by B. C. Falls
By the time I get back it’s almost five and I’m drained emotionally. The entire way back all I could think about was Jeff. Why would Royce tell him where she lived? Or about the money? Hell, she hasn’t even told me about it yet. I’m not gonna push her tonight though. As much as I want to,5 we’ve already fought today and yesterday. We need a break.
I walk through the door I hear laughter coming from the living room. I drop my keys in the bowl by the door and reach for the box in the top drawer of the stand that’s there. I put a box there for my gun, Royce suggested it and I completely agreed. It’s locked by a code that only I know. Once it’s away and my badge is off I make my way to the living room. I can’t help but smile when I find Boxer lying across Royce’s lap while Kady sits next to them. I walk quietly to the couch and lean down laying a kiss on Royce’s head. “Hey,” I say.
She jumps a little making Boxer wake up, but once he sees it’s me he goes back down. “You scared me,” Royce says. Kady is fast asleep and apparently the laughing was from the TV.
“Sorry baby,” I kiss her again before going to the kitchen. “You hungry?”
“I just ordered pizza,” her voice is closer and I realize she’s followed me. When I turn around she’s standing nearly a foot from me. “Is she in—” she’s also not looking at me.
It takes two strides for me to get to her. “Royce, I didn’t put her in jail.”
She takes a deep breath. “I got that restraining order after she broke into my house a year ago. She’d left a note so it was justified, but I never pressed charges because…”
“She’s your mom,” I wrap my arm around her waist and pull her towards me. “I wouldn’t have arrested her. Not when I know you and how much you care.”
Her hands move up my chest “I hate that I do,” her head falls against my chest and I kiss her forehead, holding her in my arms. “She never did anything but hurt me. When I was younger I was always hungry, always sad and alone but, sometimes she would come through and show me the mom I deserved. One time she woke me up in the middle of the night and dragged me to the car.” I tighten my hold on her. “Not literally, cave man,” I loosen just a little. “She took me to the mountains and we spent the day playing in the snow and skiing. It was an amazing trip that I won’t ever forget. At least the beginning of it was. Later that night, she left me in the car while she went into the grocery store. I had an iPod that had games so I was distracted for awhile.” I feel the tears start to soak my shirt. This kills me. No one should ever have to tell anyone about demons especially her. “After about an hour I got worried. Hour two I had to pee. Five, I was hungry.”
“Fuck baby,” I want to take the pain away from her so badly.
“I survived, Dane. I survived her and all my demons but the pain is so real and time will never take that away.”
“I want to,” I lean back and lift her head so she’ll look up at me, “I want to take your pain away.”
“You do,” she smiles as she leans into my touch. “Today you did something for me no one has ever done.”
“I’ll always do what you need. Kady and you come first, Royce. Forever.”
I want so badly to tell her how hard I am falling for her. How much I already have, but I don’t want to scare her off. Saying she comes first is one thing but admitting love is another. I don’t know if I’m there yet but it feels like it. “You are the first thing I think of when I wake up in the morning,” I kiss her lips just softly enough so she feels it. “When I go to bed, I want you there with me. Holding me,” I kiss her again. “During the day I wait impatiently until I see you again,” one more kiss. “All of you has all of me.”
“Forever,” I crush her lips to mine. Pouring all the words I want to say to her into the kiss. “You deserve nothing less,” I mumble against her lips. “Forever.”
“Forever,” she says back before sneaking her tongue between my lips.
“Is the pizza here yet?” Kady asks from over at the couch. Royce and I both laugh as we pull away from each other.
“Not yet, princess,” I call back.
“Okay you guys wanna watch another movie while we wait?” Kady yawns. “I think that Inside Out movie is on HBO?”
“Kids movies?” I make a disgusted face.
“Get used to it, buddy.” Royce slaps me on my chest before she walks back to the couch. “Let’s do it,” she wraps her arm around Kady.
“You joining us?” Kady looks over at me and that’s it for me. Those two are it for me.
“Yeah Princess.”
I couldn’t get to them fast enough. I sit my ass down in the middle of Royce and Kady making them laugh as I wrap them in my arms. “This is nice,” I whisper before kissing Kady on the head than Royce.
“Hey Dane?” I look down at Kady. “Is your job dangerous?”
I frown as my eyebrows pull together. “Why do you ask?”
She starts picking at my shirt like Royce does when she’s nervous. “I’m just worried, I guess.”
I move my arm from around Royce and reach over touching Kady’s cheek “Sometimes it is,” she looks down at her fingers. “But Kady, I’m never gonna put myself in a situation that’d take me away from you and Royce.”
“You can’t promise me that,” she says.
“I’m not promising you, because yeah, you’re right, I can’t promise that. But I’ll do my best to always come home.” She doesn’t say anything just decides that it’s over and looks back at the TV. I move my arm back around Royce and pull both my girls closer.
CHAPTER NINE
Royce
I’m lying in Dane’s arms running my fingers across his chest and over his tattoos. I got up a little bit ago to grab my headphones. Something about music always makes me a happier. Plus, Adele released a new song I can’t seem to get it out of my head. I trail my fingers down Dane’s arm, over the angel that holds up a falling world. The beauty of the ink is indescribable. I have the one tattoo and wish I had more, but this man didn’t hold back when get got these.
I feel one of my headphones being tugged out and smile “What are ya doing, pretty girl?” Dane asks.
“Just enjoying this.” The sun isn’t even up yet and Dane’s voice is gruff from sleep.
“Let’s see what sad song you are listening to now,” he puts the headphone in. “Well, I wasn’t expecting this.”
I sit up a little, “What?”
“A song about calling an ex,” his eyebrows are pulled together. The face he is currently making I haven’t seen much but I know that it means he’s upset. “Do you still love Jeff?”
“I thought you knew where I stood. You said the other night you weren’t worried.”
“Maybe I am a little. He gave your mom your address. How did he know it?”
I sigh, “He had to send me some of my stuff.”
“Do you still talk to him?” I don’t answer. “What about the money? How does he know about that?”
“Dane,” he pulls away from me climbing out of the bed and dropping my ear bud.
“I’ve got work,” he states, which just pisses me off.
“Dane, don’t do that.”
“I’m not. Look, I just don’t like it. Just like you don’t like girls texting me. It makes me jealous and I don’t like feeling like I need to be jealous.”
“You don’t need to be. We’re good, Dane. Jeff means nothing to me. You being worried about him is not necessary.” He simply nods. “Dane, come on.”
“No, I understand. I don’t need to worry so just let me get that through my head today.” He starts getting dressed for work, “Go back to your music and I’ll get going to work.”
“Seriously? We just got through four fights and now we’re doing it again?”
His shoulders fall in defeat and he slowly turns back to me “Royce, I like you a hell of a lot more than anyone should three months into a relationship. You said you are falling for me and I’m right there with you but every time I feel like we’re on the s
ame page something comes up and we get dragged back. I’m happy with Kady and you. We just have some stuff to work through, but I’m not giving up.” He sits down next to me on the bed, “I just worry that I got you and now I have to fight some douche bag for you.”
I laugh, “You don’t, baby. I’m here. Forever.”
He closes his eyes once I say the words baby. I take a breath waiting for him to respond. “Forever.” His eyes open. “I love it when you call me baby.” He kisses me. I take full advantage and pull him down on top of me. He settles between my legs, making heat settle there. “I gotta go,” he mumbles against my lips.
I wrap my arms around his back and dig my nails in so he can’t move. His growl sends shivers through me. “No,” I whimper. “We can make it quick. Please. I need you.” He growls as he stares at me. I move my hips up and because he’s still in his sweatpants there is barely anything between us. His cock is rock hard and pressing in all the right places. “You can’t go to work like this,” I move my hips up again making all of him rub perfectly against all of me.
“Quick,” he states before pushing his sweats down. I quickly get out of my panties. “You ready, baby?” he asks. I reach down finding myself soaked for him. His grin is unmistakably for the fact that he knows I’m ready.
He settles back down on top of me and easily slides through my folds making me gasp at how perfect it feels. “So full,” I whimper in his ear. I bite down tugging lightly. “Fuck me, Dane.” He growls again. He starts thrusting in and out of me in a fast, hard rhythm. My body is on fire, sweat builds all over my skin, the feel of him in me is like nothing I have ever felt before. I love it. I’m prefect when he’s right here with me.
“Jesus,” he slams his lips on mine, hiding my whimpers and moan with his tongue. His taste is overwhelming me to the point where I become so out of control I lose myself in him.
As my body climbs to the edge of a mountain that always sends me into a blissful fall, I can feel him right there with me.
I pull my mouth away from his trying to catch my breath. “So good baby,” I dig my nails into his back, which makes him pick it up even more. My man likes to be in that little space between pain and pleasure. I’m so close. So ready to feel that perfect bliss. “Harder,” I beg.
“Fuck baby,” he pulls out of me quickly and flips me over. His cock slides back into me in seconds and I moan loudly making him slap my ass. “Shh baby.” I curl my fists in the sheets as he starts pounding into me. “Like that?” he asks.
I clench my walls around him enticing a groan from him. “Yes. Oh God, Dane. Please.”
“Please what baby?” he reaches around and rubs my clit in circles. The second slap against my ass sends me into a haze. “Please what?”
“Make me come,” I beg. “Dane!” My moans start to get louder and he puts his hand against my mouth to keep me quiet, but I doubt it’s helping much.
“Fucking hell, baby,” He slaps my ass with his free hand again before his fingers go to my hair. “Come. Please come.” He begs right as he tugs my hair.
His words and the way his body is moving with mine, send me all the way over the edge. I bite down on his hand to keep quiet as I moan the loudest I ever have. The orgasm is incredible, long and makes my whole body go numb. Toes curl. Breathing stops. I swear if my eyes were open they’d be rolling in the back of my head from the pure pleasure he’s giving me.
He starts to slow down and the feel of him coming inside of me makes my orgasm continue just a little bit longer. I collapse onto the bed but he keeps himself up with the hand in my hair. His hand moves away from my mouth to and I instantly say “Fuck.”
He rubs his hand down my back spreading the sweat that’s built there. “Good for you?” The kiss on my shoulder tells me he’s leaned down but I can’t fucking move an inch.
I move my head to the side to look over my shoulder at him. “So good,” he leans down and nips at my bottom lip before sucking on it as he thrusts into me. “Dane,” I moan, the sensations all returning full force. How he’s still hard is crazy to me, but fuck it makes me want to go again.
“I know. I gotta go baby”, he kisses me before slowly pulling out so I feel every hard ridge of his cock. “I wish I could stay here all day playing with your perfect pussy,” he kind of trails off.
I turn over and watch him as he puts his uniform on. “Have I ever told you how sexy you look in your uniform?”
“Nope,” he grins over his shoulder at me. He’s got his pants undone and his shirt almost fully buttoned. “Fuck, it’s gonna be hard not to think about your pussy all day,” he takes a deep breath as he adjusts his hard on before pulling the zipper up.
I stand up after getting my glasses so I can see him better, walk to him and pull his handcuffs off his belt that have been lying on my dresser every night he’s been here. “Can we use this sometime?” I look up at him under my lashes. His face is a mix of desire and contemplation. Like he can’t decide if he wants to take me again or actually finish getting ready for work.
“Definitely,” he grabs the cuffs from my hands putting the cuffs back on the dresser. When he turns back to me he wraps his arms around me. “How many kids do you want?” he asks out of no where. I run my hands up his arms until they are around his neck.
“Six,” his eyes go wide.
“You want six kids?” he asks just to make sure. I nod slowly. “Six?”
“Yes.”
“That’s a lot of kids.”
“I’ve always wanted a big family. It was only my mom and I when I was younger and I had Dallas and the boys but they weren’t around much. When ever I picture my future I see lots of babies,” I quickly get nervous that maybe he doesn’t want six kids. Or a kid at all. “But I mean we can have less.” I trail off trying to contain my nerves. “I don’t need—” he smacks my ass getting my attention back up to him. “You really like to spank me.”
“It’s fucking hot that you take it baby,” he smiles down at me. “We can have as many kids as you want.”
“You want kids with me?” I can’t help but ask.
He tightens his hold on me. “I want everything with you. When I say forever or always or talk about my future all I see is you.”
I feel a tear slip down my cheek. “Dane,” I fall a little more for him right then.
“I know this is shitty, but I gotta go to work baby,” he leans down giving me the perfect ending to our morning, but my lips always want more. Just like I always want more from him. “Fuck baby. Please, I have to go,” he lets me go.
“That’s fine, I need to take a shower anyway,” I take a step away from him and head for the bathroom.
Once my shirt is off he pops his head into the room and groans, “Damn baby,” I turn around and look at him. “How did I get so lucky?” He walks over to me as I pull my glasses off. I can’t help but look up at him in the mirror. He pulls his phone out of his pocket and types something out. “I’m gonna be late.”
He puts the phone back into his pocket than reaches out for me. “Dane, no!” I slap his hand away.
“I want to play,” he pouts. Literally fucking pouts. I laugh as he reaches for me again, but this time he gets my boob in his right hand. “You have this perfect body and I can’t be controlled around it.”
“You held off for two months,” I tell him pushing his hand away. “You can wait until tonight,” I turn back to the shower but he grabs my hips and grounds his cock into my ass. “Dane,” I groan.
“I’m going baby, but I’m not gonna leave until you feel how I feel whenever I see you,” He slips his hand down and over my hip until his fingers are between my legs. I’m still sticky there from our romp not even twenty minutes ago. I lean forward putting my hand on the glass door.
Dane slowly moves his fingers over my clit making me needy and wanting more of him. “Dane please,” I beg because I know he’ll stop soon.
“You’ll ache for me all day.”
“I always ache for you.”
“Yes,” I moan. My body tightens as I get to the edge. “Dane!” I almost scream but then I feel his hand moving away from me. “No,” I beg. I reach back for his hand but he just spanks me, which doesn’t help at all because it sends pleasure straight back to my clit.
“Bye baby!”
“Fucking asshole,” I hear his laugh as he leaves. I step into the shower closing the door quickly with a loud thud. The hot water hits my skin making me sigh, but the relief I need never comes of course.
“Okay babe, I’m actually leaving this time.”
“Good!” He laughs.
“You good?”
“Fine.”
“You say that a lot.”
“You don’t fuck me enough!” His chuckle is the last thing I hear before the door closes. I lean my head against the cool tile trying to slow the ache, trying to ease the need for him.
I honestly feel a little unsettled after our little fight this morning. About everything we’ve already been through. Is this how love is supposed to feel? All butterflies and heat before crashing into hurt and pain? I feel like we have something huge. Something that can go on forever, but if this is the path that’ll lead us to forever, I don’t know if I have it in me to continue on it. I can’t constantly fight him. If I want this to work and make it to forever with Dane, then I can’t hold back everything anymore. I need to tell him everything about my life and how I got here. Why I’m here.
I’m sitting in a booth at the little diner near the main street with Barbie. She’s got a cup of coffee in her hand while I have a glass of water. We just ate like shit and I’m not even ashamed. “How are you settling in?” she asks.
“I’m good. Got everything from storage and the house is awesome. Dane bought us a dining room table,” I twirl my straw around the glass making the ice clink against the sides.