by Ken Follett
All right, he admitted, my motives are tainted and my ability is in doubt. Perhaps I should refuse to stand. At least I could be sure to avoid the sin of pride. But what was it that Cuthbert had said? "A man may just as easily frustrate the will of God through excessive humility."
What does God want? he asked himself finally. Does he want Remigius? Remigius's abilities are less than mine and his motives are probably no more pure. Is there another candidate? Not at present. Until God reveals a third possibility we must assume that the choice is between me and Remigius. It's clear that Remigius would run the monastery the way he ran it while Prior James was ill, which is to say that he would be idle and negligent and he would permit its decline to continue. And me? I'm full of pride and my talents are unproved--but I will try to reform the monastery, and if God gives me strength I shall succeed.
All right, then, he said to God as the service came to an end; all right. I'm going to accept nomination, and I'm going to fight with all the strength I have to win the election; and if you don't want me, for some reason that you've chosen not to reveal to me, well, then, you'll just have to stop me any way you can.
Although Philip had spent twenty-two years in monasteries, he had served under long-lived priors, so he had never known an election. It was a unique event in monastic life, for in casting their votes the brothers were not obliged to be obedient--suddenly they were all equal.
Once upon a time, if the legends were true, the monks had been equal in everything. A group of men would decide to turn their backs on the world of fleshly lust and build a sanctuary in the wilderness where they could live lives of worship and self-denial; and they would take over a patch of barren land, clearing the forest and draining the swamp, and they would till the soil and build their church together. In those days they really had been like brothers. The prior was, as his title implied, only the first among equals, and they swore obedience to the Rule of Saint Benedict, not to monastic officials. But all that was now left of that primitive democracy was the election of the prior and the abbot.
Some of the monks were uncomfortable with their power. They wanted to be told how to vote, or they suggested that the decision be referred to a committee of senior monks. Others abused the privilege and became insolent, or demanded favors in return for their support. Most were simply anxious to make the right decision.
In the cloisters that afternoon, Philip spoke to most of them, singly or in little groups, and told them all candidly that he wanted the job and he felt he could do it better than Remigius despite his youth. He answered their questions, most of which were about rations of food and drink. He ended each conversation by saying: "If each of us makes the decision thoughtfully and prayerfully, God will surely bless the outcome." It was the prudent thing to say and he also believed it.
"We're winning," said Milius the kitchener next morning, as Philip and he took their breakfast of horsebread and small beer while the kitchen hands were stoking the fires.
Philip bit off a hunk of the coarse dark bread and took a mouthful of beer to soften it. Milius was a sharp-witted, ebullient young man, a protege of Cuthbert's and an admirer of Philip. He had dark straight hair and a small face with neat, regular features. Like Cuthbert, he was happy to serve God in practical ways and miss most of the services. Philip was suspicious of his optimism. "How do you come to that conclusion?" he asked skeptically.
"All of Cuthbert's side of the monstery support you--the chamberlain, the infirmarer, the novice-master, myself--because we know you're a good provider, and provisions are the big problem under the present regime. Many of the ordinary monks will vote for you for a similar reason: they think you will manage the priory's wealth better, and that will result in more comfort and better food."
Philip frowned. "I wouldn't like to mislead anyone. My first priority would be to repair the church and smarten up the services. That comes before food."
"Quite so, and they know that," Milius said a little hastily. "That's why the guest-master and one or two others will still vote for Remigius--they prefer a slack regime and a quiet life. The others who support him are all cronies of his who anticipate special privileges when he's in charge--the sacrist, the circuitor, the treasurer and so on. The cantor is a friend of the sacrist, but I think he could be won over to our side, especially if you promise to appoint a librarian."
Philip nodded. The cantor was in charge of the music, and felt he should not have to take care of the books on top of his other duties. "It's a good idea anyway," Philip said. "We need a librarian to build up our collection of books."
Milius got off his stool and began to sharpen a kitchen knife. He had too much energy and had to be doing something with his hands, Philip decided. "There are forty-four monks entitled to vote," Milius said. There had been forty-five, of course, but one was dead. "My best estimate is that eighteen are with us and ten are with Remigius, leaving sixteen undecided. We need twenty-three for a majority. That means you have to win over five waverers."
"When you put it that way, it seems easy," Philip said. "How long have we got?"
"Can't tell. The brothers call the election, but if we do it too early the bishop may refuse to confirm our choice. And if we delay too long he can order us to call it. He also has the right to nominate a candidate. Right now he probably hasn't even heard that the old prior is dead."
"It could be a long time, then."
"Yes. And as soon as we're confident of a majority, you must go back to your cell, and stay away from here until it's all over."
Philip was puzzled by this proposal. "Why?"
"Familiarity breeds contempt." Milius waved the sharpened knife enthusiastically. "Forgive me if I sound disrespectful, but you did ask. At the moment you've got an aura. You're a remote, sanctified figure, especially to us younger monks. You worked a miracle at that little cell, reforming it and making it self-sufficient. You're a tough disciplinarian but you feed your monks well. You're a born leader but you can bow your head and accept rebuke like the youngest novice. You know the Scriptures and you make the best cheese in the country."
"And you exaggerate."
"Not much."
"I can't believe people think of me like that--it's not natural."
"Indeed it's not," Milius acknowledged with another little shrug. "And it won't last once they get to know you. If you stayed here you'd lose that aura. They'd see you pick your teeth and scratch your arse, they'd hear you snore and fart, they'd find out what you're like when you're bad-tempered or your pride is hurt or your head aches. We don't want them to do that. Let them watch Remigius blunder and bungle from day to day while your image remains shining and perfect in their minds."
"I don't like this," Philip said in a troubled voice. "It has a deceitful feeling to it."
"There's nothing dishonest about it," Milius protested.
"It's a true reflection of how well you would serve God and the monastery if you were prior--and how badly Remigius would rule."
Philip shook his head. "I refuse to pretend to be an angel. All right, I won't stay here--I have to go back to the forest anyway. But we must be straightforward with the brothers. We're asking them to elect a fallible, imperfect man, who will need their help and their prayers."
"Tell them that!" said Milius enthusiastically. "That's perfect--they'll love it."
He was incorrigible, Philip thought. He changed the subject. "What's your impression of the waverers--the brothers who haven't yet made up their minds?"
"They're conservative," Milius said without hesitation.
"They see Remigius as the older man, the one who will make fewer changes, the predictable one, the man who is effectively in charge at the moment."
Philip nodded agreement. "And they look at me warily, like a strange dog that may bite."
The bell rang for chapter. Milius swallowed the last of his beer. "There'll be some kind of attack on you now, Philip. I can't forecast what form it will take, but they will be trying to portray you as youthful, inexperienced, headstr
ong and unreliable. You must appear calm, cautious and judicious, but leave it to me and Cuthbert to defend you."
Philip began to feel apprehensive. This was a new way of thinking--to weigh his every move and calculate how others would interpret and judge it. A slightly disapproving tone crept into his voice as he said: "Normally, I only think about how God would view my behavior."
"I know, I know," Milius said impatiently. "But it's not a sin to help simpler folk see your actions in the right light."
Philip frowned. Milius was distressingly plausible.
They left the kitchen and walked through the refectory to the cloisters. Philip was highly anxious. Attack? What did that mean, an attack? Would they tell lies about him? How should he react? If people told lies about him he would be angry. Should he suppress his anger, in order to appear calm and conservative and all the rest? But if he did that, wouldn't the brothers think the lies were true? He was going to be his normal self, he decided; perhaps just a little more grave and dignified.
The chapter house was a small round building attached to the east walk of the cloisters. It was furnished with benches arranged in concentric rings. There was no fire, and it was cold after the kitchen. The light came from tall windows set above eye level, so there was nothing to look at but the other monks around the room.
Philip did just that. Almost the whole monastery was present. They were all ages from seventeen to seventy; tall and short, dark and fair; all dressed in the coarse homespun robe of unbleached wool and shod in leather sandals. The guest-master was there, his round belly and red nose revealing his vices--vices that might be pardonable, Philip thought, if he ever had any guests. There was the chamberlain, who forced the monks to change their robes and shave at Christmas and Whitsun (a bath at the same time was recommended but not compulsory). Leaning against the far wall was the oldest brother, a slight, thoughtful, unflappable old man whose hair was still gray rather than white; a man who spoke rarely but effectively; a man who probably should have been prior if he had not been so self-effacing. There was Brother Simon, with his furtive look and restless hands, a man who confessed to sins of impurity so often that (as Milius whispered to Philip) it seemed likely that he enjoyed the confession, not the sin. There was William Beauvis, behaving himself; Brother Paul, hardly limping at all; Cuthbert Whitehead looking self-possessed; John Small, the diminutive treasurer; and Pierre, the circuitor, the mean-mouthed man who had denied Philip his dinner yesterday. As Philip looked around he realized they were all looking at him, and he dropped his eyes, embarrassed.
Remigius came in with Andrew, the sacrist, and they sat by John Small and Pierre. So, Philip thought, they're not going to pretend to be anything other than a faction.
Chapter began with a reading about Simeon Stylites, the saint whose feast day it was. He was a hermit who had spent most of his life on top of a pillar, and while there could be no doubt about his capacity for self-denial, Philip had always harbored a secret doubt about the real value of his testimony. Crowds had flocked to see him, but had they come to be spiritually uplifted, or to look at a freak?
After the prayers came the reading of a chapter of Saint Benedict's book. It was from this reading of a daily chapter that the meeting, and the little building in which it took place, got their names. Remigius stood up to read, and as he paused with the book in front of him, Philip looked intently at his profile, seeing him for the first time through the eyes of a rival. Remigius had a brisk, efficient manner of moving and speaking which gave him an air of competence entirely at variance with his true character. Closer observation revealed clues to what was beneath the facade: his rather prominent blue eyes shifted about rapidly in an anxious way, his weak-looking mouth worked hesitantly two or three times before he spoke, and his hands clenched and opened repeatedly even though he was otherwise still. What authority he had came from arrogance, petulance and a dismissive way with subordinates.
Philip wondered why he had chosen to read the chapter himself. A moment later he understood. " 'The first degree of humility is prompt obedience,' " Remigius read. He had chosen Chapter Five, which was about obedience, to remind everyone of his seniority and their subordination. It was a tactic of intimidation. Remigius was nothing if not sly. " 'They live not as they themselves will, neither do they obey their own desires and pleasures; but following the command and direction of another and abiding in their monasteries, their desire is to be ruled by an abbot,' " he read. " 'Without doubt such as these carry out the saying of our Lord, I came not to do my own will, but the will of Him Who sent me.'" Remigius was drawing the battle lines in the expected way: in this contest he was to represent established authority.
The chapter was followed by the necrology, and today of course all prayers were for the soul of Prior James. The liveliest part of chapter was kept to the end: discussion of business, confession of faults and accusations of misconduct.
Remigius began by saying: "There was a disturbance during high mass yesterday."
Philip felt almost relieved. Now he knew how he was going to be attacked. He was not sure that his action yesterday had been right, but he knew why he had done it and he was ready to defend himself.
Remigius went on: "I myself was not present--I was detained in the prior's house, dealing with urgent business--but the sacrist has told me what occurred."
He was interrupted by Cuthbert Whitehead. "Don't reproach yourself on that account, Brother Remigius," he said in a soothing voice. "We know that, in principle, monastery business should never take precedence over high mass, but we understand that the death of our beloved prior has meant that you have to deal with many matters which are outside your normal competence. I feel sure we all agree that no penance is necessary."
The wily old fox, Philip thought. Of course, Remigius had had no intention of confessing a fault. Nevertheless, Cuthbert had pardoned him, hereby making everyone feel that a fault had indeed been admitted. Now, even if Philip were to be convicted of an error, it would do no more than put him on the same level as Remigius. In addition, Cuthbert had planted the suggestion that Remigius was having difficulty coping with the prior's duties. Cuthbert had completely undermined Remigius's authority with a few kindly-sounding words. Remigius looked furious. Philip felt the thrill of triumph tighten his throat.
Andrew Sacrist glared accusingly at Cuthbert. "I'm sure none of us would wish to criticize our revered sub-prior," he said. "The disturbance referred to was caused by Brother Philip, who is visiting us from the cell of St-John-in-the-Forest. Philip took young William Beauvis out of his place in the quire, hauled him over to the south transept, and there reprimanded him while I was conducting the service."
Remigius composed his face in a mask of sorrowful reproof. "We may all agree that Philip should have waited until the end of the service."
Philip examined the expressions of the other monks. They seemed neither to agree nor disagree with what was being said. They were following the proceedings with the air of spectators at a tournament, in which there is no right or wrong and the only interest is in who will triumph.
Philip wanted to protest If I had waited, the misbehavior would have gone on all through the service, but he remembered Milius's advice, and remained silent; and Milius spoke up for him. "I too missed high mass, as is frequently my misfortune, for high mass comes just before dinner; so perhaps you could tell me, Brother Andrew, what was happening in the quire before Brother Philip took this action. Was everything orderly and becoming?"
"There was some fidgeting among the youngsters," the sacrist replied sulkily. "I intended to speak to them about it later."
"It's understandable that you should be vague about the details--your mind was on the service," Milius said charitably. "Fortunately, we have a circuitor whose particular duty it is to attend to misbehavior among us. Tell us, Brother Pierre, what you observed."
The circuitor looked hostile. "Just what the sacrist has already told you."
Milius said: "It seems we'll have to a
sk Brother Philip himself for the details."
Milius had been very clever, Philip thought. He had established that neither the sacrist nor the circuitor had seen what the young monks were doing during the service. But although Philip admired Milius's dialectical skill, he was reluctant to play the game. Choosing a prior was not a contest of wits, it was a matter of seeking to know the will of God. He hesitated. Milius was giving him a look that said Now's your chance! But there was a stubborn streak in Philip, and it showed most clearly when someone tried to push him into a morally dubious position. He looked Milius in the eye and said: "It was as my brothers have described."
Milius's face fell. He stared incredulously at Philip. He opened his mouth, but visibly did not know what to say. Philip felt guilty about letting him down. I'll explain myself to him afterward, he thought, unless he's too angry.
Remigius was about to press on with the indictment when another voice said: "I would like to confess."
Everyone looked. It was William Beauvis, the original offender, standing up and looking shamefaced. "I was flicking pellets of mud at the novice-master and laughing," he said in a low, clear voice. "Brother Philip made me ashamed. I beg God's forgiveness and ask the brothers to give me a penance." He sat down abruptly.
Before Remigius could react, another youngster stood up and said: "I have a confession. I did the same. I ask for a penance." He sat down again. This sudden access of guilty conscience was infectious: a third monk confessed, then a fourth, then a fifth.
The truth was out, despite Philip's scruples, and he could not help feeling pleased. He saw that Milius was struggling to suppress a triumphant smile. The confession left no doubt that there had been a minor riot going on under the noses of the sacrist and the circuitor.
The culprits were sentenced, by a highly displeased Remigius, to a week of total silence: they were not to speak and no one was to speak to them. It was a harsher punishment than it sounded. Philip had suffered it when he was young. Even for one day the isolation was oppressive, and a whole week of it was utterly miserable.
But Remigius was merely giving vent to his anger at having been outmaneuvered. Once they had confessed he had no option but to punish them, although in punishing them he was conceding that Philip had been right in the first place. His attack on Philip had gone badly wrong, and Philip was triumphant. Despite a guilty pang, he relished the moment.