by Laura Wright
She looked up, found his gaze, and held it tightly. “So, what is this? Your visit to the river’s edge? You came to say good-bye?”
He didn’t answer. And for a split second he looked confused.
“Or to interrupt two people enjoying a swim?” Petra pushed, wishing he weren’t so close and she wasn’t so hungry.
His brows lifted and he said with a streak of arrogance, “I interrupted something, did I?”
“Yes,” Brodan ground out, his eyes flashing with irritation, as he stood in the shallow end of the river halfway between Syn and Petra.
“Planning your future?” Syn added, his eyes locked on Petra.
She shrugged, “Maybe,” the tops of her breasts surfacing at the water’s edge.
An action that didn’t go unnoticed by either male.
“With the good doctor here,” Syn continued. “Home every night for dinner. And you serving up a lovely raw steak.” He lowered his voice. “While you’re secretly dying to drink his blood.”
“No secret required, Pets,” Brodan said, though his gaze remained on Synjon. “My blood is yours. Always has been. And the cub’s.”
“Vampire!” Syn snapped. He glared at Brodan, his fangs descending.
Brodan froze and so did Petra. Only the sound of the river slapping against the rocks could be heard. Within a few seconds, Synjon’s fangs retracted, along with any expression of anger.
It was almost as though it had never happened.
Almost.
“What the hell was that?” Petra said, shivers moving up her back and into her neck. Shivers that had nothing to do with the cooling night air.
“What?” Synjon found her gaze again, the mask of emotionless male back in place.
“Your emotions . . .”
He stepped back. “I have no emotions.”
She shook her head, her mouth dry. “I saw—”
“You saw nothing.”
“I don’t understand, Syn—”
“Enjoy your swim,” he interrupted. “And a healthy fuck, if you’re so inclined.”
And with one last look in Petra’s direction, he flashed from the riverbank.
* * *
Petra wasted no time in pulling her shaky body out of the river, yanking her clothes on, saying a hasty good-bye to Brodan, and rushing back to the cabin. She had to see it for herself. See that her brothers were safe and unharmed. Synjon’s word meant so little to her now. He had no reason to keep her family in good health.
Especially if the ones in question had attacked him twice already.
She jogged up the steps, dashed into the silent house, and ran down the hall. “Sash? Val?” she called, searching the hidey-holes of each bedroom. Finally, inside the small closet in the main bedroom, she found them. Both Sasha and Val were just as Syn had claimed: fine, tied up, with a bit of their pride squashed.
Petra made quick work of the gags and rope. But when they were free, both sat unmoving inside the closet.
“I’m so sorry, Pets,” Sasha said mournfully.
“Stop.”
Val grimaced. “We totally failed you.”
“No, you didn’t.” She gave Val a pat on the back. “He’s a trained spy, in the military . . .”
“But we took him down in his apartment,” Valentin said, shaking his head.
“By surprise,” Sasha amended. “We’ve been fools. Arrogant asses. Didn’t prepare. Not in any real way. Wise was right when he called us the pussy brothers.”
“Hey,” Val said.
Sasha tossed him a look.
Val shrugged. “Yeah, all right.”
Petra heard the door to the cabin burst open, and seconds later Dani entered the dark bedroom. “I was doing a moonlight flyby and saw that bastard by the river with you and Brodan.”
“You’re too late,” Petra said.
“No, she’s not.” Valentin eyed Sasha as he pushed to his feet, then offered his hand to his brother. “We’re going to fix this. We’re going back to his apartment, taking him again.”
“Hell, yes,” Sasha agreed, slapping Valentin’s palm and jumping up. “And this time, we’re keeping him in the clinic, sedated. You can feed from him like that. Coma Vamp.”
“Yeah, drugs in Pet’s blood would be real great for the cub, idiots,” Dani said with a snort.
“Oh, right,” Sasha said, walking out of the closet. “Then we’ll knock him out the old-fashioned way.”
“One, two, three!” Val added. “Four, five, six!”
The brothers chuckled as they started for the door.
“He’s not at his apartment,” Dani called after them.
“What do you mean?” Petra began, turning her attention to the hawk female. “How would you— Oh, gods, Dani, you didn’t fly into Manhattan. It’s broad daylight there. You could’ve been shot at.”
Dani put her hands up. “Ease up, bestie. Didn’t go to New York, though I’m really starting to dig that place. It’s all dressed up for the holiday they celebrate. The one with fir trees and snow and reindeer.”
“Dani,” Petra said tightly. “Synjon?”
Her gaze locked on Petra and softened a hair. “I didn’t leave the Rain Forest, and neither has the vampire.”
The words sank in, but their meaning didn’t. Petra didn’t understand. Syn was still here? Had he lost his ability to flash? No, that wasn’t possible. She’d seen him flash from the river.
“You know where he is, Dani?” Sasha asked her.
The hawk shifter turned to the brother and shrugged. “Where he was headed.”
“And you didn’t dive-bomb the bastard, scoop him up in your talons?”
Dani’s gaze returned to Petra. There was no typical bluster or hard-ass hawk attitude glistening in her eyes now. Only the solid intimacy of a best friend. “Tell me what you want. Personally I’d like to forget he exists, but I’ll do whatever you want me to do.”
What she wanted. Shit, that was a big and constantly changing question. Maybe it would be better if she could just forget he existed too. But that wasn’t practical, was it? The effects of his blood were pure magic. She and the balas still needed him, so for now there was only one answer.
“We’re going,” Val said before she could open her mouth.
“No.” Petra pointed at them and said in her most resolute, most authoritative voice. “You’re not. This is my business, my blood to go after. I’ll handle it.”
His face tensing with unease, Sasha was first to object. “Pets—”
“There’s a reason he hasn’t left.” She moved past them all and out the bedroom door. “I need to find out what it is.”
8
“Unbelievable,” Nicholas Roman growled, stalking forward.
Alexander was right beside him. “What the hell is he doing here?”
Though feeling weaker and more emotionally lost than ever after such a jarring flash, Cruen stood his ground outside the gathering stones as the Roman brothers and two of the mutore came to stand before him. Nostrils flared, hands balled into fists, the four glanced back and forth between him and Dillon, who stood beside him.
“Mommy made me bring him,” Dillon grumbled, then amended her statement with a shrug. “He told Feeyan about his connection to Petra.”
Nicholas glared at Cruen, his lips forming a sneer. “So now you want to claim her? After all these years?”
All I wish to claim is that British bastard who glued his emotions to my insides. All I want is my power back. Perhaps even my chair on the Order. But to the Roman brother he said smoothly, “I have a right to know where my Pureblood daughter is. If she’s being held here against her will.”
Alexander chuckled bitterly. “The old paven’s getting sentimental. How sweet.”
“So sweet I might lose a fang, right into his carotid,” Helo added blackly.
“Where is Petra?” Cruen asked, ignoring the males. “Where is my daughter?”
“My daughter.” The female lion shifter who’d raised Petra fro
m near infancy left the gathering stones and headed his way. “She’s my daughter, Cruen. She wants to remain here, in her home, her homeland, around her family.”
As the shifter closed in on him, Cruen recalled the day he’d brought his and Celestine’s infant here. In his time spent gathering blood samples in the Rain Forest, he’d witnessed all manner of selflessness. Each faction helped the others, looked out for the others. It had actually started to irritate him. Such goodness was tiresome. But when Petra was born, when he’d taken her from Cellie, he’d known the perfect place to keep her safe while keeping his connection to more blood samples open.
Wen’s eyes were fierce as she stared him down. “You don’t belong here, vampire.”
“Perhaps Petra doesn’t either,” he said. “Perhaps it’s time for her to learn about her own kind.”
“She’ll make that decision, not you.”
Cruen nodded. Yes, he’d chosen well with this female. Protective, but in a quiet way. He’d heard of her desire for a daughter, and her failure to produce one. She’d been so grateful.
“Don’t you have some Frankenstein monster to create back in your lab?” Helo asked him.
Cruen’s gaze shifted, ran over the water beast, who had once called him father. “I think I made enough monsters for one century.”
Helo’s expression darkened.
“Now I come directly from the table of the Order,” Cruen said in the calmest of voices. “Unless you want Feeyan here in my stead, I suggest we get on with this.”
Both Roman brothers turned to Dillon with an incredulous look.
“Gahhhh, I can’t believe I’m saying this,” Dillon rattled with a sigh, “but he’s right.”
The guard behind Cruen leaned in and spoke directly into his ear. “Shall I go with you or wait outside the stones, sir?”
“Wait outside.”
“Very good. Sir.”
Was he imagining things, or did he detect a thread of disrespect in the guard’s tone? Cruen mused as he walked past the Romans, the mutore, and Wen, and into the circle of stones. The male had been with him for only a few months, and had always acted completely servile. Perhaps, with the circumstances being what they were, with his power nearly gone, he himself was projecting that feeling of insolence.
“Let’s get started,” Dillon said, following him.
“Shouldn’t we wait for Petra?” Cruen suggested, sitting down opposite the rest of the group. “And the paven she holds hostage?”
“No one’s being held hostage,” Alexander said through gritted teeth.
“So you all keep saying.”
“You know exactly why Syn’s here, Cruen,” Lucian snarled, his body ready to spring. “I’m surprised you can’t feel it, seeing as how you sucked down all his emotions a few days ago.”
Cruen fought the urge to drop his fangs and hiss. Existing in a weakened state was acute misery, but being reminded of the act by Lucian Breeding Male Roman was a complete and total embarrassment.
This could not continue a second longer.
“Cease this game,” he said with forced authority. “Where are they?”
“Petra’s not coming,” Wen informed him.
“Syn either,” Alex added.
Cruen’s blood began to heat. He tried to stop it, knew it would steal his energy, and what little power remained inside him, but he couldn’t. He whirled on Dillon, fangs bared. “I suggest, Order Member Nine, that you take control of this situation. Unless you want the destruction of this lovely shifter world and every heartbeat in it on your conscience.”
* * *
Home.
New York City.
Wraparound balcony with a view of the park.
That’s where he’d wanted to go, where he’d aimed his flash. Where he should be. But something inside him had refused the call. Instead, he’d ended up in the last place on earth he’d ever expected to be again.
He bent and stepped inside the cave. It was dark, only the spent light of the moon illuminating the first five feet or so. As he moved inside, scented the familiar dank odor of the walls, he remembered the day he’d been saved. He should’ve died. Gone with Juliet into the sun. Instead, he’d not only been rescued against his will, but had gone on to create life.
He felt no emotion with this memory. Not even a twinge at the thought of Juliet, her death, his grief. And yet, not long ago, standing beside the river, watching Petra and the bear shifter float naked below the water as they discussed the future of the balas, he’d felt something.
He’d gotten angry.
Or was it possessive?
He didn’t know. Without past emotions to guide him, he couldn’t decipher what was what. But he did know, did understand, that with that small, poignant surge came a reason to worry.
How was it possible? He’d had every emotion bled from him. He’d made sure of it. Bloody hell, after the Romans had held him down, made it clear what was about to happen, he’d made sure it all left his body, went inside that mad vamp prat, and stuck like flypaper.
Forever.
Or at least until it strangled the energy and sanity from him, then led him straight to Synjon for help.
He pushed away from the wet rock wall. He had to go. Now. No matter how his body seemed to wish him to remain, there was only destruction here. And truly, the only one who was meant to be destroyed in all of this was Cruen.
“You goddamn British bastard.”
He whirled around, and instantly his skin tightened and his insides flared with heat. How the hell hadn’t he sensed her? Scented her? What the bloody hell was going wrong inside him?
Standing directly in the mouth of the cave, backlit by the moon, Petra looked gorgeous and appetizing as she glared at him. “Here. Of all places. Seriously?”
Yes, he’d said the same things to himself. “It’s not where I had intended to be.”
“And where is that? On the balcony of your penthouse or pressing some idiotic female up against the piano?”
His mind went rogue and conjured that image, but it wasn’t some foolish chit whose hips he fisted as he moved behind her. In fact, in his mind it never was. “Your feathered friend tell you about that?”
Petra moved into the cave. “Either that or you’re just so grossly predictable.”
He glanced past her.
“Yes, I’m alone.”
Syn couldn’t help but find that strange. After all that had happened, past and present, wasn’t she worried about her safety around him? Even with her shocking strength, she was no match for him in the dark. And where was her little army? The pussy brothers and the hawk? Following her every movement, fighting to bring back her blood meal.
“Why did you come here?” he asked. “Why would you think to come here?”
“Don’t go there in your head. This was anything but sentimental. You were spotted. By my feathered friend, no less.” She crossed her arms over her chest. “The question is, why are you here? Still here. And at the site of the first of many mistakes on my part.”
“If you mean to force another emotion out of me, that’s not the way to do it.”
Her eyes widened. She dropped her arms and moved toward him. “So you admit it. You felt something back at the river?”
He didn’t answer.
Which, in truth, was probably an answer in and of itself.
“But how is that possible?” she said, coming to stand before him, her belly nearly brushing the waistband of his jeans. “I saw Cruen take all of your emotions. Did he leave something behind?”
Impossible. Fuck, it had better be impossible. He knew what he was doing, had been meticulous in his actions on the floor of that dungeon. He’d made sure every thread of emotion was gone from his mind and superglued elsewhere. He held her gaze. “What happened by the river was nothing. A moment’s irritation for your bear shifter.”
She shook her head. “I don’t think so.”
“Perhaps you don’t want it to be so. Perhaps you’re looking for
something that isn’t there, will never be there.”
Her face contorted into a mask of disbelief and then after a moment she broke out laughing. “Oh, Syn. What do you think I want? What do you think I’m looking for? For you to care about me?” She placed her hand on her belly. “About us? Fall in love with us? Be bonded to us?”
Her words sank deep into his gut, and they seemed to want to remain there. “That would be the logical desire for a female in swell, yes.”
Her laughter died, and the light he’d always seen glowing within her incredible pale blue eyes went out. There was nothing but emptiness. Not unlike his own, he imagined.
It bothered him.
In fact, he had an irresistible urge to take her in his arms, kiss her, tease her—anything to bring that light back. It didn’t have to be happiness or curiosity. Anger and hatred would do just as well.
“Do you really think I’d be stupid enough to hope for such a thing?” she said after a moment. “Believe that you’re a worthy male, emotions intact or not?” She stepped forward, got in his face, the curve of her belly now pressed against him. Her eyes locked with his. Dispassionate to detached. “I think there’s something happening inside you. Some kind of reaction to the baby.”
The cool night air rushed into the cave, moved over Syn’s naked chest. He wanted to deny it, her suggestion, but even as he attempted to summon the words, his hands itched to reach out and touch her swollen belly.
“What are you feeling right now?” she whispered.
His eyes met hers. “Nothing.”
“Liar.”
He couldn’t stop himself. The urge was the greatest he’d ever felt. Yes. Felt. In seconds, before he could say a word or defend himself, his hands were on either side of her stomach. For a few long seconds, he held her, felt the firmness of the world that surrounded the growing life inside her. Was that how he’d begun? How she’d begun? It was bloody amazing to—-