“This is not the end,” said Shauna. “There were some who said they wanted this to happen. Maybe when we get the numbers crunched we’ll see a pattern here. We know we have something to do with our reality. We may not cause everything that happens to us, in fact the thought is ludicrous. But we know, we sense, that the individual personality has input into what occurs around it. All we have to do is put everything we’ve got together in that computer and I’ll bet the patterns will start to show up. I know they will, Hawk.”
“Yeah, man,” said Rob. “That’s why we started this whole thing in the first place. You don’t think I’d have anything to do with it if it was some bogus theory you were postulating, do you?” he smiled.
“We’re all here for the same reason,” said Susan. “Each of us has a gift to understand beyond what we see with our eyes. If the collective unconscious is creating this pole shift or whatever it is, then there is a way to stop it. And maybe we can find ways to prevent other disasters from happening. I know one thing that keeps coming up for me. It’s the poor that are hurt the worst. So many of these disasters happen in places where the poor are the ones who suffer and take the brunt of it all. Why would that be?”
“Because the rich have something to do with it?” asked Peter. “I mean, doesn’t that make sense somehow or do I just sound paranoid?”
“No you don’t,” said Shauna. “The gap between the rich and the poor has widened significantly. There is practically no middle class left worth mentioning anymore.”
“What are you saying, Shauna?” asked Hawk.
“I don’t know what I’m saying. I’m just making observations like a good scientist.”
There was some puzzlement in the air. Why was it that the rich seemed less affected by these disasters? Certainly many of them occurred in third-world countries. And certainly all rich people weren’t happy with no troubles to bother with. But it was something to think about. Already, preparations were being made by many people to relocate to supposedly safer ground when this great disaster struck. There were maps made by many different people, some clairvoyant of where these safe places would be. But to a scientist who knew more than the common man about the effects of such things as multiple earthquakes and volcanic eruptions there would be no such place called safe. It would be the same as if a giant comet had hit the Earth as it supposedly had so long ago in Earth’s history. The dinosaurs died in that scenario because of the ash given off and covering the entire planet. There would be very little air to breathe because of this. None could survive but possibly some deep sea creatures. The only alternative was to discover if there was a subconscious cause for this and, if so, find a remedy before it was too late.
“Let’s let Peter enter everyone’s data into the computer. Whoever wants to stay here can, or if you wish you can send it in from your homes,” said Hawk. “I’m going to the beach.”
“Mind if I come along?” asked Shauna.
“That would be lovely,” he said. They gathered their things together and said goodbye to everyone.
“What does it all mean?” asked Fern after they’d left..
Hutch said, “Darlin’, we know a whole lot of stuff, but we don’t know everything.”
“But why aren’t we getting good analysis from our findings?” she asked. “I mean, we did all this work and what is it for? What is it that is driving our lives forward into the future every day? What makes the Earth revolve around the sun? I know the answers to some of it, but it just seems like if we know all that we know we should be able to figure this out too.”
Rob spoke up then, “Maybe we shouldn’t be blending science in with metaphysics, but it seems to me they have to meet somewhere. This is where we could really break new ground in my opinion. Physics has certain rules or laws, and so does metaphysics. It’s too bad more scientists haven’t given more credence to its New Age cousin metaphysics, because if they had I doubt we’d be having this problem at all.
“To me, and I think we all agree on this, metaphysics is the next logical step to finding out more about what life is all about, what we’re doing here, why we’re doing it. If science didn’t have its damn thumb up its ass it could go so much farther than it has. One day we’re gonna look back and think of this time as the stone ages. I envision a world where we can all work together to solve the problems. Nobody gains anything by allowing the Earth to continue on this destructive path. I think humans have caused way more devastation than any natural disaster ever could. And ya know what gives me hope? Seeing little bits of weeds growing up through the cracks in the sidewalk,” he chuckled.
“You are so right on, Rob,” said Fern. “We can’t give up guys. This is way too important. There is a connection and I know we can find it if we keep trying. There are a lot more people opening up their hearts and minds to what we have to say.”
“The people who have the power aren’t listening though,” said Hutch. “What with all the wars and bloodshed and petty stuff they deal with. They turn a blind eye to the bigger picture that is so very obvious to us.”
“We can’t make them listen,” said Peter. “We can’t stop the killing or the starvation. But there is one thing we can do. We can use the powers we do have to make things right again. The one pattern I see with the data we have so far is that there’s an imbalance on the planet, right? Does it have to take this kind of disaster to create balance again?”
“Maybe so,” said Susan. “Maybe this is all happening for a reason.”
“Here we go again with ‘everything happens for a reason,’” said Noah. “God I’m sick to death of hearing that. Can we please not go there? That old refrain is for people who are ignorant and apathetic. They don’t know and they don’t care.”
Noah got his things together and said, “I’m outta here. See ya guys,” and he walked out.
“I’m just trying to look at the other side for a minute,” said Susan.
“He’s just frustrated, Susan. Don’t worry about him,” said Rob.
“But he’s right,” said Susan, ”I shouldn’t have said it. It was stupid of me. So many things have no reason behind them at all.”
“Not that we can always see, that is,” said Peter. “Maybe there is always a reason and we just don’t know what it is. That’s logical.”
“I know,” said Susan.
“Let’s break it up for the day,” said Hutch. “It’s been a long summer, and a long morning. Everyone try and get your data in by tonight and we’ll see what’s what tomorrow, alright?”
Slowly they all made their ways to the door and waved each other off. Fall was coming on quickly, although you never knew in Humboldt County. Some winters ended up having more sun than the Summers. But there was a wind picking up. The beach would be cold. The group walked their separate ways.
Chapter Three
Shauna and Hawk walked arm in arm down the windy beach. The sand was flying across the surface like a miniature sandstorm in the desert. Shauna pulled her hood over her head to keep her ears from freezing. The ocean threw little waves ashore at their feet. It was foggy and the water was darkly lit. They could see a couple of surfers sitting on their boards in their wet suits, waiting for a good wave. No one else was in sight.
“How is it,” said Hawk, “that with all the overcrowding on our planet we can still be just about the only ones on this long stretch of beach?”
Shauna smiled. Getting out for a while seemed to be helping his mood. “Maybe everyone else’s data will be more on target with what we’re looking for, Hawk.”
Hawk looked straight ahead. “I’m afraid I’ve been barking up the wrong tree, my dear. It seems we have no say in our destiny. But I do know our choices affect the future. I just can’t prove it with what we have. I’ve been prepared for this eventuality, though. I’m just not sure those who are funding this research will support me in what I need to do next.”
Shauna pulled her jacket closer. The wind was picking up. “They’ve been pretty accommodating so fa
r. Not many organizations would support the kind of research we’ve been doing. I would think they would let you do just about anything you want.”
“Even they have their limits, Shauna,” said Hawk.
“Are you gonna tell me who they are.”
“I can’t do that. They swore me to secrecy. They don’t want their name associated with paranormal research. It wouldn’t please their stockholders.”
Shauna couldn’t help but be curious about this corporation or whatever it was. She knew Hawk would tell her if he could. Nobody on the team knew who they were. Still, it bothered her. She and Hawk had gotten close since they met a few months ago. They had been sleeping together for three weeks now. He was a tender lover. Even though he was a bit older than she, it felt wonderful to be in his arms and feel his kisses all over her body. Shauna hadn’t had this kind of attention for far too long. She wondered if the rest of the group had a clue what was going on between she and Hawk. “So what is the next step, Hawk?” she asked.
“I’d rather not say just yet. I want to go back to the lab tomorrow and see the findings for the rest of the team. No use worrying about the future until I have all the information.”
“Want me to come over tonight?”
“Not tonight Shauna. I hope you don’t mind, but I need to be alone to sort this out in my head.” He looked down into her saddened eyes. She wanted to comfort him. He put his arm around her. “Just for tonight, okay? I’ve got a lot of thinking to do.”
Shauna looked away. “Alright, but if you change your mind, give me a call.”
Hawk was distancing himself again. She had seen him do this before. It wasn’t a good sign at this stage of their relationship. They should be together every night the way she saw it. They complemented one another so well. He was driving her crazy. She wanted to be a part of his thought process on what to do next. But if he wanted to be alone that must mean that he didn’t think of her as a worthy enough person to think things through with.
“You know I will,” said Hawk. “Thanks for giving me my space, Shauna. It’s important to me.” He turned and kissed her passionately. She felt a tingling sensation in her toes. He had that effect on her.
Then he said, “Let’s head back. I’m freezing,” And they made their way back to his jeep in the parking area.
After Hawk dropped her off at her car and she drove home, Shauna thought about calling Susan. They hadn’t become terribly close, but Susan was a lot of fun and Shauna thought maybe they could be good friends. She called her, but there was no answer. She decided just to make herself a little salad and pasta for dinner. Her cat, Ginger, looked up at her.
“Sorry baby, no meat tonight.” She poured a little dry cat food into the cat’s dish on the floor. “There ya go Ginger,” she said.
The phone rang. She picked it up thinking it was Susan since she’d left a message on her machine. It was Rob.
“Hi Rob. How are you?” she asked.
“I’m good. Thanks. Listen, Shauna. I didn’t want to talk to Hawk about this yet, but I thought maybe I could confide in you.”
“Sure Rob. What’s on your mind?”
“Okay. This is gonna sound definitely weird,” he laughed a little nervously.
“Go ahead. I’m listening,” she said.
“I’m just gonna say it right out. I know this research is going nowhere, right? I mean, there’s no way we are getting the numbers we thought we would. There’s just no way to prove this stuff on a big scale like this.”
“So what’s your point?” she asked.
I know some people. Some people that aren’t from around here. You know what I mean?” said Rob.
“What do you mean? I’m not getting it. What people, from where?”
“Well, I can’t tell you exactly where they’re from. I don’t know that myself. But it’s a planet in a different solar system in the Milky Way Galaxy.”
Shauna nearly dropped the phone. What the hell was he talking about?
“I’m talking about extraterrestrials Shauna.”
“You know them? You met them?” she asked, sitting down in her kitchen.
“Well, yes. I met them, but I don’t know them very well. So does Hawk. It was when we went to Indonesia. We went on a long drive in the mountains one night. I told Hawk to stop the car cuz I had a feeling about the place. We walked around in the dark, but there was a full moon, so it wasn’t too bad once we got used to it. We walked over the ridge and that’s when we saw it. The ship. It was immense, Shauna.”
“Oh, my God,” she said.
“Yeah. Oh, my God is right. We couldn’t even say a word. We just stared. Then someone came out from behind a tree. She was one of them only you couldn’t tell. She looked human like us. She talked to us all night long. She told us her name was Meera. She had long blonde hair and wore a purplish-blue robe that changed with the light. It was crazy. Like no material I’ve ever seen.”
“What did she say to you, Rob?” Shauna asked him.
“She said a lot of things- a whole lot of things. We thought we were there all night, but it was like time had stopped while we were with her. She said we were on the wrong track and we were too late anyway. She said the time to act would have been in the 70s when the crisis of the Earth was at its last peek before destruction was inevitable. She basically said we’ve been shitting in our own backyard since we appeared on the Earth, but ever since the industrial age we have polluted ourselves continuously. But the reason for the massive destruction in 2012 is the collective unconscious has become so aware of how bad off the planet has gotten that we can only see complete annihilation as an answer now. That’s how we’re drawing this planet towards ourselves. It’s us doing it Shauna. We were right. But it’s happening on such a deep level that you’d have to deeply regress the entire population into a state where you could make them realize what we’re doing.”
“So even though we don’t want the planet to be destroyed, we’re making it happen anyway?” she asked.
“Yeah, that’s basically it. You got it.”
“But there’s no hope?”
“Like I said, not unless you hypnotized a great number of people and brought it into their consciousness. There’s no other way. It’s like that movie with the asteroid that was going to crash into Earth and they sent these people into space to blow it up. Except this ain’t no asteroid, Shauna, it’s a whole friggin’ planet!”
Shauna sat there dumbly. No hope? But why did Hawk still have hope? He acted like it on their walk just today. What was he thinking?
“Shauna, are you there?”
“Yeah, I’m here. What do we do now? Just wait for it to come?”
“I don’t know, but I had to tell someone. I was pretty sure Hawk hadn’t said anything to you. You know how stoic he is.”
“He almost said something today. He seems to think there’s something else we can do. I wonder what it is.”
“What did he say?” asked Rob.
“Not much. It was more of the feelings I got from him. He’s not giving up. I know it.”
“Interesting. I can’t imagine he’s come up with a way to mass hypnotize the world. Maybe he refuses to believe what Meera said to us. Another weird thing is I’ve been dreaming of her every night since we met. It’s very odd. When I wake up I can never remember what she said, or what happened either. I don’t understand it because I’ve been lucid dreaming since I was twelve years old. I always remember every bit of my dreams and am in complete control of them. Something about her makes me forget. I don’t like it. It feels creepy.”
“That is odd. I wonder what that’s about,” said Shauna.
“I don’t know, but you can’t tell Hawk I told you all this, okay? We’ve been friends a long time and I wouldn’t want anything to jeopardize that.”
“You can count on me, Rob. But it certainly won’t be easy you know. Did you know we’re seeing each other?” she asked.
“You are? I’ll be damned. Hawk’s got a few secrets
of his own I guess,” said Rob.
“It’s only been a few weeks, but that makes it all the harder not to talk to him about something this important. I almost wish you hadn’t told me.”
“I’m sorry, Shauna. I wouldn’t have if I’d known. Maybe he’ll come out with it soon. He has to anyway. We can’t keep working the way we have with this information that we got.”
“It’s okay. I’ll deal with it. You’re right, though, he can’t keep this from the rest of us for long,” she said, and they hung up.
“Well, kitty, what do you think of that?” Ginger looked up at her with a meow.
This was an interesting turn of events. Shauna felt lousy that Hawk hadn’t told her himself. She had thought they were so close they could share anything. She could kind of understand why, but she wasn’t about to make excuses for him.
Was it really too late? Rob had said the turning point was in the 70s. What could have been done then, she wondered. She had been too much in shock to ask questions while she still had Rob on the phone, but a hell of a lot of them were crowding around in her mind now. She felt confused. Reminding herself to ground and center herself she went to sit in the living room with a glass of red wine.
This would blow everything up. None of what they had accomplished during the summer would be at all useful. Could they find a way to contact this Meera again somehow? Maybe figure out some way to prevent this catastrophe. It didn’t seem likely, even if they went back to Indonesia, the spaceship would surely be gone. A wave of pain struck her temples. Shauna sat back in the chair. This would ruin everything. But why had Hawk let them continue their futile research after such an experience? She and Peter, and she was sure the rest of them too, had worked damned hard on this thing. It was Hawk’s project after all. Shauna felt like calling him, but she couldn’t break Rob’s confidence. There was nothing she could do. Rob had successfully gotten it off his conscience, but now it was on hers. The pain bolted through her head again. This happened sometimes when she became overwhelmed. She was very sensitive to vibrations around her and these particular ones were out of this world, literally! Bed seemed the best course of action at this point. She finished off her wine and called it a night without entering and sending her data.
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