If I Had You: A Vacillating Short Story (The Vacillation Saga Book 3)
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“Whatever. Have fun,” she said and walked away.
Chapter 15
When we reached my house, we walked in, and we walked to my room.
“Where are your parents?” he asked.
“Oh, they work together and they’re in New York with their work,” I said.
“When do you leave?” he asked.
“When they come back. Tomorrow.” I lied. OK, I am not leaving tomorrow, but I have some other plans…
I walked to my room and my suitcase was filled with some clothes. I wanted him to believe me, so I packed some fake clothes.
He helped me choose some good clothes and when we were done I sat down on my bed next to him and asked, “I’ve been wanting to do this for a while. I haven’t kissed you yet, but…”
I want to make out with him.
“You want to kiss me?” he asked.
“Yes.”
“How do you want to do it?” he asked and scooted closer to me. He glazed his hand across his arm, and holding it at my hand.
“I mean, I want to pin you down and make the fuck out with you.” I said.
He laid down on his back on the bed, and said, “As long as nothing goes in me, let’s do it.”
I could feel a smile rise on my face and I got over him. I pinned my hands on either side of his head and lowered my lips to his. It was a slow pace make-out session and it was just…simply enjoyable. I was enjoying it, my hands were getting sweaty.
He thinks it’s my first kiss…
But in reality, I kissed someone in the dark.
I lifted up and I took off his shirt. He was a slender type of guy, but I didn’t mind.
I sat him up and sat on his lap, so my feet were wrapped around his. I reached my face back to his and started to make out with him.
He wrapped his arms around me like he was hugging me and continued with the session.
He pushed down on the bed with his legs still wrapped around mine and pinned me down. He pushed his lips to mine and I turned him over, so I was back on top. Except that my legs were trapping his.
He pushed him off me and said, “I think this is enough.”
What the hell?
“Why? We were having so much fun.”
“If I continue, then painful things would happen.” he said.
“Do you want to take a nap?”
He laid his head on my pillow and I laid my head on his chest. I hugged him, and said, “Gary, I like you.”
“As in, I’m your crush?” he asked.
“Yes.”
“Thank you,” he said, “You’re hot too.”
Chapter 16
RING!
What the fuck was that?
RING!
“What is that?” I asked as I looked up.
I looked around and I noticed his phone was ringing.
When he looked at the number he looked worried…
I took a look and it was his mother,
“Hello?” he answered, sounding as awake as possible.
And a little while later, I heard MAJOR screaming,
“WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME! I AM SITTING HERE WORRIED SICK ABOUT YOU BECAUSE YOU DIDN’T COME HOME ON THE BUS! DID YOU TELL JENNY?”
Geeze…
He put his phone down a little bit later.
“Who was that?” I asked as I got up.
“My mother. She’s worried sick about me being gone.” I replied. I looked at the time and it was already eight o’clock at night.
How long were we out?
“What time did we start to nap?” I asked.
“About three thirty. Why?”
I pointed to the clock and his eyes opened wide.
“You better get home,” I said as we got up. I put my shirt back on and he gave me a kiss on the lips.
I think I’m turning into a teenwhore…
“Come on, I’ll take you home,” I said and got on my shirt.
Chapter 17
The morning was just like any other morning – get up, shower, write, eat, and go to school.
When I arrived at the school, I walked in, and walked up to the floor where Gary’s locker was. I was scared. Mainly, because I was going to lie to him about what I was going to do when I skip school…
They know about it and it’s excused. They think it’s a college visit…
I walked up to Gary’s locker and stood behind the open door. When he closed it, I startled him.
“Hey there,” he said. “I’m heading to class.”
“I’m walking with you,” I said as we walked together.
We walked down the hall and while we were walking, we were talking. The urge to hold his hand was kicking in, so I reached and grabbed his soft, smooth hand.
When he looked down at my hand, he looked at me and smiled.
I just smiled back, and we headed to his class.
***
“When do you leave for your trip?” he asked. We were just sitting by his locker, talking.
“I leave tomorrow actually.” I said. “We’re going to the M.C.M.A 2014. I think I’ll have fun. “
“Think? You’ll be away from this hell hole.”
“I know,” I said. The bell then rang and we got up. “Well, I will see you later.”
“Ok.”
I gave him a kiss and then walked into my classroom.
Part two
Chapter 18
I had left school early to go visit this guy. I had met him on an app called “Whisper” and we planned to meet up.
George, the guy I met online, lived in Kansas about five hours away.
So, I got a head start…
I couldn’t stop thinking to myself, I hope this goes well and I hope Gary never finds out.
It was something from my past that had affected me.
And I couldn’t get over the fact that it happened, and it would haunt me forever…
And the desires didn’t help me ovecome it…
“Jordan, are you sure you want to do this?” the guy from my school asked.
I was just a little in love with this guy and I didn’t want to ruin it.
“Yes.”
I blinked, trying to get the flashback out of my head.
It didn’t work…
He was only 18 years old and so was I. I was about to lose something that I have been holding onto since birth…
My V card…Or my Virginity, for the long term.
He lifted my legs up, so my bare butt was open for him, and he didn’t take any chances.
And it happened…
“LEAVE ME ALONE!” I yelled in my car. I had pulled over to the side of the road, and put my head on the wheel. It was a piece of my past that I totally regret. I let that guy have sex with me. I didn’t want to think about it. The thought didn’t only make me hurt on the bottom, but on the inside.
But I wanted it.
I wanted to do it again…
Chapter 19
It wasn’t long until I reached George’s house and I knocked on the door. I was nervous as fuck.
He then opened the door. He was hot. Not as hot as Gary, but hot.
“Are you Jordan?” he asked.
“Yes.”
He gestured me to come in and we walked to his room. “I was just about to start a movie.
“What movie?”
“The Maze Runner,” he replied.
I loved that book but I never saw the movie.
He sat down on the couch in his room, and said, “Wanna watch it together?”
“Sure,” I said and sat next to him.
He turned on Netflix and started the movie.
***
Halfway through the movie, he was laying on his back, and he paused it.
“Wanna cuddle?” he asked.
Shit!
That escalated quickly…
“Sure,” I replied and laid my head on his chest. His chest was so fit and I could tell he exercised a lot.
He placed his arm on my back, the
other hand he placed under his head and unpaused the movie….
And that’s when I regret going over there the most…
Chapter 20
The movie was almost over when I adjusted so my back was almost smashing his hand. I kinda wanted to do that.
I was…well…in the mood…
And I could tell he liked it.
He slipped his hand down my back and slipped it passed my underwear, letting his hand touch my butt.
He looked at me, and said, “I’m sorry.”
“It’s fine. You can keep it there,” I replied.
He took his hand out and lifted me up. He took off his shirt and leaned over to kiss me. He pinned me down on the couch and took off my shirt.
He was in the same state as me…
He then unbuckled his pants and pulled them down with his underwear. I tried not to look, because seeing a guy naked was bad news for me.
I was just so in the mood, so I did the same.
He scooted closer to me and kissed me on the lips. He made out with me for a while and then pulled up, and said, “Jordan, are you sure you want to do this?”
Those words…The words that haunted me.
I don’t think I can do it.
I scooted over to get off the bed and got on my underwear.
“What’s wrong?” he asked and got up.
“I just…I can’t,” I said. “I’m sorry…I...” I stood and got on my shirt and pants. “Pleas forgive me…I have to…I…”
I walked out of his room, but before I passed the frame, I said, “I’m sorry, I have a dark past. I can’t let you get hurt because of me.”
He looked at me, and said, “Get out of my house.”
I walked out of the house and drove home. I couldn’t believe that I was about have sex with him…my demons of the past kicked in… Possibly saving me.
We got naked and made out!
I had close-to-sex…again…
Gary, please don’t find out.
Chapter 20
** hey, call me. **
That is what I sent to Gary via text. I felt like I want him to know what happened. I felt very guilty.
I was waiting patiently for his response and that’s when he called…
Here we go…
“Hey,” I greeted.
“What is it?”
“Well, do you want to go to the dance with me? I’ve been wanting to ask you.”
Did I just ask that?
I was supposed to tell him about what happened!
Maybe I could talk to him in my room.
“Took the words right out of my mouth,” he replied.
“Huh?”
“I was going to ask you,” he replied.
“Oh wow,” I said with a small pause. “I have tickets for us and I think it’ll be fun.”
“Where are you?”
“I am at my house now, in my room. We got off early and I need you to come over here.” I said. “I think I can trust you with what I’m going to say.”
Chapter 21
He walked into my room and he sat down on my bed.
I sat down on the bed next to him and said, “I have something for you.”
He planted a kiss on my lips and laid me down on the bed. He pinned my arms down, and madly made out with me.
I had planned this out. Make him happy, then tell him. He won’t be mad…maybe…
He lifted his head up with my He was staring at my books.
SHIT!!!
“What book are you reading?” he asked.
FUCK!
I quickly got up and put the book back in the box next to it.
“What are you talking about?” I asked.
“I do know that you are an author of a book,” he said. “Why don’t you tell me what book you wrote?”
I was nervous. Can I do this?
“I am the author of a book, but this isn’t my book,” I said.
“Oh come on, I know you’re lying. Can I see what the book looks like?”
I was shaking a little bit. I felt scared. But I finally manned up and said, “Fine.”
I got out one of the books and showed it to him.
“I think I recognize this name.”
WHAT?!
“How?!” I asked.
He pulled out MY ID from his wallet, and showed it to me. “Is this you?”
WHAT?!
He’s the guy I made out with in the dark!
“You’re that guy in the dark?!” I asked in surprise. “I should have known.”
“Yeah,” he said. “I’ve been searching for you for a while.”
“I’ve been searching for you too!”
He leaned in closer to me and said, “Well, we found love in a hopeless place.”
He smiled and planted a kiss on my forehead. “We still have the dance, you know.”
“I know. I can’t wait.”
I hope he never finds about my past…
I hope I never spill the beans…
Dear god, please!
Look at Ian’s other books!
Powers in a teenage witch
Courage in a teenage witch
Vacillating Brown and Black: Vol. 1
Vacillating Brown and Black: Vol. 2
Vacillating Brown and Black: Vol. 3
Vacillating Brown and Black: Vol. 4
Till I Find you: A Vacillating novella
Dangerously in love: Vol. 1
The Girl with the fangs: Vol. 1
Sweet Love: Vol. 1
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