Annie Freeman's Fabulous Traveling Funeral

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by Kris Radish


  “It also sounds like Jill will be getting a new roommate,” Marie says.

  “I’m thinking of chucking half of my life, maybe reevaluate the passion I have for everything I am doing, figuring out what I want to do beyond all of this lawyering and schedules and working weekends that I’ve done for way too many years,” Katherine says.

  “Really?” Marie asks.

  “I’m tired of keeping all those balls in the air, you know?” Katherine pushes her back into the cushion and closes her eyes. “The immense court calendar, schedules, my damn boyfriend—who seems to be more bother than he’s worth some days—taking care of the house. Maybe it’s time to simplify my life.”

  “Whew, all this from a traveling funeral?” Marie says.

  “It’s all been swirling around me, I think,” Katherine explains. “We’ve been talking about it all week. I’ve just not bothered to sit still long enough and link it all together.”

  “Another gift from Annie.”

  “That’s not all,” Laura says, leaning over from the seat across the aisle. “There’s one more thing—well, probably more than one more thing—but something else that’s going to be a big change for me and probably for Rebecca too.”

  The women look at her, waiting, wondering, as Jill leans in across her seat to listen and says, “What the hell?”

  “I’m really going to seriously consider buying Annie’s house and moving there.”

  No one but Marie, who has not been on board long enough to hear the earlier discussions, seems surprised. Laura explains to Marie how she and her husband have been considering moving for several years and how Annie talked to her about buying the house before she died.

  “For a long time, when our daughter took off, we kept saying how we couldn’t leave because she might come back at any moment,” Laura tells Marie. “But this is just how she is. She’ll be fine. She just can’t stand still and remember for months and months that there’s anyone but her in the entire universe. We’ve both been tired of the city for a long time and we are both pretty transferable.”

  Rebecca can barely imagine it. “Really?”

  “Really,” Laura responds, smiling widely.

  “Do you take out your own garbage?”

  “Never.”

  “Then you have my vote,” Rebecca laughs.

  Laura said that their modest Chicago bungalow had been appraised way higher than they had imagined and that Tom was prepared to transfer to a smaller company in Sonoma County, where the cost of living was actually cheaper than in Chicago and much closer to the vineyards, as Tom liked to say. They had decided that their roving daughter would be able to find them if she ever chose to come home.

  Her work at the women’s center, Laura says, can transfer to numerous nonprofit agencies in one of the cities or towns near Annie’s house that are always looking for someone with lots of experience who is willing to work long hours for low pay, and with little or no hope of advancement or a salary increase.

  “Perfect for me,” she says, laughing. “That’s where my heart is anyway.”

  “Laura, this is unreal, fabulous, perfect news,” Rebecca says, trying to get out of her seat to embrace Laura. “Do you have any idea what this means?”

  “Well, if this trip is any indication, it means we could be in really big trouble.”

  “Balinda?”

  “She’ll be okay. Actually, having her on the trip and seeing that she is getting ready to fly again, without an airplane, helped make my decision become even more clear. We have sort of been taking care of each other, even though Balinda thinks I have been taking care of her. I think this traveling funeral helped her get her life back.”

  “My God!” Jill exclaims, slapping her hands against her thighs. “All we need is Barbra Streisand to come up the aisle singing and I think we’ve got ourselves a musical.”

  Their words become a kind of musical as they sing through the days they have just shared and the messages that cradled them through hours of grieving.

  “It’s so odd, isn’t it,” Jill asks, “that we know we are all going to die and that we have these difficult passages to go through with our parents and friends and other people we love and care about who are also going to die. And yet it’s almost as if we are never really ready. Does that make sense?”

  “Well,” Laura tells her, “it’s one thing to think about it but then the reality of it, when it really happens, is like a breathtaking and almost frightening experience. We all knew Annie was dying but when the boys called us to tell us that she really had died, it was as if that was the first time we even knew she was sick.”

  “Nothing can prepare you,” Rebecca says quietly.

  “Exactly,” Laura agrees. “And it will happen again and again. Balinda’s mom will die, my mom will probably end up living with us, one of your friends will die of breast cancer . . . it is sort of endless.”

  A luscious moment of silence slips into the conversation for just a second, not longer than it takes for a true thought to climb its way into the minds of each one of the women.

  “I’ll say it,” Rebecca says. “Annie’s thing was to concentrate on the living. To honor every day and every person in some interesting way because that’s what you had, just that one moment.”

  “True,” Katherine adds. “I think she thought it was important to honor a life, the way it was lived, the potential it had to grow and change. But she also wanted us, and now all the people we have touched, to see that saluting someone after they die can be done in a way that allows us to grieve and to celebrate. Does that make sense?”

  Of course, they agree.

  Of course Annie was one of the most alive and vibrant people they had ever known and her ability to reach places in people through roadblocks and long tunnels and sealed off passageways was remarkable. It was also remarkable that she thought they saved her and how they think she saved them.

  Of course there are many ways to celebrate death and life and of course as they bounce into their forties and fifties and sixties the fingers of time grow a bit longer and yet, they agree, and yet life does not stop. Life does not stop or wait even if you do. Pause if you must, the women agree, but then catch up fast, run with the wind, slide down the hill tumbling headfirst so that you can fall into the hands of now—today, every day, every minute, every second.

  Of course it is also okay to hold on to your grief and ride it as if your own life depended on it through a sea of rough water, waves as high as heaven, through the thunderous barrage of emotions that are the very heart of loss—any loss—love, death, job—a slice of a segment of your life that made up the whole.

  Of course they also agree—the whole damn world needs to have more fun. A hell of a lot more fun.

  Which is what they decide to do during the last two hours of the plane ride once they have called Marie’s husband on the fun in-seat phone to make certain he will be at the airport to drive them all to Rebecca’s house before they scatter back to their own worlds with fresh wind under their wings. First they tap the edges of Annie’s shoebox as a concluding salute and slip the funeral book inside it for safekeeping during the last hours of the traveling funeral and once they have agreed to celebrate with as many people on the plane who want to celebrate and share the secrets of the formation of a traveling funeral and the life of Annie G. Freeman.

  Before they can leap into more conversations or walk to the bathroom or have an engaging session with all the fine folks on the plane who have been sending them notes and trying to buy them drinks they hear a tapping on the intercom system. They think it’s a weather report but it isn’t. It’s not a weather report at all.

  “Ladies and gentlemen, and you too Frank,” a woman laughs into the intercom. “Sorry, I had to say it. This is Beverly, the head flight attendant again, but maybe not for long after this. My wonderful friend Frank, who everyone on the plane knows now, has something he’d like to say, so sit up, get your head off the tray and out of your horrid dinner and l
isten up.”

  Who wouldn’t be listening up? The women look at each other, laugh out loud and yes, right into their horrid dinners and wait for whatever in the heck Mr. Frank has to say.

  “I should throw you out the window,” he tells the attendant, “but as most of you know, we have more important things to do.”

  Something has obviously happened that Annie G. Freeman’s pallbearers know nothing about because the entire plane, without them, is clapping.

  “Katherine, can you come up here for a second?”

  Katherine looks around and realizes Frank is talking to her. Laura pushes her to her feet and Katherine swaggers to the front of the plane where Frank is waiting for her.

  He begins by telling her that every single person on the airplane, all 289 of them, was stranded at the airport at the same time as Katherine and her friends. He tells her he is a minister but before that he was a real person, just a man, and that the entire planeload of passengers has been touched by the traveling funeral, by what they know and have learned about Annie G. Freeman and the friends she has, who have been whooping it up across the country to honor her life.

  “This isn’t about religion or anything more subtle than us, every single person on this plane, wanting to let you know and Annie if we could, that we agree there is more than one way to live and more than one way to celebrate a life after it’s over,” he tells Katherine, wrapping his arm around her shoulders. “We passed the hat and collected fourteen hundred dollars that we want to donate in her name to one of the scholarship funds for Annie’s programs we found online that help kids who need just a bit of a push to the next truck stop.”

  Katherine is astounded.

  Laura is astounded.

  Rebecca is astounded.

  Marie is astounded.

  Jill is astounded.

  “Before you say anything,” Frank goes on, “we also want you to know that you have given us a fine glimpse into the heart of uncommon friendship, the spirit of grieving—which we all do and have done and will do again—and a notion that having a great time, of grabbing a moment even if it’s just a stranded moment at the airport, is just as important as turning off the hall light before you go to bed. We think you are all terrific.”

  The noise from the clapping is just as loud as the engines and then the pilot comes on and tells Katherine that any time her girls need to go on another traveling funeral they should give him a call and he’ll make sure they get a smooth ride.

  Katherine hesitates for just a second and then she takes the microphone and tells them all, “Thank you.” She hesitates again, and then says:

  “We thought this was going to be an intimate celebration for a woman, a friend who was a very important part of our lives, but as many of you know, as we rolled into one day after another we realized that not only are there many ways to grieve but that sharing sorrow, reaching out, being honest about your loss is as important as anything,” she tells them. “If someone had told me a month ago that I’d be standing up here and lecturing an airplane crowd, I would have checked them in to the nearest hospital. I know Annie would have said go kiss someone, go swim naked, go quit the job you hate, go celebrate your own life before it’s over. Go. Do something and do it with gusto and gratitude and with a laugh at the back of your throat, a laugh that never ends.”

  Holy shit.

  “Holy shit” is what Annie G. Freeman’s fabulous friends think and say as Katherine sits back down and the plane circles toward San Francisco and dips its wings to the ocean, a salute, a homecoming high-five, and then lands into a world that will never be, should never be, the same.

  Hours later, when Rebecca, Katherine, Laura, Jill and Marie are sitting on the back steps of Rebecca’s house and have watched the afternoon sky float in circles—darkness chasing light in the nightly ritual—the women each take a breath, the wind stops for just a second, there are no birds winging across the line of trees searching for a night nest that will cradle their wings, the sound of traffic echoing from one hill to the next disappears and they all lean forward as if someone has gently pushed them from behind.

  They lean forward and they look around the corner into the next day, that tiny sliver of light that never really fades, that stays glued to the edge of the world no matter how tight the darkness descends, and they catch the scent of something that they remember as earthy, sweet, bold and warm. It is the scent of Annie wrapping her arms around each of them as they move forward in directions that a great cartographer would need a new map to follow. It is a scent that will always stay with each of them. It is the fuel each needs to remember, to move forward, and it will never ever go away.

  Epilogue

  The women all decided to spend the night at Rebecca’s and they spread out with blankets and old sleeping bags from the porch to the living room and upstairs into the two back bedrooms. During the night, just three hours after they finally gave it up and no one could utter another word, a small rainstorm—the last bark of the mega-storm that stranded them in Minneapolis and left a wide slap across the nation—sprinkled its footprints on the lawn as if someone had been tiptoeing to try and get into the side windows.

  When they gathered for breakfast the following morning, slumped over coffee and scrambled eggs and a huge bowl of fruit that Marie had purchased at the roadside stand, they began sharing their night’s dreams.

  “My gawd,” Jill drawled. “I was on a boat with a mess of people I did not know and all of a sudden there was a parade. A parade on the water. Boats with lights and people dancing and dogs barking. It was awesome.”

  “What?” Laura asked just about the same moment as Rebecca, Marie and Katherine.

  What, because every single one of them had a dream that featured a parade and water. Waterfalls, a lake, Marie swimming toward some fireworks after a parade, a canoe ride up a river that ended up being part of an annual festival. The women looked at each other, shook their heads, said, “Annie,” and then kept going as if this kind of cosmic similarity had become a routine part of their lives.

  Laura stayed with Rebecca for a week and the two women spent a great deal of time at Annie’s house sorting through her personal effects with her two sons and then working out a final arrangement for Laura and her husband to purchase the house. After Annie’s sons took what they wanted—a few pieces of furniture, most of her books, and family treasures like photographs and the back porch swing where Annie loved to sit and talk to her boys—the women held a huge rummage sale that quickly turned into an Anniefest and a grand yard party for the entire neighborhood, the university community, and what seemed like half of California.

  Laura and Tom moved into Annie’s house three months later. Tom found a job at a small company as the business manager, and when the county restructured its facilities management plan and the director of emergency services retired, Laura applied for the position and got the job. It took her less than a month to reorganize the entire department and to design and apply for a grant to offer special programs for teenagers at risk that was quickly funded in full by an anonymous donor, identified only as “the man from Minneapolis” who only asked that the program be named after Annie G. Freeman.

  Tom’s brother, an English teacher from a small college in the Midwest, spent a week helping Laura and Tom move in and unpack and by the end of the week had spent most of his time trying to seduce Rebecca who was just as smitten as he was. He made it into the bedroom on the last night, sent her a plane ticket for a weekend visit, and at this very moment is flying back to visit her for the third weekend in a row.

  Rebecca, happy to the point of making everyone—including her new neighbors—nauseous with the romantic turn of events in her life, threw herself off the cliff of love and also managed to design several new marketing programs for her office that made them forget all of the time she had taken off to care for her dying relatives and to go on a traveling funeral that was now and forever part of the legend of Sonoma County.

  Laura and Tom never
locked their doors, Rebecca never locked hers and as her neighbors gradually turned Annie’s house into their own, a wonderful synergy of give and take, a kind of communal living that made way for the traveling brother, Annie’s boys—who are really men—and Marden, Rebecca’s daughter, began to unfold and new stories and parties and memories were formed before the boxes were even unpacked.

  Balinda called not long after Laura and Tom’s old house sold to a family from Poland, who took over not only her yard to plant a garden but half of her mother’s life as well, to tell Laura that her daughter had just pulled up in a convertible looking for her.

  “I gave her your new address and she said to give you a call and let you know she’d be there in a few days unless she found an interesting side road that she needed to explore,” Balinda told her.

  The wayward daughter, Erin, who was really a fairly successful web designer who simply had the blood of a gypsy inside of her and could do business from the back of her car, a gas station bathroom or an eighty-nine-story building, did show up at Laura’s new home but it took her nine weeks to get there. She stayed for a very long time, which for her was more than two weeks, and when Annie’s son Donan came for a visit, the two hit it off like only opposites can.

  Donan, who drove a restored Dodge van and dressed like the world’s stereotypical image of a computer geek—button-down shirts, actually buttoned to the throat, khakis and loafers—loved the creative flow that he harnessed with Erin’s laughter and he offered to partner with her in a business that would allow her to live exactly how she wanted to live. She agreed but only if a certain percentage of their work was pro bono and if they did not accept work from ultraconservative groups or anyone who had ever spoken to, voted for or said one good thing about President George W. Bush. He reluctantly agreed and within three months the two of them—Donan, from downtown San Francisco, and the wayward daughter, when last heard from in an adobe cottage in southern Utah—were on the verge of becoming widely successful.

 

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