Copyright © 2006 by Tracey Bateman
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Contents
Copyright
Praise for Leave it to Claire
Dedication
Acknowledgments
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Epilogue
Reading Group Guide
If You Enjoyed
Praise for
LEAVE IT TO CLAIRE
“Author Tracey Bateman’s ability to ‘tell it like we think it’ is remarkable. I laughed out loud; I shed a few tears; I related, I cheered, and was touched... A perfect blend of mayhem, marvel, and ministry. Write on, Bateman! I’m hooked on Claire, who is my kind of a real woman!”
—Charlene Ann Baumbich, speaker, humorist, and author of the Dearest Dorothy series
“Claire takes an honest look at what it feels like to be divorced, a single mom, and a Christian. Her family, her choices, and her lessons will inspire you and linger long after you put the book down.”
—Susan May Warren, award-winning author of Flee the Night
“Whether you’re eighteen or eighty, you will find something to love about Claire! She is every girl, and I loved sharing in her life, and can’t wait to see her again. Tracey Bateman is a wonderful snappy voice in women’s fiction.”
—Kristin Billerbeck, author of What a Girl Wants and She’s All That
To my amazing family,
who loves, supports, and puts up with
a full-time writer for a wife and mother.
Acknowledgments
Rusty, I love you so much. You promised God in the early days of our relationship that you would let Him love me through you. I know it hasn’t always been easy, but in seventeen years you’ve never gone back on your word to Him. I feel God’s smile in yours, His faithfulness in your faithfulness; I feel His tenderness in your soft words, His unwavering and unconditional acceptance and support every time you assure me that I am worth loving. I look forward to spending the rest of my days with you.
Cat, we know you are not the daughter depicted in the pages of this book. Thank you for letting me write her even though you knew people would assume she’s you. You amaze me every day. Your constant drive to serve God better inspires me. At not quite sixteen, you’re already beginning to learn excellence in ministry by running the soundboard for the youth band. I’m so proud of you.
Michael, you’re my laughter. You’re growing into such a fantastic and talented young man. I don’t know what I would have done without your help while your dad was serving in Kuwait. You stepped up and became the man of the house in so many ways. Enjoy the rest of your childhood, son. Learn new skateboard tricks, play on the basketball team, and have fun with friends. You deserve it.
Stevan, my musician, my worshiper. Every time you sit at the piano, I’m blown away by your gift. At eleven years old, you’re already amazing. You have a love for God and insights that constantly challenge and delight me. I can’t wait to see what God has planned for your life.
Will, my prayer warrior. The seven-year-old boy who refuses to let his feet touch the floor in the morning until he’s taken a minute to pray. Every time I think of your precious face, my heart melts a little. As much as it touches me to see tears well up in your eyes when you hear the song “Here I Am to Worship,” I can only imagine how it moves the heart of Jesus. Stay tender, baby, and let God direct your life.
Thanks to Chris Lynxwiler, Debra Ulrick, and Bonnie Burman for reading this book before I turned it in, and especially for laughing and crying in the right places.
To my editor, Leslie Peterson, thanks for encouraging me to dive deeper to true excellence. You’re an answer to prayer.
Special thanks to my agent, Steve Laube. You are a pure gift from the Lord. Thanks for believing in me, supporting me, and partnering with me in this ministry-career. You are the best.
1
When I’m sitting in front of the computer, time means nothing to me. Whether I’m staring blindly at the screen, praying without ceasing as I beg God to take away writer’s block, or whether I’m on a roll, burning up my keyboard as the words pour forth—like I just won an Oscar and this is my list of people to thank. I completely lose my sense of time and space and go on and on, oblivious to the orchestra playing “Get off the stage!” Or in this case, oblivious to the fact that my daughter is about to go ballistic because I forgot she needed a ride. Like five minutes ago.
“Come on, Mom! If you don’t get down here, I’m going to miss kickoff.”
I picture Ari downstairs in her cheerleading outfit, and I feel anxiety building. I don’t want to be the one to make her late. I’d never, ever hear the end of it.
“Hang on!” I call down, hoping to buy a little time. “Just a couple more minutes, and I’m all yours.”
After two full days of writer’s block, I’m finally on a roll. The characters in my latest novel opened up to me today and started living out the story faster than I could type.
“Time’s ticking away, Ma. Are you coming?”
Sheesh. What does “Hang on” mean?
My jaw clenches. Interruptions drive me crazy. Especially now, when my hunky, albeit reluctant, hero Blaine Tyler is making his long-awaited move.
My novel—which, really, should have been on my editor’s desk two weeks ago—is finally wrapping up. The romance is coming together just like every romance should (only I was starting to worry that this one wouldn’t). And Ari is worried about kickoff?
In a few well-placed words, Esmeralda is going to get the kiss of a lifetime. Her toes will curl, her pulse will race, she’ll feel things in her stomach she’s never felt before—although if I were Esmeralda, I would have stopped waiting for Blaine a long time ago and either made the first move myself or started dating Raoul, the pool guy. But that’s just me. My faithful readers want that happy ending, and Blaine’s the one with the steady job, so…
“Mo-om.”
“Sheesh. Okay, already,” I yell down to my impatient offspring. “And we do not raise our voices in this house, young lady!”
Duty calls.
I push away from my desk, rereading the last sentence as I stand. How can I bear to leave them like this? Blaine’s hand cups Esmeralda’s flushed cheek as he lovingly moves in for the . . .
“Fine, Mom. I’ll walk.”
Never thought I’d say this, but I can’t wait until that girl gets her driver’s license.
I sigh. Yeah, I
really do, just like a breathy character in one of my novels. I punch Ctrl+S to save my work. Blaine’s waited this long, I guess he can hold that pucker for twenty more minutes until I get back. Then I’m wrapping up this last draft, taking two days—tops—to read over all four hundred manuscript pages, and off it goes to my longsuffering editor.
I’m still muttering as I slide my feet into leopard-spotted slippers and yank my jacket from the coatrack. I jerk down the stairs, every inch the martyr, and find my daughter in the kitchen, pacing like a caged dog. She pauses mid-step and stares, her eyes alight with horror—like she’s Janet Leigh and the shower curtain just opened.
What?
“Mo-ther.” She gives me an exasperated huff to show me she cannot believe how few brains—if any—I actually have. “Please tell me you’re not going to wear that.”
I look down at my outfit. A pair of SpongeBob SquarePants loungies that I slept in last night and a five-year-old faded blue long-john shirt my ex left when he moved out.
Okay, she might have a tiny point. But that teenage expression of utter disdain is just begging to be wiped off her face. I grin. “What’s the problem?” Sometimes I just can’t help myself.
Rolling her eyes, she huffs to the door. “Fine, but just drop me off in front of the school. No, at the side, okay?”
“Fine.” I sling my purse over my shoulder. The strap immediately starts to slide. I end up dangling it from the crook of my elbow. I hate that. I’m turning into my mother. Before long, I’ll have blue hair and false teeth and be calling everyone “honey.” It’s okay for her. But I’m not ready for the association. People already tell me how much I look like my mom—like that’s supposed to be a compliment. I’m so glad they think I could be a twin to a seventy-year-old.
No woman under forty, especially me, wants to believe she’s going to look like her mother one day. But denial notwithstanding, every time I pass a mirror, I say hi to Mom.
Ari gives me another once-over (clueless to the fact that in twenty years she’s me). I snatch the keys from the counter. She rolls her eyes again. This time at the slippers. But at the end of a great writing day, I’m way past caring what a fifteen-year-old considers acceptable attire.
On me, anyway.
I do, however, care what she considers acceptable on her own body. And I think we’ve just hit an impasse. I’m looking at a good two inches of skin between the bottom of her shirt and the top of her cheerleading skirt. Mentally, I fast forward thirty minutes to when her arms (and consequently her shirt) will lift during a “Go, fight, team” cheer. Yeah, I’m thinking, no way, José.
I know she gets the picture, because her face goes red, and her eyes are way too wide. Deliberate innocence. Soooo not going to work.
I lift one eyebrow and dip my chin ever so slightly. “Did your shirt shrink?” Oh, that was clever. She scowls.
“Don’t give me a hard time, Mom. Please? I know belly shirts aren’t exactly in the rulebook, but these are standard issue for home games now. We’re dancing at halftime.”
Amazing how a kid’s tone can go from “You’re too stupid to live” to “I wuv you, Mommy” in a matter of seconds.
I feel myself caving. In my mind’s eye, I see her very first itty-bitty finger-paint handprint and I want to give in. Then my gaze sweeps her in another once-over. Okay, she did not have that body in preschool.
I fold my arms across my—ahem—ample chest, bracing for World War VI (III, IV, and V have come and gone since puberty hit). My daughter is not going to dress like the latest teenybopper pop diva. Not in my lifetime. “Hmm. Let’s go back to the ‘I-know-belly-shirts-aren’t-exactly-in-the-rulebook’ part.”
She can’t exactly argue with that now, can she? I smile. But only on the inside. No use flaunting my rapier wit when she’s on the losing end of the argument.
She’s not smiling at all—not on the outside, and I’d bet not on the inside either. The girl has no sense of humor anymore.
“Mother… if I don’t wear the shirt, I can’t dance tonight.”
“Then I guess I might as well get back to my computer.” I shrug and move like I’m headed to the stairs. Totally calling her bluff.
“I’m on the third row of the pyramid!”
“Then they’d better let you dance fully clothed, or it’s going to be a lopsided pyramid.” I grin at the image. But again, she’s not thinking it’s funny.
“Fine, Mother,” she bites out. “I’m going upstairs to change.”
I nod, sending her a “good choice” look. She rolls her eyes again.
Oh, yeah. High five, me. I am way too cool to be pushing forty.
I’m liking the outcome of this little blip in the road, and it appears all will be smooth riding until Ari turns back around and gives me that look—the one every teenage girl begins to acquire around age thirteen and has down to a science by the time she graduates from high school. Only, my daughter has it down pat at the tender age of fifteen, and I can tell things are about to get ugly.
“I can’t believe you’re criticizing my cheerleading outfit when you’re planning to go out in public like that.”
See, the great thing about being a published writer is that I can stay home in my jammies all day if the muse is hot on my shoulder. Usually no one cares—unless it’s six-thirty and I forgot to get dressed and my daughter is mortified to be seen with me. But the thing is, I am the mom and she isn’t going to get away with talking to me like that.
I open my mouth to tell her so, but she cuts me off. “I’m sorry I was rude. I’m going to change.”
Score one for her. Can’t help but grin at the clever way she avoided being grounded. And she did sort of apologize, although her sincerity is highly in question.
Besides, it’s hard to think about holding a grudge when I’m staring at five slices of leftover pepperoni pizza sitting in the box from dinner. Ari was supposed to put those away. Hmm. My mood is starting to improve just looking at the grease spots on the box, and I’m not sure if I should yell at my daughter for disobeying a direct order or thank her for not doing it.
I look at the box. Look away. I’m dieting. I drum my fingers along the countertop, trying to ignore the little crispy edges of slightly overcooked pepperoni.
To divert my attention, I envision my scene with Blaine and Esmeralda. The raven-haired beauty waits breathlessly, heart pounding as Blaine moves in for a bite— A bite? Oh, brother. What, is Blaine a vampire now?
Pizza is the thorn in my side. Every excess inch of my side. Suddenly, I can smell pepperoni. And it smells so good.
Walk away from the pizza, I tell myself in no uncertain terms.
I start to, but the power of the cheesy, tomatoey, crusty pie is too strong. I spring back like an extra-large rubber band.
I snatch a slice and bring it to my mouth, my eyes shifting about like one of those tattered, starving people in an apocalyptic B-movie. You know, the ones squatting next to a building eating the last rat on the face of the earth before anyone else can get it? That’s me. Sad thing is, even that image doesn’t make the pizza less appealing. I’m so weak.
“All right, I changed. Let’s go.”
I jump, guilty as sin, at the sound of my daughter’s voice, and drop the goods back into the box. Only one bite gone. Oh, sure, she decides to hurry for the first time in her life. Two more minutes and I would have scarfed that slice down plus another one.
Probably just as well. Who needs a bazillion calories anyway?
“Okay, kiddo,” I say, following her through the kitchen and out the garage door. “Sorry about the SpongeBob pants, but come on, you should read the great stuff I wrote today. Five thousand words of sheer magic.”
“I’m happy for ya,” she practically snarls.
It’s funny how I find the well-placed acerbic remark rather amusing and occasionally brilliant, coming from me. Coming from my sarcastically-inclined offspring, it just burns me up. Is that a double standard?
“Hey, watch yourself
or forget the game. I’m trying to be civil here. And you’re not at the top of my happy list tonight as it is.”
“Sorry,” she mutters in an un-sorry tone.
Within minutes, we pull through the circular drive in front of Jefferson High School, amid a crowd of teenagers shouting and tossing cups of water on one another just outside the gym. A band member in full uniform jumps out of the way in time to avoid getting his tuba soaked.
Ari reaches with purpose for the handle. Her jerky movements clue me in to her displeasure. Somehow I’ve completely forgotten to drop her off at the side of the school as promised. I can tell she’s seething at the injustice of being forced to step out of her mother’s van in front of the building.
I shrug. “Oops. Well, at least you’re not late for kickoff.”
She opens the door and slams it shut without a good-bye, “Thanks for the ride,” anything. Resentment cranks inside me as I watch her sashay off toward the building where her half-naked cheerleader friends are packed together like canned fish.
Cool canned fish. There’s something satisfying to me about my daughter being one of the cool kids. Rationally, I know that’s just stupid, but I can’t help but live vicariously through her. I was always in the nerd click. Fodder for cheerleader terrorism. And come on, who doesn’t secretly wish to be one of the beautiful people? My Ari is a natural beauty and has a confidence about her that induces her peers to clamor about waiting for her to notice.
Only, at this moment, she’s oblivious to her little entourage, because I have her full attention—and the full force of her glare. Apparently I haven’t driven away quickly enough to suit her, because she sends me an exaggerated wave.
Sometimes it just burns me up how insignificant I become to my daughter once I’ve done her bidding. Tonight it really gets to me, especially since I left a perfectly yummy kiss scene and an equally yummy pizza to bring her to the game.
The injustice of it all hits me smack in the middle of my forehead like a suction arrow. In an impulsive moment, I roll down the passenger-side window. “Ari, honey,” I call, louder than necessary and in a tone that’s just a notch above my normal pitch. I have every intention of making her walk back to the minivan and kiss me good-bye in front of all these people. The little stinker. I remember when she cried every time I dropped her off at school. Okay, so she was five, but still. When did she stop loving me?
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