by Donna Hill
The phone rang three times before Jewel’s eighteen-year-old daughter, Danielle, picked up.
“Hey, Dani. It’s Nikita.”
“Hi, Aunt Niki. How are ya?”
“Just fine.” Nikita laughed. She was tickled every time Danielle called her “Aunt.” Jewel had a strict rule in her house: adults were addressed as Ms. or Mr. so-and-so, or they were inducted into the family as honorary aunts or uncles, an African practice. Nikita had opted for family status.
“How’s everything with school?”
“My second year at Howard was phat! I had a ball, and the most gorgeous men—chocolate-chip heaven with a little macadamia for variety.”
Nikita laughed along with Danielle. “Sounds good, but what about your classes?”
“Oh, those. I aced them. No prob.”
Danielle had been an above “A” student since grammar school, skipped grade levels twice and received a full four-year scholarship to Howard.
“Keep it up. I know your mother is proud.”
“She oughta be. Maintaining my social calendar and a 4.0 ain’t easy.” She chuckled.
“I can imagine. Where is the lady of the house?”
“She just got out of the shower. Hang on, I’ll get her. Take it easy, Aunt Nik. Come out and see me before I go back.”
“I’ll try.”
A few moments later Jewel’s softly Southern voice came on the line.
“Hey, girl. It’s been too long. How are you?”
“Pretty good. Just needed some girl talk.”
“In that case, let me assume the girl talk position.” Jewel fluffed two oversize down pillows behind her, crossed her legs and sat back. “All right, who is he?”
“Why does it have to be a he? Maybe I’m just calling to get your opinion on a new outfit.”
“Girl, pleeze. I know good and well you didn’t make this toll call from Long Island to Connecticut to ask me about some clothes. Unless we’re trying to devise a way to keep that thieving Parris out of our closets!”
They both erupted in a fit of laughter, thinking of all the missing items that mysteriously turned up on Parris’s long, lean body.
“Yeah, Parris thinks she’s in Paris when she shops at my house,” Nikita said, chuckling.
“I just don’t understand it,” Jewel continued. “Girl makes enough money to buy her own department store.”
“Don’t I know it. But she says it keeps her close to us because she’s away all the time. She keeps a little piece of us with her.”
“I know,” Jewel replied, sobering. “Whatever helps. I know I couldn’t lead that kind of life for all the money in the world. I need roots.”
“That’s the truth. At least she has a man who understands and accepts her lifestyle.”
“Which brings me back to my original question—who is he? And take as long as you want to tell me all about him. It’s your quarter.”
Nikita took a breath. “Well, his name is Quinten Parker…”
“So, you have nothing in common. He acts and talks like the characters in that Sugar Hill movie with Wesley Snipes. You’re not sure what he does for a living and don’t want to think about it, and you can’t wait to see him again. That about right?” Jewel brushed another coat of clear polish on her toes.
“Gosh, Jewel, you don’t have to make it sound like that.” The scenario did sound rather awful.
“If it’s not like that, then tell me what it is like. I mean, be real and tell me.”
Nikita took a long, thoughtful breath. “I know he represents everything I’ve been told to stay away from. And on the outside he seems like a real character. But beneath it all is a humanity, a sensitivity, a goodness. I can just feel it. I know this all sounds crazy, but—”
“Listen Niki, nothing is crazy when it comes to a person and their feelings. They can’t be explained most of the time. There are no real rules or regulations. Sometimes you just have to go with how you feel and hope for the best. Don’t worry about how everyone else is going to feel about your decision. You’re the only one who has to live with your choices. If I’d worried about how everyone was going to feel about me and Taj, I would have never married him, and I’d have missed out on the greatest experience of my life.
“Sister, I can’t sit here polishing my toes and tell you he’s the wrong one for you. I can’t tell you he’s the one, either. Only the two of you and time can tell.”
“Yes. You’re right. I was feeling the same way. I guess I just needed to hear my thoughts out loud. The truth is, I don’t know how it is,” she blew out in frustration. “He scares me—in an I-want-to-get-back-on-that-ride-again kind of scary. He’s not like the men I’ve dated. He’s crude, but sensual, and as much as he puts on the tough guy act, there’s something else there. Something gentle and needy.”
“The only advice I can offer is to go slow. And be sure of your reasons for getting involved.”
“Yo, Max!” Quinn called out of his car window, simultaneously blowing his horn.
Maxine slowed her long-legged strut and turned in the direction of the familiar voice. When her gaze rested on Quinn’s smiling face, the heavy baggage of her day, of dealing with corporate backstabbing and annoying customers, seemed to slide from her shoulders. She hadn’t seen Quinn since he moved out of the neighborhood. She’d asked around and heard through the vine that he was still looking good and doing well. He’d taken some time off from working for Remy, but word had it that he was back.
Quinn pulled alongside Max and put the car in park. “Hey, baby. Long time. Lookin’ good.”
Maxine jutted her hip and accessorized it with her hand. “You don’t look so bad yourself—stranger. Just forgot all about your friends.” She adjusted her shoulder bag. “How you been?”
He shrugged and half smiled. “Awright. Hangin’ in. Where you headed?”
“Home. Where else?” she joked.
“Get in. I’ll take you.”
“That’s what you better have said,” she teased.
Quinn broke out laughing and realized that he actually missed seeing her.
Maxine slid in next to Quinn and all the months without seeing him slipped away. His scent, those delicious dimples and that cool arrogance. Damn, she’d missed him.
“So what’s been happenin’, Max? I been kinda out of touch, ya know.”
“Yeah, I know.”
Their gazes touched in silent understanding.
“I finished that course I told you about,” she said, moving away from the painful memories. “Got my certificate and everything.”
“Congrats, baby. Knew you could do it. No doubt. We gonna have to celebrate,” he grinned. “What you wanna do? Name it, you got it.”
“No shit?”
Quinn looked at her and burst out laughing. “Yeah, no shit.” He’d forgotten how regular Max could get when she wanted to. “So, what’s it gonna be? Your call.”
“You know what I’d really like to do, Quinn?”
“What?”
“I’d like to see your new place. See what you’ve done with it.”
Quinn nodded. “Cool. Here we go.”
Chapter 7
Letting It Go
“This is n-i-c-e, Q,” Maxine said, walking through the spacious duplex. “You always did keep a fly place.” She ran her hands along the polished wood of the old piano and her chest constricted with memories. She’d gone with Lacy the day she’d picked it out for Quinn’s birthday. “I know he’ll love this,” Lacy had said. “And he’ll never do it for himself, so it’s up to me. Crazy man needs a gentle push every now and then,” she’d added, giving Maxine a you-need-to-take-this-advice-and-run-with-it look. But she hadn’t. She just couldn’t. She needed Quinn to see for himself without any pushing from her. “You still play?”
“Naw. Not really.”
“Because of Lacy?” she asked gently.
He shrugged and crossed to the other side of the living room and turned on the stereo. “Somethin’ li
ke that,” he mumbled. He sat down on the couch and stared down at his folded hands. Maxine took a spot next to him, placing her hands atop his.
He looked at her, then turned away.
“Lacy wouldn’t want you to stop being all you could just because she’s not here to nag at you, Q.”
They looked at each other and kind of smiled reminiscent smiles.
“I keep tryin’ to tell myself that, Max. It don’t work. Every-time I even think about playin’, writin’—I just lose it.”
“It’s hard. I know it is. She was my best friend for as long as I can remember. Sometimes I get ready to pick up the phone to call her because I know she can lift my spirit, and then I remember.” She swallowed back the swell that rose to her throat. “But you gotta hang tough. You gotta.” She reached out and squeezed his hand.
They sat in silence for a long while, just easy in each other’s company. Relaxing in the memories they each had of Lacy.
“Funny thing, ya know,” Quinn said after a while. “One day last week, I stepped into this club. It was empty ’cept for the bartender, and I checked this phat baby grand, ya know,” he said, his voice building in enthusiasm. “So I just sat down and played this joint I had been savin’ to play for Lacy…” His voice trailed away.
“Yeah, Q, I’m listening. So, tell me, what happened. You just plopped yourself down there like you owned the place.” She grinned. “And what else?” She wanted to keep him talking, to let him get it out. Over the years she’d seen how quickly he could close himself off, shut down and Fort Knox people out. As if there was so much inside that he didn’t know how to share. Lacy had been the only one that could ever get to him. And Max had watched and listened on those rare occasions when she got to witness Lacy working her magic on Quinn.
“Well, this brother, Nick, he owns the joint. He heard me play, ya know—”
“And…” She grinned, hunching him in the ribs. “You’re killin’ me with the suspense.”
“He offered me a gig.”
“What!” she squealed. “Get out. Just like that.” She snapped her fingers. “You know you bad, Q. Just admit it and go head on.”
He couldn’t help but laugh. Max was funny. “I ain’t all that.”
“You a liar. We been trying to tell you for years. But seriously. You got the job. So when can I come down and hear you rock?”
He blew out a breath and stood. “You can’t, ’cause I ain’t gonna play.”
Maxine watched him, that tall, proud, handsome black man, trying to hide his pain, anger and confusion from her. She was the only person other than Lacy who knew how truly gifted Quinn was. Many a night she’d stood outside his apartment door and listened to his grab-you-by-the-heart music wafting to her ears. Without Quinn’s knowledge, Lacy had shared some of his poems and short stories. They were great—at least she thought so. But she also knew how fiercely Quinn guarded that part of his life.
“Listen, Q, I’m not the one to tell you your business, or how to feel. I just think you’re making a mistake. Not giving yourself a real chance. But that’s on you. Whatever you decide is cool with me. You know that.”
“I hear you.”
“Nuff said. Now, how much congratulations do I still have left?” she asked, grinning, that toothpick-wide gap in her teeth winking at him.
“Say what?”
“You heard me. I’m not a one-stop shopper. What else do I get to ask for?”
“Whatever your pretty little self desires.”
“I’m hungry. That club you were talking about, do they serve food?”
“Yeah.”
“Then let’s get ta steppin’.”
“Woman, you’re pressin’ your luck.” He chuckled. “Better be glad I kinda like you. Get your stuff before I change my mind.”
The band was in full swing when they arrived. Couples were on the floor, at tables, talking nose to nose and just hanging out.
“This is sweet, Q,” Maxine said, taking a look around before he helped her into her seat.
“Yeah, it’s cool,” he responded absently, wondering what he was gonna tell Nick if he saw him, or Nikita’s friend Parris. Man, what was on his brain rolling up in here? He was gonna look like a real punk. He should have taken Max someplace else. He didn’t have any business in here. But the truth was he’d wanted to come back. Had been thinking about it for days. But he figured since he stood Nick up like that, there wouldn’t be anything he could say. That’s just how it was. Man can’t be making excuses for reneging.
“Is that the piano you were talking about, Q?” Maxine asked, cutting into his thoughts.
He slanted his eyes in the direction of the baby grand and that old tingling sensation started in his fingers.
“Yeah.”
“You’d probably sound real good on that. It looks like they haven’t found anybody yet,” she hedged, peeking at him from the corner of her eye.
“Naw, it don’t.” He crossed his arms in front of him, leaned back and stretched out his long legs. Maybe he still could give it a shot. Nick seemed like an all right brother. He knew Max was right when she was talking about not giving up just because Lacy wasn’t around to nag at him. He needed to do this because deep inside it was what he loved doing. Well, it was all over but the shouting, anyway. He was supposed to have started a week ago and never showed, which shifted his thoughts to Nikita. What was Nikita thinking about it? Females like her must be used to dudes acting correct. Even though she acted as if she understood, she couldn’t.
The waitress came to their table to take their order. Max and Quinn had both loved shrimp in a basket since they were kids, and ordered one large basket each with a side order of onion rings. Just like old times.
“You sure haven’t changed.” Quinn chuckled.
“You should talk. I can only aspire to consume as much shrimp and onion rings as you have in your lifetime, my brother.”
“You don’t have no problem holdin’ your own, my sistah,” he teased.
Maxine rolled her eyes and smiled.
Their drinks arrived.
Maxine lifted her glass of rum and coke to Quinn’s Jack Daniels.
“To better days, Q,” she saluted softly.
“No doubt.” He took a long swallow. “So, what’s gonna happen with this certificate thing?”
“Well, I’m going to look for something part-time at a travel agency so I can get some hands-on experience.” She took a sip of her drink. “I’ve been saving my money and I’m with this investment plan at the bank. I’m hoping I can open my own place in about a year. At least, that’s the plan.”
Quinn slowly nodded his head, taking it all in. Knowing how determined Maxine always was, he figured she’d pull it off. “Maybe I’ll be your first customer.”
“Yeah. I’ll send you someplace exotic, like to one of the islands or something.”
He chuckled. “If you need any help, ya know, like with paying for your spot, or anything, you just tell me. I got some loot stashed. No problem.”
Maxine smiled, feeling warm all over, and knew it had nothing to do with her drink. She looked down at the remains in her glass. “Just knowing that you have my back means a lot, Q. But you know,” she said, looking into his eyes, “I have to do this on my own. Prove something to myself—that I can do it.” She shrugged and half smiled, looking at him. “Know what I mean?”
“Yeah, I hear ya, Max. It’s all good. Just don’t forget what I said, anyway.”
“I won’t.” She grinned, flashing that toothpick gap. She put her glass down and leaned closer toward him. “Q, I’ve been thinking a lot about Lacy’s death and all the B.S. the cops gave us about what happened.”
He felt that old knot tighten in his gut, but he forced himself to listen. He took another swallow of his drink and signaled the waitress for another one.
“Q.” She placed her hand on his, knowing how hard it was for him, but she needed him to know what she was planning and she wanted his support.
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sp; He tugged on his bottom lip with his teeth. “I’m listenin’.”
“Not talking about Lacy, putting aside everything that she was, what she meant to the both of us, is not going to make this fuckin’ pain go away. We’re never going to walk through our doors and see her again, or hear her singing in her kitchen. All she ever wanted for anybody was the best, Q. She gave everything that she was to everyone that mattered to her. So we need to do her some justice, too.”
His nostrils flared as he sucked in air. He swallowed, but his voice still came out gravelly and hoarse. “What’re you talkin’ about, Max?”
“I’ve been talking with a friend of mine. You know Valerie?” He nodded. “She works at the bank and goes to law school at night. She thinks we may have a case. Wrongful death. We may be able to sue the police department.”
“Sue!” He threw his hands up in the air. “What the hell for? All the gottdamn money in the world ain’t gonna bring her back, Max.”
“No. It won’t. But it can bring to justice the bastards that killed her. Somethin’ ain’t right, Q. The cops have been playing games with us for months. They think because we’re black we’re automatically too stupid to care, or if we do care, too dumb to do anything about it. To them it’s just one more black body out of the way.”
He was listening now, really listening, fueled by Maxine’s energy. “So what’re you sayin’, get a lawyer and file a suit?”
“Exactly.”
He rolled the idea around in his head. For the past few months, he’d done everything in his power to seal up the hurt, the anger. The only way he found he could do that was to distance himself from all the things that reminded him of his twin sister. New neighborhood, everything. Maybe that wasn’t the route. He sure as hell knew it didn’t work. It was like putting a Band-Aid on a wound from an Uzi; everything still kept seeping out.