As she closed the door behind us and locked it, I asked her, “Do you have roommates?”
“Just one, but she’s at work,” she said. She threw her coat and purse on an empty recliner and approached me with lust in her eyes. “I’m Nina.”
“I don’t really care,” I said. “Is that a problem?”
Nina threw her arms around my neck and rubbed her soft body against mine. My dick started swelling up, and I gripped her ample ass in both of my hands. She shrugged. “Not really.”
“Good,” I said, smashing my mouth down against hers and kissing her hard and heavy, until she was whimpering under my mouth and grasping onto my shirt. She hiked one leg up on my hip, brushing her jean-covered pussy against me.
“I want you on your knees,” I said, grabbing a handful of her colorful hair.
Nina said nothing, only moaned like a bitch in heat as my hand helped her comply. She rubbed my dick through my jeans and looked up at me while I unfastened them and pulled out my thick, eight-inch piece. She immediately ran her mouth up and down its length, tongue warm and wet, lapping up the precum that had already gathered at the tip.
“Suck,” I said. I held the base of my dick in one hand and Nina’s hair in the other as I fed her my hardened shaft until it hit the back of her throat. She moaned around my dick, sucking at it with abandon. This wasn’t the first time she’d deep throated someone.
I didn’t even bother letting her take the lead. One hand on her head, I bucked my hips against Nina’s mouth, fucking her face, while she rubbed one hand down between her legs. Saliva dripped down her cheek every time I pulled out of her mouth, running down her neck and cleavage.
I tilted her head up to look at me and told her to take off her clothes and bend over the couch. Nina smiled up at me, fuck-drunk already, and quickly pulled her shirt off to reveal her beautiful, fleshy tits. They filled my mouth one at a time before I let her stand to remove her jeans, and by then she was panting with desire.
When she finally went to kick off her shoes, I stopped her. There was no need for that; I didn’t plan on staying that long. Instead, I bent her over the couch while she was still wearing them and lined my cock up to her dripping pussy. The smooth head teased up and down her slit, spreading her wetness around while she begged me to put it inside her.
After quickly rolling on a condom, I obliged, sinking the entire length of my dick inside Nina in one hard thrust. She screamed into the cushions of the couch, a wail that never stopped as I pumped in and out of her from behind. Each cry was punctuated by desperate, rhythmic breaths, and the simple and repeated phrase, “Oh God, oh God…”
With my eyes closed, I wrapped my hands around her waist and drove as deep and hard inside of her as I could. This was always the best way to forget everything that was bothering me, and today was no exception. The feel of her pussy around my cock was like heaven; the sight of her gorgeous ass pressing up against me with every thrust, beautiful. Soon I couldn’t even hear Nina’s screaming, lost as I was in the pleasure of her wetness, until the edge was upon me.
Leaning over with a growl, I grabbed Nina’s hair and pulled hard as I came inside her, pushing deeper with every wave. Nina’s mantra was under her breath in a whisper now. She must have come, too.
After withdrawing, I found my way to the bathroom to clean myself up and toss the condom. I splashed water on my face while I intentionally ignored the reflection staring back at me in the mirror. Nina was still naked when I came back out, but now she was wrapped in a knitted afghan on the couch instead of bent over it, ass up. Standing in the living room was another girl, though. Must have been the roommate. She has a backpack slung over her shoulder and a nametag still pinned on her polo shirt.
They both stopped talking and looked at me when I entered the room. “Oh, hey,” I said, my stomach tensing at this unexpected intrusion. I just wanted to make my way out of here.
The eyes of the new girl in the room went wide, and so did her mouth.
Fuck. I knew that look. Nina hadn’t recognized me, but her roommate sure as hell did.
“Thanks,” I said to Nina, raising a hand. “I’m gonna take off.”
“Wait, I didn’t even—“
“You’re Noah Hardy,” Nina’s roommate whispered. Then, more loudly, she added, “Oh my God, you’re him!”
Nina gave a sour look to her roommate, and then back to me. “He’s who?”
This was about to get a lot more messy, so I just walked past both of them without another word, leaving Nina to catch up with her friend about the booty call she just had while I jumped in my truck and blazed away, anxious to get back home.
For the first time in ten years, I didn’t know what the fuck to do with myself. I didn’t have studio time blacked out on my calendar; I didn’t have to scramble around getting everything ready for a three-month-long jaunt across the US or Europe; I didn’t have a gauntlet of copycat interviews to sit through for hours on end to promote a new album. I had nothing. My phone, usually blowing up so badly I often left it at home or on the bus just to get away from it, was silent as the grave. I guess what they say about fame and fair-weather friends was right.
Luckily for me, I never let anyone get that close. Only my band brothers—and sometimes not even them. The absence of hangers-on trying to hook up with me for favors or weed or booty calls didn’t upset me. I wished I could say the same about the silence from Ash and Jeff. Duke’s silence, well… what the fuck else was new? That motherfucker has been waiting for me to trip up for years now.
Yet I couldn’t quite handle the silence of my house. The place barely felt like it was mine, I spent so little time here. You never realize how used to the noise you are until everything suddenly goes quiet. You’re left standing there wondering what the fuck happened, feeling vaguely like something was stalking up to eat you. That’s how it felt, regardless of what I tried to do to occupy myself. I paced, restless, until it was too much to take.
I looked out the window and was greeted by a roiling gray sky. Already the glass dripped with raindrops. I loved storms. I wanted to be out in it.
In my walk-in closet, I threw on the first pair of torn jeans I put my hands on. Same with the band shirt. Not mine, of course. Then I grabbed my gray hoodie and leather jacket combo and shrugged it over my shoulders. A quick glance in the mirror with my hood up made me feel a little better about going out. As a heavily muscled international rock star covered in tattoos, it was more than a little difficult to move around in the world without being spotted. I’d never been afraid to go out before, but I was starting to understand agoraphobes.
Thornwood used to be the place where I didn’t have to be anyone but myself. Thornwood was home. Now, though… now even this place felt like it was turning on me.
The rain drizzled down my jacket as I stepped out and into my pickup truck, a ’72 Ford I restored before Cut Up Angels hit it big. As she rumbled to life under my touch, I smiled, running my hands over the smooth leather of the steering wheel. She was a beautiful truck, and I felt powerful driving her. For a minute I just sat in the driveway, listening to her purr, letting CO2 pump into the atmosphere and secretly hoping it would be my exhaust that made global warming kill us all. Preferably in the next ten minutes.
The thought of dying made me think of graveyards, and suddenly I knew where I could go. Thornwood—hell, the whole fucking planet—might throw me to the wolves, but there was one place that never would.
Ten minutes later, I pulled into the near-empty parking lot of the Graveyard Club off Cherry Highway. It was an old, brick building with last-man-standing stubbornness that was shared by her owner. This place made me who I was, but more importantly, fans didn’t know about it. I didn’t talk about it in interviews or press because I never wanted this place to come under someone’s knife because of me. This was my sanctuary. My second home.
Even the gravel under my boots sounded the same. I smiled as I opened the door and walked into the dark, dingy space. Dust float
ed in the air, and overhead some black metal band I didn’t recognize was playing softly, as if it were elevator music. A few barflies nursed their drinks at the counter. Near the small corner stage, a few skinny young dudes with tools and wires huddled deep in conversation around some of the sound equipment. I didn’t recognize anyone until Kevin Galloway came out from the back room. He spotted me almost immediately, and a big, stupid smile overtook his weathered face.
“Holy Jupiter shit,” said Kevin, his voice like sandpaper from years of heavy chain-smoking. “When the fuck did you blow into town, you son of a bitch?” He came out from around the counter with his arms open wide and embraced me tightly, even if I had to bend over a bit to make it work. The ancient metalhead smelled like cigarettes, pot, and pine. He was one of the original thrashers of the Seattle scene, and had forgotten more about music and the rocker lifestyle than I would ever know. The Graveyard Club was his baby.
“Only a few days ago,” I replied, clapping him on the shoulder. “I’m really fucking glad to see this place is still here. I’d heard some things.”
“Oh man, lemme tell ya,” said Kevin as he crossed his arms in front of his chest. He shook his head. “Things are bad in the scene, Noah. Venues are closing left and right. It’s not like it used to be.”
“Are you in trouble?” I asked, my mind wandering to the secret stash of cash I kept buried in my yard at home. He didn’t know it, but I’d give up everything I had to keep Kevin and the club on its feet.
“Nah,” he said, stretching out the last syllable with a wave of his hand. “Things are slow, but they’re not all that bad.”
“If they get that bad, you better fucking tell me.”
“I will, I will!” he said. “Lemme get you a drink. You staying for the show tonight? It’s gonna be a rager.”
As I looked around the room, I couldn’t imagine anywhere else I’d want to be. “Fuck yes, I am. On one condition.”
“Anything, my boy.”
“We don’t talk about why I’m home.”
Kevin’s face fell a bit into a worried hangdog expression. There was no way he hadn’t heard about it, just like everyone else around here. Hell, he probably heard about it first, considering his connections in the industry. He shook his head. “We don’t have to talk about anything like that, Noah. I’m just glad to see you.”
Relief flooded my veins. “I’m glad to see you too. Not quite glad to be home, really… or rather, home seems like it’s not glad to see me.”
“Fuck these idiot townies,” said Kevin immediately. “They sure like the wolves until they prod one into biting. No one’s going to fuck with you in here, you understand? This is your home.”
I smiled. “Thank you, Kev. Seriously.”
“Don’t mention it. You still a Jameson man?”
~ TWO ~
Laurel
FIVE DAYS LATER
I’d packed very particularly, but it felt like I’d left my confidence in a bag somewhere between the red-eye flight I caught last minute at JFK and the layover in Denver. In ten minutes I had strewn my hotel room with dresses and jeans, black shirts and bright tank tops, trying to find some magic combination of clothing that made me feel invincible. Or hell, just make me feel okay.
I never got this nervous before a job. What was wrong with me? Maybe it was the shitty airline food messing with my blood sugar.
As I rifled through my bag, the sound of the TV blaring a commercial for the local news affiliate caught my attention. “Tonight at eleven—we speak to the childhood friends of rock star Noah Hardy about his latest legal trouble. And Seattle PD is in hot water again—you won’t believe why. Tune in.”
I shook my head at the news anchor, as if he could see me. Childhood friends, eh? Someone was desperate for a lead.
Finally, I unearthed the shirt from the depths of my bag and threw it on over my head. It had been a long time since I’d gone for this particular look, but as I wandered into the glowing white hotel bathroom, I had to give myself a smile. Ten years old and my torn-up skin-tight black jeans and band shirts still fit like a dream, accented by a studded, black leather belt. The combat boots, well… I had never really given those up.
My makeup was scattered out across the counter in a constellation of colors. I was going to need more than I usually cared to wear. In the debris field, I found a half-broken compact of deep maroon eyeshadow and used my pinky to sweep it across my eyelid in thick lines. It took me three false starts to get the swoop of my black eye liner just right, looking like the elaboration of a wrought-iron fence at the corner of my big, blue eyes. I’d splurged for a salon cut and color before I left New York, and my shoulder-length blonde mane was looking better than it had in months. Workaholics tend to push salon visits down to the bottom of the to-do list, but then, this wasn’t my usual job.
“All right,” I said to the skinny girl in the mirror. “You can do this.”
Something was missing. I looked myself up and down in the mirror’s reflection and decided it was lipstick I needed. I pulled out the brightest red from the counter mess and painted my pursed lips in the mirror.
“Oh, yeah,” I said with a grin. “He’s toast.”
I flipped the TV off and grabbed my leather jacket from one of the chairs near the window before double-checking that I had all my necessities: phone, wallet, keys, lipstick, pocket knife. I left the hotel room a mess and headed down to the lobby.
About halfway through the bright, high-ceilinged room, Steve appeared from out of the tiny gift shop with a plastic bag. He was older than me but athletic and good-natured, and I hadn’t seen him since we checked in yesterday. He’d been sick on the plane something fierce, but at least his face had some color now. His eyes widened as I approached.
“Holy shit,” he said. “You look great. DTF for sure.”
“Oh, fuck you,” I said with a flip of my middle finger.
“No, fuck him,” said Steve, pointing his finger up and over my head. I turned to look at the giant flat screen TV hanging over the fireplace. Another commercial for that story about Noah Hardy blared with a still photo of the rock star, his shirtless, tattooed chest exposed as he screamed like a banshee into a microphone at some concert.
“Yeah, right,” I said absently. “So, what’s the deal, are you feeling better? You still look a little queasy.” We ignored the businessmen and tourist families moving around us as we spoke.
Steve gave an earnest shrug and held up the plastic bag from the gift shop. “Better, but still bad enough I needed this. I think I’d just be holding you back if I came out with you tonight.”
I bit my lip, concerned. “I’d hate to miss an opportunity if it comes along…”
“So don’t,” said Steve. “You don’t have to wait for me to get this started. I’m basically back-up, right?”
I pulled out a piece of paper from my jacket pocket and made him take a picture of it with his phone. “I went around to some of the record shops today and did some asking. Took me a few hours, but I’ve got a couple different sources that think Noah and Duke are both in town, roaming around, but the others haven’t been spotted.”
Steve made a thinking noise as he overlooked the list of clubs I had given him. “They could just be trying to impress a pretty girl.”
“It would not be the dumbest thing a man has done to impress me,” I said, and meant it. “Nevertheless, there are enough similarities in the stories that my gut tells me it’s worth checking out.”
“So, what’s your plan?”
“One of the record store owners says he’s heard Noah’s looking for new band members, scouting out his old hardcore haunts, and the like. A couple other dudes said they’ve seen him at shows in the last two weeks, so it seems like a safe bet to get out to some and see if I can’t stumble across him.”
Steve nodded and put his phone in his pocket. “That’s good. That’s clean. Doesn’t sound like me spending the night with some room service and Pepto Bismol is going to slow you d
own even a little.”
I shrugged. “I am pretty good at what I do.”
“And I must give the obligatory dude speech of ‘please don’t get yourself into trouble…’ ”
I held up a palm and shoved it slowly onto Steve’s mouth until he was muttering gibberish and half-smiling underneath it. “No, you mustn’t, unless you want some trouble yourself. I’ll check in with you tomorrow and see how you’re feeling, tell you how the night went.”
“Knock ‘em dead, Laurel,” said Steve. He clapped a friendly hand on my shoulder and headed for the elevators.
I growled as I slumped into the driver’s seat of my rental car. It took me two tries to get the key in the unfamiliar ignition, but once I did the car flooded with warmth and made me feel a little better. I hadn’t even been in the Funhouse long enough to let the engine cool off, despite the chilly, wet Seattle night. The car smelled like pine and moss, a combination that surprisingly sent a feeling of calm through my nerves. With eyes closed, it was easy to imagine I was out in the middle of some quiet forest, instead of idling in a dive bar parking lot after a night of failure.
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