She stared down at her feet. ”…I don’t think we should date.”
“Okay. If you think that’s for the best. But I just need you to do one thing. Look me in the eye as you tell me that.”
She glanced up at him, then looked down. She didn’t say a word.
“Because,” he went on, “I think you’ve seemed happier than I’ve ever seen you since we started going out. Marissa said so, too.”
Noelle glanced at him.
He continued, “If you really feel like us dating is making things worse in the long run, then I’m perfectly okay with breaking it off. I can leave the club if that makes things easier on your end. It was your thing before it was mine, and you’ve got enough on your plate with being team captain.”
“I don’t want you to leave the club.”
“Okay,” he said. He waited for her to speak, but she didn’t. ”Listen, I get the feeling today is a bad day. Don’t know why it is, but it is. And that happens. Fine. But I’m not willing to end this if it’s because the stars aligned wrong. So I’m asking you to tell me that you’re worse off because we’re together. Not asking for an explanation, just-”
“Never mind,” she said.
“Never mind?”
“I’m- just never mind. Can we forget this conversation happened?”
“Sure,” he said. He saw how dejected she looked. ”Want me to walk you home?”
She nodded.
It was odd. He’d been punched before, had failed a grade, he’d lost his uncle, and yet it was here, beside his girlfriend, that he was unhappier than he’d ever been. He was helpless, confused, frustrated. All he wanted to do was to help her, but he wasn’t sure how.
He fought the urge to sigh, and drew in a deep breath instead. The air in his nostrils was so cold he choked on it. All of his senses were plunged into high gear; a keening song so high pitched it made his ears hurt, cold throughout his body, the smell and taste of dust thick in the air, and pain lancing through his right hand.
Coughing, bewildered, he stared at the pile of rubble and the laboratory. Whatever effect had encompassed him, it was gone.
Noelle.
He scrambled up the pile of rubble. He remembered how they’d said they wouldn’t bomb this site until after the Endbringer was gone, so he still had some time.
He needed a first aid kit. He went through the cabinets and a set of drawers. Nothing. Empty test tubes, glass vials without any contents, canisters without contents, and paperwork. Lots of paperwork.
His eyes settled on a metal briefcase beneath the desk, within a few feet of the dead man’s hand.
His fingers crossed for a portable case of medical supplies, he set it down on the desk and popped it open. Disappointment overwhelmed him.
Six metal canisters recessed in black foam with slots cut out to hold them, paperwork was set in a flap in the lid.
He swore.
…newly purchased superpowers…
He winced. He’d turned his head too fast, and the movement had almost made the song in his head worse, like the pain prompted by moving a broken limb.
As had been the case with the birdcage and the newspaper, Krouse’s eye had caught on something. He’d always been a fast reader, was used to skimming through books, picking up the necessary words. As his glance had passed over the case, he’d read something in the text without even registering that he’d done it.
He reread the first line, underneath the header.
Congratulations on your newly purchased superpowers.
His eyes moved down to the vials.
He slammed the case shut and turned to leave. There was nothing here he could use for first aid, and certainly no doctors. He could only hope that Cody or Marissa had caught up with some of the people who they’d rescued from the three monsters. If there was any justice in the world, there would have been a doctor among them, and Cody or Marissa would have brought them to the house.
He ran. He had to get back, rendezvous with the others, and get to someone who knew him. If he didn’t hurry, he was worried he would slip into another memory and fail to find his way out again.
The cold air burned in his lungs as he ran, the metal case swinging from his good hand, banging irregularly against his leg.
17.05
“You made it,” Cody said.
Krouse stopped in his tracks. They were more than a block away from the house, and Cody was standing with his back to a wall, in the middle of an intersection. None of the others were in sight.
He felt a moment’s trepidation, saw the way the crowbar hung from Cody’s fingers, tapping against the wall. He couldn’t help but read the situation as threatening, but tried to dismiss the thought. It could have been the Simurgh’s influence, coloring his perceptions.
“Yeah,” Krouse said. ”I made it.”
“You’re hurt. Sorry if I don’t shed any tears.”
“Noelle’s okay?”
Cody shrugged. ”She’s not any better. A little worse.”
“Where’s Marissa?”
“I took her back. She had a bad spell where she froze up.”
“Did you find a doctor? Even a nurse?”
“Didn’t manage to catch up to anyone to ask. I’m okay, by the way. Just in case you were wondering.”
“I wasn’t. You look okay.”
“Sure, but who knows how I’m doing when you look past the surface? I could be a mental and emotional wreck, putting on a brave face.”
“Cody,” Krouse had to bite his tongue to keep from saying something he shouldn’t. ”I’m pretty badly hurt, here. If we have to talk about this stuff, can we at least do it while walking back?”
“Because the Simurgh’s been replying old memories for me, and the irritating thing is they aren’t my most painful memories.”
Cody wasn’t listening. Krouse walked past him, and Cody turned to follow, talking to him from behind. ”Not the time my mom had my cat put down, when they definitely could have saved him. No, every time she brings some memory to the surface, it’s you.”
Krouse paused mid-step, then forced himself to keep walking.
“Isn’t that a pisser? I get some lunatic alien bird thing speaking in my head, and all she wants to do is make me remember the times you irritated me. The little pranks you pulled, like getting to the clubroom early and fucking with my computer before a game.”
“That was a practice game,” Krouse said.
“Before a game. I’m there to improve myself, and because I can pull in something a little under minimum wage just by playing and streaming a video of my gameplay online, and because maybe I could get that fucking sponsorship, so I could pay part of my way through college. The sort of stuff that , and you’re sabotaging me.”
“It was a practice game, Cody, and it was just a prank that took two minutes to fix,” Krouse said. He slowed his pace to let Cody catch up some. He was starting to think maybe having the guy behind him with a weapon in hand wasn’t the best idea.
“Two minutes I was late to the match, two minutes where I looked bad to the audience following online, and we all looked bad to another serious team.”
“I’m sorry,” Krouse said. He wasn’t, really. It had generated more viewers, for him and Cody both. It had been publicity. He wasn’t willing to argue the point; it was more important to get the situation settled down. ”But can we talk about this later? You know we’re on edge-”
“Pisses me off that nobody else sees it. Pisses me off that you don’t get that I see it. The smug smiles when you get one over on me, the condescending look you gave me when you first walked into the club, holding Noelle’s hand.”
“Cody-”
“That‘s the shit the Simurgh keeps showing me. Any time I close my eyes, any time I stop for a freaking second, I get it rubbed in my face.”
“She’s doing it on purpose,” Krouse said. ”Either it’s just automatically bringing up the issues that are closest to the surface, or she’s doing it because she thinks
reminding you of that stuff is going to do more damage in the long run than reminding you of your cat. You play into her hands if you let it get to you. You let her win.”
“Funny thing is,” Cody said, “I’d rather see her win than see you come out the hero, here.”
“She’s making you think that way. That’s not you, Cody.”
“Maybe. Doesn’t matter. I’m still going to help out, I’m not going to get revenge or anything,” Cody said, offering Krouse a humorless smile, “Because even if I hate your guts, Krouse… Francis… I don’t hate theirs.”
“Okay,” Krouse looked at the crowbar, wondered if he’d be able to defend himself with one good hand and the metal briefcase.
“She makes Marissa freak out, she has Oliver crying when he thinks nobody’s looking, Jess has gone crazy paranoid, to the point that she’s barely talking, if it isn’t about looking after Noelle, and apparently Luke can’t take his mind off the pain. But you’re doing fine, isn’t that funny?”
“I’m not fine.”
“Oh? What’s wrong?” Cody’s voice was almost taunting.
If he doesn’t hurt me, I might hurt him.
“Doesn’t matter,” Krouse said.
“So the mighty Krouse, who gets all the luck, who has everyone wrapped around his finger, who gets the girl and dodges all the consequences, he’s not invincible after all. What’s she doing to you?”
“None of your business.”
“Isn’t it? We need to know what’s going on. You could turn homicidal any moment, for all I know.”
“I’m not homicidal. It’s just not stuff I’m willing to talk about with you.”
“Suspicious, suspicious,” Cody almost sounded like he was having fun.
Krouse quickened his pace. He didn’t like the idea that the others were doing that poorly. He’d had three breaks from the screaming, with whatever power Myrddin had used to shunt him halfway into some other dimension, and the two flashbacks. Cody seemed functional, if vaguely unhinged, but he’d had the flashbacks as well.
Krouse tried the door, found it locked. He glanced at Cody, then knocked a few times, loud.
Oliver opened it. He looked like twenty four hours had passed and he hadn’t slept a wink. Oliver’s eyes were red, and he averted his gaze as he saw Krouse and Cody.
How’s she getting to him? Oliver’s biggest weakness would be his self confidence. Was she tearing him down like his mother would? Raising memories of past embarrassments, times people had laughed at him?
Was there a way to fix that? To support the guy?
Krouse settled for a quiet, “Thanks, man. We’re going to get through this. It should be over soon.”
Oliver nodded, but he didn’t perk up.
Krouse ventured inside, heading straight for Noelle.
Marissa was sitting at the foot of the couch, head leaning back, asleep or trying to sleep. Luke had blankets piled on him, having barely moved since Krouse had left. Jess was in the other chair facing the couch, looking much as Oliver did.
“You’re hurt,” Jess said.
Marissa stirred. her eyes went wide as she looked at Krouse’s hand. ”We, um- first aid supplies. We have them.”
“Okay,” Krouse said. He knelt by Noelle’s head, setting the metal briefcase down. He could see Cody out of the corner of his eye, leaning against doorway, watching him.
“You ran into people with powers. Villians?”
“I don’t know if they were villains,” Krouse said, absently, his attention on Noelle. Someone had cleaned up the blood, but she didn’t look good. Blankets were piled over her to the point that she should have been overheating, but she was shivering. Eyes closed, she opened her mouth, as if to say something, but her mouth hung half-open, jaw jittering as though her teeth were chattering.
“They were going to kill people,” Cody said. ”They were going to kill you, last I saw.”
“They were scared people in a strange place,” Krouse said. ”They’re hearing the same song in their heads that we are, and they barely had any clue how our world works. I’m not saying they were right, doing what they did, but I almost understand it. Shit, I can’t believe you couldn’t find a doctor from the people we saved.”
“They didn’t know how to find you, after they ran,” Luke said. ”They came here to rendezvous. Marissa wasn’t doing well, so Cody went out alone to look for you.”
Look for me? Krouse turned to look at Cody. You were waiting around.
“And I found him,” Cody said.
“Yeah,” Luke replied.
“You’re a champ,” Krouse said, offering Cody a level glare.
Cody only smiled a little. He stepped back out of the doorway as Marissa came through with more bandages.
“I don’t know how to take care of this,” she said. ”Sprains, yeah, but not this.”
“Clean it and wrap it,” Krouse said. ”Listen, I ran into some heroes. Couldn’t talk to them, they wouldn’t let me, but I heard them saying something about the fight being almost over. The Simurgh might try to pull something as a final measure, but the heroes were winning, and they were working out what to do after things were done.”
“Really?” Marissa asked. She had put a folded towel on the coffee table, and was holding back on pouring the disinfectant on his hand.
Krouse nodded. ”Maybe fifteen minutes, maybe half an hour. But it’s almost over. We just need to hold out, stay calm. Make sure Noelle doesn’t take a turn for the worse.”
Marissa poured the disinfectant onto Krouse’s injury, and he hissed at the pain, forced his hand down against the table with his good hand, so he wouldn’t reflexively pull it away.
“What’s this?” Cody asked. He advanced from behind, tapped his foot against the metal briefcase. ”Medical supplies?”
“No,” Krouse replied. ”And you wouldn’t believe me if I told you. Give it to Jess. She’ll like it.”
Cody picked it up and carried it to Jess. She sat the thing on her lap, gave Krouse a wary look, then popped it open.
He waited as Marissa put antiseptic cream on his wound, laid down some thick white bandage pads and started binding it all in place with a cloth wrap. For all her inexperience with the other stuff, she seemed to know what she was doing with the wrap.
Jess dropped the papers onto the vials without putting them in the separate flap they’d been in, then shut and latched the case. ”Destroy it.”
“What?” Cody said. ”Wait, what is it?”
“Doesn’t matter,” Jess said. ”Destroy it.”
“What are you talking about, Jess?” Marissa asked.
Krouse double checked the bandage was in place, then stood.
He approached Jess, and she clutched the case to her chest. She was almost pleading, “Put it somewhere nobody will find it, or destroy it. Mix it with sand and pour it into a hole in the backyard or something.”
“I thought you would be more interested in this than anyone,” Krouse said.
“What is it?” Cody asked.
“Superpowers,” Krouse said. ”If I read it right, if I’m not losing it, then the contents of that suitcase tell you how to get superpowers. I found it with the stuff that got dumped here with the monsters.”
Cody’s eyes went wide. Marissa, Luke and Oliver reacted as well.
“You’re not getting it,” Jess said.
“What’s not to get?” Krouse asked. ”We’re in a dangerous situation. Is this any different than taking a weapon when we go out there?”
“It’s a whole lot different,” Jess said. ”It’s permanent. If it works, it’s going to change your life. And that’s if it’s not a trap. It could be poison, if it’s coming from the same place and the same culture that those monsters did.”
Was it his gut or was it paranoia that told him that she, again, was withholding information?
Krouse cleared his throat, explained, “I found it in the remains of some office or laboratory. They were selling this stuff, the papers you were ju
st reading, from the one line I read, suggested this stuff was on store shelves or something. Why dress it up like that, with a fat pad of paperwork, an expensive suitcase and protective foam padding, only to fill it with poison?”
“I’m not saying it was poison-”
“You did,” Krouse corrected.
“No, I mean. I’m just saying. There’s any number of places this could go wrong. We shouldn’t risk it. Not when we have other stuff to worry about.”
Yeah, she’s being evasive.
“They’re superpowers?” Cody asked. He reached for the suitcase and Jess twisted her body to shield him from getting to it. ”Seriously? How?”
“Six canisters,” Krouse responded, but his eyes were on Jess.
“Is that six doses?” Luke asked.
“Krouse,” Jess said. ”Come on. You get this situation we’re in. You know it isn’t good. Don’t you want to get back to normal?”
“Wait, it sounds like you’re saying there’s something more going on,” Luke said. ”You guys were whispering before. Is this-”
“Luke,” Krouse cut him off. ”Listen, you know me, right? Better than anyone else here.”
“Pretty much,” Luke said, but he glanced at Noelle.
“Better than anyone who’s conscious,” Krouse clarified, though he wasn’t sure either way. ”And you know Jess fairly well too. So can you trust us when I say that there’s stuff going on, and we’re acting in everyone’s best interests if we’re not sharing the full details?”
“I don’t trust you,” Cody said.
“This isn’t some ploy?” Luke asked, ignoring Cody. ”You know you’ve pulled stuff before, and yeah, this isn’t the situation for it and normally you’d have more common sense than to try something when things are this screwed up, but if this singing in our heads is making us act funny, then…” He trailed off.
“It’s not a ploy. If you don’t trust me, at least trust the fact that I wouldn’t pull something when Noelle’s like this. Even with my head screwed up. There’s bigger priorities.”
Luke frowned. ”Okay. I’m trusting you on this. Don’t fuck us over.”
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