Sights on the SEAL: A Secret Baby Romance

by Alexis Abbott

  I am stunned and overwhelmed by this barrage of information, and apparently it shows, because he then gives me an even colder, impatient look.

  “This is an opportunity to die for, and it is not offered lightly. If you wish to accept, it is imperative that you tell me now,” he commands. My mind is racing, my heart pounding. How am I even supposed to respond to something like this? I had no expectation of anything so serious happening tonight — especially not to me!

  But I quickly stammer, “Yes, I-I would love to. I just —”

  “Very well,” he interrupts, guiding me back into the restaurant and toward my waiting parents, who both looked utterly bewildered. Without another word to me, Pavlenko describes the details of the arrangement to my parents, leaving me standing stock-still and silent the whole time. Holly and Ashley shoot me concerned, questioning looks, but all I can do is give them a strained smile and shrug. I know they’ll be happy for me, but it also means that I’ve bested them. We’re all friends, but we’re competitors, too. Besides, if I go away to Paris — which still seems like an impossible pipe dream — who knows if I’ll even ever see them again?

  Still, I tell myself as Pavlenko arranges my travel and schooling plans with my parents, he is right. This is an opportunity I cannot pass up. On the ride home from the banquet, I don’t say a word even as my parents chatter excitedly about Pavlenko’s offer. It’s all happening so fast, but it’s definitely for the better, isn’t it? Gymnastics is my passion, and I will never fulfill my ambitions if I just languish away here in Toast.

  Paris is the place to be. Even if it means leaving behind everything I’ve ever known or loved.

  Right?

  But then I remember what happened the last time I flew anywhere...

  Liv

  I’ve only been on a plane once in my life, when I was ten and we flew to Orlando for a family vacation at Disney World. I was so scared that my parents had to give me a special medicine from the doctor to chill me out and calm me down for the flight. Every slight turbulence felt like instant death to me. I just knew we were going to drop out of the sky and plummet to our doom at any moment. My mom spent the entire flight stroking my hair and reminding me that it’s more likely to get in a car accident than a plane crash.

  Which only had the effect of also making me terrified to get in the taxi waiting for us when we landed in Orlando.

  I’d like to think that I’ve matured a little bit since then. Mellowed out, even. But when the day of the flight arrives, I’m trembling yet again. It looks like my old phobia is still going strong, unfortunately. And this is a scarier flight than just hopping on a plane to Florida: this time I’m flying over the Atlantic Ocean.

  And I’m doing it all by myself.

  “You’ll be just fine, sweetheart,” my mother assures me, her voice wavering. Both of my parents have been excessively hovering over me for the past few weeks, fussing over every little thing and wanting to spend all their time with me. I understand why. This will be the first time I’ve ever lived away from home, and Paris is a long, long way away from North Carolina. I’m an only child and my parents have always been like my best friends, so this is going to be very difficult on all of us. I can’t imagine what it will be like not seeing them every day. Don’t get me wrong, in some ways I am looking forward to the freedom and independence of my new life.

  But I’m also scared.

  What if I get there and I can’t make any friends? I don’t even speak French! What if I get lost? Or mugged? I know frightening things can happen in big cities, and I’ve spent my whole life living in a place where nobody even thinks to lock their doors.

  “It’s not just the flight, Mom,” I admit, sitting on a bench in Raleigh-Durham International Airport. My dad puts an arm around my shoulder and squeezes me tight.

  “Don’t let the city intimidate you,” he says. “Livvy, you’re a tough cookie and I know you can handle whatever comes your way.”

  “It’s just that… well, what if nobody likes me?” I ask meekly, my voice very small. Both of my parents rush to reassure me.

  “Honey, I don’t think you’ve ever met a person who didn’t like you,” Mom says.

  “What’s not to like?” Adds my father.

  I can’t help but think of Pavlenko, remembering the way he regarded me as though I were just some small annoyance, a gnat buzzing in his face. He delivered the Paris offer almost begrudgingly, like he didn’t agree with the company’s assessment of my talent.

  Like he didn’t think I was good enough, but he didn’t want to say anything.

  But that’s not a problem I want to worry my parents with. So I keep it to myself. Then a woman’s voice comes over the intercom and announces that my flight, Raleigh to Charles de Gaulle Airport in Paris, is boarding in thirty minutes. My parents exchange heartbroken, desperate looks. I know they’re going to miss me. I hope they don’t fall apart without me around to keep them busy. They’re both so involved in my life that I wonder how they’ll manage living their own lives now that I’m leaving.

  My father is already in tears, wrapping his arms around me and rocking me back and forth. Mom joins in the group hug, petting my hair and kissing the top of my head.

  “Oh, we’re going to miss you so much,” Mom sniffles.

  “Promise you’ll call every day, no matter how much it costs,” Dad blubbers, his tears staining my sweatshirt. “We love you, Liv. Please be careful.”

  “Text us the second your plane lands, okay!” Mom adds.

  As they finally release me from their combined embrace, I assure them that I will keep in contact and that I will love and miss them more than anything. And it’s true. While I’ve always had casual friendships here, no relationship has ever even come close to the tight-knit dynamic of my little family unit.

  They walk me as far as security will allow, and then I’m on my own. Waving tearfully to my weepy mother and outright sobbing father, I pass through the security checkpoint and proceed nervously on to the terminal. When I board the plane, I feel that old fear settling in again. The plane is so cramped and warm inside, and I feel slightly claustrophobic. And this time I don’t have my mom to reassure me the whole way.

  But I can do this. I have to.

  My seat neighbor is a rather attractive guy who looks to be in his twenties, and when he notices me fidgeting, he asks if I’m a nervous flier. I sheepishly confess that I am, and he pats my hand, giving me a wink.

  “Don’t worry, I’ll keep you safe,” he tells me, smiling. I blush, not accustomed to a lot of male attention. Every guy I interacted with in my hometown I’ve known since I was a little kid. When the population is that low, you kind of get to know everybody more intimately than you’d like. So no matter how objectively cute a guy in my graduating class might be, I would always remember him as the kid who picked his nose in first grade. Besides, gymnastics has always superseded any interest in romantic entanglements, for me.

  So I am about as experienced as a nun.

  The guy introduces himself as Will and says that he’s also going to Paris to study at the same school as me! Of course, he’s going as a graduate student, whereas I will be a lowly undergrad. Still, he flirts with me in a non-threatening, easy going way, and we spend the whole flight chatting about how excited we are. Will explains that he’s been to Paris many times before, and he offers to help show me around and get used to the place. I can’t believe my luck!

  When the flight attendant comes down the aisle, Will purchases a miniature bottle of champagne and sneaks me a sip. It’s the first time I’ve ever had champagne — or alcohol, period. It burns in my mouth a little bit, but I actually enjoy the taste once I get past the bubbles.

  “You’ve really never had a drink?” Will asks in an undertone, his eyebrows raised.

  I shake my head and shrug. “No. For a long time my hometown was in a dry county so people still don’t really drink a whole lot. Plus, you know, I’m underage.”

  He laughs. “Yeah, tha
t never stopped me.”

  As we share the champagne, I start to feel a little giddy — definitely more upbeat and optimistic about my Parisian experience than I was when I boarded the plane. I mean, I’ve been excited all along, but until now my anxieties have kept my elation to a minimum. But now I just want to jump up and down and turn backflips!

  The rest of the flight passes by much more quickly than I expected, probably thanks to the booze and Will’s pleasant company. It’s exciting to have a cute boy so interested in me, and when we finally land in Paris, he suggests that we share a taxi together. I agree happily as it’s nice having an older guy to guide me through the massive airport, and the two of us collect our luggage and walk out into the French sunshine.

  “We did it!” I exclaim, breathing in deeply as the sounds of the big city whirr around me.

  “You’re in Paris!” Will says, nudging my shoulder. “How does it feel?”

  “Like a dream,” I breathe, my heart soaring. I cannot believe I’ve made it all the way here — little Liv Greenwood, all the way from the middle of nowhere to the almost mythical city of Paris! It almost feels like I’m watching a movie starring myself, and at any second the end credits will pop up and transport me back to Toast, where I’m a nobody once again.

  Will and I take a taxi to the University, where we get out and walk around on campus for a while. It’s mind-blowing to be somewhere so deeply entrenched in history beyond my own nation, the white walls of the old school nearly vibrating with centuries of memory. Then we simply stroll along the streets, dragging our luggage along behind us. I feel so small in this massive, beautiful, vibrant city — like an ant crawling on the face of a gigantic marble statue. Every building tells a story, every corner we turn reveals another architectural masterpiece I’ve only ever seen in the pages of an art history textbook.

  This is a fantasy, a wild daydream — but it’s also my life now!

  Around noon, I check my phone and realize I forgot to text my parents, I have been so distracted. I finally reply to their barrage of concerned texts, assuring them that the plane landed and I’m perfectly fine. I’m more than fine, though, I’m floating on cloud nine.

  “Oh, I believe I’ve got to head back to the campus to meet with my gymnastics coordinator,” I tell Will, a little sadly. I am excited to meet the trainers and my fellow gymnasts, but I’m also reluctant to leave Will. It’s so nice to have found a friend already, especially one who seems to genuinely care about making me feel welcome.

  Suddenly, Will catches me in his arms and dives in to kiss me.

  I’m so shocked that I actually yelp in surprise, barely managing to dodge out of the way before his lips collide with mine. His kiss lands awkwardly on my cheek instead, and when he releases me, he looks a little miffed. “Did I misread something?” he asks, ruffling his hand through his blond curls.

  “Oh, uhh, I just — um — I need to get going,” I tell him quickly, backing away to hail a cab. On the one hand, I am flattered that such a cute boy has deemed me worth trying to kiss, but at the same time I am taken aback by how forward he is. After all, we barely know each other! Does everyone move this quickly in France?

  Thankfully, a taxi pulls up and I start to hastily climb inside. Will rushes forward to ask through the window, “Wait! When will I see you again? How will I contact you?”

  I shrug and say, “Oh, um, I’m sure we’ll see each other around campus!”

  And with that, the taxi peels off down the winding Parisian streets toward the school. I slump in the back seat, my heart pounding after such a strange, sudden encounter. I’ve only been in the city for a few hours, but it’s already been a much different experience than anything I ever had in North Carolina. If this is how quickly things can happen in just one morning… what all will happen in a year or two?

  Liv

  When my taxi pulls up to the curb and lets me out in front of my stop on campus, I’m still trying to shake off my encounter with Will. The last and only other time a boy tried to kiss me was in second grade at my birthday pool party. His name was Michael, and I pushed him into the pool and ran away. And this time, I merely jumped in a cab and ran away. I’m starting to wonder if this is how I will always react to male attention — immediately jump into extreme evasive maneuvers. It’s becoming my trademark move.

  It’s about one in the afternoon now and the exhaustion of flying and then dragging my luggage around the city all morning is getting to me. But it’s my first day in France — the first time I’ve ever left America! — and I am not going to let jet lag nor a weird sexual advance get me down! The instructions I have pulled up on my phone in an email from Pavlenko inform me that I’m supposed to be meeting my roommate in a courtyard on campus at half past one. So I’m just barely going to make it on time. I hurry down the beautiful, historical, arched hallways and rush out into the lazy afternoon sunshine to meet the girl I’m going to share a place with. I’m incredibly nervous and a little bit self-conscious, afraid that something will go wrong.

  What if she doesn’t like me? What if we don’t get along?

  I wonder if she’ll be from a small town like me or if she’ll already be acquainted with city life. I can’t decide which would be better. If she’s also a small-town girl, then maybe she’ll understand me. But if she’s used to taking public transportation, dodging in and out of traffic, following the hustle and bustle of the city… well, then maybe she can help me adjust.

  I cross the courtyard, pulling my wheeled suitcase behind me, looking around for someone who looks like they’re waiting for me. Most of the people I see here look distinctly French — sleek black clothing, effortless style. Then I see her.

  There’s a girl who looks to be about my age, standing in the center of the courtyard. She’s glancing around nervously, her hands fidgeting in front of her. She is much taller than me, and maybe even slimmer. This girl looks to be the very epitome of the gymnast image. Her straight auburn hair is pulled back into a neat ponytail and she’s wearing jeans and a pink tank top with a green cardigan over it. She stands out in the sea of dark, probably designer duds. She has to be the one, for sure.

  I hurry toward her and she finally looks my way, her hazel eyes going wide and round.

  “Are you —?” she begins, her voice sweet but a little shrill.

  “Olivia Greenwood,” I greet, holding out my hand to shake hers. “I’m assuming you’re waiting for a roommate? For the gymnastics program?”

  She nods, somehow looking both relieved and anxious at the same time. “Yes, hi. My name is Margaret-Ann Mason, but I go by Maggie, please.”

  “You can call me Liv,” I add, giving her a smile to try and ease her anxiety. She seems a little stiff, like she’s still uncertain of me. I hope it’s not something I’ve done wrong.

  “Have you been by the flat yet?” she asks, then takes notice of my luggage and blushes. “Oh, I guess probably not since you’re still pulling a suitcase around. Duh.”

  I relaxed a little, realizing that her aloofness probably has less to do with judging me and more to do with her own insecurity. She seems sweet, but I can already pick up on the fact that she’s a little too hard on herself. A lot of gymnasts are. We’re forced to compete within such strict guidelines that some of us develop complexes about it. Just like my short stature marks me as an outsider, I can imagine that Maggie’s height and awkwardness set her apart, too.

  “Yeah, I just kind of spent the morning, uh, looking around.”

  “Well, I can take you to the apartment, if you like,” Maggie offers, brightening up. “My parents sent me here a week early to get accustomed to the city, and I’ve visited Paris a bunch of times before, so I know my way around pretty well!” She immediately blushed, probably feeling like she’s rambled too much. But I like people who talk a lot. My parents were always chattering back and forth while I just listened contentedly. It was comforting to me.

  “That would be awesome,” I assure her. “I’m totally new here.”r />
  “Okay,” she says, biting her lip. She still looks nervous, but there’s a sparkle in her eye. Maggie leads me across the large campus and out to the street. Instead of hailing a cab — which is how I always assumed everyone in big cities got around — she just started walking, with me trailing slightly behind.

  “Is the apartment close to here?” I pipe up, my shorter legs struggling to keep up with this Amazonian new acquaintance.

  “Oh, yes! It’s within walking distance of the university. The training studio isn’t far from here, either,” she explains. We walk for a while longer down the wide, busy streets, and then we turn a corner and Maggie points upward at a gorgeous old building with black, wrought-iron balconies jutting out from its stony face. “Home sweet home!” she exclaims, beaming.

  “Wow,” I breathe, tilting my head back to gaze up at the many stories. I had no idea we would be staying in such a gorgeous place. This looks like a movie set, like a postcard. I’m expecting a Juliet to appear on a balcony and call out for her Romeo at any moment.

  “I’m sure you’re tired of lugging that thing around,” Maggie comments, gesturing toward my suitcase. “Wanna go inside? I’ll show you our flat!”

  She leads me through a giant set of carved wooden doors and we climb several flights of shining marble stairs, my suitcase clunking along behind us. I’m nearly out of breath by the time we reach the sixth floor.

  “Yeah, the walk-up is a bit of a hike. But just wait until you see the inside!” Maggie remarks. We walk down a long hallway to room 608, where she takes out a key and opens the door to a spacious, airy apartment. My jaw drops instantly.

  Everything is decorated in stark, clean whites and pale powder blues, with quaint little fixtures and floral designs on the molding. The ceilings are surprisingly high, and as I walk into the main living area, I am stunned nearly to tears by the sight of a massive, wall-to-wall set of windows. I rush over and look down to see that our apartment overlooks the street below, as well as a blooming green park across from us. Thin, gauzy white curtains are draped at either side of the wall of windows, pulled back to let in the lovely sunshine. I spin around and gawk at Maggie, who is also beaming excitedly.