Grabbing my kit, I watched as veteran prisoners leaped at the chance to be first. Some shared a showerhead.
“Come on, fish.” A guard came up behind me, tugging at my soiled top. His nasal voice sounded vaguely familiar, reminding me of the night Tess and her group beat me up. “Can’t be shy or modest here. Strip!”
My nose flared as I inhaled a shaky breath, my throat closing.
“Don’t you love when they are fresh and new? Scared and horrified?” Another guard chuckled. “Never lasts long, but most of the time, neither do they.”
Don’t cry. Don’t cry.
“Now!” the first guard bellowed. Getting a better grip, he ripped my shirt over my head, along with my sports bra. Ice filled my bones, my eyes burning as the violation poured down on me. Laughter from the prisoners at seeing me humiliated resounded in my ears.
“You want me to do the rest?” The guard rubbed his crotch roughly into my backside, tugging at my thin pants, his hand snaking down them. “I have no problem stripping you naked while everyone watches.” He motioned out to the room, all eyes on me, burning into my bare skin.
Unable to respond, I shakily got undressed, tossing the rest of my clothes in the bin. My jaw clenched so hard to keep from crying, and it sent sharp pains up my face as I tugged off my underwear.
“You can join me, fish.” Some called to me as I strode to a shower, keeping my head level and my gaze on the cascading water, my kit in my hands. The water hit my skin like needles, the cool temperature tensing my already taut muscles, and I gasped and cried out as it burned against my tender flesh.
Two people moved in next to me, and within seconds their grunts pulled my attention. Both figures faced the wall. A gorgeous male fae, his hands on the hips of the woman in front of him, pounded into her while his eyes remained fixed on me. His brown eyes glinted when our gazes met, and he thrust into the female harder.
My body reacted. It was human nature after all, but a swirl of disgust and heat passed over me. The spark of need throbbed between my thighs, to feel a moment of bliss for one second here.
“Yeah, you want me to fuck you next?” His gaze dragged down me, stopping on my breasts, my nipples hardening. “This turn you on, fish?”
“You can join us.” The woman’s eyes slid to me, her teeth biting into her lip, clearly enjoying that I was watching.
I turned away, though I could not block out their laughs and slapping noises. My other view was of two fae males going at it in the U-shaped stall. None of the guards were stopping any of them, as though this was their personal live porno.
I pulled out my shampoo, wanting to wash and get out quickly. Scrubbing my body and hair, the two next to me finally finished and left, allowing the next person to move in.
“Well, well, if it isn’t the fish without her protector.” A woman’s voice came behind me. “Where’s your wife, little fish?”
Dread filled my gut as I slowly cranked my head over my shoulder.
Tess, Mio, and Dee. The three bitches of death block B stood behind me.
Their nudity seemed to shield them, while mine left me feeling vulnerable.
“What will you do without your girlfriend?” Tess crossed her arms over her saggy tits. Her skin was wrinkled and old.
My gaze darted over her shoulder to the guards. They stayed in position, either not concerned with us or too busy watching people have sex.
“Can I tell you how much I love having your blanket?” Tess smirked. “I use it to wipe my ass after I take a shit.”
Not responding to her taunt, I tried to finish cleaning up.
“Don’t fucking ignore me,” she growled, drawing attention from people around me.
Silently, I got the rest of the shampoo from my hair.
“I said, don’t ignore me, stupid bitch.” Tess slammed a hand into my back, my face cracking into the tile wall. The blood tingled as it rushed out of my nose.
The taste of the copper substance ignited fire in my veins. Whirling around, my knuckles crunched straight into her nose, pain rippling through my hand and up my arm.
Tess hit the ground with a slap, blood spurting out of her nose. Her shrieks echoed off the walls.
Mio and Dee leaped for me.
All emotion shut down; the only thing left on was my survival mode. Anger, frustration, sadness, and grief tunneled together. I’d had enough. The primal instinct to end the constant threat, to protect myself, rushed down my limbs.
They snapped my last fuck.
I heard the feral cry burst out of me, felt the impact of my fist breaking across Dee’s cheek, then punching again into her neck. She dropped to the ground, her hand at her throat, wheezing for air. A punch burrowed into my side, which increased my anger. Flipping around, I rammed into Mio’s stomach with my knee. Bending her over, my elbow slammed down into her spine, her face slapping against the wet tiled floor.
I saw the guards running for us, yells and whistles blending into white noise.
Tess leaped back up, coming for me. Rage like I had never known before roared up my throat as I barreled into her, taking her to the ground with a smack. I didn’t hesitate as my knuckles broke across her face over and over, her blood turning the water beneath us a deep pink.
“Stop!” Two guards yanked me off her by my arms and pulled me to my feet.
Tess’s head lay limply to the side. Only the slight lift of her ribs told me she was still alive.
I snarled, tugging my arms out of the guard’s grip. Stunned, they watched me walk back to the shower, wash off the blood, and turn it off. Snatching up my kit, I took in a deep breath and twisted around, scanning the blur of faces observing me. The silence in the room teemed with tension and shock. Maybe a little fear.
Without a word, I lifted my chin and walked to the table. I grabbed my pile of fresh clothes, threw them on, and waited for what I knew would come.
The guards were right on me, clutching my arms again, marching me out of the washroom. I didn’t wonder where I was going. I knew.
The notion that I was provoked didn’t matter. “Fair” was not a known word here.
We headed farther down into the earth.
Lynx was right; danger and violence liked me.
And I welcomed it.
Darkness.
Endless night.
They soaked into your mind, driving anyone mad after a time, which wasn’t the cruelty of the pit. Nor was being in isolation. Hell, that was a holiday in my book compared to being with the group upstairs. I actually thought I might be able to get rest in here. Sleep a whole night.
Funny.
It wasn’t the gnawing pain of hunger or your brain tricking you in the pure blackness, the absence of understanding time or how long they would leave you.
No. It was the bouts of noises pounding relentlessly into the tiny space that drove you to the brink of madness. Then it would stop for a while, easing you into stress-induced sleep, just to drive you awake with more. Minutes passed like years in which I lost not only sense of time, but of space. There was no place to go, yet my body still knocked against the walls, my fingers clawing at the surface, trying to escape the torture.
They changed the sounds just enough you could never tune it out to doze off. They reduced me to a sniveling blob curled in the corner. I welcomed death, hoping it would finally give me peace. Finally, for a moment, quiet surrounded me, and I fell into a wearied sleep.
A loud creak sounded as light burned across my lids, popping them open.
Flinching, I scrambled away from the painful light in the same way a terrified animal would. My emotions were torn down to primal responses. Instinct shoved my back into the wall, where I curled myself into the tiniest ball as a looming figure outlined the doorway.
“Learned your lesson, 85221?”
My eyes squinted against the blaring glow, but I could make out the silhouette of a guard, the one who had stripped me in the washroom.
“Get up,” he barked.
I cou
ldn’t move, my heart pattering against my ribs.
“I said.” He reached down, grabbing me by the arms and tugging me up. “Get. Up.” His closeness made my skin twitch. I had the urge to snarl and bite his hands.
“How did you enjoy three days in the hole?” His eyes glinted, a sneer upping his mouth. A deep white scar hooked up his top lip; otherwise, he was very nondescript for a fae. “Want three more?”
My fuzzy teeth clenched together.
“Answer me, 85221.”
“No.” The syllable croaked as if my vocal cords had completely lost the ability to make words.
“No, what?”
“No, sir.” I boiled inside, my lids narrowing on him. This place had fostered hate within me; it was the primary emotion driving me now.
Prisons thrived on breaking people down and rebuilding them. Maybe it worked for others—bad people. But when you broke down good people, we didn’t rise again as even nicer people. No. That’s not how it worked. We rose like a dragon, one that would spew fire and burn everything to ash.
We became the depraved.
Chapter 16
Allowed a quick restroom break, I brushed my teeth, peed, and washed my face. The fae guard observed my every move with a perpetual sneer on his face. He enjoyed watching me, especially on the toilet.
I stared back at him, detached and unrelenting, like a creepy child in a horror movie.
He stirred on his feet as if he didn’t anticipate my response. He expected me to be a lump of clay with my head lolling forward. A broken toy. Obedient. Debased.
“Hurry up,” he barked, jerking away from me, heading for the door. “Breakfast is almost over, but if you hurry, I’m sure you can lick the crumbs off plates in the bin.”
A flush of anger throbbed at the back of my neck, but I swallowed it down, getting up and washing my hands. My eyes lifted to the scratchy metal mirror above the sink.
My face was thinner, highlighting my already sharp features and making me look more severe and intimidating. Wounds still marred my lip and eye, but the swelling was gone, and only light bruises were left. My eyes were the most unsettling. The inky color resembled pools of death, and if you looked closely, you would fall into the flames of hell. The girl in the mirror was a stranger. Cold. Empty.
“Come on,” he snarled, then stood up straighter when my eyes landed on him. He stalked out into the hallway, heading to the mess hall.
The space was abuzz with noise and activity, smelling of waterlogged oats and eggs, with a dusting of burned coffee. There were moments in the hole when my stomach ached so badly from hunger it clawed and tore at the seams, and the thought of even this garbage food sounded heavenly.
Now I felt nothing. I was past hunger, past exhaustion, past sanity. They wanted to rip the humanity out of me? I hoped they were ready for what they asked for.
I stood at the entrance, staring into the room. My return was whispered throughout the room, heads whipping toward me, voices dropping away. Tess, Mio, and Dee swiveled around, their faces still looking like used punching bags. Tess stood up, but Mio grabbed her arm, pulling her down again, shaking her head.
My gaze glossed over the crowd, catching on a face in the back. His turquoise eyes were a beacon in the night, drawing me in from a turbulent sea. Alone, sitting on his bench, his boot perched on the opposite seat, he leaned against the wall, arms crossed.
The bored king.
He didn’t move or respond, but the heaviness of Warwick’s eyes tried to pin me to the floor again. This time I shoved back with my own, one of my eyebrows lifting. Defying. The one thing I promised myself in the hole was no one would control me. They could beat me, starve me, torture me, but my mind and will were mine.
You may scare everyone and dominate this room, but you will not rule me.
As if he sensed my rebellion, his lip lifted, in a smirk or a threat, I could not tell. I didn’t move, didn’t look away. Everyone else around us disappeared, becoming blurry images in my periphery. Heat licked at the base of my spine, fear and anger riding up.
He cocked his head to the side.
I copied his movement.
Like a cat stretching after a slumber in the sun, he took his time rising to his feet. Damn, I had forgotten how massive this guy was. Meeting him did not diminish the folklore. If anything, he amplified it, intensified everything we heard this man was capable of.
Prickles of panic danced along my shoulders, but I stood my ground. His boots lazily hit the floor as he moved toward me, pounding along with my heartbeat. His arms were so ripped they swung like carved tree branches, his dark hair down around his shoulders, rendering him feral and animalistic. Hunting his prey. A smirk twitched his lips as he moved up to me. The air swirled around, whispering in my ear to run.
The edges of his boots hit mine, halting his approach. Using his towering height, he peered down at me, his arms brushing my skin as he folded them.
I couldn’t help the internal gasp at his touch, though I swallowed it back down, my jaw cinching together.
He smirked, clearly aware of how his power affected others.
Arrogant bastard.
He huffed out of his nose, a slight humored expression twitching his cheek. “How adorable,” he rumbled.
Oh. Holy. Shit. I realized I had never heard him speak. His voice could have been used as a weapon in itself. It was gravelly, deep, seductive, and my body reacted to the timbre. It felt like swimming naked in a barrel of the best whiskey imported from Scotland. Smooth, sexy, stinging, and callused all at the same time. It licked my pussy, carved into my bones, and heated my skin.
Pain and pleasure, pulsing my core.
He had to be fae. No matter how good he was at hiding his aura, no human had this kind of allure. He was confident in tricking everyone, playing everyone for a fool, controlling us like subordinates, which had rage bounding up my shoulders.
He would not control me.
“Thank you.” I cheekily winked back. “Though I can’t say most would consider me adorable. But to each their own.”
A nerve convulsed under his eye. “You think going into the hole for three days makes you tough and ruthless now? Can get lippy with me?” The words were so deep and low they vibrated through my bones.
Gods, please stop talking. I tried to put a barrier around me by wrapping my arms around my chest. I despised the way my body flushed.
“Try two months, then come challenge me.”
Two months? He put up with that torture for two months and came out alive? I barely lasted three days. No doubt I would have found a way to end things if they left me longer.
“Know your place, fish.” He leaned in even closer, his form looming over me. He could drive my blood in two opposing ways with the same intensity.
Exhilaration.
Animosity.
“This is my kingdom.” He slanted his head, rolling his threat into my other ear. “You are allowed to live in it.” He shoved his face into mine, forcing a wheeze of air to whistle up my nose. He then paused. I peered up at him, his eyes boring into mine.
Anger. Hate.
Confusion?
“Move. You’re in my way.” His nose flared, and in a blink, he was moving, his shoulder slamming into mine as he sauntered out of the room. I stumbled back, the bell ringing like he had it cued to his exit.
Gradually, noise and movement stirred in the room as prisoners headed toward their next location.
“Holy goddesses.” Tad’s hobbled up next to me; his curved back bent him far over today. “What is it about you?”
“What do you mean?”
“It’s just interesting the two people who have no auras are drawn to each other.”
“We are not drawn to each other,” I retorted, snarling at the gray-haired man.
A smile arched his mouth.
“What?” I huffed.
“I didn’t say if it was a good thing or a bad thing.” His eyes slid to mine. “Lust. Hate. Those two are so hard to
tell apart.”
“Shut up, old man.” I rubbed my head. The adrenaline rush that man created in me made me want to flee for higher ground. “Not in the mood for your cryptic Druid shit.”
“Someone came out of the hole in a bad mood.”
I shot a glare at him, and he smiled hugely.
“Glad to have you back in one piece. That you are okay.” He patted my shoulder. “I actually missed you.”
“You missed having someone to talk to.”
“Is there a difference?” He bumped his hip into me, his hand sliding something in mine before he shuffled away.
Staring down at my hand, I blinked, tucking back the emotion.
A full piece of toast.
It was almost as though he knew I would be coming out today and saved it for me.
“85221.” Hexxus’s powerful voice crawled up the back of my neck, tightening the air leaking through my esophagus. “Is this all you’ve done?” He picked at the clothing pile on my station as if it were contaminated. “Your daily quota doesn’t stop simply because you are not here.”
“What?” I blanched. Did he mean I had three days plus today to catch up on?
Still trying to learn to use the machine, my fingers were raw, and my exhausted mind and body were moving much slower than others.
“Do you know what happens when you don’t keep up on your quota?”
I stared up at him.
“Answer me!”
I figured it was more of a rhetorical question, sir.
Gasps simmered in the room, telling me I had said it out loud. Shit. My fatigued brain had just let my thoughts slip out.
Hexxus’s entire form inched higher as fury filled him, his eyes turning black.
“What did you say to me?”
Coming out of torture just hours earlier with no rest or food, I had hit the part of the day when I had nothing left. I had eaten the extra piece of toast Tad gave me a long time ago, and my stomach gnawed on itself and wobbled with nausea. I flinched at every loud song or bang, leftover trauma from the hole.
“Stand up, 85221,” he snarled. His voice touched the part of my brain that wanted to oblige for fear of what he might do and follow his every direction even as it took you over a cliff. Top demons and Druids were most powerful at turning your mind and body against you. There were rumors within HDF drugs were being made to help humans block their minds to the fae lure, to help our kind survive and fight back.
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