by Cassie Mae
“She totaled your car, Zo. I’ll take you to the hospital. Don’t worry, she didn’t look too bad when I saw her.”
“I’ve gotta call my mom,” I say, yanking out my phone. I don’t care that this time he isn’t looking at me.
“Come on,” he says, pulling my arm. “You can call her on the way.”
I nod and wiggle out of his hold.
I never knew Zak was capable of driving over the speed limit, but we could hydroplane with how fast he zooms through the neighborhood.
“Are you sure she’s all right?” I ask as I cling to the seat for dear life.
“Yeah,” he says, but he’s short with me. Guess I shouldn’t talk to him right now.
We get to the hospital and Zak drops me off right at the ER doors. As I’m clicking the seat belt, he clears his throat awkwardly. “Uh…I hope everything’s okay.”
“You’re not staying?” The words are out of my mouth before I can stop them. I need him to stay. I should tell him thanks for the ride and let him go, but I can’t. I need him in case Sierra—
“Only if you want me to.”
He’s giving me another chance to tell him to leave. I search myself for that fake persona, but I’m too panicked over my sister to act on it.
“Just go park the car. I’ll need a ride home.” That should be an okay response. I fly out of the truck before I can make more of a fool of myself.
The ER smells like death. I know that’s a horrid thought when walking into a hospital, but I can’t help it. A woman pukes in a bucket in the corner, a little boy holds his arm, which is bent at an awkward angle, and there’s a man who is so drunk he can’t hold his head up straight. Dude, it’s nine in the morning!
The man behind the desk is organizing charts. When I get to him, I can already tell his Monday morning is way busier than he wants it to be.
“Put your name on the list. We’ll be with you in a minute.”
“I’m here to see my sister. She came in with the ambulance.”
“What’s her name?”
“Sierra.”
His eyes finally flick to look me up and down. He raises his eyebrows at my wet outfit, and his face flushes. “Um, she’s in room one-thirteen. I’ll take you to her.”
I’m used to guys falling over me, but I’m not in the mood to appreciate it. The receptionist or nurse or whoever he is leads me through the back doors and down the smelly hallway. When we get to room one-thirteen, my heart is pumping in my throat.
Sierra has a few tubes sticking in her arms. Her head is bandaged and she’s got stitches on her left cheek. She’s silently crying as she stares at the picture hanging on the wall.
“Sierra.”
She turns to look at me, and her silent tears grow into sloppy incoherencies. “Zoe, I-I don’t know… I didn’t mean… I really am sorry. Please… don’t, don’t tell… they would kill me.”
Thank heavens for the sister translator. “I can’t not say something. You won’t be able to hide this.”
“Please,” she begs.
I shake my head and sit down next to her. I grab her hand, the one without the IV in it, and rub it. “Are you okay? What did the doctors tell you?”
“I’m fine. They have to scan my head or something ’cause I hit it so hard.”
I suck in a steady breath through my nose. “You know, Mom and Dad probably already know about all of this.”
She shoots me a dirty look. “You called them?”
“Yes, but they didn’t answer. Sierra, you’re in the hospital. They need, you know, insurance information, parental consent, that kind of stuff to treat you. And if you’re getting an MRI, I’m almost positive Mom is on her way right now.”
Her face gets twisted, and she yanks her arm from underneath my fingertips. “You suck, Zoe! I thought you had my back, and you go and call Mom.”
“I do have your back. That’s why I’m here.”
“You don’t! You called Mom when I told you not to!”
“What do you want me to do? They’re going to find out about this. How stupid are you, Sierra?”
Tears stream from the corners of her eyes. She folds her arms and turns her face away.
“Leave me alone.”
I shake my head and storm out of the room. I don’t have to deal with this right now. Little brat didn’t even appreciate I didn’t yell at her for wrecking my car. If she doesn’t want me here, fine, but she can’t be alone. I swing the doors open to the ER lobby and find Zak standing awkwardly by the exit.
“Let’s go,” I say as I pass him.
He doesn’t question it; he doesn’t say anything at all. I whip my phone out and dial my mom’s number again. She still doesn’t answer, but I leave her a message.
“Hey, Mom. Sierra’s in the ER. She’s in room one-thirteen and she seems okay, but I need to go back to school. Call me when you get this.”
I ask Zak to wait in the hospital parking lot till my mom calls. We don’t have to wait long, but the few minutes of Zak rattling off things he hopes Stan Lee talks about on Friday—while I hold back all my geek knowledge—calms me down. Even after our falling out, my nerdy, sexy next-door neighbor makes things better.
I wish I deserved it.
Chapter 3
I’m too tired to pretend today.
“Zoe! Get down here!”
An audible “ugh” escapes my lips. I know what’s coming. The parade of questions.
What happened?
Why weren’t you watching your sister?
Why didn’t you wait at the hospital?
I really don’t want to get into it, but better get this over with.
My dad is a large man. When I say large, I mean like six-foot-seven and three-hundred-plus pounds. The look on Cody’s face was priceless when I introduced him.
Ugh. Let’s not think about that perv right now.
Dad’s leaning against the fridge, which has tilted off the ground slightly. His face is scrunched, and it looks like he’s been holding his breath for the past few minutes. Mom is elbow-high in soapy dish water. They’re more upset than I thought. We have a dishwasher so Mom only hand washes when she’s pissed about something. Or when she’s really hurt.
And Dad only gets purple when Mom is hurt.
Crap.
“Care to tell us what happened this morning?” Dad’s voice is calm, though his stance tells me he’s trying to keep his anger in. Mom slops around in the sink.
“I don’t know what happened,” I say to the floor. “Sierra sent me this text and I didn’t want to be late for class, so I thought if I sent Zak—”
“Gibbons?” My eyes click up to see my dad’s furrowed brow. “You were skipping class with him?”
His confused expression slaps onto my face now. “Huh?”
He rubs his hand across his forehead. “Zoe, I won’t tolerate being lied to. Give it to me straight please. Don’t you care at all about what you did to your sister?”
“What?” My high-pitch screech was probably heard a hundred miles away. “What I did? I didn’t do anything!”
“Don’t lie to me!” I cower under his tone, and I know I’m about to go into hysterics. Dad, like, never yells.
Mom whimpers over the sink, and my dad stops leaning against the fridge. It slams against the floor as his weight leaves it. He curls his arms around Mom’s waist.
I hate seeing her like this, and I know my dad hates seeing her like this, but I’m so confused I don’t know what to say.
“Zoe.” It’s Mom’s shattered voice that sends the tears cascading from my eyeballs. “I trust you to look after your sister, and you let her drive your car? What were you thinking?”
I feel the blood rise in my face. I’m probably as purple as my dad now. I ball my fists up and suck in a small wisp of air. Sierra!
“I didn’t let her,” I growl through my teeth. “She stole my car and took off before I even woke up. I had to get a ride with Zak today. You can check with him if you don’t bel
ieve me.”
My parents look at each other, eyes swapping questions. After a minute or two of this silent conversation, my dad snaps the phone off the wall. I hear Zak’s house phone ring through the window.
“I need to speak with your boy, if that’s okay, Maddie.” His voice is kind, but you can totally tell he’s in a hurry.
I plop down on the bar stool and wait. Even though I know there shouldn’t be anything to worry about since I’m telling the truth, my heart still whacks against my breastplate.
“Zak, this is Mr. Livingston… thank you, that’s why I’m calling. Did Zoe go to school with you?” My dad’s eyes burn into mine as he waits for Zak to answer. He’s quiet for a while.
“Thank you. You’ve helped clear up the issue. Have a good night.” Dad clicks the end button and stands frozen for a minute. Both Mom and I hold our breath.
Then without warning, Dad takes two long steps and wraps me into a hug. He never apologizes… never. So I’m not expecting him to say anything, but this is fine. I smile into his chest, and I can hear my mom fighting back more tears.
When I pull back, Mom takes Dad’s place. “I’m sorry, honey. Sierra told us differently.”
Of course she did.
“It’s okay, Mom. I’m sorry I didn’t stay at the hospital with her. I… you know… school stuff.”
She nods and pats me on the cheek. My dad still hasn’t said anything, but that’s just how he is.
***
Back in my room, I yank on my baggy pajamas. I’m really in no mood to be fake or pretend. It’s not like I have anyone to impress in my bedroom. And after what happened today, all I need is my X-Men book.
With flashlight in hand, I jump into the pages, wiping away stupid tears. I have no idea why I’m crying. Even though she stole my car, wrecked it, and then told my parents I was the one who did everything, I still can’t help but feel guilty for leaving her in the hospital with tubes hanging out of her.
I’m a horrible sister.
I hear Zak’s window slide open, and my stomach flutters.
Ugh! I hate the effect he still has on me.
I whip the comforter off my head, and my hair pops with all the static. Zak chuckles as he leans out his window. I quickly run my hand through my hair, turning red.
“Your sister get home okay?”
“Yeah.” I crawl off the bed, trying to look sexy about it, but I’m not sure if I pull it off. I duck out my window so I can hear him better. Our property lines are so close, if we both extended our arms, we could hold hands.
“You’re not in trouble are you?”
I shake my head, but drop my gaze to the bushes below us.
“What’s wrong, Zo?”
I shake my head again, pursing my lips. No way am I confiding in him. That would send me down a very dangerous path resulting in a drop on the social ladder.
“Come on. We used to talk about everything.”
I cringe. “I know.”
“Didn’t know you hated it so much.”
I look up at him. His hair has fallen in front of his eyes, but I can see the hurt behind them.
“I didn’t hate it. Things are just,” I pause, trying to find the right word. When he meets my stare, I finally find it. “Different.”
He nods and chuckles. “I guess you could say that.”
An awkward silence spreads between us. I blow up my cheeks but stop when I see Zak smirk at me. But then his smile fades, and his brow furrows.
“Zo, why…?” He doesn’t finish, and I don’t prod. I don’t want to know what’s going on in his head.
“Thanks for covering for me.”
“I just told him the truth.”
“Well, thanks.”
Awkward silence again. He tosses his head back, sending his hair in a flurry. My stomach does a pancake flip as his dark eyes rest on mine. “I’ll see you tomorrow.”
He slams his window down and shuts the blinds.
I reciprocate, nearly breaking the glass.
On top of being a horrible sister, I’m a horrible neighbor.
My bed looks comfortable, but I plop down on the floor. I grab the edge of the comforter and wrap it around myself.
Stupid boy and all the jacked up feelings I get when I’m around him. He’s a friggin’ loser! He wore a Stars Wars shirt today. He invited me to watch a documentary this weekend. And the worst part is: I’m jealous of him.
I can’t help but feel the same things I had when we were… friends. I suppose that’s the best way to describe the relationship we had. But there are reasons why we aren’t that way anymore. We’re just so…
Different.
But that isn’t his fault. It’s mine.
I throw the comforter over my head and close my eyes to escape the pain growing in my chest.
I’m a horrible person. Period.
Chapter 4
I’m covering my mouth with duct tape next time I’m at the salon.
Best way to cure self-inflicted pain? Go back to routine. Starting with the monthly trip to the hair salon with one of my popular buds, Hope.
“What’s it gonna be this time, hon?” Missy totally has a hairstylist’s name. I think it’s a requirement for every student when they go through cosmetology school. If you don’t have one, get one.
“Can we make it darker?”
“Darker red? Or black?”
“Red.” Ahem… Jean Grey.
She nods and goes to prepare the dye. I run my fingers through the crispy strands. I used a cheap box last time and got a disproving look from Missy when she saw it. Gosh, it’s not like I can poop out eighty bucks every month.
I mean, I give the impression I’m pretty loaded. Like I’ve got a million bucks shoved down my bra everywhere I go, but truth is, Mom and Dad work their butts off for half a paycheck. They don’t ever complain about it, and so I try not to be the bitching teenager who begs them for money all the time. They don’t know about the clubs, but the cleavage is my ticket in anyway. As for the alcohol—whenever I do drink—someone usually pays for me. Again, thank you cleavage! Who knew, right?
But the salon? Yup, I gotta save up for this stuff. Image people, image.
Clicking my tongue as I wait, I try not to think about Sierra who has been locked in her room until she dies. She hasn’t talked to me since the hospital. I’ve tried to make amends, but really, shouldn’t she be the one groveling for my forgiveness? The more I think about it the more upset I get. I’m tempted to turn my head to the side and slap my ear to get rid of the train of thought.
Hope swivels around in her chair, texting her latest boy toy. She giggles every time the phone vibrates.
“Is he taking you to the club tonight?”
She nods and continues to clack away on her keyboard.
“Hey!” I kick her hard in the shin.
“Geez, what?” She laughs and rubs her leg as she tucks her phone away.
“Girls’ day, remember?” Hope is usually good at the girl stuff, which is why I always pick her over Keira. But today she totally sucks at it.
“Okay, okay. Sorry.” She rolls her eyes and throws me a huge grin. “You know how it is though. New flame and all.”
Gosh, I thought she’d be used to the new flame crap since she has a new boyfriend about as often as she changes nail polish. Hope’s one of those girls who is gorgeous and nice… most of the time. I mean, she’s nice to your face, but the second you piss her off, she’s firing off nasty crap all around school. Like the rest of us I guess.
She’s also fun. Like, I can almost be myself with her.
“Alrighty, here we go.” Missy stands behind me with the bowl of the perfumed dye. I close my eyes and let her go to work. The process has become so natural I don’t even feel the burn in my nose anymore. After a good twenty minutes of slathering the stuff on my head, Missy leads me to the dryer and hands me a few magazines.
“I’ll come check on you in a few minutes.”
I won’t open the m
agazines. Unless one of them is an Entertainment Weekly on the next Avengers movie, then I may take a peek. That’s okay to look at in public because that movie is all the rage right now, but if anyone found out I dissect it to death, researching the characteristics of the actors picked to portray each superhero to make sure they got the casting right… yeah, that’ll be curtains down on Popular Zoe. And of course, the only magazines they have are ones I only pretend to be interested in.
Hope’s now getting slathered herself. Probably going blonder. Damn girl is perfect. Nice rack, pretty face, skinny waist, and long blonde hair. Like Galadriel from Lord of the Rings.
I yank out my cell in the side pocket of my snug jeans, and slide it open to a text.
From Cody.
I miss u.
Gag me. He really needs to take the implied breakup hint. I don’t want to ever see that jackass ever again. I blow up my cheeks and let the air come out slowly as my fingers fly across my keyboard.
Stay the hell away from me.
There, if he doesn’t get the hint from that, he’s an idiot.
My phone buzzes.
Bitch.
Nope, not an idiot. Just a horny prick. Things have never been that way with any guy ever. And I don’t want him to look at me, or touch me, or anything. If he tries it again he’s losing a testicle.
Hands are suddenly on my shoulders and I jump back in the seat.
Missy giggles. “Sorry, hon, I didn’t mean to scare you.”
I clutch my chest and try to laugh it off.
“Looks like you’ll need a few more minutes,” she says prodding my scalp. She plops the dryer back over my head and smiles. “I’ll make sure to wave in front of your face or something when I come back.”
“Ha ha.”
Ten minutes later, it’s like my face is on fire. Missy shuts off the dryer and the cold air hits me in a soothing wave of relief.
“Ooo!” she squeals. “It’s gonna look real pretty, Zoe.”
I nod and she leads me to the sink. I close my eyes and involuntarily moan as she washes my hair. Oh my gosh, this is the best part. Her fingers massage my scalp and the warmth of the water sends me into an intoxicating state of bliss. Ah yeah. No Sierra, no Cody, no persona. Just me in a luxurious bath.