Gasping for a breath against the panic fully taking a hold of her, she twisted in his hold, trying to find his face. “I’m here for Mr. Hoppler, good sir. Nothing more. I’m not a prostitute.”
“Nothing more? Not a prostitute? How are ye going to see him, then?”
She tried to wedge her fingers onto his hands under her arms to no avail. “I need to see him.”
“Ye’ll see him after yer properly dressed.”
Dropping all reason and calm, her voice found the scream deep within. “No—I’m his sister. His sister and I need to see him.”
The brute stopped.
His fingers splayed wide as he gently set her onto the steps and he pulled away his hands from under her arms slowly, like he might crack her open if his fingers strayed too close to her body again.
His voice dropped down a notch as his head bowed to her. “Apologies, miss. I didn’t know. I’ll bring ye to him right off.”
Air filled her lungs, not that she trusted the breath to stay with her long. “Thank you.”
“Follow me.”
Shuffling in as much of an arc around her as he could manage in the stairwell, the brute moved past her and up the stairs.
Pen smoothed the front of her black dress, pulling the wrinkles out of it, trying to conjure all the haughtiness that she imagined would come with Hoppler’s sister.
She pulled her shoulders back, straightening her spine.
Whatever it took. Keep forward. Everything depended on talking to Hoppler.
Everything.
She needed to do this. Do this for her future or she would be forced under Mr. Flagton’s control forever.
Bile burned up her throat at the thought. She swallowed quickly, not letting her mind go there. She was good at that. Swallowing the bile. Pretending that what was coming wasn’t coming.
Her last chance—her only chance—was at hand, and she couldn’t waste it.
Her chin high, she followed the man up the stairs and into the depths of the devil’s den.
{ Chapter 2 }
“She said she was yer sister, boss.”
Strider’s left eyebrow lifted as he looked up at Jasper from the sheet of numbers in his hand. “I don’t have a sister.”
Jasper shrugged, taking another step into Strider’s office. The man was smart, the reason why Strider kept him close as one of his main men and paid him so well, but Jasper had a gullible streak about him Strider could never quite place. Gullible meant weakness and that was the one thing Strider despised. Weakness.
“The words were enough to stop Egbert from dragging her up into the whore’s dressing room,” Jasper said. “He didn’t want to run afoul of ye and I don’t blame him.”
Strider shifted in his seat and looked back down at the column of numbers on the sheet. Dammit. Now he’d have to re-add them. “I don’t have a sister.”
No movement.
He looked up again. Jasper still stood across the desk from him. “Why are you still here?”
“Well, it’s just that we don’t know what to do with her.”
Strider’s forehead scrunched. “You don’t know what to do with her? Send her up to Madame Juliet. Kick her onto the street. I don’t care.”
Jasper didn’t move. “She’s not our kind, Hoppler.”
“Who cares what kind she is?”
“It’s just…”
He slammed the paper onto his desk. “Just what, Jasper?”
“Just…could you please come look at her and you’ll know what I mean.”
Strider leaned back in his chair, a sigh deep in his chest. All he wanted that night was one hour of peace to look at the accounting and he’d only been sitting down for five minutes. “Where is she?”
“The drawing room.”
His eyebrow cocked again. “You set her in the drawing room? Any of the entertaining rooms would have done. Madame Juliet is going to slice you through for setting a strange woman in there.”
“We thought she was your sister.” His hand flipped over, waving about in a circle. “And the mirrors and the…uh…implements in the entertaining rooms…well, we didn’t think she should see that.”
“Sink me. One hour. One hour was all I needed.” Strider stood from behind his desk, his knuckles crunching hard onto the edge of the wood. “Fine, I need a drink anyway. I’ll look at her and then will you get rid of her?”
Jasper nodded, following him out into the hallway and down two doors to the smoking room Strider kept here at the den. Like a library in any other fine house, he kept the room just for him and those he needed to impress—or intimidate. Aside from the windows, door and fireplace, every inch of wall space was filled with bookshelves and stuffed with tomes. It kept the room quiet and he mostly used the chamber to gain a sliver of silence in the madness that was always around him. Madness that was always vying for his attention.
He went to the sideboard and poured a full tumbler of Courvoisier cognac. After taking a long sip, he refilled his and then poured a glass for Jasper.
Strider walked across the room to where Jasper stood next to the bookcase on the wall that adjoined the drawing room. He handed Jasper the extra glass and then removed three fat books with worn leather covers, the gold lettering long since rubbed off, and set them on the waist-high ledge of the bookshelf. Leaning down slightly, he peered into the open space on the shelf, then reached in and silently slid the small metal flap on the Judas hole to the right.
A perfectly concealed view into the adjacent drawing room.
There in the middle of the room. A rigid woman in a black dress sitting on the one hard chair in the space. Her hands clamped together in her lap, unmoving.
His gaze travelled upward to her face.
Shock jolted through his body, tensing every muscle, every nerve and making his heart stop for a full second.
He reeled away from the bookcase, his head suddenly light.
Three steps backward before he’d convinced himself he hadn’t just seen what he thought he did.
His feet cautious as he stepped forward, he took a full gulp of the cognac, then placed his glass down on the ledge. He set his eye to the peephole, his stare crazy as he focused on the figure in the middle of the room.
The bloody ass of Hades. It couldn’t be.
Couldn’t.
Penelope Willington.
Pen.
His Pen.
She sat there, an aberration from another time, another place. Her big green eyes staring at the door to the room, waiting. Patiently. Still.
Pen had never been patient. Never.
But there she sat. A stone.
The slight rise of her chest with every breath the only indication she was alive.
His gut sank, his chest tightening until he couldn’t force a breath into his lungs.
Pure.
She was pure—as pure—innocent as the last day he’d seen her.
How in the hell had that happened?
How in the hell had his own life veered so far into darkness that the purity of her struck him as odd—something he almost didn’t recognize?
But there she sat. Dressed in black, the fabric that looked to itch her skin raw starched high under her chin, choking her. A shapeless dress hiding her body. Her light blond hair pulled into a low bun that sat just below the simple black cap on the crown of her head—the strands circling her head looking like a golden crown in the dim light of the room. She teetered on the edge of the hard chair, her spine so rigid he could run ruler down it.
Next to him, Jasper took a sip of his cognac. “Ye see? She’s not our kind. She’s no whore and, well, she’s a delicate one—ye can see why I felt bad about kicking her back out onto the street at this time of night. Ye know as well as I how the drunks would tear her apart.”
Strider could see perfectly well. His jaw hardened, shifting to the side. Penelope always had that aroura. The kind that made others want to take care of her. Coddle her. Protect her from the slightest threat of harm.
No. She wasn’t their kind at all.
What the hell was she doing in the rookeries? In London?
“How did she get here?”
“Egbert said she just appeared at the front door. He tried to get her up to Madame Juliet but she fought him and then demanded to see ye.”
Strider nodded, his look not veering from Pen sitting in the room.
Jasper finished his brandy. “Oh, and the gents downstairs are already asking for a turn with her.”
Strider’s teeth clamped down so hard and fast he bit the corner of his tongue. Of course they were. She was bloody well gorgeous. She always had been and the drabbest clothes in the world weren’t going to change that. Innocence and beauty made every blasted man want to touch it.
The metallic tinge of blood spread across his taste buds and he yanked his stare away from her, snapping the flap closed. He looked at Jasper. “Spread the word that she’s already gone from the building.”
“Yes, sir.” Jasper nodded but didn’t move away from the bookcase.
“And?”
Jasper’s head cocked to the drawing room. “What should we do with her?”
“Nothing.” Strider moved past him, his long legs stalking toward the door. “I’ll take care of her.”
“She’s not really your sister, is she?” Jasper asked him as he exited the room.
Strider didn’t turn back to him. “I don’t have a sister.”
In the next moment he was charging into the drawing room, not bothering to pause and compose himself.
He slammed the door closed, advancing on her. “What the hell are you doing here, Pen?”
She jumped in her seat at the crack of the door and then looked up at him, her neck craning at his height.
For a moment, confusion in her eyes.
She didn’t recognize him. And why should she? She hadn’t seen him since they were fifteen. He’d grown another foot, double in mass, his hair had darkened, and he’d been hardened by the worst in humanity in those ensuing years.
The confusion disappeared the instant her eyes met his. She found him. Found the boy she remembered.
She sprang up onto her feet. “Strider, it is you. I hoped but I was afraid it wouldn’t be you and then I got here and—”
“What the bloody deuce are you doing here in London, Pen? In a damnable gaming hell?”
She blinked hard. “This is where you are so I came to see you.”
“Why would you ever think coming into the rookeries in the middle of the night was a good idea?” Damn but she was too bloody innocent. Even now. He needed to get her out of there, out of the rookeries. Far away from him. The faster the better.
“I didn’t think it was a good idea, but I didn’t know it would be this bad.” Her lips pursed. “I didn’t know what this area was, we just arrived in London and—”
“Who is we?” His gut viciously twisted. She had a damn husband. Why else would she be in London?
Her head slightly shook. “What?”
The air choking in his throat, he leaned over her, a grimace lining his lips. “Who is we?”
“We? Mrs. Flagton and her son. Mr. Flagton died several months ago and they needed to travel to London to take care of his affairs.”
He straightened, his forehead creasing. “You’re still with that family?”
“I have never been out of Belize Town, save for the one trip to the Port of Veracruz.”
“You never left them?”
“No.”
“So you’re still with the Flagtons?”
She nodded. “Mrs. Flagton has insisted I remain as her companion.”
That explained the dress. If he had to guess, it was the same one he’d seen her in twelve years ago. His head cocked to the side. “So what are you doing here?”
Her hands were still clasped in front of her and they lifted in unison. “I need your help, Strider. And you’re the only one that can help me.”
“You find me, after twelve years, and then demand my help? You do recall what happened the last time I saw you?”
Her green eyes darkened for a long second, her voice dipping into a whisper. “I remember.”
“Then why do you think I would help you with anything?” Harsh, but she needed to know who she was dealing with.
Her lips parted and she visibly inhaled. A forced smile quickly appeared on her face. “I had hopes. Please. My family. I want you to help me find them.”
“Your family?”
“Yes. My real family.”
He shook his head, taking a step backward. “You don’t want my help.”
Her strained smile went wider and she took a step forward. “I do, because you’re the only one that can help me, that can remember enough to find them.”
His lips twisted into a near snarl. “No.”
Confusion flooded her eyes again. “You don’t have connections? I asked the collier, the baker, the fishmonger. Everyone knows of you, Strider—all of them. All of them looked like the devil crossed their path, but they all knew of you. And how their voices dropped, almost to a whisper if I could even get them to speak of you at all. You’re a man everyone knows. And a man like that can find my family. You can help me.”
“No.”
“But—”
“But what, Pen? Why do you even want to find them?”
The smile slid from her face, but her stare didn’t slip off his eyes. “There’s got to be more for me. More for me in life. This is the first time that I’ve even had a chance at that thought, and this could be the way. If I can find them—if you can help me find them—it could be the way. The way out for me.”
“Why do you need to get out?”
“I just do.” Her exhaled words were tinged with desperation.
He shook his head, setting his jaw hard. He wasn’t about to let their lives intertwine again, no matter how desperate she was. “I can’t help you.”
“Why not?”
“There’s nothing in it for me.”
Her eyes went wide. “You are that cold?”
“I’m that practical.”
He waited for her turn away. For her shoulders to slump, defeated. Then he could leave.
Instead, her eyes closed with a slight cringe. “I didn’t want to do this.”
“Do what?”
“You help me and you can have me.”
A chortle blasted from his lips. “I can have you? As in sex?”
Her eyes flew open. “Yes…I…”
“That is what you bring me?”
Her cheeks started to flush. “I thought…I thought…”
He laughed again. “Why would I want you? Have you ever even touched a man, set your tongue to his lips, to his cock?”
Her entire torso snapped ramrod straight, her jaw dropping with a gasp.
“Exactly.” He took a step to the side, slowly walking around her, appraising her from all angles. “Why would I want that innocence? Why choose that when I have a stable of women ready and willing and knowing exactly what to do with their tongues.”
By the time he rounded to the other side of her, the flush on her cheeks had deepened, crimson creeping into every corner of her flawless skin.
With a wicked exhale she spun to him, her eyes ablaze. “You don’t have to humiliate me.”
“Frankly, I don’t know what to do with you.”
“Fine. I’m not attractive. I understand. So then do this for your mother, for what she wanted for us—she wanted us to have a future where we were bound by no one except what we wanted in our hearts. Help me for what she wanted for us. For what she was to us.”
“My mother is dead.”
Cold. Harsh. The truth.
Her eyes shifted back and forth. Panic. This wasn’t going how she imagined it would. When they were nine she used to get anything she wanted from him. But that was a different time, a different place.
He started toward the door. “You’ll excuse me, Pen. This was grand, seeing you again, but I h
ave a business to run. I’ll have my man escort you out of the rookeries and back to the Flagton home.” His hand reached out toward the door.
Footsteps thudded across the floor and she dove in front him, her hand on his chest to stop him. “Wait. I have something. Something that you may want.”
“You’ve got nothing I’m interested in.”
“I’m quickly finding that out.”
His left eyebrow cocked.
“It’s from the past. From Belize.”
“Everything burned, Pen. Everything.” His hand reached up to remove her palm from his chest.
She held tight against his grip on her wrist, her fingers curling onto the top cut of his waistcoat. “No—I have something of your father’s.”
He stilled. “What? You have something of my father’s?”
“I do. I never told you.”
“How is that even possible?” His hand left her wrist and clamped onto the side of her neck, his voice rising. “What the hell do you have?”
She shook her head. He could smell the obstinate defiance in her.
“No, Strider. You help me first and then I will tell you. Show you.”
His fingers squeezed into the flesh along the back of her neck. What the hell kind of game did she think to play with him? Him. She had no clue who he was now. The pain he could inflict without remorse.
He leaned down, his face only a breath away from hers as his fingers tightened along her neck. “I don’t make deals with ignorant, innocent chits who dare to wander into my den.”
Her green eyes met his, fire flashing. “Good thing I didn’t wander in here. I came here for you. For your help, Strider. And I intend to have it. Are you going to help me or not?”
Her glare set on him, slicing him through. The uncanny color of her eyes, the depths of them had always done that—searched through to the deep within. Unearthly. How she could see the souls of men.
He seethed for long breaths, his fingers twitching, thinking to squeeze out of her whatever it was that she was pretending to have.
She had nothing. He knew it.
He saw their home burn to ash just the same as she had. They had even gone back, sifting through the charred remnants of their life, only to be run off by a neighbor.
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