by Hicks, I. M.
“I am now” I said taking a puff.
“We almost didn’t make it, we had a huge fight, and she threaten to kick me out” he exhaled.
I looked at him, he had taken his shirt off and wore his sunglasses on his head, and he was looking into my eyes. “Why?”
“Over that contract your husband made me sign yesterday. She thinks I’m a loser that I’ll never amount to anything remotely close to what Robert is.”
“She said that?” I asked dumbfounded.
“She did, I find it funny that I have to compete with that for the sake of my wife and my girlfriend” he said in a serious tone.
Girlfriend? I had a title. I shook my head, I wanted to cry and hold him close but I kept it together and I swallowed.
“Well, if it makes you feel better, I gave him shit over that yesterday and he told me he was going to fix it” I said but I knew it didn’t matter.
“You look stunning, I want you so badly” he whispered.
I smiled “Which part of my bikini do you want to take off first?” I teased.
“Don’t do that, you’ll make hard” he whispered.
“There you are” said Pam coming up behind us.
“Hey Pam, this is the smoking section, just like high school” I said laughing.
“Your house looks amazing Alex, out of a magazine” she remarked.
“Thanks, it’s a little much in my opinion but whatever” I retorted.
“Amazing where some of us end up” she said a little sullen.
“What do you mean?” I said and glanced over at Marc, he was shaking his head.
“Oh you know, we grew up the same, dirt poor. But you’ve really made something of yourself Alex and were smart marrying Robert” she said.
“Fuck you Pam” said Marc dejected.
“What the fuck Pam! I didn’t marry him because he had money. I made my career what it is with no financial help from him and you know that. You chose to stay home and have kids, and I can’t. So don’t fucking stand there feeling sorry for yourself, we all do the best we can” I began “If you want more out of life then do something about it, but don’t come to my home and insult me or Marc like that” I added.
She sighed “Ok, sorry Alex. Marc told me about Robert’s contract yesterday and I’m just feeling shit about the whole thing”
“Consider it null and voided. That was my money and I can do whatever the fuck I want with it. He assumed differently because I wasn’t clear in the beginning” I said sternly looking at both of them.
I put out my cigarette and walked away.
I went back to the DJ booth, I needed to get away from people all together but I wanted the attention at the same time. So I ordered another two tequila shots and a Cosmo and started playing some music. I was drunk and numb, it was perfect.
Shortly after 7pm and after dinner, and about three Cosmos later I went to sit by the pool. The sun was setting and the massive trees were casting lots of shadow. I sat at the furthest point across the pool far away from Robert and Bill as they were still talking. Bill’s girls were sitting at either side of them. One of them had her hand on Rob’s leg and he was talking to her, and I was so drunk at that point that I didn’t give a shit.
“I got party favors!” said Victor approaching me holding a zip lock bag with what looked like many joints inside it. I laughed.
‘Oh my god I love you Victor” I said reaching for him. He gave me a hug and sat beside me, handed me a joint and we lit up.
“This is good shit Vic” I said.
“I don’t buy cheap darling” he said puffing away.
“Where’s your bo?” I asked.
“Oh your friend Pam stole him away from me when she found out he was a pediatrician. They’ve been discussing ear infections for the past half hour, so I decided to keep my girl some company since your husband looks indisposed” he said looking at me wide eyed.
I shrugged.
“Alex?” he spoke softly.
“Yeah?”
“You’re fucking him aren’t you?” he asked, but I didn’t respond.
“The man is crazy about you, he stares at you likes he wants to eat you”
“He gets to do that among other things” I replied laughing.
“He told me he was in love with me yesterday” I whispered.
“Holy fuck girl! What did you say?”
“I said nothing, I don’t feel the same way, I love my husband”
“Well it hasn’t even been a week, what about his wife?” said Victor.
“I know right” I began “She treats him like shit, you should have heard what she said earlier” I said and told him the story.
“I knew she was a bitch” remarked Victor.
“She wasn’t always like this, she’s attacking me as well. You know I didn’t marry Rob for his money, right?”
“I know baby girl”
“Yeah well, either way I’m fucked. Nathan caught us together at the Holiday Inn earlier this week”
“What? And?”
“And he wants to meet with me next week to go over things. I know its money his after, I can’t hide that”
“What a prick!” said Victor.
“Can I take hit?” said Marc in behind me.
Victor passed him a new one.
Marc shook his head “I wanna share hers” her said looking at me
“Oh well excuse me” said Victor waiving his hand at us.
“Are you feeling good? This is like your second one” Marc pointed out. Victor was right, he had been watching me.
“I’m feeling pretty awesome right now actually” I said taking a puff and passing it back to him.
He smiled and took a puff himself.
“Jesus, you two are in deep” Victor remarked.
“We’re just having fun Vic” I said keeping my eyes on Marc.
“You told him?” asked Marc.
“Don’t worry, your secret is safe with me” Victor replied.
“Victor? Where are our spouses?” Asked Marc keeping his eyes on me.
“Well your wife has her back to us talking to my boyfriend and Rob is in the kitchen getting food with some older guy, their back to us as well, why?”
Marc took a puff, got face to face with me and blew smoke in my mouth slightly touching my lips.
“Holy shit you are playing with fire Marc” remarked Victor.
“Thanks bud” said Marc smiling and winking at me. He gave me the joint back, got up and walked away.
“Explain to me how you plan to keep this up?” asked Victor
“I have no clue, I can’t use my credit cards, Rob checks them, the corporate credit cards and financials are handled by his company, so I’m sure he checks those too”
“Use mine” said Victor casually.
I looked at him in shock “You’d do that?”
“For you? Anything, just pay me back in cash, problem solved”
“I don’t know Victor, this is wrong in so many levels”
“Baby girl, there’s something more there than you’re willing to admit. I don’t agree with it but you are my best friend, I feel obligated” he began “Anyway” he added getting up “I’ll book the locations as well, just let me know when and where” winked at me as he walked away.
The plan was brilliant, I thought. No credit cards, no paper trail. All I had to do was figure out what to do with Nathan now, and maybe I was wrong about him. I hadn’t seen Nathan for at least five years. The last time we spoke was at my mother’s funeral, he showed up drunk with a hooker in toe. He wanted the house she lived in, but due the high costs of her cancer treatment she sold it before we could do anything about it. He blamed me for not caring and not paying for her care, the truth was that she never told me she was sick and by the time her doctors contacted me to tell me she was terminal it was too late. He didn’t believe me and that was the end of it.
It was close to midnight and many of the guests started to leave. Pam had finally finished tal
king Carlo’s ear off and I decided to join her. I was still mad at her for what she’d said earlier but I blamed Rob for her behavior as well. I grabbed a few more tequila shots and a couple of cosmos and went to join her. As I was making my way, I saw Bill and his two girls heading to the Jacuzzi behind the bar. It was well hidden away which made my stomach turn just the thought of having the three of them having sex in there.
“Pam it’s time to party” I said as I sat down beside her.
“I’ve been trying to stay away from alcohol all night Alex, I’m breastfeeding remember?”
“I thought you mentioned something about pumping ahead of time”
“Yes but”
“But nothing, shots now!” I ordered.
We had two shots in a row and followed them with cosmos.
“Oh how I’ve missed this” she began “I’m sorry I was such a bitch earlier”
“That’s ok, I can handle you, Marc however”
“Oh don’t start, you have no idea what it’s like between us”
“Educate me”
“I think he’s cheating on me” she said and my heart sank.
“What gives you that idea?”
“I don’t know, you just know, you know?”
“No, that makes no sense”
“Well he won’t fuck me for starters” she said.
“Well Pam you nag him way too much”
She sighed “I guess”
Just then I saw Bill and one of the girls coming out of the Jacuzzi, she was pale and they were running into the house, she was about to toss her cookies, I figured.
Bill and Marc were sitting down together talking just a few feet from us.
“Pam, one last drink, have this” I said passing her the last Cosmo. She was already drunk so it was no trouble for her to down it quickly.
I got up and took her hand “C’mon” I said and began making my way to the Jacuzzi. As we approached Rob and Marc I squeezed Rob’s shoulder “We’re heading to the Jacuzzi, you boys want to join us?” winking at them and kept walking with Pam in hand.
When we got there, Bill’s other girl was still in there, topless. Rob got in and she pounced on him right away by sitting beside him.
I grabbed her by the back of her hair and pulled it “Scram” I said.
“Ouch, bitch that hurt” she yelled.
“Get your skanky ass out of here, or the only modelling job you’ll get next year will be for Walmart” I warned. She grabbed her bikini top and left. Pam was laughing.
Marc got in sat next to Rob followed by Pam sitting across from them. I removed my wrap and sat next to Pam. We sat in silence for a while, then Rob started to discuss something about football with Marc whom was also a fan. A waiter brought some Champaign at that moment and we each grabbed a glass.
The song “Pony” by Ginuwine came on and that was my cue.
I got closer to Pam and started playing with her hair, staring at her ‘What are you doing” she asked smiling, I got closer to her and moved her hair back “Do you want your husband to fuck you tonight?” I whispered “Yes” she whispered back “then follow my lead” I replied. This was wrong and I was fully aware of it. This wasn’t for her it was for me, and I knew it would drive Rob and Marc crazy.
“Dance with me” I said by pulling her hand and took her to the center of the Jacuzzi, I moved in behind her moving her hips with mine to the rhythm of the music, by this point we had our husbands attention. I grabbed her hands and moved them so they would touch my hips. I moved my hands to her breasts and fondled her slowly, she moved her head back closing her eyes, and she was so drunk she was enjoying it. I slowly glanced at the boys, their faces where in shock but they were enjoying the show, so I turned her around to face me and I licked her chest from in between her breasts up to her collar bone, she tilted her head back again while letting out a moan. I heard Marc clear his throat and I smiled. I looked at Rob and he had lust in his eyes which meant he was more than ok with this. So I put one of my hands on her face lifting it and kissing her jaw softly and she did the same to me, we were still dancing and grinding on each other, rubbing and squeezing each other breasts. I felt her hips thrust against mine and that’s when I kissed her on the lips, when I saw she was ok with that, I stuck my tongue in her mouth and she returned the gesture, we kissed until the song was over and then I let her go sitting back grabbing my Champaign and I downed it, licking my lips, she joined me and did the same.
Both men had their hands down on their laps, staring back at us awestruck.
“Well that was interesting” said Pam putting her glass down. I smiled at our men wickedly.
Just then Victor showed up hand in hand with his boyfriend. “Alex darling, great party as always but we’re leaving” he said looking at all of us, he gave me a puzzled look and I got out of the Jacuzzi.
“Why don’t you two stay over? We can have breakfast together” I said as I hugged him “Umm, are you sure?” he asked “Yeah, the night is young and I need some more of your party favors” I replied walking away with them “What the fuck is going on over there?” he whispered.
I smiled “Nothing darling, your mind is too precious and innocent” I said.
“Fuck you”
“Give me a couple of those, and take the first bedroom on the left, ok?” I replied taking two joints out of his baggy. “Goodnight” I added and kissed him on the cheek.
I went back to the Jacuzzi and the three of them were still sitting there quietly.
I went back in and gave a joint to Marc, the other I kept and sat in between Rob and Marc “Pam come sit by your husband” I ordered. I lit up my joint, took a puff and passed it to Rob as she did was she was told.
“Are you turning lesbian on me Alex?” asked Pam. I laughed shaking my head. “Does this mean I’m lesbian now?” she asked and I laughed harder so did Marc, Rob was not.
I looked over at him and he was angry. “What?” I asked him still giggling “What the fuck was that?” he asked.
“What do you mean?”
“What you just did with Pam and don’t act stupid” he yelled and
my smile faded into fear.
“We were having fun I thought Rob, didn’t seem to bother you at the time” I retorted.
He got out of the Jacuzzi and turned to me “Is that what you want, you want to fuck women now?”
“No Rob, it was just for fun” I said following him.
“Fun? Marc was that fun for you, knowing that your wife wants to fuck other women?”
“Rob, I’ve known Pam and Alex a lot longer than you and this means nothing, they were just goofing around.” said Marc getting out too.
“Rob seriously this means nothing” I said.
“The fuck it doesn’t” he yelled.
“You’re being ridiculous” I muttered.
“Come again?”
“You are being ridiculous and unnecessarily insecure” I yelled back and that’s when he slapped me, hard, across the face making me fall on the ground.
Next thing I knew Marc and Rob were shoving each other around. Someone picked me up off the floor and held on to me while I was watching them fight each other. Marc took the first swing at him, hitting Rob on the side of the face, but Rob being much bigger came back and sucker punched him in the stomach sending Marc to the ground, he couldn’t get up and I couldn’t do a goddam thing about it. Pam ran to his side to help him and I had tears rolling down my face. Rob looked at me with disgust and walked away.
“Are you ok baby girl?” asked Victor, he was holding me.
“No” and I ran in the house and went upstairs.
I found a duffel bag and packed whatever I could, I wasn’t sure what I was even packing I just knew I wasn’t spending the night in the house with him. I grabbed my cell phone and called a cab, I was drunk, high and I certainly couldn’t drive. I looked out the window and saw the rest of the guests leaving, so I went back downstairs and ran outside to wait for my cab. “Where are you going
baby girl?” said Victor walking behind me “Not sure Vic”
“Come stay with us, we’re leaving now” he said taking my bag and I followed him.
Carlos opened the door for me and Victor slid in beside me. Carlos was driving as he didn’t drink.
“You can stay with me as long as you want” said Victor holding my hand.
“How’s Marc?” I asked looking out the window.
“He’s fine, they left already”
“He told me he was coming over tomorrow” he added.
“Who’s coming over, Rob?”
“No baby girl, wife beaters are not welcome in my condo. Marc is coming over”.
CHAPTER TEN
Victor’s condo was located at the Toronto lake front and he had a spectacular view the Lake Ontario. He loved all that was modern and his décor reflected that exactly. Still it was cozy and welcoming. Lake front condos are expensive, but he got a two bedroom where he had a pull out couch in his office and that’s where I stayed.
I was dreading turning on my phone but I had to since I knew Marc would be coming over to see me at some point, and I knew that Rob would be try to contact me.
There were several messages waiting, so I started going through the list:
Pam: “You ok?”
Pam: “He called us last night to see if you were here and he came over this morning”
Pam: “Where are you?”
Me: “I’m fine and sorry but I’m not telling you were I’m staying.”
I was surprised she didn’t know, so I assumed that Vic and Marc had spoken privately.
Rob: “I’m sorry Alexandra, I was drunk”
Rob: “Please come home”
Rob: “I miss you terribly Alexandra, please come home, I am so sorry baby”
Me: “I don’t know Rob, I need time”
Rob: “Ok, can we sit somewhere and talk about it? Somewhere public, your choice.”
Me: “No, and I’m sending the driver to pick up some of my clothes, I’m heading back to work tomorrow.”
Rob: “Whatever you need Alexandra”
Marc: “Are you ok?”
Me: “yes…u?”
Marc: “I’m fine, I’m coming over shortly, just waiting for Pam to come back from the store”