by Kelly Jensen
Mal picked up his glass. “Health.”
They clinked and sipped. Brian appeared to savor the beer before swallowing, humming, and then licking his lips with a long, slow swipe of his tongue. “Tasty.”
It wasn’t that original a line, but it shot straight to Mal’s cock, along with the imaginary press of that tongue, to stir the slumbering beast. Not so much he had to shift on the stool, but enough to feel a little like Rip Van Winkle waking to a new world.
“So, what have you heard about me?” Brian asked.
“Huh?”
“What nonsense has Leo been filling your ears with?”
“Oh, um . . .” Mal had never been a good flirt—he didn’t have the gene for it. Or the knack. Or enough opportunity to practice. Generally, he was much wittier online, especially when he knew what he was talking about. “Ah . . .” Had he tried that sound yet? “Thursday nights. We talked about Thursday nights.”
“How come I’ve never seen you in here on a Thursday?”
Because I’m a high school teacher didn’t seem like the right answer. Neither did an explanation about his legs. “I’ve been busy.”
Brian smiled again, a boyish grin that suited his face. Made him look mischievous and even sorta cute, if you could get away with calling a good-looking guy cute. “What do you do?”
Okay, Mal knew how to handle this one. Short answer, not long. And make it sexy. “Right now, I split my time between . . .” So much easier online. “I play video games.”
“For a living?”
“No. I’m on leave from what I do for a living.”
“Now we’re getting somewhere. Is this an administrative kind of leave? Did you do something naughty, Malcolm?”
“No one calls me Malcolm”—except his father and only when they were going to have a talk—“and no, I did not. What about you?” Mal let his gaze slide left to the fading pink mark on Brian’s cheek.
Brian returned one of his rascal grins. “Recently, offending my best friend and business partner. It’s a tough job, but someone’s got to do it.”
Leo appeared in the middle of them, or as middle as he could get with a foot of bar in the way. “Ready to settle your tab, Professor?”
Brian’s eyebrows danced again. “Professor?”
“It’s a joke and . . .” Mal couldn’t do a sideways glance when facing someone, and he didn’t know how to do coy, either. Another guy would know where to go from here. A less awkward man might simply ask if Brian was interested in taking this elsewhere. Not Mal. Not his thing, the fact his cock still tingled notwithstanding. Brian was a fantasy, not reality.
Besides, what did he have to offer a man like Brian Kenway? Now, in particular. He couldn’t get to his knees. Heck, he could barely walk. Sex was probably completely out of the question, even if Brian wasn’t put off by the first two facts.
“You seem to be doing a lot of thinking over there, Professor,” Brian said, his tone quiet. “Can I offer a suggestion?”
Mal shook his head and the sharp movement failed to throw off his descending gloom. He felt in his pocket for his wallet. “No. I’m good. Leo, I think I’ll settle up.”
Brian seemed to wrestle with his mind-set again, and fascinated, Mal watched, now employing a sideways look as he counted the bills in his wallet. By the time he’d laid his cash on the bar, Brian Kenway had obviously decided how to react.
He smiled. Offered a gracious dip of his chin. “I’ll wish you a happy holidays, then.” Brian turned to Leo, gave him the same smile, same little nod. Then he laid a hundred-dollar bill on the bar. “On me.”
He swept his jacket off the other stool and swung it over his shoulders in a gesture that, if Mal tried to emulate it, would result in him collecting every glass along the length of the bar and sweeping them to the floor. And then Brian was gone, the Colonial falling silent once more as though someone had clicked the remote, pausing the show in the middle of the final scene.
Brian didn’t hate Morristown. More, he struggled against what he perceived as the pull of a small town that kept sucking him back in. He did like the center. He lived there and worked there. Drank there and fucked there. The center of Morristown was like an island in the middle of quicksand. He was comfortable there, and safe. But he often felt as though he were cut off from the rest of the world by an inward tide. Every time he struck out, he became mired by a curious sense of inertia.
Take what had happened at the Colonial tonight. The professor was a nice-looking guy and the law of averages usually meant the nice-looking guy should end up in Brian’s bed. Or at least in the restroom for a quick exchange of lustful intent. But right when Brian seemed to be crossing that divide, leaving his island, the quicksand had yanked him back. Along with a little help from Malcolm Montgomery.
Just as well. Mal wasn’t his type. Too bookish. Too educated. Too nice. Mal’s shy and slightly awkward manner probably only seemed endearing in the moment—cheeks flushed, glasses catching the light. In the morning, he’d be even more obviously not Brian’s type. Too serious. Too put together.
Mal’s smile, though. It’d been a while since another man’s smile had made Brian’s gut clench.
Hunching his shoulders and turning his jacket up around his ears, Brian angled southward through Morristown Green, taking the path that would lead him to the other side of the island, to Dumont Place, and along there to King Street and the condominium he called home.
Brian disliked living on King Street. The name reminded him too much of Charlie King, the current partner of his ex, Simon. Brian and Simon had been together for twelve years before Charlie . . . Well, it hadn’t been quite like that. Actually, it hadn’t been like that at all. Brian had been the one to move out, thinking it was the only way to let Simon know how much he needed him. Who’d have guessed leaving would mean the end? Like, the real end. Not Brian, but then, he obviously had no idea how to do a relationship, despite years of practice.
So he’d moved into one of his stable of condos on King Street. That was how they’d been sold to him, as a fucking stable, even though the architecture was so far from farm-like, a horse would probably take offense. Regardless, he’d claimed the one he’d never managed to rent, and settled into his post-relationship funk, which, so far, alternated between two states: an unsettling likeness to being in a relationship because nothing had changed, and a deep loneliness that echoed so loudly, he was convinced Simon and Charlie could hear it all the way across the Delaware River in their cozy farmhouse (that horses would probably line up to be next to) in Bethlehem, Pennsylvania.
The cold had started to edge in on Brian’s mood by the time he reached the end of Dumont Place, numbing him. The couple of Manhattans he’d drunk at the bar had boiled away in his bloodstream, and only the taste of the beer he’d had at the end lingered on his tongue.
He should call Vanessa and apologize for being an asshole. Shuffling a hand in his jacket pocket, he eased his phone out and woke the display. Ten thirty. He was walking home from a bar at ten fucking thirty. Vanessa was likely still on her way back to Newark, and he doubted she’d take a call from him tonight, anyway.
Brian crossed Pine, started up King Place, which would become King Street, and made plans, once again, to sell his stable and find somewhere else to live. Somewhere off the island.
The condos were a package of four, all facing different directions to give the illusion of privacy. The roof structure helped, making each “home” seem like a separate dwelling. The shared parking lot was more convenient than fourth wall breaking, and if you were social, which Brian was, being able to sit out the back and converse with the neighbors could be pleasant.
The architecture was that odd mixture of country and cape that often popped up in western New Jersey. It was blandly East Coast, with sloped roofs, dormers, a porch, and neat, cream-colored vinyl siding. They were pretty houses, each with a postage-stamp sized front garden, complete with a path and flowered border. Brian couldn’t take credit for his own garden; he paid someone
to look after it.
He pushed open the cute gate in the adorable white picket fence and trudged up the perfect path lined with snow-covered shrubs. After stomping his feet on the stairs leading up to the porch to knock away any trace of snow that hadn’t been meticulously swept from the path, he dug into his pocket for his keys. The jingle echoed like a cold bell, metal on the verge of cracking, as he slid the right key home and turned the lock. Brian pushed inside, already lifting his chin in anticipation of the warmth that would bathe his face, and stopped as air nearly as cold as outside fluttered across his cheeks.
His first thought was that he’d left a window open, but Brian never opened his windows. Even in good weather. He suspected his housekeeper did sometimes. Either that or she had an air freshener that made the place smell like she had.
The cold breeze was coming from the kitchen end of the long hall and did not abate when Brian shut the front door. He kept his jacket on as he paced the length of the condo to the frigid and moonlit kitchen. Glass crunched under his feet, spilling out in a rough circle from a pane over the handle of the back door.
Feeling for the warm rectangle of his phone, Brian turned a quick circle. The kitchen looked about the same as he’d left it: clean and uncluttered. All the knife handles were sticking out of the block on the counter and the microwave blinked the time at him from over the range. He retreated to the hallway, breath puffing in little clouds in front of his face, passed the closed door of the downstairs powder room, and ducked his head into the dining room he’d repurposed into a home office. At first glance, his stuff seemed to be where it should be. The laptop on the desk, the TV on the console across from there, the frames on the wall—though why anyone would steal a photo, an architectural print, or award with his name on it confounded him. Likewise, the few things he kept in the glass cabinet opposite the door all seemed to be in attendance.
Brian pulled out his phone as he crossed the hall to the living room. He’d dialed a nine and a one but not the second one when he saw the figure on the couch. Whoever it was had taken the blanket from the back, and the other blanket from the love seat and had both tucked so tight, Brian couldn’t be sure the shape was human. He knew, though. He also knew the need that wrapped a person so tight, not even a finger stuck out. Nothing to show, nothing to lose. He knew what it was like to be that cold, that afraid, and that lost.
Why this kid—and it had to be a kid, that was the only thing that made sense—had chosen his house made no sense. He rarely dropped into the youth centers in Newark managed by the Smart Foundation. His name was on the stationery, but he was Vanessa’s quiet partner. He wrote letters and checks. That was their agreement.
Tucking his phone into his pocket, Brian approached the couch with a heavy step. He was surprised when the figure didn’t move. The kid should have been up and over the back by now, eyeing him with a mixture of hope and distrust, maybe a good portion of disdain, and even a little loathing.
He didn’t have a dead body on his couch, did he?
So far, he’d had a pretty crap night. Vanessa had lost patience with him, which was rare—they’d been friends forever. Then the professor had proved immune to his charms.
Now this.
Brian sat down on the love seat, putting him at a ninety-degree angle to the sofa, and considered his options. Calling 911 still felt like a good choice. The kid had broken into his house and was using his blankets. But nothing seemed to have been stolen, and with it being Christmas Eve, the kid would be stuck in a cell for a couple of days, or one of those holding tanks, the transitional homes where screenwriters collected plotlines for their TV dramas and still managed to get it wrong.
Shuffling closer to the sofa, Brian grabbed a fold of blanket and tugged.
The body didn’t move.
He tugged harder and the body groaned, the sound so small and feeble that Brian reached for more blanket. He peeled it away from the kid’s face and the odor of unwashed skin and clothes drifted up. Brian let go to switch on the lamp set in the corner of the sofa and love seat.
The reaction was instant. The boy screwed up his pale face and burrowed back into his nest, hiding all but his shocking blue hair and the ring at the top of one ear. A second later, that disappeared too, leaving a single wisp of hair.
“Hey.” Brian tugged the blanket away again, exposing the boy’s face. His skin had a porcelain quality to it, fine and almost translucent, a tracery of veins apparent near his ear, the hollows of his cheeks without color, his lips almost blue. And he wasn’t wearing lipstick. The kid was cold.
Really, really cold.
“Listen, I don’t care who you are or why you’re here, but if we don’t get you warmed up, and real soon, we’re both going to have more to deal with than some broken glass and a police report.”
Brian plucked the blanket away, exposing the shoulder of the boy’s coat—wool, not down, and fashionable rather than functional. Beneath, he wore a sweater, the round neck stretched to show the T-shirt beneath. Clothing enough for a quick walk home from the Colonial. Not for whatever this kid had been doing—which, judging by the smell of him, had been at least a week of outdoor living.
A funk Brian had never quite forgotten, even if he hadn’t been able to smell it on himself after the second week . . .
The boy opened his eyes, also blue, and cringed, pulling the blanket around his shoulders. “You’re going to call the police?” His voice was soft and high. Not girlish, just not quite settled into adulthood. Or shy. Could be that.
“I haven’t decided yet.”
Pale brows crooked together, drawing Brian’s attention to the fact that they were blond, which accounted for the shocking shade of his hair. Blond hair loved color.
“C’mon. I can offer you a shower and warm clothes while we wash the rat’s nest you’re sleeping in. Some food and you’ll feel halfway decent. Then we’ll talk about what we’re going to do.” Brian kept his voice and tone quiet and all of the options open. He didn’t want the boy to run. Didn’t particularly want him hanging around, either, in case his friends figured this was a safe place to park their flea-ridden asses. But he could offer one night.
The boy looked at him for about half a minute, his reaction time likely more affected by the cold than a need to think things through. He probably hadn’t been living rough for long. He didn’t seem wary or frightened enough.
Finally, he asked, “Don’t you want to know who I am?”
“That can wait until you’re clean and warm, I think.”
A quick nod and the kid started pushing out of his nest. Once he was standing, Brian guessed the boy was fourteen or so. He was small enough to be twelve, but he stood with the attitude of someone resigned to being slight. Someone who’d decided he’d always be on the lighter side of normal, with ghostlike skin and huge eyes. A boy who’d dyed his hair blue and pierced his ears all the way around because, what-the-fuck-ever, he was already weird.
Brian collected the blankets and nodded toward the hall. “Upstairs. I’m leaving the kitchen door unlocked. You know the way out if you want to leave.”
“Why would I want to leave?”
Kid definitely hadn’t been doing this for long.
Brian directed him to the guest bathroom. “Towels in the linen closet there, soap and shampoo in the tub. Pull the little thing up to get the water coming out of the showerhead and use as much hot water as you like. Dump your clothes outside the door before you get in. I’m going to put them in the washer. You’ll find some sweats right here when you’re done. Okay?”
The boy gave him a wide-eyed nod. “Okay.”
“You like cheese?”
“What?”
“Can you eat cheese?”
“No. I’m, um, lactose intolerant.”
Of course he was, because being on his own wasn’t hard enough. “How about some soup, then. Tomato? Chicken noodle?”
“Tomato. Thank you.”
“Okay. Give me your clothes. You stink.” He
didn’t mean to be harsh, but he also kinda did. While he wanted to make the kid feel safe, he also knew the kid would feel better when he was clean and warm. More open and more receptive. If he’d been taking care of himself for much longer than a couple of weeks, Brian’s tactics wouldn’t work, but he’d already proven that he was fluffy as a newborn chick.
The bathroom door closed, and Brian heard the shower curtain rings rattle. He paused in the upstairs hallway to dump his armful of blankets outside the closet housing his washer and dryer, then went to find something small enough for his guest to wear. His sweats would all be too long, but the kid wasn’t going anywhere. He also grabbed a long-sleeve T-shirt, a hoodie that was too small but still had sentimental value, and a thick pair of socks.
The boy’s clothes were in the hallway as requested. Brian exchanged them for the clean ones. The coat was dry-clean only, so he stuck it on a hanger over the dryer. It would get aired out, at least. The rest, he shoved into the machine before setting the selector to antibacterial. Then he went to inspect his soup collection.
A cold wind met him at the bottom of the stairs. “Goddamn it.” First, he needed a piece of cardboard and a roll of duct tape.
Brian had a can of rustic tomato (whatever the hell that was) heating on the range when the boy appeared in the kitchen, his already slight figure swamped by Brian’s clothes. His cheeks were pink, though, and his lips had lost their blue tinge. He also looked tired, as though he’d fall over if he had to stand up for too long. Indicating a stool on the other side of the island he used as a dining area, Brian set him up with soup, toast, and a glass of water. He put a multivitamin next to the glass.
“Feel better?”
The kid nodded. “Yeah.”
“Okay. How about we get to know each other a little bit?”
Again, the almost requisite panic failed to register in those wide blue eyes.
“I’m Josh,” the boy said. “Joshua Kenway.”
Kenway? Brian arched a quizzical eyebrow.
“I’m your nephew. Ellen’s son? You are my Uncle Brian, aren’t you?”