by Eva Luxe
“I know, Ella. All right? I’ve had a rough night, just take it easy.”
She rolls her eyes and goes back to whatever she’s doing on her phone. Typical teenage girl.
Josh’s room is down the hall on the left, as far away from the neighbor’s walls as I could get him, but with the noise they’re making tonight, nowhere is safe. I knock gently, our special knock that we share, before opening his door.
Josh is sitting on his bed with his legs up and his arms wrapped around them. Ella must have turned on the string of Christmas lights I hung around his bedframe. Josh insisted on bunk beds, even though he doesn’t share the room with anyone. He likes the bottom bunk, and we hung blankets on all sides so he can turn it into a fort whenever he feels like. I’m surprised he hasn’t shut the front blanket and closed himself inside. He’s been doing well lately. He’s getting much better.
“Hey, Josh,” I say, coming over and sitting down beside him. “How are you?”
“Okay,” he says quietly, obviously not okay.
“Are the neighbors bothering you?” I ask him. He simply nods. “Do you want to read some of your dinosaur book?”
“No, that’s okay,” he says.
“You sure? You want me to lay with you for a bit?”
I see his eyes brighten as he looks up at me.
“Okay, let’s do that,” I say. I pull his dinosaur comforter back and let him slide his legs under. “Okay, make some room!”
He scoots over slightly and I lie down beside him, wrapping my arm around him and gently patting his head. I can hear his breathing slow immediately. It is very hard to have a son like Josh, but I love him as much as any mother could love her son, and I cherish these moments with him. Josh relies on me more than boys his age, or at least is more able to admit it, and as hard as his life will be, we have a bond that will never be broken.
My neighbors are stomping around like it’s the Super Bowl up there, but I can feel Josh starting to relax, and it’s not too long before he’s asleep. I almost want to lie here and fall asleep with him, but I’m a wreck and I need to shower to wash the club off me. Getting into bed with the sweat of strangers and the smell of smoke and alcohol is not high on my list of things to do.
Once I’m sure Josh is asleep, I gently slip out of bed and turn off his lights. I make my way quietly out of his room and close the door behind me.
“Why aren’t you in bed?” I ask Ella, who is texting frantically from the couch.
“I was watching Josh,” she says, doing her best to come up with an excuse.
“Uh, huh. Well I’m home. Josh is asleep. You should be too.”
“Mom, I’m texting Jason,” she says excitedly, as though that’s going to change my mind. I stride quickly over to her and snatch her phone from her hands.
“Hey!”
“Even more of a reason for you to go to bed.”
“Mom!”
“He’s a senior, Ella. You’re a freshman.” I say emphatically, stuffing her phone into my back pocket.
“So!?” she exclaims. “You dated older guys when you were my age.”
“Yes I did. And that’s why I know that guys like him only want one thing, and you are not ready to be doing that thing.”
“Okay, okay, just let me text him goodnight—”
“Nope,” I say, turning away. “Turn off the T.V. and get to bed. You have to take the bus tomorrow, my car’s still in the shop.”
Ella groans dramatically, but listens. I hear the T.V. click off and her angry footsteps as she tromps down the hall to her room.
“Quiet!” I shout in a whisper. “Josh is sleeping.”
If she could slam her door she would, but I hear it close behind her.
The joys of motherhood.
Time for mom to relax. I step into the bathroom and turn the shower on hot and full blast. This apartment takes forever for the water to heat up, so I examine tonight’s damage in the mirror. My face is a mess. My make up is streaked and runny, and I look like a wet dog. My t-shirt is looking pretty ratty, but I don’t care. I strip down and kick my clothes into the corner and feel the water. It’s warm enough. I step into the shower and slide the curtain closed. The hot water feels amazing on my skin. It smells like lavender. Ella bought new soap, and I use it to lather up my entire body, washing tonight off the best I can. Everything that’s been going on has made me forget just how exhausted I am.
One of my favorite things to do on a night like this is to lie down and just let the hot water beat down on me, and that’s exactly what I do now. The tub is warm against my back and I run my hands over my face, letting the heat sink into my bones.
I could stay here forever, I think, letting the sound of the running water drown out the obnoxious voices of my neighbors.
What a night, I think, closing my eyes. The image of Ty’s handsome, smiling face fills my mind. His cocky grin standing at the bar. Then out in the parking lot as he took care of those guys. Where did he learn to fight like that? He carries himself like a man who’s not afraid of anything, and I can see why. Those guys never stood a chance.
My ex-husband Colin was hopeless. He had a temper too and was always ready to snap at anyone. Probably because he had a small dick. Ty is really his opposite. Tall, in shape, tattooed. I bet he’s his opposite in that region too…
I don’t know if it’s being naked in the hot shower, or Ty’s good looks, or the replay of him kicking butt in the parking lot, but suddenly I’m feeling very turned on. As afraid as I was in that moment, I can’t help but wonder what I would have done if Ty had put the moves on me right then and there.
Maybe he would pick me up from the ground, lifting me with those strong arms and hoist me up to his lips and kiss me deeply. Or maybe he would lead me over to his truck, clean up my elbow, and then take me right there on his bench seat. I mean, that’s what those are for right?
My hand slides down my stomach and I start to caress myself as I play it out in my mind.
He places the bandage over my elbow, and I look up at him. His eyes pierce right through me and I’m overwhelmed. As he leans forward I can smell him. His manly musk is perfect, and I breath deeply as he presses his body against mine. I feel his lips touch mine, and the feeling is like an electric shock hitting me and coursing through the rest of my body.
I lean back and he is on top of me. He grabs my breast and squeezes hard. I can feel the desire in his touch. He wants me. He saved me. I owe him, and he’s going to take his reward.
Before I know it, my shirt is off and he’s kissing my breasts. He circles my nipples with his tongue, then sucks, and bites, just hard enough to hurt. A gasp escapes my lips and he moves up my neck and sucks my bottom lip. I’m getting wet. I can feel it.
His hand slides into my shorts and under my thong, and I feel his rough hands against my lips. Without hesitation, he slides two fingers inside. A gasp escapes my lips, and he grunts in reply, loving every second of it, staring at my face to watch my reaction. I don’t even feel self conscious around him. I want to give myself to him.
No. I want him to take me.
He presses against me, and I feel his cock, hard and ready against my thigh. He’s huge. I haven’t even seen it yet, but I can tell. His hand grabs my shorts and panties at the same time and tears them off. I look down and gasp. His cock is long and thick. I know it’s going to hurt.
I’m dripping wet, but Ty wants no resistance, and spits on his hand, getting his cock ready. I’m so turned on my hips are twisting back and forth. He presses the tip against the opening of my pussy, spreading me gently around the tip of his dick. I moan, but I have no time to react. He shoves it in.
It hurts. A lot. He gives me the whole thing, burying his entire length in me. I feel him bottom out like no one ever has before, and as he pulls out I feel the pleasure. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever felt before.
“That’s tight,” he says, and I feel myself already on the edge. He drives his cock back inside me, over and over, pounding me mercilessl
y, taking me like he wants me. He’s so hard inside me, and he leans down to kiss my neck and I hear him growl. His cock flexes, and I feel a shot of hot cum shoot inside me, and I go over the edge.
My orgasm hits me like a truck, and we cum together.
I’m rubbing my clit in the shower as I picture this, and I cum to this fantasy, a fantasy I never would have expected to have when I met him at the bar.
He cums for a long time, and we come down together.
“You’re amazing,” he tells me. I feel him slide out, and his cums drip down my thighs to my ass. I’m a mess, a hot mess on the seat of his truck. He’s just had his way with me, and I loved every second of it.
Don’t fall for the customers. That’s our rule.
Shit, I think, lying in the shower, feeling spent and ready for bed. I’m in trouble.
Chapter 8 – Tyler
I’m starting to cool down after I take the bridge out of town. That was almost too much for me. I didn’t realize how much seeing the house would still affect me. I’d thought I’d made more progress than that. I slam my hand against the wheel, feeling the dull pain in my palm and forcing myself to focus on that and not the memories.
It’s been six years. Six years since a drunk driver took the life of my wife Christine and my eight-year-old daughter Amelia. They were on their way to the airport to pick me up from my final tour overseas when a drunk man t-boned their car at an intersection, killing them both. He died later in intensive care, which was good for me because I probably would have killed him myself if he’d lived.
They were my whole world. I’d waited at the airport gate, figuring they were just late. It wasn’t like Christine. She was always punctual. Always on time. She knew how important it would be for me to see their smiling faces when I stepped off that plane, but she wasn’t there. My wife wasn’t there. My daughter wasn’t there. And what’s worse, is they never came.
I called. I got no answer. It just rang and rang and went to voicemail. That was the last I ever heard of my wife’s voice.
I waited an hour, then I took a cab home to an empty house. An hour later the police arrived and told me the news. That was the day my old life ended and my new life began.
My heart was broken. The pain was too much to bear. I didn’t leave the house for a week, and when I did, I never looked back. I vowed to never get that close to anyone again. The loss was just too great. No one should ever have to feel what I felt and continue to feel to this day.
My foot presses harder on the gas. The truck roars as I speed onto the highway, passing a row of cars like they’re standing still. The wind is screeching through the torn weather stripping of my driver’s side window. I’m going way too fast, but I have to get out of there. I have to get home.
I reach my exit in record time and don’t even slow down as I take the turn. I finally brake before going over the tracks, my suspension squealing as I bounce over them and turn hard to the right. It’s quieter out here in the sticks. And that’s how I like it. I don’t want anything to remind me of them. Of what I’ve lost. Some may call it hiding, but it’s what I need right now.
My tires kick up dirt as I wheel the car onto my private dirt road leading back into the woods. I roll down the window and smell the forest, instantly starting to calm. The shadows are comforting, reminding me that I’m alone. My father left this piece of land to me when he died. My parents had planned to build a house on it, but after he died and my mom got sick, it just didn’t happen. But for now, it’s where I live.
I pull up at my trailer and get out, sucking in the clean air and forcing myself to calm down. I’m an idiot. I never should have gotten involved with that girl. What the hell was I thinking? I mean, there’s a million girls in the world with nice asses, why did I have to pick her?
It’s because she gave me lip, isn’t it? Or maybe because she wasn’t like all the other girls. She was covered up. Not hanging out, showing all the goods for everyone to see. If I could get her naked, it would be just for me. She would be mine.
Why am I thinking about her now? I’m on the verge of having a freak out and I’m thinking about some stripper. What the hell is wrong with me?
My heart’s starting to slow down as I make my way to my trailer. It’s not really a trailer. It’s more of a modular house. It has a full kitchen, an open living room, spacious bed and bath, and a porch I built on last summer to keep myself busy and give me a place to enjoy the weather. When I tell people I live in a trailer in the woods they instantly think meth making redneck and laugh, but if they ever saw the place they’d shut up.
The truth is, I’ve never brought anyone here other than my mom before she was in the hospital. I’m just not comfortable enough yet. Bringing another person into my space isn’t something I’m longing for, especially not a girl. I may not look it, but I’m a passionate kind of guy, and bringing a girl here would be a big event in my life. I’d smell her when she was gone. I’d feel her when she wasn’t there, and if we aren’t going to last then there’s no way I’m opening myself up to that.
Then why am I picturing Jenny here with me now?
You’re just being dramatic, I tell myself.
I’m upset. I’m thinking about the house. About Christine and Amelia, and now I’m projecting onto her.
Just calm down, I think as I pull the door open to the trailer and step inside. The small lamp in the kitchen is the only light inside and I slump down on the couch and look up at the small skylight above. I cut a couple of trees down so I could see the stars at night. The big dipper is just overhead, and I pick out the North star just like my father taught me. When I was young he and my mom bought me a telescope, and we used to love watching the eclipses through them. I wish I’d spent more time on those astronomy books, but we all know how life can get in the way.
I focus on my breathing. What a night. Barry and Moore are probably still getting dances, oblivious to everything that’s gone on tonight. That’s okay with me. The club wasn’t my scene anyway.
Just as I drift off to sleep, I find myself thinking of her. Jenny. The t-shirt wearing stripper with the sassy attitude.
What a gal, I think as my eyes close.
The next day I’m at the shop, and I’m tattooing a girl’s vagina.
Yes. Her vagina.
She already has “Lucky You,” right where her pubic hair would be if she had any. It’s hideous, and definitely not one of mine. Whoever did it was probably a hobbyist or some sleazebag who calls himself an artist. I take pride in my work, even if it’s a portrait of Satan with his mouth open across a girl’s pussy lips like I’m doing now.
“So, have you ever done one of these before?” she asks me, looking up at me. Stephanie. That’s her name.
“This is a first for me,” I admit, sighing just enough to not offend her.
“Not for me,” she says, nodding in reference to her “Lucky You.”
“Yeah, I see that. Who was the lucky guy?”
“Oh, whoever it was that night!” she says, breaking into a laugh. I move my hands back as she giggles, not wanting to screw up this incredible poon portrait.
“Careful,” I tell her. She tosses a hand over her mouth.
“Oh, sorry!” she says. “Not a bad view for you though, right?”
She’s been hitting on me non-stop since she got in two hours ago. I half wonder if the only reason she’s even getting this tattoo is to try and get me to fuck her. I know that sounds insane, but this girl isn’t exactly firing on all cylinders if you get my drift.
“It’s all right,” I say, moving on with the tattoo.
“Hopefully I’ll find someone who can really appreciate it,” she says, actually licking her lower lip as she looks down at me. “If I have a guy who appreciates me, believe me, I take care of him. I mean, that’s just the kind of girl I am.”
“Right,” I say, trying to keep my tone from sounding too annoyed. There’s no bigger turn off than a girl throwing herself at you. That’s why I like Jen
ny, I realize. The rest of the girls at the club give the impression that they’d do anything for a buck, but I don’t think I could get Jenny to do anything by tossing money at her. I smile, and Stephanie thinks it’s for her.
“Are you seeing anybody?” she asks, getting right to the point.
“Uh, not really,” I say. “But I’m not really ready for a relationship right now.”
“Oh, me either,” she says quickly, lying through her teeth. “I mean, just something casual. Something cool, ya know? Something fun with the right person. And if it goes somewhere then it goes somewhere, ya know? No pressure.”
“Mmhmm,” I say, really wishing this piece wasn’t so big so I could be done.
I hear her getting ready to say something when the doorbell chimes. I look up to see the last person I want to see right now.
Little Nicky.
Little Nicky is the local tough guy. He runs basically every aspect of the underground crime world in the surrounding five towns, possibly more. He’s a weasel of a man, medium height, silver fox hair with wrinkles from a hard life, not from age. He wears a pair of enormous glasses that would look funny on anyone else, but on him somehow make him more dangerous. It’s clear he doesn’t put too much care into his appearance, and that’s just a testament to his power.
He steps into my shop like he owns the place, and his two goons Vinnie the Hat and Don the Screw come in behind him. Vinnie is a fat son of a bitch who got his nick name because his boys realized he never wore a hat. Like ever. How your friends end up noticing something like that is beyond me, but there you go. Don the Screw got his name because he owns a repair shop. Or because he fucks a lot. Or because he’s always screwing people over on deals. He’ll never specify which one is true, and I suspect it’s because they all are.
“Good morning, Ty,” Nicky says in his thick Cockney-British accent.
“Nicky,” I say.
“Who’s the tart?” he asks, nodding towards Stephanie who is apparently not bothered at all by three new men getting a look at her most private of privates.