by Kahlen Aymes
I nodded against his shoulder. “Okay. Just checking.” He turned his head and kissed my forehead.
“So, what did you get me for Christmas?” Ryan asked anxiously with a smirk.
“Mmm…you’ll find out.”
“When?”
I laughed, softly. “Stop. You’re worse than a kid.”
“When?” he persisted.
“It’s Christmas Eve, so maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow morning.”
“I choose tonight. It’s more romantic and I’m feeling very romantic.” His breath left his body and he brought my hand over to rest on his thigh, pressing it into his flesh.
“Whatever you want.”
“Mmm…that sounds about perfect.”
“Yes, doesn’t it? Lucky for you, I love giving you everything you want. Lucky for me, too.”
“Stop. See what you do to me?”
He moved my hand higher in his lap until it was resting over the hardness straining in his jeans and I let my fingers clasp around him and rub up and down. “Mmmm…Ryan,” I breathed.
“Shit, Julia. That feels amazing, babe, but I don’t want to kill us.” He lifted my hand off of his body and turned it to place an open mouth kiss on my palm, letting his tongue dart out to lick me.
“Now who isn’t playing fair?”
“All I do is dream about making love to you.”
“Oh? Do they have a new course of study in that at Harvard?” I teased and he shook his head.
“I wish.”
Estes Park was a cute little town situated between two of the smaller ski resorts, and was at the edge of Rocky Mountain National Park. Ryan and I spent a few hours on Skype looking at places to stay when we’d decided to meet over Christmas, and we decided on a resort called Glacier Lodge that had individual cabins with fireplaces and kitchens.
We didn’t have anything set for our time in Colorado, except that we just wanted to go with the flow. We could ski if we wanted to, shop if we felt like it, or hole up the entire time and stay in bed if that was what we decided to do. The point was to have no pressure and just focus on each other.
The cabin was gorgeous, built in classic log-cabin style, the walls and ceilings all rounded timber, the furnishings rustic, with a Southwestern motif. The bed was huge, draped with a Southwestern patterned comforter and the furniture was plush and comfortable, upholstered in brown leather. A big fluffy rug lay out on the floor in front of the fireplace that reminded me of the piles of snow outside and the kitchen, while simple, had all that I needed. The bathroom was Italian marble with a large whirlpool tub which I looked forward to using with Ryan.
“Wow,” I said as I walked around the place. Ryan was leaning up against the back of the couch with his arms crossed, just watching me. “Let’s move here!” I said, feeling a bit mischievous.
Ryan smiled and slowly moved toward me. “Um…I can’t commit to that unless…” his arms slid around me and under my legs and he lifted me up and threw me on the bed, “this bed is fully functional. We have to test it first!”
I squealed in delight and laughed as I landed in the middle of the mattress.
He immediately came down on top of me and the laughter between us died as our eyes met. His body settled into mine and I arched up into his, aching to feel him next to me, inside of me. His hand came up to my face to brush my hair back and he pressed me into the bed with his body, both of us moving against the other, creating the friction we both desperately craved.
“Julia…I’ve missed you. Please don’t make me wait to make love to you. I can’t stand it.” He nuzzled the side of my face with his nose and I turned my mouth toward his.
“Ryan…” I breathed just before his mouth took mine.
He kissed me deeply, and I kissed him back with everything I had. I wanted him; I loved him and nothing else mattered. His hand slid up my thigh and over my hip and ribcage to cup my breast through the thin material of my black cotton shirt and lace bra. My already taut nipples hardened even more under his palm. Ryan groaned when he felt it, too. “God, Julia. You’re body is so responsive, it drives me crazy.”
I answered by sliding my hands beneath his shirt and pushing it up over the strong muscles of his back and shoulders. He sat up on his knees and impatiently pulled it over his head and flung it across the room. “I wanted to go slow, but I’m just…my whole body is vibrating. I want you so much.” His eyes bore into mine as his fingers flew to undo the opening of his pants and then moved to do the same to mine before he leaned down and kissed the side of my neck. His hands moved up my body under my shirt and soon it was a thing of the past.
I reached for him, pulling him down so that he was lying on top of me, in the cradle of my body again. I wanted to feel him closer, to have every inch of his skin against me and to resume the delicious kisses. We kissed urgently, but not without purpose as our mouths tasted and teased each other. “Uhhh,” I breathed against his mouth as his body surged against mine, “you feel so good.”
Soon the clothes separating us were strewn about the room and I gloried in the feel of his bare limbs combining with mine, his hard body thrusting into me, filling me again and again. “God, baby. I can’t…” he gasped against the curve of my neck, “I can’t stop.”
“I don’t want you to. Never stop, Ryan.” He pushed the hair back off of my face, both hands holding my head and then he kissed me deeply, our mouths sucking and licking each other as we moved in perfect unison, the movements deeper and longer. God, I wanted more and raked my hands down his back to grasp around the muscles of his ass. I could feel them flexing beneath my hands in response to his thrust. It was so hot.
“Come for me, Julia. I love you, baby,” he urged. His hands were moving over my body, brushing my nipples and then down lower between my legs. He pushed his hand between us so he could touch me and instantly my muscles tensed as my orgasm exploded, leaving me gasping and clutching around his hardness.
“Uhhh, God,” Ryan groaned as he gave in to his own release, but then brought his mouth back to mine and kissed me, sucking my lower lip into his mouth and then deepening the kiss, laving my tongue with his, mimicking the movements of his body as he moved inside me.
His body slowed and the kisses lightened until he raised his mouth and rested his forehead on mine, both of us breathing hard, struggling to regain control. Emotion flooded through me and I wrapped my arms and legs around him. He kissed the side of my face and nuzzled my nose as a tear trickled down my cheek.
He felt it with the thumb that was brushing along my cheekbone. “Julia, don’t cry, love. I’m right here with you, and you’re everything to me.”
I nodded, but my throat tightened, making it hard to speak. I felt ridiculous; crying when he was with me, but the love I felt for him was just so overwhelming that I couldn’t contain it. My face crumpled and I turned into his neck as my shoulders began to shake in silent sobs.
“Julia, honey…Look at me,” Ryan whispered urgently. “What is it? Can you tell me?” He tried to move off, but I tightened my arms around him.
“No, don’t separate. Not yet,” I said softly and touched his face, reaching up to kiss his jaw gently. “I just…love you more than I can even stand, Ryan. It’s…overwhelming and amazing. My heart is so full of you, I can’t even breathe. You…fill me up.” I surged upward, emphasizing his body still buried within mine. “In more ways than one,” I tried to smile through the tears.
Ryan’s eyes were soft and the start of a small smile lifted one corner of his mouth. “God, I love you, so, so much. It’s beyond words for me too, honey. I’m so pissed at myself for not having the balls to tell you before. To think we could have had this…the whole time.”
I shook my head to silence him and reached up and ran my hand along his face, to grasp the hair at the nape of his neck.
“Don’t say that. I cherish every moment I’ve had with you. Every single one, okay? Even when we fight. Don’t wish it away. Maybe we wouldn’t be us if things had been different. And I want this
…the way it is between us now is worth all of that waiting and longing.”
Ryan moved to my side and pulled me close, across his chest, and I lay in silence, listening to his heart beating. He took a deep breath, his chest rising beneath my cheek.
“What is it?” I asked and gently ran a hand down his bare chest to rest below his navel. When he didn’t answer right away, I pressed him. “Ryan?”
He sighed again. “It’s just…I want this, Julia. I want it every day, and still we’re…” his words dropped off and his fingers flew threw his hair before moving back to slide down my arm and take my hand.
“I know.” I swallowed the lump in my throat. “But seeing you even once a month is better than once every five or six. I’ll take it, because it’s you.”
“Julia…” he breathed and we were both clinging, our arms tightening around each other. I leaned over and placed my open mouth on his chest, and the light hair tickled my skin.
“Just be with me now, Ryan, okay? We have ten days. Ten whole days. I just want to drown in you and enjoy every second. For ten days, I want to lose the constant ache.”
“Where did you come from?” Ryan said; his voice husky and deep as he pulled me up until my head was resting next to his on the pillow. “You’re so damn perfect you shouldn’t even exist. Just…look at you.” He stunned me by the sudden movement and when I looked into his eyes, they were deep blue and swimming in tears.
My eyes welled and I kissed him, his lips warm and soft against mine. I pressed my hand to his chest, over his heart. “This is where I came from. Right here.”
It was late. I had fallen asleep in Julia’s arms after we’d made love again, but now my stomach was rumbling, stirring me from the soundest sleep I’d had in a month. A month without Julia and a month full of studying and final exams.
The cabin was dark but warm, the full moon shining in from between the blinds and casting a bluish glow across the bed, on the white sheets and Julia’s still form. Her skin was smooth as porcelain, her face serene in sleep, the dark lashes and luxurious mane of hair almost black in the moonlight. I leaned in to gently kiss her shoulder and pulled in a long breath inhaling her sweet scent, a luscious mixture of floral shampoo, perfume and Julia. Another soft kiss later and she stirred softly.
“Ryan…” she breathed, still asleep and my heart thumped wildly in my chest. I picked up a lock of silken hair and worried it between my fingers. Everything about her was so damn soft, so alluring. My undoing. I knew I’d never be able to drag myself away. I longed for those gorgeous green eyes to open and look at me, but I didn’t want to disturb her. The cabin was small, but to me it was paradise, because I was alone with Julia. She was all mine, if only for a short time.
My stomach rumbled again and I reluctantly pushed myself off the bed and padded out of the bedroom. Hesitating to flood the rooms with light, I lit the few candles that were scattered around and decided it was much nicer that way anyway. It was eleven o’clock on Christmas Eve and there was a small tree in the corner with multicolored lights on it. I went back into the bedroom to get the two gifts I’d brought and placed them beneath the tree and then went to find something to eat.
The refrigerator was stocked with basics, but nothing that looked particularly appetizing. I leaned on the open door when something occurred to me; Julia would have made something I loved, to bring on this trip. I smiled in satisfaction. Surely, knowing her, there was some delectable thing packed inside her bag. She wouldn’t mind if I went looking for it, and I could play the pouty, starving card. She’d always given in to that. But…maybe there was a gift inside that I wasn’t supposed to see?
Hmmm…I patted my grumbling stomach and decided I’d take my chances. I quietly moved back into the bedroom, careful not to wake her, but stopped at the sight before me. She’d rolled onto her back, the sheet barely clinging to her curves, her legs bare and the curve of her breast starting to swell above the edge as her arm flung out beside her head. Her hair was splayed out on the pillows in glorious disarray, screaming for my fingers to thread through it, and her mouth was slightly open. She was so gorgeous and my body stirred as I remembered the feel of her beneath me and the little mewling sounds she made as she came. I swallowed and my mouth went dry.
I tore my gaze away and glanced around the room, searching for her bags and found them against the far wall. If she brought a treat with her, it would most likely be in the carry-on. I carefully unzipped it, as quietly as possible. My hand felt around blindly and quickly found a plastic container. My face split into a grin. She was so damn good to me.
It was too dark to see exactly what was inside, but when I pulled the lid free, the delicious scent wafted out. They were some sort of cookies. I took the container into the other room and opened the refrigerator again, using the light to look inside. Mmmm…one of my favorites. Cranberry, white chocolate and macadamia nut. Delicious and soft, they were just as I remembered them. Aaron and I used to eat the entire batch before they were even cool from the oven. Julia pretended to be pissed, but enjoyed that we loved them so much.
I found a bottle of water and turned toward the living room, carrying the entire container of cookies with me, but stopped short when I saw her leaning on the doorjamb in the hall, wrapped in the sheet.
“And just what do you think you’re doing with those, Matthews?” She laughed softly.
“Um…” I said with my mouth full. “Devouring them, hopefully. They’re just delicious, honey. Thank you.”
“Hmmm…” She walked forward and grabbed the bottle and took a drink. “I’m so thirsty.”
I took her hand and pulled her down on the couch next to me. “Want one?” I asked, before diving in for another cookie.
“Uh uh, but don’t let me stop you.” She snuggled into my side, resting her head on my shoulder.
“It feels so good to have you with me like this, Julia.”
“I agree. I miss you more than you know.”
I swallowed the cookie and then set the container on the end table next to one of the flickering candles. It cast a glow over us and danced on her soft features.
“Oh, I think I do.” I pulled her across my lap and kissed her on the temple, settling us both in. I wrapped my arms around her as she fit so perfectly into my body. “Are you tired, my love?”
Her little hand was drawing circles on my chest and I was rubbing her back. “Julia?” I said into the soft hair on top of her head.
“Just a little, but I’m okay. I don’t want to sleep right now. Merry Christmas, Ryan.”
“Oh, yes…is it time to open my present yet?” I laughed softly. I could feel her pleasure at my words. She smiled against my chest.
“What? Are you ten?” she teased.
“Yes,” I insisted and she burst out laughing.
“I’m a little nervous about it.”
“Why, babe?”
“It’s really personal,” she said hesitantly.
“Everything about us is personal. My gift for you is personal, too. Would you like to open it first?”
She lifted her head and looked into my face. Biting her lip, she nodded. I bent to kiss her, licking her lips softly. She moaned and our kiss deepened, her hands gripped my jaw and the back of my neck.
When I pulled my mouth from hers, I went back and kissed those luscious lips gently. “Ok. I’ll get it.”
She scooted off of my lap and gathered the sheet back around her while I went to the tree to retrieve the gifts.
I sat beside her on the couch, turning to face her and handed her the smallest package.
“Did you wrap this yourself? It’s so beautiful.” Julia’s hand gently brushed over the shimmering silver bow and the brilliant red paper, which looked like shades of burgundy in the candlelight.
“Yes. Are you surprised?” I smiled and brushed her hair off of her face. She nodded slightly. “I have to tell you, Miss Abbott, you look so tempting sitting here in that sheet, like you’ve just been made passionate love t
o. You make me hungry for more, so open the presents already.”
A small laugh burst from her and she smiled brilliantly. Her hand came out to thread through my hair that had fallen over my forehead. “I love you, Ryan. You’re the only thing I need.”
I wanted to pull her close to me and make love to her right then and there, but instead, pressed the box more fully into her hands. “Open it.”
Slowly her fingers pulled the bow and set it aside, before carefully separating the corner folds on the box. I was more anxious for her to open it than she was. Finally, the small white box was revealed and she lifted the lid.
I’d gotten her a platinum and diamond bracelet, the center being the cursive letters R and J that were entwined together, the bottom of the R running into the top of the J, and a diamond in the center of where they connected. The band was set on each side with three diamonds, each one a little smaller than the last as they moved away from the letters.
“Oh, Ryan…it’s just gorgeous.” Her eyes were full of tears as she raised them to mine. “I’ll treasure it, always. I love it. Thank you.” I took it from the box and placed it on her left wrist, and pulled her hand up so I could place my lips beside the bracelet.
“I love you, Julia. I hope you don’t think it’s too early to get you diamonds, but I needed to get you something that would mean something and say that you belong to me.”
She gasped at my words and slid her arms around my neck and hugged me tight. “Anything you give me means something, babe. I love it, truly.”
The diamonds sparkled on her wrist as she got up. “I’ll be right back.” Julia disappeared down the hall and returned with a flat square box about 30 or so inches square. It was wrapped in beautiful gold paper and some sort of sheer fabric bow full of gold sparkles.
My face lit up as I reached for it, but she held it back from me, still clutching the sheet around her. “Ryan, I need to tell you about this first.” The tone in her voice was apprehensive and her eyes were wide as she looked into my face.
I was quiet as she sat with the large box on her lap.