The Taker-Taker 1

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by Alma Katsu


  “The girl …,” I tried to say through lips sealed with dried blood.

  “This is not about the girl, Lanore. Though you should learn to accept what goes on in my house—you will accept it, and be a part of it, too. This is about you turning your back on me, refusing me. I will not allow that. Especially from you, I would not have expected that you—” He choked off the rest, thinking better of it, but I knew what he meant to say, that he did not want to regret giving a piece of his heart to me.

  I won’t tell you what happened to me in that room. Allow me this shred of privacy, to keep from you the details of my debasement. It should be enough to know that it was the most horrific ordeal I have ever suffered. It was not just Adair who was my torturer: he enlisted Dona, too, though it was clearly against the Italian’s will. It was my taste of the devil’s fire that Jude had warned me about, a lesson that tempting the devil’s love is a great risk. Such love, if it can be called that, is never sweet. Eventually, you will experience it for what it is. It is vitriol. It is poison. It is acid poured down your throat.

  I was barely conscious when they’d finished. I opened my eyes a slit to see Adair picking up his clothing from the ground. He was slick with sweat and his hair was plastered to his neck in dark curls. Dona had gotten his robe on, too, and was crawling on his hands and knees, pale and shaky, as though he might be ill at any second.

  Adair raked his hands through his wet hair, then tossed his head in Dona’s direction. “Get her upstairs and have someone clean her up,” he said before exiting the room.

  I winced as Dona undid the leather straps. They had bit into my skin, leaving me with dozens of cuts, the wounds opening again when the straps pulled against the dried blood. He left the horrible contraption on the floor—the straps shaping themselves into a hollow human form—and picked me up in his arms, the tenderest I had ever seen Dona, before or since.

  He took me to the room with the copper bathtub, where Alejandro waited with buckets of hot water. Then Alejandro washed me gently, wiping away the blood and the fluids, but I could barely stand his touch and I couldn’t stop crying.

  “I am in hell, Alejandro. How can I go on?”

  He took my hand and daubed it with a cloth. “You have no choice. It might help to know that we have all been through this, each of us. There is no shame in what happened to you, not among us.” Even as he washed, my wounds were healing, the tiny slashes disappearing, the bruises yellowing. He dried me and wrapped me in a clean banyan, and we lay together on the bed, Alejandro nestled behind me, not letting me shrink from him.

  “So, what happens next?” I asked, my fingers laced with his.

  “Nothing. It will go back to as it was before. You must try to forget what was done to you today, but not the lesson. Never forget the lesson.”

  The night before I was to depart for Boston was a miserable one. I wanted to be left alone with my worries, but Adair insisted on taking me to his bed. I was now terrified of him, needless to say, but he paid no mind to the change in my behavior; I suppose he was used to this from all his minions and expected I would come around again, in time. Or perhaps he didn’t care that he’d shattered my trust in him. I remembered Alejandro’s advice and behaved as though nothing had happened, trying to be as attentive as ever.

  Adair had drunk heavily—perhaps to blot out what he’d done to make me so fearful of him—and puffed on the hookah until clouds of narcotic smoke filled the room. That night in bed I was a distracted, absent partner: all I could think about was what I was going to do to Jonathan. I was about to condemn him to eternity with this madman. Jonathan had done nothing to deserve this.

  I had not worked out in my head what I would say to my family on my return to St. Andrew, either. After all, I’d disappeared from their lives when I’d run away from the harbor a year ago. Surely they would have made inquiries of the convent and the shipping master, only to be told that I’d arrived in Boston and promptly vanished. Perhaps they held out hope I was still alive and had run away in order to keep my baby. Had they checked with the authorities in Boston, harangued the constabulary to search for me until they lost hope and were sure that I had been murdered? I wondered if they’d held a mock funeral for me in St. Andrew—no, my father would not let them display such emotion. Instead, my mother and sisters would carry their grief around with them, heavy stones sewn under their skin, close to their hearts.

  And what of Jonathan, for that matter—what did he think had happened to me? Perhaps he had thought of me as deceased—if he thought of me at all. Tears flooded my eyes instantly: surely he thought of me once in a while, the woman who loved him most in the world! But I had to face the fact that I was dead to everyone in St. Andrew. Survivors come to accept a loved one having passed away. They mourn for a while, weeks or months, but eventually the memory is consigned to the past and only visited occasionally, like a once beloved toy stumbled upon in the attic, patted lovingly, but then left behind again.

  I woke in the half-lit hours of dawn, sweaty and disheveled from a restless sleep. The ship was to sail on the morning tide and I had to get to the docks before sunrise. As I leaned over to search for my discarded linen under the bedding, I drank in the sight of Adair, his head on the pillow. I guess it’s true that even devils look like angels in their sleep, when stillness and contentment are upon them. His eyes were closed, his long lashes brushing his cheeks; his hair tumbled over his shoulders in dark, lustrous curls; and the wisps of hair on his cheeks made him look like a youth, not a man capable of inhuman cruelties.

  My head ached from the narcotic I’d breathed all night. If I felt this bad, I figured Adair had to be nearly comatose. I picked up his hand and let it fall, dead weight. He didn’t so much as grunt or shift under the covers.

  Then a perverse thought came to me. I recalled the tiny silver vial that held the elixir of life, the drop of demonic magic that had changed me forever. Take it, the voice said, that vial is the root of Adair’s power. This is your chance to get back at him. Steal his power and take it with you to St. Andrew.

  With the potion, I’d have the ability to bind Jonathan to me, as I was bound to Adair. The thought flashed through my mind, but my stomach went weak. I could never use it—I could never transform someone into what I was now.

  Take it to get back at Adair. It’s all the magic he has in the world. Think how panicked he’ll be when he realizes it’s missing!

  I wanted revenge for what he’d done to me in the basement. I resented being sent on this errand, being forced to condemn my beloved to an eternity with this monster. More than anything I wanted to get back at Adair.

  I prefer to think that I was possessed by a power far stronger than my reason, for I inched cautiously out of bed, dropping my bare feet silently to the floor. As I slipped on one of Adair’s banyans, I surveyed the room: where would he hide the vial? I’d seen it only that day, never before or since.

  I went to the dressing room. Was it on the tray that held the sewing needles, or in the jewelry case, tucked among the rings and stickpins? Perhaps in the toe of a seldom worn slipper? I was on my knees, feeling my way through a row of his shoes, before I realized Adair would never store such a valuable object where his valet might find it and pocket it. He would either keep it on him at all times—and I’d seen him stark naked on many occasions, with no sign of the vial—or he would secret it away where no one would think to look for it. Where no one would dare look for it.

  Candle in hand, I scurried out of the room and took the servants’ stairs to the cellar, through the dank subterranean halls that smelled of old standing water, trailing a hand along the thick stone walls. Slowing as I approached the room where no one went and that everyone feared, I pushed back the scarred door and stepped onto the pounded dirt floor where I had recently lain, bleeding.

  Holding my breath, I tiptoed to the lone trunk on the other side of the room and lifted the lid. Inside was the hated thing, the nightmarish harness, straps stiff with my sweat, still form
ed in the shape of my body. I almost dropped the lid at the sight of it, but held my fright in check when I noticed a small bundle in a corner of the trunk. I reached in and lifted out a man’s handkerchief, folded into a tiny pillow.

  I peeled back a corner of the handkerchief to see … the vial. In the light of the candle, the silver vial glimmered like an ornament on a Christmas tree, sparkling with the same kind of faintly tarnished luster. The light seemed to pulse ominously, a warning of some kind. But I’d come this far and was not about to turn back now. The vial was mine. I balled my fist around it, pressed it to my heart, and stole out of the dungeon.

  THIRTY-ONE

  QUEBEC PROVINCE, PRESENT DAY

  Outside the window of the motel room, the sky has gone blue-black, the color of ink from a ballpoint pen. They’d left the blind up as they tumbled into bed together, and now that the rush to discover each other’s bodies is over, Lanny and Luke lie side by side, gazing out the window at the northern stars. He runs his fingers down her bare arm, marveling at the luminosity of her skin, how perfect it is, cream with a spattering of faint gold freckles. Her body is a series of smooth, low-rising curves. He wants to skim his hands over her again and again, as if by doing this he can carry off a part of her for himself. He wonders if the magic in her has made her more beautiful, enhanced her natural appearance.

  He can’t believe his good fortune in having gone to bed with her. He feels faintly like a dirty old man, as he hasn’t held a woman this firm since long before he was married. Not since he was in his twenties, but he doesn’t remember the sex being as good, perhaps because he and his partners were too self-conscious. He can imagine what his ex-wife or friends would say if they saw Lanny; they would think he was in the clutches of an epic midlife crisis, helping a barely legal woman evade the police in exchange for sex.

  She looks him over with a smile on her beautiful face, and he wonders what she can possibly find pleasing about him. He’s always thought of himself as an ordinary man: average height, more thin than fat but hardly in any shape worthy of admiration; shaggy, wavy hair on the border between sandy brown and blond. His patients have implied that he’s hippieish, like some of the backpackers who descend on St. Andrew in the summer, but Luke thinks they’ve gotten this impression because he tends toward disarray when there’s no one around to tidy him up. What could a woman like her see in a man like him? he wonders.

  Before he can ask, however, there’s a distraction at the window, a rippling of shadows outside the glass that indicates movement on the walkway. Luke just has time to sit up before banging erupts on the other side of the door and a deep male voice barks, “Open up! This is the police.”

  Luke holds his breath, unable to think, to react, to do, but Lanny is out of the bed in one leap, sheet wrapped around her body, landing noiselessly on cat’s feet. She holds a finger to her lips and slips around the corner into the little kitchenette area and then into the bathroom. When she is out of sight, he climbs out of bed, wraps a blanket around his waist, and opens the door.

  Two police officers fill the open doorway, shining a flashlight into Luke’s face. “We got a call about a man having sex with a minor … can you turn on a light, sir?” one of the officers asks, sounding exasperated, as though there is nothing he’d like better than to drive Luke into the wall, a police baton jammed against his throat. Both officers stare at Luke’s bare chest and the blanket cinched around his hips. Luke snaps on the closest switch, lighting up the room.

  “Where’s the girl who registered for the room?”

  “What girl?” Luke manages to say, though his throat is dry as desert sand. “There must be a mistake. This is my room.”

  “So you registered for this room?”

  Luke nods.

  “I don’t think so. The desk clerk said there’s only one room rented out on this side of the building. To a girl. She told the clerk the room was for her and her father.” The police officers crowd the door. “A housekeeper said she heard what sounded like people having sex in here, and since the clerk knew the room was occupied by a father and daughter …”

  Panic washes over Luke as he tries to recover from his lie. “Oh, yeah, that’s what I mean. The girl, we’re together, that’s why I said this is my room … but she’s not my daughter. I don’t know why she would have told anyone that.”

  “Right.” They look unconvinced. “Do you mind if we come in and look around? We’d like to talk to the girl—is she here?”

  Luke freezes, listening—he doesn’t hear anything, which makes him think she’s slipped out. In the police officers’ eyes, Luke sees barely controlled indignation; they would probably like nothing better than to knock him to the ground and kick the shit out of him for all the abused daughters they have seen in their careers. Luke is just about to stammer an excuse when he notices that the policemen are looking at something behind him. He turns, twisting the cheap peach blanket around his legs.

  Lanny stands with the sheet still wrapped around her naked body, drinking from a battered red plastic glass, a look of surprise and feigned embarrassment in her eyes. “Oh! I thought I heard someone at the door. Good evening, Officers. Is something wrong?”

  The two policemen size her up, head to bare feet, before answering. “Did you register for this room, miss?”

  She nods.

  “And is this man your father?”

  She goes sheepish. “Oh goodness, no. No … I don’t know why I said that to the guy at the front desk. I was afraid he wouldn’t rent us the room, I suppose, since we’re not married. He seemed—I dunno—the judgmental type. I just didn’t think it was any of his business.”

  “Uh-huh. We’re going to have to see some ID.” They are trying to be dispassionate, trying to dispel their righteous anger now that there is no pervert here to bring to justice.

  “You have no right to check up on us. It was consensual, what we did,” Luke says as he puts an arm around Lanny, drawing her against his side. He wants the police to leave now. He wants this embarrassing, nerve-racking experience behind him.

  “We just have to see proof that you’re not—you know,” the younger of the two policemen says, ducking his head and making an impatient gesture with his flashlight. There is no alternative but to let the officers look over his driver’s license and her passport, hoping that any police bulletin from St. Andrew hasn’t made it over the border to Canada.

  Luke soon realizes that he needn’t have worried: the two officers are so flustered and disappointed that they make the most cursory pass over the identification, quite possibly not even reading either document, before shuffling backward out the door with barely audible apologies for the inconvenience. As soon as they’ve left, Luke pulls the blind over the window that looks onto the walkway.

  “Oh my god,” Lanny says before collapsing on the bed.

  “We should leave. I should get you to a city.”

  “I can’t ask you to take any more chances for me …”

  “I can’t leave you here, can I?” He gets dressed while Lanny is in the bathroom, water running. He runs a hand over his chin, feeling stubble, realizing it has been about twenty-four hours since he last shaved, then he decides to see if the parking lot is clear. He hooks a finger behind the blind and peeks out: the squad car is sitting next to the SUV.

  He lets the blind fall back into place. “Damn it. They’re still outside.”

  Lanny looks up from her suitcase. “What?”

  “The two cops, they’re still out there. Running a check on the license plate, maybe.”

  “You think?”

  “Maybe they’re seeing if we have records.” He rubs his lower lip, thinking. They probably can’t get answers right away on U.S. license plates or drivers’ licenses; they probably have to wait for a reply to come back through the system, through police liaison units. There might be a sliver of time before …

  Luke reaches for Lanny. “We have to go, now.”

  “Won’t they try to stop us?”
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  “Leave your suitcase, everything. Just get dressed.”

  They leave the hotel room hand in hand and have started walking to their vehicle when the window of the squad car slides down. “Hey,” the police officer on the passenger side calls out, “you can’t leave yet.”

  Luke drops Lanny’s hand so she can hang back while he approaches the patrol car. “Why can’t we leave? We haven’t done anything wrong. We showed you our ID. You don’t have any reason to detain us. This is starting to feel like harassment.”

  The two officers bristle, uncertain but not liking the sound of the word “harassment.”

  “Look,” Luke continues, opening his hands to show that they’re empty. “We’re just going out to dinner. Do we look like we’re going to bolt? We left our luggage in the room; we’re paid up for the night. If you still have questions when your background checks come in, you can always catch us after dinner. But if you’re not going to arrest me, I believe you can’t stop me.” Luke speaks calmly and reasonably, arms outstretched, like a man trying to dissuade thieves from robbing him. Lanny climbs into the front seat of the big SUV, giving the police officers a hostile glare. He follows her, starts the engine, and pulls out of the parking space smoothly, checking one last time to be sure the squad car doesn’t follow them.

  It’s not until they’re well down the road that Lanny pulls the laptop from under her jacket. “I couldn’t leave it behind. It has too much damning information on it, tying me to Jonathan, stuff they could use as evidence if they wanted to,” she explains, as though she feels guilty for having taken the risk to save it. After a second, she removes the bag of pot from her pocket, like she’s lifting a rabbit from a magician’s hat.

  Luke’s heart warbles in his throat. “The pot, too?”

  “I figured after they’d realized we weren’t coming back, they’d search the room for sure. This would give them a reason to arrest us …” She stuffs the bag back in her jacket pocket. “Do you think we’re safe?”

 

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