by Kim Karr
Until now.
While I lived with Clementine at Michael’s house, Logan stayed at my place. We had both agreed that easing Logan into Clementine’s daily routine was the best way to move forward. Also, with Michael’s absence, I didn’t want to compound her confusion by moving her out of her home right away.
Small, baby steps, we both agreed.
A saying that never could be applied to our relationship. We’d started full blast, but over the past several weeks we’d learned how to temper the inferno that lived within us both. It was fun. We actually went on the most incredible dates. Real dates. He picked me up and we went out to dinner, sometimes to the movies, and other times we went sightseeing. We double-dated with Peyton and Declan, something I had never done nor had Logan, and sometimes we brought Clementine on our dates.
We also indulged in classic movies from the eighties that for most kids were a rite of passage. Neither of us had a normal childhood, so this was all new to us. Logan bought a Best of the Eighties DVD complete set and it included The Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink, Back to the Future, Sixteen Candles, and so many more favorites of that decade. At the end of each date, he would drop me off and kiss me good night. The kisses were never soft and sweet, though; they were much more reminiscent of the very first night we met.
Hot and heavy.
Breathtaking.
Unforgettable.
Mrs. R had stayed on, which allowed me to go to the boutique and work on transitioning it over to Peyton. The plan was that I’d remain the owner, but she’d be my managing partner, and once she was ready to be independent, I’d sell her the boutique. And since I was easing out of my duties, I had the luxury of sneaking off during my lunch break and meeting Logan at my place, but today we had a completely different agenda.
Today was the start of our new life.
Logan and I would be saying our goodbyes to everyone.
And leaving Boston.
It was early, around eight, and he was waiting for me on the stoop to my townhouse. With a kiss, he took my hand. “Morning.”
Butterflies bounced within my belly. “Good morning.”
“Come on, we have a lot to do today, so let’s get started.”
I followed him, and as I watched him open the door, I thought, I’d follow him anywhere.
He turned back before entering. “Are you sure you want to do this?” he asked tenderly.
I nodded and let my gaze devour him. The soft tone of his voice was such a sharp contrast to the strong man standing before me. Logan was wearing a black T-shirt that hugged his torso and faded jeans that hung low on his hips. His arms were chiseled in such a way that didn’t make him appear bulky in the least. He was all long and lean and hard. Powerful. Strong. Competent. There was no one else in the world I trusted more than he to help me raise Clementine.
“It doesn’t matter to me. You know that, right? I will love her no matter who her biological father is,” Logan said.
I nodded again. My heart in my throat, because I knew he meant that with all his heart and soul.
The envelope marked Clementine’s Paternity that had been in the panic room was in my hand, and Logan and I were standing in front of the fireplace in a home that was soon to be owned by someone else. I’d be turning over the key today at noon to the real estate agent. The townhouse was completely bare, except for him and me, and a fire in June.
With trembling fingers, I tossed it into the flames. That envelope contained DNA results that Michael had run. Logan and I both knew there was a very likely chance Tommy Flannigan was Clementine’s father, but it was equally as likely to have been Michael, or someone else entirely.
We both watched as it went up in flames.
Blood isn’t thicker than water. It took me seeing the way Logan interacted with Clementine and seeing the sacrifice Michael made for his daughter to really believe it. After all, I’d grown up in such a completely different environment. A place where carrying on the bloodline was all that mattered—no matter what the risk.
Logan pulled me close. “Are you sure you’re ready to leave Boston?”
I smiled at him gleefully. There was no hesitation in my voice at all. “Yes. Yes. Yes.”
His laughter was such a beautiful sound. “Say that again,” he whispered.
“Yes. Yes. Yes,” I said with even more excitement in my voice.
It was he, and I, and Clementine, and we would be starting fresh in a new city.
His fingers were stroking my thighs. It was finally summer, and I’d worn a pair of lightweight khaki shorts and a silky white top. Easy, breezy fashion is what Peyton called my wardrobe. I’d never thought of it like that before, but she was right.
Those competent hands moved up my body, over my hips, my belly, my breasts, up to the buttons of my blouse. Goose bumps covered my body.
“Are you cold?” he asked coyly, his warm breath scathing my neck.
I laughed. “No, it’s summer.”
His grin was wider than mine. He knew what he did to me.
My laughter came to a halt when his mouth fastened itself to my neck. I tipped my head back to allow him full access. Just the way he knew I liked, his tongue trailed down to the buttons he had undone and his teeth skimmed my skin along the way. When my blouse was completely opened, he dragged his tongue all the way back up to my mouth.
“Are you sure you’re not cold?”
“No,” I said, a little breathless.
“You’re practically shivering,” he said around his kisses.
“It’s the way you’re touching me.”
I could feel his mouth turn up with satisfaction. “Come with me,” he said.
I looked at him questioningly.
“We have some time.” His voice had that husky edge to it.
I loved that sound.
With my hand in his, he led me up the stairs to my now empty bedroom. He seemed a little nervous when he opened the door. With a step back he shoved his hands in his pockets, and curiosity had me looking inside. My hand flew to my mouth and I gasped when I did.
Last night it had been completely empty. Today it wasn’t. There was a blanket in the middle of the floor, with small red tea lights surrounding it and twinkle lights hanging from the ceiling. My heart felt so full it was banging around my rib cage.
He reached for my hand and led me inside.
I licked my lips. “And you say you don’t have a romantic bone in your body.”
He shook his head. I think he was blushing, and if that wasn’t the most adorable thing.
It didn’t last long because his mouth was back at my neck and his hands were taking my shirt off, then my bra, then my shorts and panties. “God, I need you,” he breathed.
And God, I loved to hear it.
In a blink I was completely naked and he was fully dressed. I couldn’t have that, so with much haste, I stripped his clothes off.
Gently, he picked me up and carried me to the center of the room, laying me down on the blanket and hovering over me.
I looked at those hazel pools, so much greener today. We’d been through so much, and every night when Clementine and I said our prayers, I thanked God for him, for the day he came into my life.
His hand went between my legs. His fingers slid against my slick flesh, then inside me, and I moaned. “I love when you touch me like that.”
He moved in and out in a rhythmic pattern that could easily bring me to orgasm in a matter of minutes.
And he knew it.
My own hands sought his beautiful cock, fully erect and ready for me.
“Not yet,” he said. “I want to hear the noises you make when you get turned on, when you come, and I can’t concentrate when you’re touching me.”
I laughed. I knew exactly what he meant.
Logan teased me, moving slowly, feathering soft strokes over me with his fingers and circling his thumb with just the right amount of pressure.
I trembled on the edge and I knew he’d take me over wh
en he felt the time was right. I let him know how much he turned me on, with my sounds, my nails, my arched back, and then finally, I exploded and my orgasm rocketed through me. “Logan!” I cried and took a breath before calling out his name again.
When we were together, everything went away but the two of us. The intimacy we shared was erotic and beautiful and joyful, and made to last a lifetime.
My body was still tingling when he thrust inside me.
I loved the feel of when he first filled me. The way his body shook from head to toe, the sounds he made, the way he made certain not to crush me.
He moved slowly.
Up.
Down.
In.
Out.
I met him thrust for thrust, and I knew how much he was enjoying it by his groans of pleasure. Loving how I could turn him on, rev him up, make him lose control, I started to move a little wildly beneath him, and he did the same above me.
We were two pieces of a puzzle that fit together perfectly.
Our union felt so incredible.
Raw and real and sensual.
If oblivion was a place we could go, he took me there.
It wasn’t long before his breath got hoarse in my ear and he slid his hand between us to caress my clit.
My fingers practically clawed his back it felt so incredibly good.
We moved harder, faster. Skin slapped and mouths sucked.
I moaned in delight.
He cried out, “Elle! Oh fuck, Elle.”
“Logan,” I called.
“Come with me.”
I already was. “I am. I am. I am.”
I closed my eyes and behind my lids the universe opened up. Stars, moons, planets, and comets surrounded us in my empty bedroom.
Logan thrust inside me once more with a shout, and then stopped with a shudder. He moved a second later, once, twice, then stopped again. When he dropped his head to the crook of my neck, he said, “I love you.”
My own planetarium show came to an end and as I tried to catch my breath, I held on to him as tightly as I could. “I love you, too,” I said in a whisper.
“You okay?” he asked.
Funny, I’d forgotten all about the floor until that moment.
“More than okay,” I said and kissed him.
Beep. Beep.
Beep. Beep.
Beep. Beep.
“Fuck. Shit. Fuck. Shit,” Logan cursed as he jumped to his feet, not exactly startled by the car horn but rather flustered.
Blinking, I sat up and watched as he shoved his feet into his jeans and then scurried to the closet and opened it.
“What’s going on?”
“Get dressed, fast.”
He was in such a state of distress, I did what he said without question. My nerves got a little frazzled, but it didn’t seem like he was worried. It seemed like he was nervous. I buttoned my blouse and said, “What’s going on?”
He blew out the candles and looked at that expensive watch that he seemed to have become fonder of. “They’re early.”
“Who is early?” I questioned, combing my fingers through my hair.
Logan had a bag in his hand, and he pulled out the red blindfold we’d taken from the boutique months ago but had not used.
I raised a very curious brow.
He shrugged and the corners of his mouth tipped up. “I thought we’d have time for this, but now I have to ask you to put it on.”
I narrowed my eyes.
“Please,” he begged and stepped toward me.
I held a finger up. “Hang on. You were going to let me blindfold you?”
He nodded. “That was the plan, but then I got lost in you.”
I bit my lip. “I didn’t mind, really.”
His grin was devilish as he strode toward me. “Turn around.”
With a shake of my head, I waved my finger back and forth. “No, no, no, you turn around.”
Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep.
“Please, I promise you can use the blindfold and the handcuffs on me later if you just turn around and let me put this on you now.”
He was vowing to give up control one night in the future. I didn’t have to think twice. I stuck my hand out in shaking position.
He raised a brow.
“Deal,” I said.
He shook his head and then my hand. “Deal.”
With the blindfold over my eyes I was surprised it didn’t freak me out, but it didn’t. I always felt safe with Logan.
Step by step he guided me down each stair, and when we were at my front door he opened it.
Music started to blare and I heard the sound of Peyton’s laugher. “Declan, turn that off,” she chided.
“Dumb ass,” Logan muttered.
I heard other voices too. “What’s going on?” I asked Logan.
He tugged my blindfold and it fell to the ground. “Well, this is not how this was supposed to happen, but I’ll just have to roll with it.”
Everyone we knew—Frank, Molly, Sean, Declan and Peyton holding hands, Rachel and her boyfriend, Miles, Erin and her husband and kids, and even Mrs. R and Clementine—were standing in the street with red balloons in their hands. “I thought we were supposed to go see each of them.”
Logan shrugged. “I thought it would be better this way.”
I nodded. I had to agree it was. I’d come to love each and every one of these people and I was going to miss them, but I’d made a promise to Michael and I intended to live up to it.
Logan gave a slight nod toward the crowd and then they all backed away to reveal a shiny red Prius. “Bon voyage!” they yelled.
Tears stung the back of my eyelids and I brought my hands to my mouth. “How did you even remember I’d wanted one in the midst of everything going on?”
His grin was cocky. “A very wise man once told me that it’s the little things that make the biggest difference.”
I threw myself at him. “He wasn’t wrong.”
Logan twirled me around on the stairs and then tossed me over his shoulder and started to carry me to the car.
“Hey, this isn’t very romantic.”
He laughed. “I told you I wasn’t good at romance.”
I think I might have been giggling and crying at the same time because he couldn’t have been more wrong.
When he opened the driver’s door, he set me down and smiled at me with that smile that from the very first time I saw it made my stomach flip.
“Mommy,” I heard Clementine say.
“I got her.” Logan closed my door and extended his hands to Mrs. R, who brought her to him. He strode around the car whispering something to her and then the two of them got in on the passenger side.
I smiled at her. “Hi, silly girl.”
“Shiny,” she kept saying.
I was laughing. “It is very shiny.”
“She’s not talking about the car,” Logan said, holding her on his lap.
I glanced into the backseat and all I saw was a car seat.
When I turned back around, Logan had his hand around Clementine’s. “Open it,” he whispered.
She did.
I gasped.
“Elle Sterling, will you marry me and let me be a part of your and Clementine’s life?”
My jaw dropped. My body shook. Never in a million years was I expecting this. Happiness surged through me and I was fighting to hold back the tears. I couldn’t remember a time in my life ever feeling like this.
“Say yes, say no, say anything,” he said, sounding mildly distressed.
“Yes,” Clementine answered.
My laughter and joy turned into big, sobbing tears as I struggled to talk. “Yes. Yes. Yes.”
The ring was the absolute most beautiful thing I had ever seen. “Logan, it’s exquisite,” I said through my tears.
He slid it on my finger and it fit perfectly. “It was my grandmother’s and before my grandfather died, he gave it to me and told me he wanted you to wear it. Somehow, some way, he knew y
ou were made for me.”
I threw my arms around him and Clementine and found his lips. “That’s because he knew we were made for each other.”
When Clementine would have no more of being constrained, Logan opened the door and handed her to his father. Then he turned back and honked the horn. As if it was a signal, everyone let go of their red balloons.
Clementine was clapping her little hands together like it was a show.
I watched as the sky filled with my favorite color. The color I always saw as hope.
“You ready to say goodbye?” he asked.
I nodded. I knew we wouldn’t be saying goodbye forever. There would be visits. But it was time to go.
The three of us were starting a new life together away from the madness of Boston. I never in my life would have thought I’d have a family of my own. I never in my life would have thought I could be so happy. But here I sat in my new car, with my new fiancé, and my newly court-appointed daughter, and life couldn’t be any sweeter.
The sorrow that brought us here would always remain in my heart, but I wouldn’t wear it on my sleeve.
I was stronger than that.
We held hands and watched through the windshield until we couldn’t see any more balloons, and then we turned toward each other.
Logan ran his finger over the slight scar on my cheek.
I ran mine down the one under his eye.
War wounds.
Tragic memories from our past that we would never forget but together would be able to put behind us.
Together.
Not apart.
Not alone.
Together.
DAY 275
LOGAN
Brooklyn is the place we call home.
Here, I found myself no longer divided between worlds.
My grandfather Ryan owned an authentic brownstone built around the turn of the century by his father’s father and when he heard how much Elle loved the architecture of Beacon Hill, he gave it to Elle and me as a wedding gift.
It’s odd because before I met Elle, I never wanted to get married, but with her, I couldn’t even tell you anymore why.
We married in the Botanical Gardens with fewer than thirty guests. We both decided on something small and meaningful. The vows we recited included Clementine, and she even stood up at the altar with us.
My father had moved to Brooklyn as well, and together we opened McPherson and Son Family Law.