“I thought you did,” I said. “I mean, it’s romantic, but, wow. I mean…wow.”
“I didn’t do this,” said Jean-Luc, eyeing me with suspicion.
Whereas I was more of an occasionally neurotic, bottle-blond Lucille Ball, Jean-Luc was a smart and savvy French Desi Arnaz. An artist, I liked to dream big or go home. He was pragmatic, a scientist who investigated facts. He grounded me when my head floated into the clouds. I opened his mathematical mind to creative (and sometimes odd) possibilities. And, sure, I might do nutty things like fly five thousand miles to meet up with a man I’d only known for twenty-four hours and over email, but I wasn’t responsible for the rose petals.
“I swear it wasn’t me.”
“Your mom?”
“She wouldn’t dare. You know what a neat freak she is,” I said. My thoughts went to my mother, who was hosting my now-stepdaughter, Elvire, at her house. “The state of Elvire’s room must be giving her hives. There are clothes all over the floor, wet bikinis and towels on the chair, and she leaves the drawers open. I mean, why? Why does she leave drawers open?”
“I’ll tell her to clean it up.”
“Good luck with that,” I said.
“Deux secondes,” we said in unison. “Two seconds”—the universal response for any teenaged girl on the planet.
For a moment, Jean-Luc and I sat motionless, watching the rose petals dancing across the floor, our mouths agape. Who was responsible for this botanical bomb? By process of elimination, two lovable but devious delinquents came to mind: my sister, Jessica, and my best friend of more than twenty-five years, Tracey. Frankly, it wouldn’t have surprised me if the two of them had plotted and planned together for weeks. But people were always innocent until proven guilty. And I didn’t have proof.
Cleaning up what appeared to be thousands of rose petals wasn’t exactly what I’d envisioned doing the morning after our wedding, but because of Jean-Luc, my views had shifted; he’d opened up my heart to love and I didn’t sweat the small stuff anymore. We’d survived the perils of a long-distance relationship through unbridled communication, consisting of two-hour long telephone calls and emails. Whatever problems we faced, we overcame them together, and not one single argument threatening to shake our system along the way. Rose petals? Hardly a crisis.
Jean-Luc jumped out of bed. “I’ll sweep. You gather.”
“What a mess,” I said, holding back a laugh.
“A beautiful mess.” Jean-Luc gingerly removed a rose petal tangled in my hair. “Like you.”
“Ha-ha,” I said, scrambling out of bed to throw on a pair of shorts and a T-shirt.
“Where are you going?”
“To get a trash bag and a broom.”
“Mais, Madame Vérant, you haven’t given me my morning kiss.”
We finished sweeping and gathering, Jean-Luc jumped in the shower, and I headed downstairs to the kitchen. My mom and dad were drinking coffee. A new French habit: I kissed my parents on both cheeks. “Morning, sweetie,” said my dad.
“Oh good, you’re up,” said my mom. She closed her iPad and clapped her hands together with excitement. “That was the best wedding ever. And I didn’t even have to leave my own house. Let’s keep the party going.”
I held up a finger. “Party Anne-imal,” I said, referring to the nickname I’d given my mom, Anne. “I haven’t had my coffee yet.”
“But there are a couple of bottles of champagne left. Mimosa?”
My sister bounced into the kitchen and headed straight to the fridge. “Did somebody say mimosas?” asked Jessica. She placed a bottle of champagne and a jug of orange juice on the kitchen table, and then raced to the dining room, returning with five crystal glasses. “Where’s Jean-Luc?”
“He’s cleaning up the rest of the rose petals. Somebody, probably Tracey, dumped around a thousand of them in our room last night.” I raised an eyebrow.
“Oh no.” Jessica’s smile faded. “I thought it was beautiful.”
“A-ha!” I said. “It was you.”
Jessica set the champagne glasses down and headed for the door. “I’ll help him clean up.”
I could have played with her mind for a little bit, but I really appreciated her grandiose—although slightly diabolical—gesture. “Don’t worry about it. They’re already swept up and bagged,” I said.
“Are you sure?” Jess asked.
“Seriously, he’s in the shower. He’ll be down in a minute.” I paused, noting the disappointed expression on Jessica’s face. “The heart on the carpet was a nice touch,” I said. “And where in the world did you get all those petals?”
“The flower shop down the hill sells them by the bucket.”
“How many buckets did you buy?”
“Four.”
“Because one wasn’t enough?”
She grinned wickedly. “Nope.”
My father looked up from his paper. “Sam, your baby sister loves you.”
“I do, Eeyah,” said Jessica, referring to the way she said my name when she was two and couldn’t pronounce my name. Where Eeyah had come from nobody knew. When I was a “cool” teenager, she used to follow me around, clinging to my side like a baby octopus; sometimes it was hard shaking her off. We may have been ten and a half years apart in age, but now that Jessica was twenty-nine, we were close as peas in a pod, and she could almost read my mind. Jessica popped open the bottle and poured, the champagne fizzing to the top of the glasses. She was light on the orange juice. Very light. She handed me a glass, and we sat at the table with my parents.
“Mom, Dad,” I said, “Thank you so, so much for everything. Really, I don’t know where to begin. It was a perfect night.”
“Well, everything was perfect,” said my dad, “until the cops arrived.”
“What?” questioned Jess.
“What?” I repeated, louder.
He explained how the Malibu Police department had received a complaint at around 11:30, and how the cops didn’t show up until two hours later, after all the guests had left. Apparently, the officers felt terrible about coming to the house to deliver a noise violation at a wedding, especially one that had already ended. They apologized profusely and left as peacefully as they’d come.
Jessica held up her glass for a toast. “We rocked the canyon. And escaped the po-po.”
Clink.
“Speaking of last night, did you see the moon? It was so full, and so close we could practically touch it,” said my mom. Instead of howling like one of the mangy coyotes in the canyon that had kept me awake many a night, as I thought she’d do, my mother broke out into tears. “This past year with you has been incredible, Sam. And now it’s over. You’re moving to France, and you’ll be so far away. What am I going to do without you?”
“Mom, I’ll only be a plane ride away. And I can always come back home to visit—at least once or twice a year. And just think! You get to travel to France, to Toulouse and to Provence, and see things you’ve never seen. Plus, we can Skype.”
“I know, Sam. But it’s not the same.”
I gulped. Mom was right. This was different. I’d been so busy planning the wedding I hadn’t taken much time to think about this life-changing move. Until now.
After a twenty-plus-hour travel day, I was going to be far from my family and friends, starting a new life with a new man in a new country, speaking a language in which I only had limited conversational skills, and taking on a somewhat intimidating role: an instant American stepmother to two French kids who had lost their own mother to cancer. It was hard to assuage my mother’s sadness while swallowing back my fears.
Dad piped in. “I’m really looking forward to seeing more of France.”
“Me too,” said Jess.
Mom shook her head and sniffled.
My now-stepchildren, Maxence and Elvire, saved the morning when they sauntered into the kitchen in their pajamas. Mom pretended to wipe something out of her eyes to hide her tears as the kids did the rounds, kissing everybody
on each cheek. I sighed. These two beautiful children were now a big part of my life.
Elvire was pale, like a porcelain doll. Her thick, long, auburn hair brought out the blue in her eyes. At thirteen, she was now going through that awkward stage of the occasional pimple and the insecurities puberty brings on. She didn’t know how beautiful she was yet, and her shoulders always slumped over, making her tiny frame appear even thinner.
Max’s complexion was Mediterranean, his skin tanned darker by the summer sun. Soon turning eleven, he was a little man with a big personality. He was also super cute with his coiffed sun-kissed hair, which brought out the green in his eyes. Both of the kids had Jean-Luc’s perfect lips.
“Juice?” I asked the kids as they sat down.
“Who wants pancakes with whipped cream and strawberries?” asked my mom, pulling herself together. When my mother followed that with the promise of American bacon, however, Max and Elvire’s eyes lit up. Even Bodhi, my parents’ golden retriever, stopped barking and raced into the house, his eyes glowing with bacon lust.
After downing my mimosa, I excused myself and went upstairs. Jean-Luc was still in the bathroom, shaving. I sat down on the bed, willing my nerves to calm down. I’d dreamed of changing everything in my world and, through more than a few adjustments and heart palpitations, it had happened…maybe too quickly. Was I ready for all of this? In ten short days, I was leaving my old life behind me for a new one in France. My mom’s unexpected outburst had me on edge.
In her twenties, my mom had carried a paper bag around to stop herself from hyperventilating. My biggest problem was internalizing everything, keeping all those pesky emotions inside, and, sometimes, I held my breath. Before I turned blue in the face or passed out, I focused on the bedroom window and watched the mist creeping up the canyon, hoping it would disintegrate into thin air just like the worries clouding my brain.
Let it out. Don’t keep it in. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.
A quick flash of iridescent green reflected in the window. I bolted to the French doors, threw them open, and walked onto the deck, letting out the breath I’d been holding in one quick whoosh, my heart no longer feeling like it was going to catapult out of my rib cage. My hummingbird had returned.
Many times, right when I needed a reminder to focus on the tiny, beautiful things in life—especially when things appeared to be overly complicated or messy—this hummingbird had appeared. He’d even showed up at our wedding the night before, settling on a branch and chirping loudly, as if to say “Félicitations,” before flying away.
Perhaps it wasn’t the same bird, but I’d like to think it was.
I pinched my lips together into a kiss, sucked my bottom lip in so it pressed against my teeth, and did my best hummingbird call—a squeaky chirp. The bird landed on the branch of the eucalyptus tree, whose pink and green leaves reminded me of heart-shaped rose petals, and tilted his head, answering my call. His low trill escalated in volume and excitement. Of course, I trilled back.
A pair of strong hands slid down my sides, gripping my waist. “I heard voices. Who were you talking to?” asked Jean-Luc.
I pointed to the tree. “My hummingbird.”
Jean-Luc raised an inquisitive eyebrow. “You’re talking to birds?”
“If I said yes, what would you say?”
Jean-Luc laughed. “My crazy American girl.”
“That’s why you love me.”
The hummingbird flew off his perch and zipped toward the clouds like a crazed kamikaze pilot, then he plunged down into the canyon haze, came back up in a swirl of white, chased another bird while twittering madly, and finally settled himself back on his perch. I raised a brow, thinking, See! See! I’m not a weirdo. It’s not my imagination! Instead I said, “I haven’t seen one hummingbird in France.”
“There aren’t any,” said Jean-Luc, gripping my waist tighter before pointing to the pool. “But I have seen quite a few of those. Les libellules.”
Surely, he wasn’t indicating the swimming pool or he would have said la piscine. I repeated the word, “libellules,” as best I could. It came out more like le-blah-blah-bi-da-blah-lue—not my best attempt. With a hearty laugh, Jean-Luc corrected my pronunciation, and the word twisted uncomfortably on my tongue until I managed to get it somewhat right—not perfect, but not too bad.
“Les libellules? ” I questioned, focusing on each syllable. At least I was fluent in hummingbird, if not French.
“Dragonflies.”
“Right,” I said.
Between the hummingbirds, the mist creeping up the canyon, and the dragonflies, nature was truly putting on a show. I wouldn’t have been surprised if the local deer had hopped over the fence and joined in on the action. It was truly a fairy-tale moment, and I found myself wondering how long this kind of perfection could last.
That summer, the June gloom typical of California—overcast skies, thick fogs, and nippy drizzles—had extended far into July. Thankfully, we’d lucked out with good weather for our big weekend. The clouds had parted for Friday’s family barbecue and held off for Saturday’s wedding celebration. But now the chill was back. I shuddered. Just as the weather had changed in the blink of an eye, my life was about to change swiftly too.
2
LEAPING INTO L’AMOUR
How did one pack for a new life? What did I absolutely need? What couldn’t I live without?
My pile of clothes to give away—mostly items given to me by a former dog-walking client (oddly, a nudist) and shoes I’d held onto for years but never worn—was growing into an island of what-was-I-thinking mistakes. I glanced at a wool sweater I hadn’t worn in half a decade. Did it give me joy? Would I ever wear it again? Probably not. Adieu, sweater.
Some decisions were easy to make if I deliberated long enough; others were just plain tough. I was holding a set of green Emile Henry mixing bowls—one large, one medium, and one small—when Jean-Luc walked into the bedroom.
“Where do you think I can put these?” I asked. “I’m bringing breakables, like the silver-rimmed glass plates my grandmother gave me, in my carry-on.”
Jean-Luc shook his head in disbelief. He took the bowls from my hands and set them down on the bed. “These are too heavy. You can buy new ones.”
“But why buy something when I already have them? Plus, they’re French.”
“Give them to your mom, Sam.”
Jean-Luc rifled through an open suitcase, pulling out a handheld lemon press, an OXO can opener, and an OXO vegetable peeler—three of my “I-can’t-live-without-them” kitchen tools, packed inside a green Emile Henry ceramic pie plate. He smirked and raised his eyebrows.
“Fine. I’ll give the bowls to Mom. But all that”—I jutted out my chin and rotated my index finger in a “don’t mess with me” motion—“is coming to France.”
After a week of packing and unpacking and then packing again, weighing each suitcase to make sure it was under the fifty-pound limit, I was almost ready for the big move. Six pieces of art—two French lithograph posters I’d bought in the Marais district of Paris, two Italian oil paintings, and two framed Chinese textiles from some ancient dynasty—were snuggled into Jean-Luc’s hard-sided bag for safety, wrapped carefully in his clothes. Along with the OXO vegetable peeler and its friends, my life had been reduced to three suitcases containing my clothes, shoes, picture frames, photos, my art direction portfolio, and items like candlesticks, salt and pepper shakers, serving bowls and platters, a gravy boat, serving spoons, two small boxes of Christmas decorations, and a few of my favorite cookbooks, such as The Joy of Cooking and Jean-Georges Vongerichten’s Simple to Spectacular.
“You’re not moving to a third-world country,” said Jean-Luc as we shuffled goods from one case to another, trying to make weight. He held up a melon baller. “Are you serious?”
I was.
“With the right tools, you can do anything,” I said, parroting Jean-Luc’s answer when I’d questioned him why he owned every hardware tool ever known to
man. “And, just so you know, I gave the mixing bowls to my mom.”
“We’ll get new ones,” he said with a sigh.
I grinned. He blew out the air between his lips—the French way. Pfffffftp.
Forget about clothes and shoes—put me in a store with kitchen goods and I was in heaven. Although she didn’t slave over the stove as much anymore as she had in the past, my mother was a force of nature when it came to serving up delicious meals, often preparing recipes handed down from my grandmother, Nanny, and Nanny’s sister, my great aunt Bobbi, like rack of lamb with a mint chutney, beef stroganoff, crab cakes, roast beef with Yorkshire pudding, or—one of my personal favorites—a chunky gazpacho. Passed down from one generation to the next, the love for cooking was in my blood.
At the age of nine, I first experimented with simple dishes—meatloaf and salads being my specialty. By twelve, I was thumbing through Bon Appétit and Gourmet magazine looking for inspiration, and my first grand attempt came in the form of sundae pie decorated with chocolate leaves—molded from actual leaves I’d picked from the garden. From there, I moved on to more inspired experiments, either trying recipes on my own or helping my mom out in the kitchen.
The first time I visited Jean-Luc’s home after we reconnected, I was promised a glimpse of daily life with him and the children. And daily life was exactly what I got. In the evenings, Jean-Luc taught me how to cook basic French cuisine, a skill he was more than familiar with, having been a single dad for such a long time. I’d open up a bottle of wine and we’d have a glass while he instructed me on the finer points of quiche making—the secrets being premade crusts, little cubes of salted pork called lardons, crème fraîche, herbes de Provence, and, of course, adding a tablespoon of Dijon mustard to the egg mixture if making a vegetable quiche. I’d cook up the lardons while Jean-Luc whipped the eggs with a whisk, a fouet. I learned to remove the green germ from garlic cloves to avoid bitterness. I loved the fact that he enjoyed cooking as much as I did, and I was looking forward to incorporating more French meals into my repertoire. Thanks to Jean-Luc and a few of his family’s Provençal recipes, I was already off to a great start.
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