“Do you feel like a good girl now?” Andy chuckled and rubbed my ass with his hand.
“That was it?” I looked over my shoulder in surprise.
“Yes, I just wanted you to trust me enough to bend over.” He slid a hand between my thighs and lightly rubbed my pussy. “You didn’t think I was going to actually use this thing on you—right?”
“I—I wasn’t sure.” I raised an eyebrow and moaned.
Now that I got all worked up for it, I’m a little disappointed that I didn’t at least find out how it felt.
“Did you want me to?” He rubbed me a little harder.
“Maybe just one.” I moaned louder and wiggled my ass against him.
“Okay, you asked for it.” He chuckled and pulled his hand away from my pussy.
SWISH-CRACK!
“Ow!” I jumped up and rubbed my ass the instant that I felt the switch crash into me for the first time.
“Too much?” He started rubbing my pussy again.
“Just—different.” I looked over my shoulder at him and grinned. “Maybe you should save that until I’m really naughty.”
“I’m sure you’ll figure out a way.” He chuckled and tossed the switch down on the table next to the couch.
Andy barely teased before he went to the kitchen to start making Christmas dinner. I pulled up my jeans and sat down on the couch. My eyes drifted to the snow globe and a smile spread across my face. I still couldn't believe that we got each other the same gift. It was perfect when I saw it, and apparently, they thought the same thing when they went shopping for a gift. Zach walked into the living room once Andy took over in the kitchen and put a couple of logs in the fireplace. Once it was lit, he joined me on the couch and I cuddled in his arms. I wouldn’t have much more of that. They were leaving early the next morning. I didn’t want to face that reality, but I didn’t have a choice. All I could do was enjoy the last night I had with the men that had changed my perspective on what I previously believed a relationship could be.
“If law school doesn’t work out, you could totally become a chef.” I leaned back from the table and smiled. “I’m not even sure I have room for pie.”
“There’s always room for pie.” Zach looked at me like I had just told him something incredibly offensive.
Andy got the pie and even though I was stuffed, I still managed to force down a few bites before I finally had to give up. It was delicious, but I was going to be sick if I kept eating it. Zach scarfed his down without a second thought and Andy stabbed at his aimlessly between bites. The conversation turned to a somber one when they started talking about their trip the next day. They still needed to pack, and even though I wasn’t looking forward to losing them, I still wanted to help. They hadn’t brought much, but they wouldn’t be coming back to Georgia for a while, so all of it had to be put in their suitcases. Watching everything being placed inside those suitcases broke my heart, and when they were zipped up and put down by the door, I couldn’t hold it in anymore. Tears started streaming down my face.
“Come here.” Andy wrapped his arms around me. “Don’t cry.”
“I know it’s stupid.” I leaned against his shoulder. “I’m sorry.”
“You don’t have to be sorry.” Zach walked over and put his hand on my lower back. “We’re going to miss you too.”
The three of us hugged like we were already saying goodbye. As much as I wanted them, none of us seemed to have the same fire for the passion that we had when we were together the previous nights. We went to the bedroom and just laid in the bed, locked in an embrace. I was glad that I seemed to be more to them than just a holiday fling that they wanted to fuck until the very last second they got on a plane, but it didn’t make it any easier. Losing them was going to tear my world apart—a world I didn’t even know could exist before I came home for the holidays. We finally fell asleep and I dreamed of being apart from them with two holes in my heart that simply couldn’t be healed. I woke up the next morning to find them already dressed and tending to things around the house. I dressed and grabbed a cup of coffee as I stared down the barrel of the inevitable.
“Would you mind driving us to the airport?” Zach walked into the kitchen and sighed. “I know that’s a lot to ask right now.”
“No, it’s not. Of course, I’ll drive you.” I nodded quickly. “I’m sure that would be better than leaving your SUV at the airport.”
I helped them load everything into the SUV and drove them to the airport in Atlanta, which appeared to be a total madhouse. I was surprised they were even able to get flights considering how many people were waiting in line just to drop off their bags. It was going to be a sorrowful goodbye, and I knew I wasn’t going to be able to hold back the tears. We had carefully avoided any discussion about the future because we all understood what the reality was. I was glad they didn’t lie to me, even if a lie would have probably eased some of my sorrow at that moment. I parked the car because I wanted to go with them, and stay as long as possible—at least until they had to go through security.
“I’m going to miss you so much.” Andy put his arms around and pressed his lips to my forehead. “So fucking much.”
“I’ll miss you too.” I sighed and leaned against his shoulder. “Both of you.”
“Why does life have to be so fucking cruel.” Zach sighed and I let go of Andy so I could hug his twin brother.
“I had a lot of fun. I’ll never forget you guys, no matter what.” I looked up into Zach’s gorgeous ocean-blue eyes, which started to tear up. “Now who’s crying?”
“We have to go.” Andy blinked several times and picked up his carry-on bag.
They each gave me a goodbye kiss and then they headed towards security. I felt like a piece of my soul was going with them. I watched until they were out of sight and then picked up what was left of my heart so I could walk back to the SUV. It was a slow walk and my feet felt heavier than ever. Our moments together flashed in my head like some kind of cheesy montage, but each one of them was like a dagger into the fragments of my heart that I was wearing on my sleeve. I was foolish, but I just didn’t care. They meant more to me than I would ever be able to express in words. I wished I would have said more, but my chance was gone. It felt like an eternity until I got to the SUV, and once the door was closed, I broke down completely.
At least they were gone before they saw the worst of this. I’m going to cry like a fucking baby now.
My head slumped forward into the steering wheel and I just let it all go. I had fallen head over heels for two men that were simply fucking amazing. It wasn’t fair that fate dealt me the worst brand of cruelty dressed up in holiday cheer. I didn’t regret falling for them, and I wouldn’t have traded a single minute for anything else in the world. The pain was worth it because of what we shared along the way, but it still hurt. I fumbled with the keys and tried to start up the SUV. I just needed enough courage to get back to their house, pick up my car, and then bury my face in a pillow for a few days until my parents got back. Hopefully, the tears would be gone by that point and I could hide my agony behind a smile until I returned to school. I really didn’t have a choice. No amount of tears or heartache was going to bring them back to me. The only hope I had to heal was time, and it was all that I had in front of me—an eternity without them.
Why am I such a fool? I knew this was the eventual outcome from the beginning.
Andy
“You grabbed Mom’s gift right?” I looked over at Zach as we walked past security.
“Yeah.” He nodded and kept his eyes focused straight ahead.
“And the plane tickets?” I raised an eyebrow inquisitively.
“Yep.” He nodded again.
“We didn’t forget anything at all?” I sighed and continued walking.
“Are you just looking for a reason to go back?” He stopped and put down his carry-on bag.
“Maybe…” I stopped walking and sighed louder. “No, let’s go.”
I didn’t fall
in love—I claimed. I took what I wanted and when the sun came up, I threw them out before breakfast. Maybe that’s who I used to be—before I met Holly. It was all blurring together. I hardly remembered the guy I was before I felt her lips against mine for the very first time. She was so fucking incredible and redefined the man I was. I thought I liked being the emotionless tool that got laid every time I found a girl hot enough to get my dick hard. I just didn’t know that there was an alternative and after having a taste of it, I wasn’t just addicted—I was obsessed. I wasn’t brave enough to admit that to myself until I kissed her for the very last time and walked away. It was hitting me all at once, and I was struggling like some lovesick sap who just got his heart broken. That was a new emotion for me, and I didn’t like the feeling. I needed to find the emotionless void that I used to live in and embrace it because there was no way I could have the one thing I truly wanted.
“I think I’m just going to get drunk as fuck before we get on the plane.” I tossed my bag next to a bench near the terminal and looked around for the closest bar.
“That’s not going to help.” Zach shook his head back and forth. “It never does. Alcohol just makes it worse.”
“What kind of fucking idiots are we? We come to Georgia to play Santa Claus and end up both falling for the same girl?” I growled under my breath. “Fuck!”
“This whole trip has given me a new perspective. I feel like I finally understand Dad, what he does, why he does it, and how good the world can be to you if you open yourself up to it.” Zach dropped his bag and sat down.
“Yeah, it’s been a journey. That’s for fucking sure.” I sat down beside him.
“I think I might get a suit of my own next year—maybe visit a few places on Christmas Day. It doesn’t have to be an orphanage, I just want to do something good for people who need it.” Zach closed his eyes and grimaced. “Fuck, now I sound like Dad.”
“If you do—I might go with you, but I’m choosing the fucking costume. I’m not being your whimsical elf.” I chucked under my breath.
“It won’t be the same.” Zach sighed. “Not without her.”
“No.” I leaned forward and put my elbows on my knees. “It won’t.”
I knew what I wanted to do, but it directly conflicted with everything I had planned for my life. I was supposed to graduate, go to law school, and have my name on a building one day. Why did all of that seem to matter less than it ever had before? Those were the dreams of a shallow guy who only cared about himself—a self-centered asshole that wanted notoriety and a bank account. It wasn’t like I planned to go to law school so I could help people with the degree that came at the end of my journey. I was just interested in a few more years of partying, hot girls in my bed, and I even tried to drag Zach along kicking and screaming. Maybe the pain of losing Holly was my penance for living my life like Ebenezer Scrooge—except he got a happy ending. He might the right decision before it was too late.
“Fuck it.” I grabbed my bag and started to stand.
“What are you doing?” Zach hopped up and stared at me.
“I’m not leaving without telling Holly how I feel.” I started walking away from the terminal.
“We’re going to miss our flight.” Zach caught up to me before I took more than a couple of steps.
“Do you really give a fuck about getting on that plane?” I turned to look his way as I continued walking.
“No—I don’t.” He shook his head and his jaw tightened. “Okay, fuck it—let’s go get the woman we love.”
Love? Maybe. It was certainly more than just an attraction, even if I was more attracted to her than anyone else I had ever laid eyes on. I had fallen for Holly, and I couldn’t let her leave the airport without hearing me say those words out loud. I saw the pain in her eyes. I knew she felt the same way. We could figure out the rest of it together. We might have to spend some time apart, but that was okay if I could at least leave her with a promise—one I would never break. I was coming back to Georgia when I graduated from college, and it wasn’t just going to be for a visit. If I decided to go to law school, then there were plenty of schools in Atlanta that I could attend. Atlanta was certainly big enough for Zach to find the kind of company he wanted to work for. Maybe his dreams had changed too. The only thing that mattered was laying out a new plan—one that involved Holly.
“Fuck, I hope she hasn’t left already.” Zach started walking faster when we approached the exit.
“Then we’ll chase down the fucking SUV on foot if we have to,” I growled under my breath and matched his pace.
Nothing is going to come between us again.
Holly
The key was in the ignition and I was finally ready to crank up the SUV when I looked up to see something that I was almost certain was a mirage. There was no way Andy and Zach were walking towards me. It was a dream manifesting while my eyes were wide awake—one more torturous illusion before I faced the harsh reality of going home alone. I had gone insane and I was seeing things—a hallucination of fantasy that would never be real. I rubbed my eyes and sighed, wholeheartedly believing that when my tears were wiped away that I would see two strangers that had created the visage I would never see. Instead, they were still there—it was them. It couldn’t be? Could it? I grabbed the door and opened it. By the time I got out of the SUV, there was no denying what I saw was real. They started running—I started running.
“What are you doing? You’re going to miss your flight?” Andy hugged me first, and Zach hugged me as soon as he let me go.
“We’re not leaving.” Zach put his hands on my shoulders. “We’re staying here with you as long as we can.”
“What about your parents? They’re expecting you.” I was confused, but the joy was pouring out of me.
“They’ll understand.” Andy smiled and nodded. “We have unfinished business here, and we need to figure it out before we go.”
We exchanged more hugs, passionate kisses, and eventually, we managed to get back in the SUV so we could head back to their place. Their feelings were as strong as mine—too strong to ignore. I struggled during the entire drive, wondering if I was still trapped in a hallucination created by my own delusions. It was no delusion. They really were right there with me. I finally started to believe I wasn’t lost in a dream when we were back in the house and things seemed to be back to the way they were. I gathered the stuff they had packed for me to take home, stuffed it back in the refrigerator, and sat down with them in the living room after we each had a drink. There was silence for a moment, and I wasn’t sure what they were going to say.
“This isn’t going to be easy, but we’re going to find a way to make this work.” Andy sipped his beer and nodded. “What happened between us meant so much—it just can’t end with the two of us getting on a plane and never seeing you again.”
“We fell for you hard.” Zach nodded and smiled. “I don’t think any of us went into this with any expectations outside of what was right in front of us, but that doesn’t change how special it was.”
“I’m so happy to hear you say that.” I grabbed my beer and twisted off the top. “I tried to convince myself that it wasn’t going to turn into anything serious—but that got harder every day.”
“We will both graduate soon, and obviously you need to finish school, which means it will be easier for me to move to Atlanta.” Andy looked over at Zach. “I can go to law school here.”
“It is a nice city.” Zach nodded and sipped his beer. “I’m sure I can find somewhere to work.”
“Or—you could still go to law school with me ” Andy smirked and lifted his beer.
“Nah, I don’t think that’s the right direction for me.” Zach chuckled. “You are going to start believing that at some point.”
“If you guys are here in Atlanta, it’s a short drive for me. I can come to visit you every weekend!” I felt the excitement inside me start to grow at an exponential rate.
We worked out a few more details ov
er several beers, and I was overwhelmed with happiness. We were going to make it work. The gorgeous men that had stolen my heart weren’t going to leave and forget me. They wanted to see just how far the relationship could go, and they wanted it to be permanent. I was already dreaming of weekends in their arms, spending long nights without worrying about what would happen when the sun came up and facing all of the challenges ahead of us together. I didn’t care if the relationship was unconventional. They were everything I wanted, my ultimate fantasy, and two of the most amazing men I had ever met. If they could both love me, then I would love them with just as much ferocity. Andy called his parents to let them know what was going on and made sure they wouldn’t be waiting for them at the airport. I hoped they wouldn’t be angry, but the conversation did seem to go well, based on what I could hear.
“Okay, naughty girl.” Andy grinned as he walked back into the room. “I think it’s time we celebrate our homecoming the right way.”
“Definitely.” Zach extended his hand to me as he rose to his feet.
“I guess it wouldn’t be fair for me to hold out on you since you basically blew off your parents to spend a few more days with me.” I smiled and took Zach’s hand.
“Yeah, you kind of owe us.” Andy walked up behind me and started kissing the back of my neck.
“I’ll make sure it’s more than worth it.” I reached back and started stroking his cock through his pants. “I’m going to be really naughty tonight.”
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