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Undeniable
Copyright © 2014 Tawdra Kandle
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Table of Contents
Prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Excerpt from Unquenchable
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Other Series You May Enjoy
Other Books from Hayson Publishing
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I DON’T BELIEVE in hell or even purgatory. Or at least I didn’t until the end of my senior year of high school.
Like most everything else in my life, I went at it backwards. I lived hell for two months before I graduated to limbo. Lucky me.
Because, yeah, being with her every day, seeing her, feeling her near me, yet knowing I no longer had the right to touch her, to talk to her—that was hell. Watching her struggle back from the edge she’d dangled over—and knowing I wasn’t allowed to help—was excruciating. Overhearing her talk about him—about being with him—give me eternal fire any day.
Each morning I dreaded getting out of my car, and each afternoon I came home and shut myself in my room. Or I went running. I ran a lot.
My grandparents didn’t say anything, and I loved them for that. I might have been able to feel their compassion, but they didn’t try to offer me words. They just stood back and let me go through it. Because I didn’t have any other choice but to put my head down and bull through it.
When graduation day finally arrived, I was almost giddy. The guy who sat next to me thought I was drunk. Nope, drunk would come later. I knew relief was almost within reach. After that day, I’d never have to see her again. Wouldn’t have to hear her voice, that sweet voice that still tore up my insides and made me want to drop to my knees and keen. Wouldn’t have to feel her presence—and her power—each time I turned a corner in school.
Yeah, thinking things through was never really my biggest strength.
Because it hit me, sitting there at graduation, listening to some school board member drone on about endings and beginnings and shit like that. I wasn’t going to see her again. After today, she would be completely beyond my reach. Unless we happened to run into one another—which I was going to make damn sure didn’t happen—this would be the end. The end of us.
Like there had ever really been an us.
For a few months, I had hoped. That night at the town green, listening to a half-decent band while we were out on a date I’d tricked her into, I had dared to hope. When she rose up on her knees next to me and kissed me, I had more than hoped. I’d dreamed. I’d believed.
I could make her forget him. I was more than enough for her. We were the ones who were supposed to be together. It might even have been part of that stupid King destiny crap I’d hated my whole life.
Okay, so I was delusional.
But for months, I let myself think it was possible. I kissed her whenever I could. I couldn’t keep my hands off her. I tried to pull her away from that she-demon, the chemistry-teacher-slash-witch who wanted to lure her into a web of darkness. I wanted to save her life, because part of me thought if I did, she could be mine forever.
Yep. Delusional.
So now here we were at graduation, and it was hitting me that today was my last chance. No more do-overs. If I could get her alone, even for a second, just remind her how good we were together—maybe there was still a chance.
Once the first notes of that stupid graduation march began to play, I booked it out of the gym. I pushed and shoved and almost knocked people off their chairs, but none of them cared, because they’d just graduated high school, and weren’t they the shit?
All the new graduates were streaming onto the lawn outside the school. Some of the people who had been closer to the front than me were already there, and I used my height to scan the crowd until I saw her.
Amber reached her before I did and grabbed her into a hug. I slowed my steps, hoping someone would distract the other girl, pull her attention away and give me my chance.
But I couldn’t seem to stop walking toward her. I dodged other people in robes and kept my eyes fastened on her.
Her back was to me, but I knew it was only a matter of time before she felt me near her. I’d been blocking my thoughts from her ability to hear them since that day when she’d nearly killed Amber—and then destroyed me, just by accident. But I couldn’t block my feelings. Not effectively, anyway. I saw her body stiffen and her hands clench as I stood just behind her.
She turned, and I could nearly touch her. The same longing and pain rolling through me were echoed on her face, but I knew it was only that—an echo. It wasn’t what she really felt, which was probably more like pity and regret.
I cleared my throat. “Congratulations, Tasmyn.”
She sucked in a quick breath, her chest rising beneath the robes. She glanced away, licking her lips. Desire like nothing I’d felt for months almost dropped me to the ground. I wanted to grab her, kiss her until she realized again how right we were. Push her to test those boundaries with me. I wanted to take her, right then and there, with all the graduates, teachers and school board looking on.
She took a step backward, away from me, almost staggering. Her hands shook. Yeah, she was still tuned into my feelings. No doubt.
Amber, who had been standing by without saying a word up to now, did what she always did best. She smoothed over the tension between us and stepped up to me, wrapping her arms around me in a tight, brief hug.
“You, too, Rafe.”
I was grateful to Amber in that moment for saving me from doing something stupid. I held her shoulders
and smiled down at her. Always the peacemaker.
Tasmyn seemed to hone in on those same feelings. She pulled herself together enough to look me in the eye.
“Thanks, Rafe. Glad to be done. It was a little touch-and-go there at times, wasn’t it?” She grinned just a little, with a touch of sadness, and I knew she had to be thinking of last year, when the crazy minister tried to drown her, or maybe even just a few months ago, on the day she’d accidentally used her powers to throw Amber against a tree. Yeah, good times all around.
I let my mouth curve into a half-smirk. “Sure. Never a dull moment.” I glanced around at the people surrounding us, willing someone, anyone, to come and pull Amber away so I could have just one private word...
“What are you doing after?” Amber looked up at me, oblivious to the fact that I really wanted her to leave.
“Ah, my grandparents. They’re having a family party back at the house.” I lifted one shoulder. “You’re welcome to come if you want.”
I saw an expression cross Tasmyn’s face, one of affection, and I just bet she was thinking of my grandmother. Gram liked Tasmyn, and the feeling was definitely reciprocated. Would that be enough to lure her over today for the party?
Before I could push home the point, someone called Amber’s name, and she turned to hug another group of squealing girls.
And just like that, we were alone. Well, alone with about two hundred other graduates.
I tried to remember what I wanted to say to her, how I was going to convince her to be with me for just a minute.
Instead I said, “What you doing? I mean, in the fall. Are you going to college?”
All the animation left her face, except where she bit down on her lip. When she answered, I had to lean forward to hear her.
“Yes. Going to Perriman. That’s the plan.”
I nodded. “Of course.” Stupid, stupid, stupid. Of course she’s going to Perriman. That’s where he goes.
And as if I’d summoned him just by my thoughts, I looked over her shoulder, and there he was. He made his way through the crowd, talking to a few people here and there, touching shoulders and offering smiles like gifts.
I felt the cold creep over me, through my brain and down to my hands as he reached us and wrapped his arms around her.
“Tas!” He lowered his head and covered her mouth with his lips, kissing her with such intimacy I thought I was going to throw up. “Congratulations, high school graduate!”
Real original, dude. I tried hard not to make a face as Tas smiled up at him and then turned within his arms, leaning against him as she looked at me again.
“Michael, you remember Rafe. We were just talking about college.”
His arms tightened around her waist in a clear statement. Back off, man. She’s mine. As if I didn’t know that already.
“Sure. Rafe, congratulations.”
And that was it. All the playing at being civil, all the acting, went right out the door. I wanted to hit him. Hard.
“Thanks. You, too.” I glanced down at Tas again. Her face had gone pale, and the smile was gone.
I couldn’t stand there one more minute. Without another word, I swung around, wanting to be away, anywhere that wasn’t there.
I felt his hand on my shoulder, and I froze in place, fighting to keep from ripping it off his arm.
“Hey, man, I want to say—thank you. For, you know, taking care of things.”
I clenched my jaw and focused on the exit. I wanted to take a swing at him, I wanted to lay him out. I could’ve done it, too. But she wouldn’t like that. She’d hate me.
“Don’t thank me.”
I ground out the words and pushed away, not stopping until I was far enough removed that I couldn’t feel her anymore.
That was when I graduated to purgatory.
All I wanted was to be left alone. Wasn’t getting through the ceremony bad enough? Why did I have to spend another three hours pretending to smile and make pointless small talk with people who didn’t want to be at the party any more than I wanted them there?
I’d only agreed for Gram. She so seldom asked me for anything, or expected anything, that whenever she did, I always wanted to say yes.
“Rafe, I have one grandson. One. And even though you don’t see it, graduation is a milestone. Please, allow me to mark it. You won’t appreciate it now, but someday you may look back and be happy that we did.”
Of course she’d told me to invite all my friends, but that was a tough one, seeing as I didn’t have any of those. Unless you counted Amber, which I did, but I knew her loyalty to Tasmyn and Michael would make it impossible for her to come. Starting over at a new school in senior year means you don’t have time to cultivate those lifelong friendships all the greeting card commercials tell us we’ll have.
And what made this day even better—what added the peachy to the keen—was that the people responsible for me spending my senior year in King, Florida, were here today, too.
It just kept getting better.
My mom flitted around the party, never stopping very long at any one group. She wasn’t from King, and she’d always hated it here. It was why we lived in California my whole life, about as far as we could get from ‘that awful, creepy little town’ and still be in the lower 48. But today she put on her happy face, smiling and nodding as people spoke.
Her husband was sitting away from everyone else, off to the side. I was pretty sure he wanted to be here about as much as I wanted him here. I figured he only came along because my mother had probably begged, telling him she couldn’t face King or my grandparents without him. It couldn’t have been a comfortable position, having to stay with her dead husband’s parents. Still, he’d been quiet for the first few days they’d been at the house.
I was sitting on the deck, drinking a beer. My mom had begun to protest when she saw me pop the top, but my grandmother shook her head.
“Patrice, it’s his graduation day. I know that the law might not see it this way, but if he’s old enough to hold a job, fight for his country and vote, I sincerely doubt a few beers on his grandparents’ property in celebration will scar him for life.”
My mother’s mouth opened as if she were going to say something else, but she closed it abruptly. She kind of reminded me of the Wicked Witch of the West from The Wizard of Oz—she had no power here.
And any sway she had in my life had disappeared when she chose Bradford over me and sent me away.
So here I sat, nursing my second beer and watching all these people I didn’t know walking around, eating and drinking and pretending to have a good time.
“Having fun yet?”
My cousin Lucie—well, she was a cousin who was also Gram’s secretary and housekeeper—plopped down onto the chair next to me. She was holding a glass of wine.
“Oh, yeah, can’t you tell?” I rolled my eyes.
“Hang in there, kid.” She sipped her wine, and then I heard what she really wanted to say.
Your mom is driving Caroline nuts. And I’m pretty sure your step-dad is bombed. What he wants everyone to think of as water is really vodka. Just FYI.
“Lucky Bradford.” I spoke aloud, because while Lucie could broadcast her thoughts, she couldn’t hear those of other people.
He’s not the most sociable guy, is he?
I shrugged. “He was when we were in California, with all his friends. I think here, he and my mother are both waiting for one of us to pull out a wand and blow something up. Or turn one of them into a frog.”
Lucie began to laugh. “Now I wish I could do that. Hey, I could talk to them in my own special way, see if that works.”
“Yeah, I double dog dare you, Luce.”
“I totally would, if I didn’t think it would embarrass Caroline and William.”
I nodded. “The things I don’t do out of respect for those two.”
“Good thing we both love them anyway.” She drained her wine glass and shifted back to mind talk again.
I’m goi
ng to miss you, Rafe. Having you here has been fun.
I raised an eyebrow. “I’m going somewhere?”
She shook her head, looking away. I don’t hear minds, but I can read expressions. And see the writing on the wall. You’re going to be out of here so fast, our heads will spin. And we’ll miss you.
I rubbed a hand over my jaw. “I don’t have any plans, Luce. She’s leaving anyway. Why shouldn’t I stay where I have a home?”
Lucie sighed. “She’s leaving at the end of the summer. You really think you’re going to get through another two months in one piece?”
Well, she had a point there.
“If it isn’t the man of the hour.”
I jerked around, my feet falling from the railing where I’d been propping them up. Bradford stood next to me, much too close. I hadn’t even heard him approaching, which was weird, but then again, my mind had been tuned into Lucie.
“Having one of your woo-woo secret type conversations?” He smirked, and it took every ounce of my limited self-control not to slug the expression off his face.
“What do you want, Bradford?” I finished my beer and stood up. “Run out of, um, water?” I gave the word implied air quotes.
“Just had to congratulate the man of the hour.” He kept using that same phrase, and it was pissing me off.
“Yeah, you said that.” I chucked my empty into a nearby wooden barrel, a cleverly disguised recycling container.
“How many people did you mess with to get through school? Did you make them think you were some kind of genius?” He wiggled his fingers in front of his forehead.
I gritted my teeth. Wasn’t the whole deal with Tasmyn and Michael bad enough? What had I done to deserve a special session with Bradford, too?
“Listen, Bradford, I think you better just walk away right now.”
“Or what? You’ll use your freaky mind control on me, too? Remember, son. You tried that one before, and it didn’t get you anywhere. I’m too strong for you.” He laughed, a short and ugly sound.
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