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by T. M. Goeglein


  “Al,” he said with a wink. “Just like everybody else around here.”

  And then I was riding a silent, private elevator.

  The key was in the door; the room was vast and smelled like roses.

  It was after the three-course room service was demolished and my stomach was aching with satisfaction that the extreme quiet and stillness of the place set in. It was a stark contrast to the past three days. I threw the robe on a chair and lay on my back in silk PJs staring at the ceiling as my beaten body took on the composition of a jellyfish, adhering to the wondrous bed beneath it. My mind, which had existed in a constant state of jumpy alertness, downshifted to a low gear, and my hand inched toward a remote control. The enormous flat screen flicked on, and I heard familiar zither music. I turned my head and saw shadows flash against the walls of a black-and-white, bombed-out Vienna, and smiled—it was Lou’s favorite movie, The Third Man. It felt like an omen—whether a good or sinister one, I can’t say—just that it made me feel my little brother was nearby. I closed my eyes and let the music fill my lungs.

  Zing-zing-zing.

  Tinkle-zing-zing.

  Thoughts of Lou moved me closer to my grinning, lanky dad with a permanent five-o’clock shadow and flour on his shoes.

  Zing-zing-zing.

  Tinkle-zing-zing.

  Memories of my dad hugging my mom in the kitchen until she pushes him away, giggling and smoothing her skirt as I enter the room, her face lighting up, so happy to see me, and she opens her arms and I’m right where I want to be, in her embrace. Her arms folded around me, and I smelled her rose-oil perfume and soft dark hair. It was sweet and sorrowful because we were together; I also knew I was asleep and dreaming, but we were together, and asleep, and then I was pitching weightlessly over the edge of a cool blue waterfall, not caring if I ever touched the bottom. Falling, normally terrifying, was a relief. It felt so good that I never wanted to wake up, but I did, because my mom woke me. I felt her delicate hand brush my cheek and opened my eyes without lifting my head from the pillow. She was sitting in the chair across from me, and I said, “Mom. You’re alive . . .”

  She smiled. “I’m with your dad and Lou, Sara Jane, and we need you.”

  “I need you, too. All of you. But I can’t find you.”

  “You can’t stop now. You’ve come so far in such a short time.”

  “I’m tired, Mom.” I yawned. “Too tired to go on.”

  “But darling,” she said, her smile fading, “if you don’t look for us, who will?”

  “So tired . . .” My eyelids fluttered.

  “Sara Jane,” she said, and the urgency in her normally calm speech forced my attention. “If you don’t look for us,” she said, folding herself into the chair across from me, “we may never be found.”

  “Okay, Mom, okay,” I said through another yawn. “I’ll keep looking. I just need to sleep first, okay?”

  Her smile returned. “You’re such a strong girl . . .”

  Behind her words, another voice warned, “That’s a nice girl, that. But she ought to go careful in Vienna . . .”

  My mom said, “But you have to be careful in Chicago . . .”

  The voice returned. “Everybody ought to go careful in a city like this.”

  “Everybody,” my mom said, brushing my cheek again, “has to be careful in a city like this.”

  I blinked awake at her gentle touch and looked at the robe folded over the chair. A voice murmured behind me, and I turned to the TV. I’d watched The Third Man with Lou so many times that I knew the character’s name—Popescu. “Everybody ought to go careful in a city like this,” he said gravely. I looked at the robe again and then lay back on the downy pillow. This time I couldn’t have stopped crying if I wanted to, the tears fed by the cool blue waterfall over which I’d tumbled. It was late Tuesday afternoon, and small gusts of air-conditioning rippled the curtains, moving golden spots of filtered sunlight around the ceiling. The room was so beautiful and comfortable, so desolate and remote, that it felt like the end of a life. I wanted to get up, pack my few things, and continue on my desperate journey to nowhere, but my body was dead weight.

  I tried to lift an arm but it wouldn’t move.

  I willed my leg to bend but it was paralyzed.

  I turned inward to my aloneness and cried until I was unconscious.

  When I awoke, the only light in the room was the rectangle of flat-screen TV, glowing on the wall like a secret portal. I looked to it, hoping for an answer, and watched a man bark about politics until his face turned red, and turned it off.

  There were so few answers.

  So many questions.

  There was no one to help me but me.

  For the next unknown hours I slept and became conscious and slept again. I remember trying to order room service, slurring my order into the room’s phone and then canceling it, trudging across the carpet to pee in the marble bathroom, and then rolling back into bed. It’s possible that I would’ve remained semicomotose forever if my cell phone hadn’t rung and led me out of the fog. It buzzed for what seemed like an eternity, but I was so far from wakefulness that I couldn’t rouse myself to answer it. After it stopped, I blinked thickly and opened my eyes. Sunlight blared through the curtains. I struggled to sit up, throwing my legs over the side of the bed like they belonged to someone else. I used the heels of my palms to grind sleep from my eyes, not knowing what day it was and not caring. It felt as if my entire being had gone through a gigantic meat grinder and then been slapped and patted back into shape.

  It wasn’t quite an emotional breakdown that I had.

  It was more like a break apart, clean and oil the pieces, and put back together.

  I was far from being in a happy place, but at least more prepared for what might lurk outside the door.

  That’s when I remembered my mom’s warning about being careful, since what lurked outside was Chicago. Someone had tried to sneak inside via a phone call, and I looked over at my cell lying silent and inert on the carpet. I bent painfully and picked it up, stared at the display, which indicated the last caller, blinked, and stared again. I’d flexed my emotional abs, prepared for a hard blow to the gut when I saw Uncle Buddy’s number, or Detective Smelt’s, or worse, unknown digits belonging to a phantom in a ski mask.

  I did not expect Max’s name and number.

  To be honest, I had almost forgotten about him.

  Seeing his name now was akin to looking into an alternate universe.

  As I inspected the display, the phone buzzed in my hand and I jumped like an electrified rabbit. It was Max again, and I was gripped with the sort of fear that had nothing to do with insane uncles, rogue cops, or masked assassins. Instead, it was old-fashioned crush anxiety—talking to someone you really, really like when you aren’t prepared. But the prospect of not talking to him was even worse, so I took a deep breath, told myself, “Casual, casual,” and pushed the green button.

  “Hello?” I said, as casual as a mental patient.

  “Sara Jane?” Max said. “Is that you?”

  “Hey, Max. How are you?”

  “I’m good,” he said. “Are you okay? You sound funny.”

  “Oh,” I said, touching at the bruises on my neck. “Um . . . yeah, my throat feels a little weird.”

  “So were you sick or something? We were supposed to meet at the Davis Theater on Sunday.”

  “Max,” I said, feeling a blush creep over my face, “I’m so, so sorry I missed the movie. I should have called, but this weekend was just really . . . busy.”

  “Family stuff?”

  “You could say that.”

  “I know how it is,” he said. “When my dad calls from L.A. and my mom answers the phone, the fireworks start immediately. I just want to escape, you know?”

  “Absolutely,” I said.

  “Speaking of family, I met your uncle.”

  That shut me up. I tried to recover but could only murmur, “Uncle Buddy?”

  “Yeah
. And your aunt Greta.”

  “She’s not my aunt.”

  “She called herself your aunt.”

  “She’s not,” I said, too forcefully, which shut Max up. We were both quiet until I cleared my throat and said, “So where did you meet him?”

  “At your house.”

  “You went to my house?”

  “Uh . . . yeah. Your uncle was working on the front door. I held it in place for him while he attached a hinge. Cool old place, by the way.”

  “Thanks.”

  “He and your aunt . . . or whoever she is, mentioned that they were staying with you. Your parents and brother are out of town or something, huh?”

  “Yeah,” I said dully. “Or something.”

  “Your uncle’s a pretty chatty guy. He had a ton of questions about school: what time we go in the morning, what classes we’re in, what kind of security . . .”

  “I’ll bet.”

  “He told me I could stop by your house anytime.”

  “What? No, don’t do that!”

  “Huh?”

  “I mean, unless I’m there. Uncle Buddy can really trap you.”

  “Listen,” Max said, “I hope I didn’t, like, overstep a boundary, as my mom’s therapist would say. It’s just, you weren’t at the movie and you haven’t been in school. I was worried.”

  “You were?” I said. “About me?”

  “Yeah. Well, I mean, me and Doug were worried. It’s weird when a friend isn’t where she’s supposed to be, right?”

  “Right,” I said quietly, that word friend from Max’s lips feeling like a punch in the heart. “Weird.”

  “By the way, Doug has this movie, Goodfellas, scheduled for . . .”

  Max’s words faded into the background as my brain kicked into emotional-calculator mode. My home was now off-limits with Uncle Buddy lying in wait plus the fact that I’d brought a curse on Willy and couldn’t return to Windy City Gym equaled Fep Prep—the last place where I could be the Sara Jane I was before this nightmare began. No one there knew about my life outside its walls, which provided a comforting suspension of reality. It was like being in bubble—as long as the bubble came with electronic surveillance every five feet and a squad of security guards that wouldn’t let a cop inside without frisking him. Plus, it’s housed in an old redbrick former shoe factory, with a chiming clock tower that used to call laborers to work (and now warns kids to be in homeroom by eight fifteen), composed of twisting hallways, stairways to nowhere, and out-of-the-way classrooms; only kids who are super-accomplished gamers can easily navigate the place. It’s my second year and I still get turned around in that labyrinth.

  I looked at myself in the mirror as Max continued to talk.

  The high cheekbones and olive skin were aspects of my mom’s face that existed in my own.

  It occurred to me then that just as important as the strict security of my school was my mom’s expectation that I would continue to attend, even in her bitter absence. Like I said before, her philosophy as a teacher—as a person—is that knowledge is power. But more than that, she believes that knowledge is the air we breathe, the food we eat, the rhythm of our hearts. Knowledge is life, and she would expect me to go on living. Just by attending school I would be closer to her, and feel the strength of her confidence flow like lava through my veins. So I vowed not to let her down, then heard a question mark at the end of Max’s sentence.

  “I’m sorry . . . what did you say?” I said.

  “Tomorrow? You know, Wednesday? Will you be back in school?”

  “Yeah,” I said. “I will.”

  And then we said good-bye and hung up, and I looked at the phone in my hand. With one call, Max had reminded me how easy it was to track a phone with invasive apps and beeping satellites and meticulous provider records. Now I was sure I was being listened to and spied on. Just across the street, Lake Michigan winked and sparkled like a blue quilt covered in diamonds. I needed fresh air and my phone needed a permanent, watery resting place. Sometime during my twelve hours of unconsciousness, the old sweats and crusty clothing had been magically replaced with jeans and new underthings, a good pair of shoes and a plain white, super-soft T-shirt, all in my size. Al the doorman, I thought, remembering the skeptical look he’d given me before asking if there was anything else I needed. I dressed quickly, lifted the briefcase, and left the room. He was at his post outside the hotel entrance.

  I tapped him on the shoulder and said, “Hi, Al.”

  He looked at me and the slick little mustache under his nose lifted in a smile. “Hi, Al. What can I do for you?”

  “I need a phone,” I said quietly.

  “Flip-top, candy bar, PDA, or iPhone?”

  “Actually,” I said, looking around, “something untraceable.”

  He nodded. “Disposable. How many?”

  “I don’t know. Three?”

  “Let’s go three dozen, just to be safe. Nice day, huh? Going for a walk?”

  “Just to the lake.”

  “They’ll be in your car trunk when you get back. And listen, don’t dillydally. The hotel’s throwing a Cinco de Mayo party for guests. Mariachi, mango salsa, and margaritas. You can enjoy the first two, but no booze. Underage drinking is strictly prohibited. After all,” he said solemnly, “at the Commodore, we respect the law.”

  “Thanks, Al,” I said.

  “You’re welcome, Al,” he replied with a salute, the gold epaulets of his uniform glinting in the sun.

  My quick stroll to the water’s edge consisted of an extended look over my shoulder and envy. Everywhere I turned, from busy Michigan Avenue to the North Avenue Beach House boardwalk, people were going about their lives. It was at least eighty degrees, a summerlike day making an appearance in May, and everyone seemed to be enjoying the generous sun. They weren’t racked with suspicion or desperate to be rid of a phone or carrying steel briefcases full of secrets, guns, and money. The world seemed so ridiculous—some people floated along in peace while others fought to survive, with both groups sharing space and rubbing shoulders. And then sand crunched under my new shoes and I hurried toward the lake, swiveled my body, and extended an arm. The phone skipped across the water like a flat, rectangular stone. It was an early sixteenth birthday gift from my mom and dad, and left a trail of sparkling bubbles as it sank—another small part of them gone with it. And then I turned and looked at North Avenue Beach and realized what a mistake I’d made.

  I don’t mean throwing away the phone.

  I mean walking unprotected in broad daylight.

  It seemed like an entire beach full of people stared in my direction.

  Some were shirtless on towels, others wore bikinis and held volleyballs, and still others stood with their arms crossed, wearing sunglasses and sport coats. The sunglasses were okay, but my gut quietly informed me that guys in sport coats under a hot sun were not. They had cop written all over them, from the chunky shoes to the blank expressions focused on me and my briefcase. I had no doubt they belonged to Detective Smelt. I felt like a fool, surrounded by acres of hot sand and endless lake. My only option for cover was the old beach house, built to resemble a 1930s cruise liner, complete with smokestacks.

  And there it was.

  The 1930s.

  If it really was that old, maybe it had a Capone Door.

  I remembered how Joe Little installed them between 1921 and 1950 in private and public structures, and few things were as public as the beach house. I ran for it, and the cops ran for me. I was panicked in a save-my-butt way but calm, the chilly blue flame flickering in my gut, and was able to file away the fact for further use—when looking for a Capone Door, look for an old building. I took steps two at a time and hit the sandy concourse running hard, wondering where it could possibly be, looking past decades of renovation for something that was part of the original structure—concession stand? No—lifeguard office? Too new-looking—upstairs beer garden? Too exposed—and hearing them behind me.

  “Stop, thief!” one o
f them barked in a patrolman’s voice.

  “Stop her!” the other one shouted, trying to get someone to intervene. “She stole a briefcase!”

  Well played, I thought, and skidded around a corner, pulling up in front of two entryways, one leading to the men’s showers, the other to the women’s. They would expect me to go into the women’s, so I ducked into the men’s, thankful that it was empty. It was a square, tiled room—no doors, no windows, a dead end—until my eyes were drawn to the knobs beneath each of the ancient dripping shower heads, one for hot stamped with little H’s, the other for cold stamped with little C’s.

  Those beautiful little C’s.

  I pushed them all quickly, one by one, but nothing happened.

  Looking closely, I saw decades of hard-sealed rust encrusted around the letters.

  I pushed each of the C’s again, leaning into them with all of my weight, until one moved and a door popped open as silently as if it had been oiled yesterday. I was sealed safely behind the wall before the first cop’s shoe squeaked on wet tile, and then it was quiet, neither guy saying a word, just walking slowly around the room. I could feel their frustration vibrating through the wall. Finally one of them said, “Well, shit. Where did she go?”

  The other one said, “Smelt’s not gonna be happy.”

  “Smelt was born unhappy,” the first one said. “That’s why she’s always at Twin Anchors. Sweet liquor eases the pain.”

  “That’s funny. You’re a funny guy. You should tell her that.”

  “I’m dumb,” the first one said, their footsteps receding, “not stupid.”

  It was the second time I’d heard of Detective Smelt’s hangout—Twin Anchors—and filed away that nugget too. And then I turned to a painted hand on the wall pointing down a flight of stairs that ended at a hallway, which branched in opposite directions. One wall bore the words “Lincoln Park Boathouse” with a hand indicating right; the other read “Commodore Hotel” with its hand pointing left. I turned down the dim hallway listening to something thump and echo above me, and realized I was passing beneath Lake Shore Drive. A few minutes later my foot kicked a bottom step. I climbed a short flight to another door. It unlatched quietly and I lowered myself into a toilet stall. I shut the Capone Door, eased from the stall, and turned to a dozing men’s room attendant. The old guy was propped precariously in a chair next to a display of mints, aftershave, and crumpled dollar bills. I tiptoed past but my shoes were wet, the rubber soles complained, and he sat up and stared at me.

 

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