“I hear you. We’ll see what happens.” If only I knew I was the only one he was sprinkling his love on before break.
The smile fades from Chris’ face. “Can I ask you a question?”
“Always.” I turn to him and watch as his lips form the question.
“What’s holding you back?” he whispers.
A closed mouth doesn’t get fed. I have to tell him my fears. If nothing else, he’ll know why he won’t be getting any. “To be honest. Unless I’m the only one, I can’t give you the pleasure.”
He looks at me with dull eyes. “I won’t lie. You aren’t the only one I’ve been kicking it with.” His brows wrinkle and his jaw tightens. “I know you’ve been kicking it with someone else too.” The air feels like it’s been knocked out of my stomach. I jerk my head and turn towards the window. The reflection staring back at me looks shocked, my eyebrows are raised, and I touch my lips, which are slightly parted.
Chris reaches over and touches my leg, I turn to face him. “If you are ready to be the only one, you can say the word. I told you when we first met that I felt you were different. It’s about time for me to chill out.” He narrows his eyes. “I don’t want you to miss out on anything though.”
I cock my head to the side. “What do you mean miss out?”
He gives me a half smile. “I won’t be the one to keep you from having fun. But being in a relationship, I would expect that you wouldn’t be entertaining any of these dudes.”
“Do you think we are talking about this too soon?”
“If I did, I would have changed the subject.” I search his face for a sign, any indication that he is full of shit. I find nothing.
We pull into the apartment complex. “I’ll just order the wings.” Chris climbs out of the car and I follow him into his apartment.
Before I can settle into his room, Chris pulls me on the bed and starts kissing me. As much as I want him, I don’t want to go beyond my limits with him. My mind is telling me to slow it down, but my body has betrayed me, and before I know it, I am straddling his lap.
He pulls off my hoodie, slips his hand under my shirt and bra, then starts rubbing my nipples. I feel his erection growing between my legs and I start grinding.
Between kisses, he whispers in my ear as he thrusts his manhood towards me. “Could you handle all of this?”
I moan in response to his question. His hands start roaming south, sending tingles down my spine as he reaches my ass. I start planting kisses on his neck. The heat between us is unbearable, and beads of sweat begin to form on his forehead.
With the back of my hand, I wipe away the sweat. “I thought we were supposed to let the hot wings make you sweat?”
He gives me a lustful look and says, “I told you what I preferred.” Grabbing a handful of my ass, he says, “Hot wings aren’t even on my mind anymore.”
I should have worn jeans; they would have been less accessible. We continue kissing, and his hands trace the rim of my sweat pants. Damn, my hand has never given me this much pleasure, and he hasn’t even touched my cookies yet.
I pull my body away from him as I move his hands from my ass. “We should order those wings.”
He puts his hands above his head and smiles. “If you want me to stop, hop up.”
Damn, he would put it on me. Of course, I don’t want to stop. At least not yet, not before my body tenses and releases. I don’t move.
He smirks. “I didn’t think you wanted me to stop.” He moves from under me and stands up.
I glance up at him.
“Laila, I could go on, but I don’t want you to make a decision in the midst of all this passion.” He paces in front of me. “I want you to be completely sure.”
He has a point, but why does he have to be concerned now? I’ll need a cold shower, better yet, a minute alone to finish what we started. I stare at him and sigh.
“I’ll go order some wings. Give you a minute to calm down.” I look down at his erection and smile.
When he leaves the room, my hands wander and my fingers are quickly inside my wetness. My clit is pulsating like never before. I put my head back and enjoy the moment.
I hear Chris move and I open my eyes. Obviously he has already seen me but I move my hand and hide my face under the pillow.
“Damn girl, please don’t stop.” He lays beside me pulling my pants down, then my panties. He takes my hand and puts it back between my legs. He starts kissing me while I continue to explore my womanhood. My fingers begin to quicken to match the rhythm of my breath. Before I release, I slow my fingers down to enjoy each second.
Chris’ kisses become deeper as his hands join mine between my legs. My body tenses while my toes curl, and I release a moan. As I relax my body, a smile spreads across my face.
Chris takes my hand and sucks each of my fingers. “Better than any hot wings I could ever have.” He lies beside me and strokes my head as he plants kisses down my neck. He stops and stares lustfully into my eyes. My breathing returns to normal as we sit in silence. He reaches for my panties and says, “We better get you dressed before either of us gets too excited.”
I pull my panties and sweats back on, trapping the generated heat between my thighs.
“To think I was the one who wanted to leave you with something to think about over the break.” He puts his hand on his erection while a wide grin spreads across his face, showing his near perfect white teeth.
“I’m pretty sure you’ll invade my thoughts while we are on break. There isn’t much you need to do to stay on my mind.”
We lie with little room between us. His arms easily wrap around my body and I feel at ease. I take him all in, committing each moment to memory. From each gentle touch, the whispers in my ear, the cuddling, to each passionate kiss. Although I’m trying not to get lost in his world, I will miss him over the break.
Twenty minutes later, we are interrupted by a knock at the door. Chris rolls out of the bed to grab the wings, and I meet him at the dining room table.
“These wings are good, but my appetizer was better.” Chris winks at me. I smile coyly, then I slowly lick the sauce off of a wing, looking at Chris intensely as I take a bite.
Chris shakes his head. “Christmas break will be too long.”
I laugh to myself. “Aren’t you excited to have a home cooked meal though?”
Chris sits back, and a look of bliss crosses his face. “You have no idea. My mom is a great cook.”
I smile broadly. “Mine is too, but her baking is far better. She could compete with the best bakeries. That pound cake, makes my mouth water just thinking about it.”
“When will I get to taste what you’ve learned from your mom?”
I raise my eyebrows and muffle my laughter. “I’ll see what I can pull together for you one day. What’s your favorite dessert?”
“Nothing beats chocolate chip cookies. But I’ll take your specialty.” My specialty? I’ll have to spend all vacation in the kitchen with my mom to learn her recipes.
“Okay, when we come back from Christmas break I’ll come over and make that happen.”
“I can’t wait. Do you have big plans for the break?”
“My mom throws an annual Christmas dinner, but other than that I’ll just be spending time with the family and catching up with Tanya. What about you?”
“I’ll be skiing. Our family meets up with a few other families each year for a trip to the mountains.” While he is bundled up on the slopes, I’ll be in a light sweater, at the most. I wouldn’t mind being bundled up with him in front of a fire. The thought of Chris bundling up with someone else barges into my fantasy. What if he has a girl back home? Someone patiently waiting for him to come back?
My smile crumbles, and I look at Chris with a straight face. “Chris. Tell me more about your ex-girlfriends.”
“What do you want to know, other than the fact that you’ll never need to worry about them?” He shrugs and continues to eat his wings.
“I’ve tol
d you a great deal about my ex. You know there isn’t anyone at home waiting on me to return.”
“Other than breaks and summer, I’ve been away from home for the past four years. If anyone was waiting on me for this long I think I’d owe them the respect not to be falling...” Chris pauses.
Falling? In love? He doesn’t mean that. Not now... not this early. I quickly respond, letting the comment get buried until it’s ready to return. “You have a point. You have been away for a while. Which brings up another topic. You’ll be graduating soon. Are you ready?”
Chris sits up, and his eyes gleam. “Sixteen years of school. I’m definitely ready to be done with classes.” He shifts in his seat. “But don’t worry. I’m here for an extra year for the master’s program.”
“I could ask you a million questions.”
“The journalist in you, right?”
I nod my head. “Natural curiosity.”
“You’ll have plenty of time to evaluate my life. I’ll grant you full access to whatever it is you want to know.” He grabs my hand and kisses my palm, and again I feel the heat rising. I have to control myself.
“Do you need to study tonight? As always, don’t let me be a distraction.”
“We can both open the books, but I’d much rather open your legs.”
I raise my brows. “Like I said, don’t let me be a distraction.”
“We should probably avoid the bedroom then.” He tilts his head towards the living room. “Let’s sit on the couch.”
As we sit on the couch, both of his roommates and a few other people pass through. Chris makes sure he introduces me to the extra people. Chris amazes me, especially after the Sean debacle.
After an introduction to some random guy, he looks at me. “One day I’ll be able to introduce you as my girl.”
I turn my head to get a good look at his face. “Is that right?”
He nods. “All you have to do is say the word.”
Chapter 17
“This study lounge should be year round.” Nicole takes a bite of pizza, and with a full mouth, she says, “I’m just saying, just to have it during finals week is a tease.”
I grab a few bite size candy bars and stash them in my purse. “A few snacks for later when I actually study.” I wink at Jennifer and Nicole.
Jennifer laughs. “That’s what this study lounge is for, shame on us for not even bringing a damn notebook.” She shakes her head as she nibbles on chips and salsa. She pats her thighs and says, “This shit isn’t good for my girlish figure.”
Nicole leans over the table. “Look, our bodyguards, coming this way.”
The three of them post up around the table. “Damn, we thought y’all dropped out.” The tallest one says with a deep voice, “It’s been a minute since we last saw you. What’s good?”
“It has been a minute. What type of friends are y’all though? Didn’t even check up on us,” Jennifer says, laughing.
They all look at each other. “Damn, we’re slipping.” The tallest one crosses his arms. “But shit … last I checked my phone, we didn’t have a call from you checking on us either.”
Shit, they sound a little bitter. “You’re right.” I gently smile. “We all need to do better next semester.”
“Fa’sho. Y’all ready for Christmas?”
Nicole answers before we can even think. “Hell yeah. I need a break to just re-lax.”
We all look at her; she says relax like she has been doing manual labor all semester. I guess when you fuck for a hobby it gets like that.
One of the guys looks around the study lounge, then nudges his friend. “Y’all ready?”
“Yeah. Ladies, it’s been real. We’ll catch y’all next semester.”
Nicole and I smile and wave. Then I say, “Have a good break.”
Jennifer stops them before they walk away. “Next semester we’ll do better.” The guys nod their heads and walk away.
On our way back to the room, I look at Nicole. “Nicole, what was up with your response? Sounds like you are too ready for break.”
“It’s been a good semester, but I’ve been a little out of control. I need this break to get it together and come back next semester a new girl.”
I wasn’t expecting that response. “Wow, Nicole. Like they say, the first step is admitting you have a problem.”
Nicole rolls her eyes. “Hush.”
“Really though, Nicole, I’m glad you are going to settle down next semester. You’ve definitely done more this semester than most do in their entire four years.”
“Shut up, Laila. Damn. I know I’ve been wild. But thank God I’ve been spared from getting pregnant, hurt, and hopefully, any diseases.” Her eyes grow wide. “I guess I took enjoy your college years a little too seriously.”
“I’m not judging at all. To each her own.” I shrug.
As we settle into their room, I catch Jennifer in a daze. “Jennifer, are you okay? You don’t look like you are here with us.”
“My bad y’all. I’m just thinking about some things.”
“You look like you need some love.” I narrow my eyes. “Are you sure you’re okay?”
“Sometimes I just think about how I would have been if the incident never happened.” Jennifer throws her head back and looks into the air. “I wonder if I would have been a free spirit like Nicole or if I would still be like I am now.”
“I was a free spirit before Tanya got pregnant. Now, not as much. I do miss living carefree.”
“I feel for you ladies.” Nicole stands up and twirls around the room. “Maybe I should continue being a free spirit. Then you both can live through my stories.”
Jennifer looks at me and grins. Under her breath she says, “Or from what we hear through the walls.”
Nicole doesn’t hear Jennifer’s comment, but stops twirling and falls back on her bed. “The latest in my adventures - I’ve been hanging with a guy our age from one of my classes.”
I gasp. “What? A guy on campus?”
“I can’t believe it either, but sneaking into the dorm gives me a thrill.” She laughs.
Jennifer looks at Nicole with a puzzled expression. “Who do you like more, Jody or this young dude?”
Nicole is silent for a minute. “Jody.” Then her shoulders drop. “But he says he doesn’t want to be serious with anyone.”
This makes me think about Chris and his willingness to be in a relationship. “If you want to be serious, you should leave him alone, no free cookies.” I smirk. “While we are on the topic of relationships. Chris has been talking about getting serious. What do you think?”
Jennifer raises her eyebrows. “Do you think it’s too early to be thinking about a relationship with Chris?”
I consider Jennifer’s question. “I don’t know. I like spending time with him. I think I’d be okay with it but I want to make sure he’d be okay with just me. I don’t have time for him to play me.” I cock my head to the side.
Nicole smacks her lips. “Don’t take too long to think about it. It’s very rare that we are on the same page with a guy. Either they are lame and want to be in a relationship and you are not interested, or we want a relationship and they aren’t ready.” She rolls her eyes. “Like Jody.”
“You have a point.” I was going to think about it over the break but now I’m thinking maybe I should make a decision before we leave. I don’t have long. My parents will be here to pick me up in a few days.
Jennifer gives me a serious look. “Laila, does Chris know you are a virgin? Is he okay with it? Not pressuring you to have sex is he?”
“Yes, he knows I’m a virgin and seems okay with it. He hasn’t pressured me but has definitely told me he wants to sex me down.” I giggle. “He is difficult to resist, but I feel if I give up my cookies too soon he will check me off his list and keep moving.”
Jennifer nods her head in agreement. Nicole looks at me with gleaming eyes. “Laila, you have to do what you feel is right for you. If you want to feel the pleasure,
do it.” She shrugs. “But if you don’t, hold off. If Chris is talking about being in a relationship, then you have to trust he will stick around.”
“Nicole, you really are changing your ways aren’t you? Before you would have told me to just give up the cookies.”
“I told you I’m changing. You both will see a new Nicole next semester.” She straightens her shoulders, raises her chin, and grins.
Jennifer pouts her lips. “A boyfriend, freshman year? We have so many good years ahead of us. Are you sure you don’t want to push it off at least till next year? Date a few more guys?”
I stare at Jennifer in shock. “I hope you aren’t switching roles with Nicole. I thought you would be for me having a boyfriend.”
She shakes her head. “Believe me, if you decide to make him your boyfriend I’m all in. I just think we should enjoy these years. You guys aren’t serious yet, and you have already disappeared. Get in a relationship and you’ll be ghosts.”
I laugh. “I don’t think having a boyfriend will keep me from having fun. From what I’ve seen so far, I know I won’t be missing out with the dudes. I haven’t met many who have made a good impression anyway. As far as the social scene, I’m sure you two -” I point at both of them. “Will make sure I stay relevant.”
“You got that right. We’ll make sure you stay on the scene,” Jennifer says.
“Thanks Jennifer.” I stand up and give Jennifer a hug around the neck.
“Our parents will be here on Friday.” Nicole’s voice rises a pitch.
As I stand up to leave, I say, “We should have lunch together with our parents before we leave out.”
Jennifer smiles. “Cool with me.” Nicole nods her head.
“Talk to you ladies later.” I walk to my room. A few days to think about being in a relationship with Chris. I sigh.
My phone rings as I open the door. “My best friend will be home in a couple of days.” Tanya shrieks before I can say hello. “I can hardly wait. You better have passed all your exams, too. We’ll celebrate while you are home. I have a list of things I want to do while you are here.”
I laugh. “Slow down girl, I haven’t even said hello yet.”
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