conversation? Is it because you’re a woman?’
Richie shoved Ray’s shoulder.
‘Whoa, keeper of the peace,’ said Ray. ‘You’re in uniform now. What will the neighbours say?’
Richie looked around at the empty streets.
‘Fucking watch yourself,’ he said, shoving his face into Ray’s.
‘I do. And I like what I see,’ said Ray. ‘I could watch myself all day.’
Shaun was slumped in a chair at the station, his long legs stretched away from the desk. He hadn’t said a word apart from a muttered hello to Frank.
‘We just have to wait for Richie,’ said Frank. After five minutes, Richie walked in, red-faced and sweaty. Frank stared at him, then turned to Shaun.
‘Just tell us where you were that night,’ asked Frank. ‘Please. This has gone on too long.’
Joe sat by Shaun’s side, looking around the room, focusing in the silence on the bulletin board mounted on the pale cream wall. A bad colour photocopy was pinned in the corner with a girl’s face framed at the centre. Her eyes were small under thick eyebrows, her hair a mass of black frizz. Her pudgy cheeks pushed against the edges of the shot. MISSING was printed above her. Siobhán Fallon. Last seen in American Heroes, Tipperary town on Friday, September 7th. Joe had never heard anything about her. One missing person can capture the media’s attention, while another, less attractive victim, went no further than a homemade poster on a station wall.
‘Seascapes,’ said Shaun, suddenly.
Joe spun around. ‘I goddamn knew it.’
‘Seascapes. Holiday homes?’ said Frank, ignoring him.
‘Yes.’
Joe was shaking his head.
‘What time was that?’ asked Frank.
‘Seven-thirty.’
‘And what were you doing there? Working?’
‘No,’ said Shaun. He glanced at his father. ‘Me and Katie…we went there to be alone.’
‘Why did you need to be alone?’ asked Frank.
Shaun flushed. ‘We were…’
Joe held his breath.
‘What?’ asked Frank.
‘We went there to have sex.’
Joe exhaled and closed his eyes.
‘Did Katie know that’s why you were there?’ said Frank.
‘What?’
‘Is this something Katie expected to happen?’
‘Yes, she did,’ he said.
‘And did it happen?’ asked Frank.
‘Kind of. I don’t know,’ he said.
‘How do you not know? Did you or didn’t you?’
‘She was, you know, it was her first time. She was nervous.’ He began to cry. The questions got more personal, almost medical. Every answer was dragged out of him. Then it was Richie’s turn.
‘So, basically, nothing was happening, she was too tense and this pissed you off?’
‘No,’ said Shaun. ‘That wasn’t the way it was. It did happen, but then it hurt so we stopped.’
‘And you got angry because this wasn’t all going the way it was supposed to!’
‘No.’
‘She didn’t give up the goods, so you lost it.’
‘No!’
‘Maybe she didn’t even know why she was there at all. Maybe this was all a big surprise to her. You’d get her a bit drunk, then in you go.’
‘You asshole!’ said Shaun. Then he couldn’t stop. ‘You fucking asshole. I loved Katie. This is all bullshit.’ He cried harder, his mouth quivering. ‘You,’ he said, pointing at Richie, ‘have no clue what happened, you weren’t there. I put my arms around her and told her not to worry, that she could call it off any time she wanted. You don’t know anything about me and Katie! Why am I even telling you this stuff?’
‘You called me and asked us to come in here for an informal chat, Frank, not abuse,’ said Joe. His face ached with every word he had to get out. He propped his elbow on the desk and leaned his head against his hand. He looked up. ‘We’re helping you out here. If you had anything more on Shaun, he would be arrested by now. But you don’t. Apart from his alleged denial of having an argument while under alleged caution.’ Richie’s eyes narrowed. He opened his mouth to reply, but Frank was quick to put a steadying hand on his arm.
‘So is it true that after this you had an argument?’ said Frank gently.
‘Yes,’ said Shaun, wiping away his tears.
‘Why didn’t you tell anyone this earlier?’
‘Because I thought she was going to come back,’ he sobbed. ‘I thought she was trying to freak me out. I didn’t want to let everyone know what had happened. Her mother would have killed her.’ When he heard what he said, he started to sob harder. Everyone waited until he had calmed down.
‘What was the argument about?’ asked Frank.
‘It was stupid,’ said Shaun. ‘She asked me had this happened to me before, with anyone back home and I asked her did she want me to be honest. And she said yes, so I told her it had never happened to me, that before when I had been with someone, everything had worked out OK, but that I didn’t mind that it didn’t happen properly for us.’ Richie sucked in a breath. Shaun ignored him and kept talking in desperate bursts.
‘I thought she knew it wasn’t my first time, but she had presumed it was. I don’t know why she asked me what she did, but I guess she was feeling bad and, I don’t know. Anyway, she got upset that I hadn’t told her I had done it before. And I tried to reassure her that it didn’t matter what had happened before, which it didn’t, but she was too upset. She said some things and then she stormed off. I ran after her, but she pushed me away.’
‘What did she say exactly?’ said Frank.
Shaun began sobbi
ng again. ‘She said, “Leave me alone. I feel like a loser. You made me feel like a total loser.”’
‘And what did you say to that?’
‘I said,’ he looked up at the ceiling, ‘I fucking said, “Fine. I’ll leave you alone, then.”’ He went on, through his sobs, ‘And I did. I left her alone. I went back to the house and washed the goddamn dishes. And now look.’ His body shook. His tears flowed. Joe put his arm around him. Shaun was wailing now. He got up and ran for the bathroom.
Joe shook his head at Frank and Richie.
‘He shouldn’t have lied,’ said Frank.
Joe’s jaw was locked shut and his teeth were like spines in his mouth. He had been grinding them hard through the entire interview.
‘I’ll go and check on him,’ said Frank.
‘You know, you never have to look too far to find the killer,’ said Richie, when Frank was gone. ‘What is it again? Ninety percent of murders are committed by the husband, the boyfriend—’
Joe shook his head. He thought of the guys he grew up around, the ones you couldn’t reason with because they were so stupid. It was too easy to fight them.
‘You’re fairly quiet now, aren’t you?’ said Richie. ‘Shiting on with your stupid fucking suggestions until your son gets pulled in. Then all we get is a guilty man’s silence.’
Joe’s jaw spasmed.
Richie lowered his voice to a growl, ‘I’m just saying young Shaun here bangs the arse off his girlfriend, they have a fight, she storms off and her body turns up three weeks later in his back garden. He doesn’t say a thing about any of this when we question him. What would that say to you? Would you look into him if it was your case, detective?’ He spat the last word.
A narrow strip of grass ran along the centre of the laneway up to the Lucchesis’ door. Two vans were parked by the trees and to their right, hidden behind the trunk of an oak, Duke Rawlins was studying the phone numbers on their side panels. Mark Nash. Lawn Order SUV. 089 676746. Duke closed his eyes and stored the number. Suddenly, he heard an engine from the top of the lane. He hunched down. The Jeep moved up the drive towards the front door of the house. Duke waited until it stopped before slipping back through the trees.
Frank was about to call O’Connor when O’Connor called him.
‘Frank, hello, it’s Myles. I’ve been going through the statements and I think I’ve come up with something.’
Frank tried to stop him. O’Connor ploughed on. ‘Here’s what Robert Harrington says: “I was at the harbour from seven p.m., checking out some new computer equipment on one of the boats that had come in. I saw Katie and Shaun up on the walkway. Then they were kissing and hugging.” That’s fine – four different fishermen confirm this. But further down, Robert says that later on, Katie and Shaun, “must have been down by the lifeboat launch.” Not “were”, but “must have been”. Kevin Raftery and Finn Banks did not see Katie or Shaun at all. They arrived to meet Robert at eight-thirty p.m. So all sightings of Katie and Shaun happened before eight o’clock that evening. And the person with the strongest emotional attachment to the missing girl and her boyfriend – Robert Harrington – is leading us to believe they were nearby, but hasn’t claimed to have actually seen them.’
‘You’re not wrong,’ said Frank.
Anna was sitting on a keg in the cellar, staring at the rows of wine bottles, the stone wall cold against her back. A shaft of light cut through and she looked up at the silhouette in the doorway above. Joe walked down the steps and stood in front of her. He saw the pronounced angles of her cheekbones and reached out. She held his hand against her face and started to cry. He pulled her to his chest, holding her tight, letting his breath out. The effort of not touching for days had been exhausting them both. His stomach felt hollowed out, his head cloudy from medication, his eyes dry.
‘Say something,’ said Anna. He didn’t move. He didn’t look at her.
‘Please,’ she said.
‘I guess I’m pissed off that I thought everything was so perfect,’ he said.
‘It was,’ said Anna. ‘It is. It was years ago…’
‘I know that,’ he said. ‘But when I look at the guy, I see a fat, drunken loser and I think: that’s what I’m up against. That guy had my wife.’
‘That sounds so dreadful. And you’re not up against anyone. It was so stupid. What I did was stupid. I’ve always known that, but I love you…’
‘You should have told me,’ he said.
‘You would have left me.’
He pushed her back gently and looked into her eyes.
‘Yeah, I would have,’ he said. ‘So maybe it’s a good thing you didn’t tell me.’ He gave her a sad smile. ‘I’ve spent the last few days thinking about it. In the middle of everything. And all I’ve come up with is that in the big picture, I guess it doesn’t matter. What happened to Katie, what’s happening to Shaun…there’s only so much energy I have. And for now, it should be going Shaun’s way. We can’t be like this. I just can’t live separately, whatever you did. It feels too weird. I’m sorry about what I said to you. I didn’t mean that. I was just so angry.’ He took both her hands in his. ‘Why,’ he said, squeezing them, ‘has everything turned to shit?’ He hugged her close; she sobbed and he kissed her hair.
Martha Lawson was curled up on her sofa, wrapped in an oversized cardigan with the belt pulled tight around her waist. The doorbell woke her from a light sleep and she rushed to the door. She smiled weakly when she saw Richie.
‘How are you keeping?’ he asked.
‘I don’t know,’ she said, letting him in. She pulled newspapers and magazines off the sofa and offered him a seat.
‘Have you any news?’ she asked, grabbing cups and mugs of old tea from the table, wiping with her finger at the rings they left behind.
‘Don’t worry about all that,’ said Richie. ‘Sit down. I have a bit of news, but really, it’s between yourself and myself. I’m telling you this in confidence. As a friend more than anything.’
She looked at him, puzzled.
‘It’s about Shaun.’
The bedroom was in total darkness, the black-out blinds pulled tightly down to the window sill. The smell of sleep hung in the air. Joe put his hand on Anna’s shoulder and turned her gently towards him.
‘I’m going to Dublin,’ he whispered. She frowned and looked at the clock.
‘It’s seven in the morning.’
‘I know,’ he said. ‘I have something to do.’
‘Now? Are you crazy? What about Shaun? I can’t even send him to school today. What am I supposed to do? We’ve barely talked about what happened at the station.’
‘I’m going because of Shaun,’ he said. ‘They’ve let him go for now, but who knows what way they’ll pull the evidence together…’
‘How is anything in Dublin going to help?’ she asked. ‘Couldn’t you do whatever it is over the phone?’
‘No,’ he said. He kissed her on the cheek before she had a chance to fully turn her face away.
Joe drove north on the Waterford Road and took the turn for Passage East, joining the queue for the ferry to Ballyhack. He left the Jeep for the five-minute trip, climbing the narrow steps to the deck. Each time, a different view was waiting when he reached the top. He stood against the railing and leaned into the cool breeze.
From Ballyhack, he drove east, passing signs for Rosslare to the right and Wexford town to the left. He took the left and drove until he hit the N11, making his way to Dublin in just over two hours. Then he crawled through a senseless system of one-way streets in the city until he finally found a space in a multi-storey car park in Temple Bar. He took a right onto Westmoreland Street and made his way past the curved stonework of the Bank of Ireland where he crossed the busy street to Trinity. He’d been to Dublin before, but had never walked the cobbles under the famous arch.
He suddenly felt old, surrounded by students, some of them dressed for Armagnac with the chaps, others looking starkly modern against the eighteenth ce
ntury architecture. He made his way past the library and turned right, taking in the action on the rugby pitch where – stripped of the helmets and padding of the NFL – crazy men put themselves through similar paces. He soon found himself standing at the vast, monastic wooden doors of the zoology department. The impressive stone building was over one hundred years old, with a sense of history that hit Joe as soon as he pushed into the tiny hallway. On his right was Neal Columb’s office – white wooden panelling and frosted glass. There was a scrawled note on a barely sticky Post-it slapped onto the door: Back two-thirty. Even the smallest action gave a clue to who someone was. Joe was already imagining Neal Columb as disorganised and brusque. So when, at two-twenty, a neat, freshly showered man with a sandwich in his hand walked by, Joe didn’t pay much attention. The man shook his head at the Post-it, pulled it off and put it in his pocket. He unlocked the door, walked into the office and came out immediately with a perfectly scripted note that he stuck carefully on the door. ‘Back at two-thirty p.m. Thank you. Neal Columb.’ He called out to a secretary in another room, ‘Jane, I left you the note. You needn’t have wasted one of your precious Post-its.’ He was smiling. She laughed back at him. Joe quickly revised his appraisal of Neal Columb to well-organised and friendly. He was happy to give him his ten minutes for lunch, even though he felt like storming the office.
Finally, after checking his watch several times, he rapped on the glass.
‘Come in,’ said Neal. ‘Joe, is it? Have a seat.’
‘Ah. I saw you out running,’ said Joe. ‘Around the rugby pitch.’
‘I’d rather run around it than have a reason to be on it,’ said Neal. He was in his early forties, trim, fit and clearly not a man planning to throw himself into a scrum. Joe’s eyes wandered around the office. It had a definite academic feel, but enough photos on the walls and odds and ends on the shelves to make it cosy.
‘Let’s go up to the lab and have a look at what you’ve brought,’ he said.
They made their way up two short flights of stairs onto a small landing. An arrow for the lab pointed right, but Neal gestured left.
‘Would you like to see our Rogues’ Gallery first?’