Once again, his smile brought a shiver of pleasure. Not good. Really not good. She was trying to turn her life around and had been making progress. She wanted stability, a future, and if God was willing, a family. But she didn’t want to find it here in Kings Meadow, and she wouldn’t find it with a man like Buck Malone.
Without a word, she turned away and got back to cooking.
BUCK WASN’T USED TO WORKING THIS HARD TO WIN a woman’s interest. It frustrated him. It also made him all the more determined to break down those defenses of hers or know the reason why.
He rolled toward the table. “Tell me about your writing.” That seemed a safe topic. “What got you started?”
There was a lengthy silence, and he wondered if she would refuse to answer. Had he made her that angry this morning? He glanced toward the stove and found her back to him.
But finally, she turned. “The short version: I wrote my first book on a dare from Terri.” She shrugged. “I never knew I wanted to write a book until I did it. And afterward I couldn’t imagine wanting to do anything else.”
A dozen or so years ago, Buck had had dreams for his future. He’d planned to go to college, and then he’d hoped to play professional baseball. He’d wanted to travel, to see the world. Lots of choices had seemed to stretch before him. Time and circumstances had obliterated most of them.
But he wasn’t bitter about the way things had turned out. He’d done what had to be done. He’d taken care of the people he loved. Now he had a simple, uncomplicated, uncluttered life. He liked it that way. He didn’t lack anything that he needed, and his wants were few.
“What about you?” Charity asked.
He had to stop for a moment to figure out what she was asking. Then he mirrored her earlier shrug. “I sort of fell into guiding. Needed work and got hired on by an outfitter out of Cascade. Eventually I decided to work for myself.”
“And you never aspired to do anything else?”
“Not really.” The last thing he wanted was for Charity to pity him. If she didn’t know what had happened to his dad and the events that had followed, then he’d just as soon keep it that way. “I mean, nothing that matters much in the overall scheme of things. I’ve got a good life. I don’t see any reason to change it.” He removed the plates and glasses from the basket on the scooter and slid them to opposite sides of the table.
“Did you ever . . . Did you ever want to get married?” she asked.
“No.” The word sounded sharp in his ears. He looked toward her again and tried to soften the next one. “You?”
An expression he couldn’t define flittered across her face. Wistful? Painful? Fearful? Something. “I didn’t want marriage for a long time. I wanted to be on my own. It was better that way. But lately I’ve had a change of heart. If I . . . If I could find the right man, yes, I’d like to get married.”
“Have you got somebody in mind?” In Buck’s experience, most women had somebody in mind when they asked about marriage. Several local gals had thought he was the one for them. It had taken some convincing to change their minds. All of them were now married to other guys and he was happy for them—and happy for himself.
“No,” Charity answered after a few moments of silence. “Nobody in mind. I was in a relationship with a man named Nathan for over a year.” She shrugged a second time. “It didn’t work out, and we stopped seeing each other this past spring. I haven’t done any dating since then. I’ve been sort of . . . reevaluating.”
He wondered if Nathan was the cause of the sadness he sometimes saw in her eyes. He hoped not. She didn’t look sad right now. Still, he had a sudden distaste for the fellow, whoever he was. He had to be an idiot to have let Charity get away.
Uneasiness washed over Buck, although he couldn’t pinpoint the cause. It was followed by another wave of frustration over his current circumstances. He was trapped inside the house, unable to get out, unable to work, unable to even spend time with the horses. The days and weeks of his confinement—or at the very least his dependence upon others—stretched before him like an unending parade.
CHARITY TURNED TO THE REFRIGERATOR AND WITHDREW the salmon. After seasoning the fish with coarse-grained salt and ground black paper, she placed it skin side down in a nonstick pan. The pan went straight into the oven on the rack above the potatoes. By the time she turned around, Buck was no longer in the kitchen—and it bothered her that he was gone. It bothered her even more that it bothered her.
She walked to the living room entrance. Buck was back on the sofa, left hand on Cocoa’s head while the fingers of his right hand tried to scratch a spot beneath the cast on his leg. “Dinner will be ready in about fifteen minutes.”
He looked at her. “It already smells good.”
Not knowing what else to do with herself until the fish and potatoes were ready to come out of the oven, she went to the nearest chair and sat on it. Not for the first time, her gaze roamed the living room. There weren’t any feminine touches anywhere. It was a man’s domain, without knickknacks or unnecessary adornment. A fine layer of dust lay on all flat surfaces; she was tempted to do something about that.
Then she remembered the framed photographs on a shelf in a bookcase that was mostly empty of books. She’d noticed them a couple of days ago but hadn’t taken the time to look at them. Curious now, she got up and crossed to the bookcase.
On the far left were a couple of family photos from when Ken and Buck were still young kids, both of them taken in the outdoors, one of them with Buck showing off a large trout. Buck’s senior photo was next to that one. He looked the way she remembered him best—handsome, self-confident, and full of youthful exuberance. Next to it was one of Buck on horseback, brown cowboy hat shading his face. A string of packhorses followed behind him, and tall pines framed both sides of the trail. The final photograph was an eight-by-ten of his parents on their wedding day. Where were they now? she wondered. Had someone told her and she’d forgotten? Obviously they weren’t in Kings Meadow or they would have been the ones looking after their son.
The telephone rang, shattering the silence that had filled the living room.
Buck grabbed the handset. “Hello . . . Oh no. Sorry to hear that . . . I understand. Can’t be helped . . . Don’t worry about it. I’ll find somebody . . . No, don’t bother. Really. It’s all good . . . Okay. Talk to you later.” He ended the call and glanced toward Charity. “My friend’s got a sick kid and can’t come feed the horses tonight. I’ll have to call around to find somebody else to do it.”
The way he said it revealed his intense dislike for asking for help. She empathized. “I can do it,” she said as she stepped away from the bookcase.
“Oh, no. That’s asking too much.”
“You didn’t ask, Buck. I offered.”
“Are you sure?”
“I’m sure. I like horses. Always have. You’ll just have to tell me what’s on the menu for them.” She stood. “But we get to eat first because our dinner is about to come out of the oven.”
“You won’t have to tell me twice,” he said, reaching for the handlebar of the scooter.
Charity went into the kitchen, arriving at the stove as the timer buzzed. In no time at all she had their meal on the table. Buck asked if it was all right for him to bless the food. That surprised her. She didn’t remember him being much of a churchgoer back in high school. Then again, she hadn’t been much of one once she started college. Only recently had she begun to look for a church to attend.
He’s changed. So have I. At least a little.
After the prayer, Buck stabbed the salmon with the fork in his left hand. Fortunately, no knife was required. He brought the fish to his mouth, closed his eyes as he chewed and swallowed, then released a satisfied, “Mmmmm.”
The pleasure she felt in that moment was all out of proportion for what the sound deserved, but it stayed with her for the remainder of the evening. Through dinner. Through feeding the horses. Through washing the dishes. Through going home, checki
ng and answering her e-mail, watching a movie, washing her face and brushing her teeth, and getting into bed. And that night, for the first time since her arrival in Kings Meadow, her sleep was undisturbed by bad dreams.
Chapter 7
OVER THE NEXT WEEK, CHARITY SPENT LONG HOURS at her computer, writing hard on the new novel. Buck didn’t require a lot of her time. His brother and friends had taken over the job of fixing him breakfast and warming up something for his dinner, so she had no excuse to break away from her work. Sometimes she wished she did, for she still didn’t feel that special connection with her story.
Finally, she decided to call her editor in New York.
“Bridget Steele.”
“Good morning, Bridget. It’s Charity Anderson.”
“Hello, Charity. How are you?”
“Fine, thanks.”
“Are you still staying at your parents’ home in the mountains like you thought you would?”
“Yes. I’ll be here all summer.”
“Remodeling coming along okay on your house?”
Charity nodded as she answered, “Yes.”
“That’s good. So tell me: how’s the book coming?”
Charity had known that would be the next question. The voice in her head screamed for her to lie, but she didn’t. “Not as well as I’d like. That’s why I called. Maybe I can’t write a romance.”
There was silence on the other end of the line. Long enough to make Charity’s pulse hum with dread.
But finally, Bridget said, “Tell me about the place where you grew up.”
“Kings Meadow?”
“Yes, describe it to me. Make me see it in my mind.”
Charity rose from her chair and went to the window. From there, she saw several horses grazing in the pasture behind Buck’s house. “It’s a small town surrounded on all sides by mountains. The high valley where it’s set is shaped like a boomerang. It had fewer than three thousand residents when I graduated from high school. I doubt it’s grown any since then. There are pine trees all over the mountains. Lodge pole and ponderosa. The valley floor is the deep green of emeralds in June and spotted with colorful wildflowers. Most everybody here owns horses. Lots of cowboys and cowgirls wherever you look. Country music on most of the radios.”
“Cowboys. They’re always popular in romance novels. They make good heroes, and I believe that the author finding the right hero is key to making everything else fall into place.”
Charity gave her head a slow shake. She hadn’t hung out with anyone she would call a cowboy in over a decade. Not that she wouldn’t still love to ride horses or even attend a rodeo. She would. But her lifestyle didn’t allow for those things.
“Why not write about someone you know? Or at least someone you could use as inspiration for the hero of your story.”
Immediately she pictured Buck. Not on a scooter with casts on ankle and wrist, but as she’d seen him in the parking lot of the Merc before he fell. Despite all the reasons it shouldn’t, her heart fluttered at the image in her head. Boots, jeans, and cowboy hat. Tall and lean. A slow, lazy kind of smile. Brown eyes that conveyed an easy-going nature. Even more good-looking than he’d been in high school, she’d finally decided. Hero material for the taking.
“Charity?”
“Yes, I’m here.”
“Do you know someone like that?”
“Actually, yes. I do. He lives next door to my parents.” Charity wouldn’t mention that she’d had a serious teenage crush on him.
“Is he a cowboy?”
“A wilderness guide for four or five months of the year. A saddle maker in the winter.”
“And is he nice? Is he likable?”
“Yes.”
“Handsome?”
Another flutter in Charity’s chest. “Uh . . . yes. Most women would think so.”
“Do you think so?” her editor pressed.
She drew in a quick breath before answering, “Yes.”
“Well then. Sounds like you have the inspiration for your hero. Now all you need is the right heroine and a difficult situation that threatens to keep them apart.”
Bridget made it sound so easy. But it wasn’t easy. Wouldn’t be easy. Even with Buck as the blueprint for her hero.
“Let’s keep brainstorming, Charity. I know you can do this. You’re a talented writer. We just need to get you over the hump. Can you use what you’ve already written with a new hero? Maybe a new setting? One that looks like Kings Meadow.”
“I think so.” Charity returned to the desk, flipped open her notebook, and prepared to jot down whatever ideas she and Bridget came up with.
More than an hour later, Charity pressed the End button and set the phone on the desk. Her head throbbed as her thoughts tumbled into a mixed-up mess. Cocoa whimpered at her from the doorway, and that was all Charity needed for an excuse to leave her desk and get outside for some fresh air. Hopefully she’d get enough fresh air to make the headache go away.
“Let’s go, girl.”
The morning was pleasant. Not too warm yet, although the temperature was climbing. The sky was an unbroken expanse of blue. Not a single cloud to be seen. Mistress and dog set off at a brisk pace down the road, heading east, away from town. Houses were few and far between. After the last one, there was nothing for another two miles on either side of the road but fenced pastures. Then the road came to an end. Horses dotted the land wherever she looked. Mixed in was the occasional cow or goat and even a couple of llamas.
By the time they reached the dead end, the walk had worked its magic. Charity’s headache was gone. Not only that but her confusion and frustration had been driven out as well. She wasn’t fooled. When she opened her laptop again, the action might bring headache, confusion, and/or frustration rushing back. But for now, she enjoyed the sense of calm that filled her.
She remembered Terri telling her that she needed to relax and forget about the book for a while. She hadn’t followed her sister’s advice. She’d tried to write something—anything—every day since she arrived in Kings Meadow. How much worse could it be if she simply took a week off and let the story simmer?
“But what would make me relax and forget the book?” she whispered.
Immediately she thought of Buck’s horses. They were being fed daily, but no one was riding them. They must need exercise. Maybe getting into the saddle would put her in the mood to write a cowboy romance.
“It couldn’t hurt to try.” Could it?
Especially since Buck Malone was supposed to inspire her love story. In a fictional sense, of course. Not for real.
BUCK STARED AT THE CAST ON HIS WRIST AND WISHED he could bust out of it. But he knew better. The bones were just beginning to knit. He needed to follow doctor’s orders for a few more weeks. It would be difficult to make saddles with a bum right hand, and he wouldn’t be of much use as a guide either. Not when it came to setting up and breaking down camps. Not when it came to swinging an ax or having strength in an emergency situation.
Patience. He had to exercise patience.
He rolled the scooter to the large window in the living room and looked south toward the river and the mountains beyond it. What he wouldn’t give to be outside on this fine day. The boredom grew worse by the minute. He eyed the steps leading down from his front door. If he was careful, maybe he could maneuver down them on the scooter.
With a woof, Cocoa came racing across his front yard. The dog stopped on the front stoop and looked at Buck through the glass, silently asking for admittance. Buck chuckled. Cocoa seemed to like him a lot. He was even beginning to believe Charity had warmed to him a little. Speaking of whom, there she came, following the dog at a slower pace. Instead of the shorts and slip-on sneakers he’d seen her in several times, she wore jeans and boots. It was a good look on her. But then, she would look good in just about anything.
Buck rolled to the front door and opened it. “Hey, Cocoa.” He patted the dog’s head, then lifted his gaze. “Hey, Charity. Nice morning.�
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“Yes.” She stopped on the stone walkway. “It’s beautiful out.”
“Think you could help me get outside? I’ve got cabin fever something fierce.”
The request seemed to trouble her. “I suppose we could try. If you’re sure you should. I’d hate to be the cause of another fall.”
He gave her a hard look. She was a slight thing, true. But she was stronger than she looked.
“Maybe you should wait until your brother or one of your friends comes over to see to the horses.”
“Nobody’ll come again until this evening. I need outside now.”
Charity worried her lower lips with her teeth.
“Help me out the back door to the patio.” Buck sensed her weakening. “Half an hour in the sunshine will do me a world of good.”
There was a long silence before she said, “Okay. I hope you don’t regret it.”
Buck backed out of the doorway, a silent invitation for her to enter. After a brief hesitation, she did so. Giving her no chance to change her mind, Buck turned the scooter and headed for the kitchen exit. He heard the click of Cocoa’s claws on the floor, then the sounds of Charity’s boots. He stopped the scooter and reached for the doorknob before rolling through the open doorway.
“Here,” Charity said as she stopped at his side on the back stoop.
He looked at her, and she held out a crutch to him. “I thought we’d use the scooter,” he said.
“No.” She shook her head. “The crutch is better. Better without wheels as you go down, I think. I’ll steady you from the other side.” She glanced at the patio. “Let me bring one of those chairs closer first.” With a little push, she forced him to take hold of the crutch before she went down the steps. She dragged a hard plastic chair across the patio and left it near the bottom of the steps, then returned to his side. “Ready?”
“More than ready.” He draped his right arm over her shoulders while she put her left arm around his lower back.
It turned out to be easier than either of them expected. Much easier than the day his brother had brought him home from the clinic, but he’d been doped up at the time. Today he was completely clear headed.
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