“I miss her, too.” Trevor stared into her eyes, and she knew he’d been missing Lisa for a lot longer than two days.
His phone buzzed on the table. He glanced at the text and clicked the phone back to sleep.
“Girlfriend?”
He shook his head. “Nina. A friend, one from the group I have coffee with.”
“From AA?”
“No. We met in a divorce support group. And we’re just friends.”
“No one special in your life?” She didn’t know why she asked. She knew that Lisa had dated periodically over the past few years, but the kids had never mentioned any of Trevor’s girlfriends. Part of Callie worried that he was still pining for Lisa.
He chuffed. “Dating sucks.”
“Tell me about it.”
“You can walk into any bar and have men talking to you within seconds.”
“Been there, done that. It gets old.” She smiled. “Like us.”
“Why didn’t you ever settle down and get married?”
She hated that question, so she offered her prepared answer. “Hard to have a lasting relationship when I travel. I’ve found most men don’t trust that I can be faithful when I’m thousands of miles away.” It was mostly true. She didn’t need to mention that she’d thought she’d found her partner, once, someone who really understood her. But like everyone else, he’d made demands she couldn’t live with. So she’d filled her schedule with so many jobs she wouldn’t have time for a serious relationship.
…
The entire day had been brutal. Trevor had woken up early and gotten dressed for the service before heading back to Lisa’s house. Diane had the kids up and ready, but they dragged their feet. The service had been everything Diane had wanted but had reminded him nothing of Lisa.
Callie’s words from the previous night had started to sink in. He didn’t speak at the service because he felt that it was no longer his place, but as everyone else stood and told stories about Lisa, Callie came to his side and took his hand.
The distance of the years and the alcohol-faded memories had made him forget what a good friend she’d been. Not just to Lisa, but to him as well.
The New Beginnings crew—man, he’d always hated that nickname—came to the service to support him even though they’d never met Lisa. They’d created a protective bubble around him, and for a few minutes he could breathe.
But now the service was over, as well as the luncheon, and it was time to go home. He needed to talk to the kids about Diane’s offer, but he had no idea where to start. So he drove back to Lisa’s house in silence. Diane and Gordon’s car was already in the driveway.
His fingers flexed on the steering wheel of his pickup truck. Callie slid him a look from the passenger seat. The kids seemed to take no notice of the additional tension. When he parked, they all continued to sit in silence, staring at the house.
Hannah whispered, “It’s weird not seeing her car here.”
Lisa’s car had been totaled when she’d lost control in the rain.
After a deep breath, Trevor cut the engine and opened his door. Callie did the same.
On the curb, he said to her, “Thanks for your support today. I know I’m not your favorite person. It means a lot. Made it easier.”
“Trevor, I don’t hate you.” She gave him a sad smile. “At first, part of me might’ve hated you a little. You hurt her. But you have your shit together. I don’t have the energy to harbor bad feelings. Life’s too short.”
She blinked back tears, and Trevor had the urge to pull her to him to comfort her the way she had him, but the kids finally pushed the truck doors open and climbed out.
Diane stood in the doorway, arms crossed in her usual pose. “What are you waiting for?”
Hannah dragged her feet toward the front door. Callie stepped away to go through the backyard. Trevor and Evan followed Hannah, who froze at the top of the steps. Diane held the door open.
His daughter’s shoulders hunched, and she turned back to Trevor. “I can’t.”
“You can’t what, baby?”
“I can’t go in. It’s real now. She’s never coming home.” Her lips trembled.
Diane tsked. “It’s your home. You spent the last two nights here without a problem.”
Trevor grabbed Hannah by the shoulders. “What do you want?”
“Can we just go to your house?”
Trevor looked at Evan, who shrugged, and then to Diane. Her eyes narrowed. He glanced at Callie, who had halted her progress to the coach house to watch the scene unfold.
“We can do whatever you want. Do you need to get some things, or do you have enough at my house?”
“I have enough. I’m just not ready.”
“It’s okay.” He completely understood the concept of not being ready. He was unprepared for all of this.
With an arm around Hannah, he said, “Diane, the kids and I are going to spend the night at my house. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.”
“Trevor, we have things to deal with.”
“I’m well aware. It’ll keep.” He asked Evan, “You need to get anything?”
Evan looked at his grandmother and then at Trevor. “I’m good.”
While the kids didn’t have duplicates of everything at his house, they each had a room and they kept clothes there so they wouldn’t have to pack a bag whenever they came over. He’d tried to make his house as much a home as he could.
When he turned back to his truck, Callie was already moving away to go home. He considered inviting her, but that would just cause more trouble with Diane. The kids jumped back into the truck, this time with Evan in the front seat. Suddenly a million thoughts crashed into him. They had a few weeks left until the end of the school year. He knew that even if the kids decided to go with Diane, they wouldn’t go now. And next year Evan would be a senior. He wouldn’t want to switch to a new school.
Fuck. He’d called the school after the accident when he had to pull them out to go the hospital, but what now? Was he supposed to send them back on Monday? Should they stay home and grieve?
He needed to go back to work. His crew had been carrying the weight of the restaurant remodel for the last few days, and the customer was understanding, but he couldn’t leave his life on hold.
He pulled up in front of his house. “I need to go to the store. There’s not much to eat here.”
Evan side-eyed him. “Grocery shopping in a suit? You might want to change.”
“Good point. Then again, I look damn fine in a suit.” Trevor chuckled.
Hannah jumped out of the truck. “That’s false advertising. Some poor woman will look at you like that and start drooling only to be disappointed that your normal wardrobe is work boots and jeans.”
“Point taken.” The brief conversation eased his need to run. As soon as they were in the house, the kids disappeared into their rooms. That was where they normally went when they came over. How the hell was he supposed to know if this was okay?
He changed and then knocked on each of their doors to let them know he was leaving and to see if there was anything they wanted. They were both sitting in bed on their phones.
“I’m going to swing by the jobsite to make sure I’m still on track. Okay?”
Hannah looked up at him. “Okay. Don’t forget to get stuff for dinner and lunch this week.”
Lunch? He had no idea what they ate for lunch. “Text me a list of what you need.”
When he repeated himself for Evan, he got a wave. The boy didn’t even look up from the phone. It irritated the hell out of him, but Trevor dismissed a lot of it as typical teenager crap.
There was so much for him to say that he was overwhelmed. For the moment, his kids were fine, and that was all that mattered, so conversations about what happened next could wait.
When he got to the jobsite, the guys were rolling up for the day.
His foreman, Jerry, met him outside. “What are you doing here?”
“Services are over. Kids ar
e at my house, and I need food. I figured I’d stop by here and check things out.”
“We’re good. Everything’s on schedule. Inspection on Monday will be a breeze.”
“Thanks for keeping it on track. I’ll be here for the inspection.”
“I can handle it.”
Trevor knew Jerry would be fine. He’d started years ago as Trevor’s right hand. He could run the crew as well as Trevor. “I know. I need to be here. The superintendent will expect to see me.”
“You’re the boss.”
“I’m going in. Enjoy your weekend.”
“You, too.” Jerry paused. “I mean…”
“I know what you mean.”
Trevor walked into the closed restaurant. The electricians were already gone, and plumbers were finishing up, too. The superintendent, however, was nowhere to be seen. Trevor went to the back to check the kitchen. The room was in shambles, but the walls were all roughed-in, plumbing was in place. He saw nothing to raise concerns about passing inspection on Monday. Jerry was right. Everything was on schedule.
As he went back to his truck, Trevor looked up at the building. There had been a time not that long ago when he would have never considered taking on a job this size. Now it was routine.
By the time he got to the store, Hannah had sent him a long and detailed list of items to get. His cart was fuller than it had ever been in any store. Except a supply house, of course. Lisa had always told him that teenagers ate a lot. He’d seen it when they were with him, but he hadn’t considered what it would be like to buy food for a whole week.
He looked at his cart again. Was this a whole week’s worth of groceries?
As he stood in line to pay, his phone buzzed with another text. Damn. He didn’t want to go back to find anything else.
Is it okay if I invite Callie over?
Trevor stared at the text. Before he could respond, Hannah continued.
She’s sad, too, and probably all alone.
He sighed. Go ahead, but don’t pressure her. She might not be up for it.
Sliding his phone back into his pocket, he began loading food onto the conveyor belt. Looked like Callie was going to be in his life again. He wasn’t sure how to feel about that. She’d been a friend for many years, but Lisa got her in the divorce. Of course, Lisa and Callie had been childhood friends, but he’d met them both at the same time. Callie had meant a lot to him. In fact, in another life, he might’ve ended up married to her instead of Lisa. But in the beginning, in the crucial get-to-know-you phase, Callie was always taking off to travel. Lisa had been here.
Now Callie was back and his feelings were a bit muddled, but he didn’t have time to sort out his emotions with everything else going on. He’d take whatever help she offered.
…
Callie stared at the text from Hannah. Her instinct was to accept the invitation. But they were at Trevor’s house. Her phone buzzed with another text. This time Hannah sent Trevor’s address. She debated asking if Trevor knew Hannah had invited her. She didn’t want the kids to think there was any tension or bad feelings between her and Trevor, but she also didn’t want to crash his house without his knowledge.
Does your dad know you invited me?
Yep. He’s cool.
Okay. I’ll make dinner. Be there soon.
She left her house quietly so she wouldn’t draw any attention. She stopped at the store and picked up ingredients for tacos. When she pulled up at Trevor’s house, his truck wasn’t outside, and she had the sneaking suspicion that she’d been lied to.
With groceries in hand, she went to the front door. Hannah answered.
“Where’s your dad?”
“Grocery shopping. He has like nothing to eat here. What’d you bring?”
“Tacos.”
“Thank God. I’m starving.”
They went to the kitchen together, and Callie pulled food from the bags. She looked around the kitchen in a way she hadn’t last night. It was a nice place. Not fancy, but clean lines, sturdy wood. So different from the lived-in feel of Lisa’s house, where things were often falling apart.
Hannah helped without being asked. She grabbed a frying pan and pulled out a knife.
“How are you holding up?” Callie asked.
“Okay, I guess. It was too hard to be at home. She’s all over the house.” Hannah began chopping the onion. “And Grandma…”
Callie stiffened. “What about your grandma?”
“You know how she is.”
Callie nodded but didn’t comment. “You know what we need? Some music.” She pulled out her phone and opened her music app.
“I have speakers. Hold on.” Hannah ran out of the room, and Callie heard her thumping up the steps.
A moment later, she was back with two small speakers. She hooked them to the phone. Music filled the kitchen. The first song that shuffled through was “Born in the USA” by Springsteen. Callie dumped ground beef into the frying pan while singing.
They worked in silence as they added the onions and seasoning to the beef. The song switched to “Dancing Queen” by ABBA. Callie paused the song.
“Okay, you have to hear this. Your mother loved this song. Like completely adored it and would listen to it on loop for hours. Drove me crazy. We were tiny when the song released, but she found the album and fell in love. Your grandma hated it. To this day, I think she’d cringe if she heard it. She felt it was a bad influence on your mother.” Callie left out the part where Diane had taken the cassette tape from Lisa. And how Callie had gotten her a new one that she’d kept hidden and only listened to on her Walkman.
“She almost never talked about what her life was like growing up.”
“I guess I’ll have to share all of her secrets then.”
Hannah smiled, and Callie pressed the play button and turned the volume up. Then she and Hannah sang and danced in the kitchen while stirring the taco meat. They were having so much fun that they didn’t hear Trevor come in.
When Callie spun in her dance, the sight of Trevor in the doorway startled her and she nearly dropped the spatula. The song wound down, so Callie lowered the volume again.
Trevor continued to stare at her.
“Sorry. We didn’t hear you.”
“Dad. Did you know that was one of Mom’s favorite songs?”
Trevor’s jaw muscle clenched, and he cleared his throat. “Yeah. I did. Can you get your brother to help you with the rest of the groceries?”
“Sure.” Again the teen ran from the room.
Callie lowered the flame on the stove. “Hannah told me you knew she invited me.”
“I did.”
“Is something wrong?”
He shook his head. “When I came in…” He released a long, slow breath. “Seeing you dance around with Hannah to that song. I wasn’t prepared.”
“I’m sorry. I wasn’t trying to upset you.”
“No,” he said quickly. “It was the look of happiness on Hannah’s face. I wasn’t sure I’d ever see that smile again.” He neared and set a bag on the counter. “Thank you,” he added quietly.
“I wasn’t thinking. The song came on and you’re right, I can’t hear that song without thinking of Lisa, so I shared it with her daughter.”
“I think we all need that reminder. She would want them to laugh.”
“I agree.” She turned back to dinner because if she didn’t, she might start to cry again. After the service, she’d been afraid of being alone. For the first time in her life, she’d felt empty when she’d walked into her living room. Being here with Trevor and the kids eased that feeling.
“Hannah sent me to the store with a huge list. I got stuff for dinner.”
“I told her I’d make dinner when she texted. Tacos.”
“I didn’t know you cook.”
“I’ve picked up a few things here and there on my travels.”
“I guess that beats my frozen pizza or sub sandwiches.”
“Spoken like a true bachelor.”
“Takes one to know one.”
“True.”
“Listen. I’m going to talk to the kids tonight about Diane’s offer. Will you stay?”
She nodded. She was touched that he would ask. “Whatever you need.”
The kids came in loaded with bags. They set everything on the kitchen table.
She handed the spatula to Trevor. “Here. Stir. Let’s see what you bought.”
The bags had lots of easy-to-prepare meals. Lunch meat. Bread. Peanut butter. Jelly. Cereal. Looked like he planned for the kids to stay here at his house. Callie wondered what that meant for her living situation. She’d have to talk to Trevor about that. If she needed to find an apartment, she’d have to start looking.
She took care of the refrigerated items since there was only one place to put them. The kids handled the nonperishables while they discussed the merits of the brands Trevor had bought. When the bags were empty, the kids moved to leave the room.
“Don’t go far. Dinner will be ready in a few minutes,” she said. She and Trevor prepared the rest of the meal, putting shells on the table along with chips and salsa and guacamole. She shredded some lettuce and chopped tomatoes while Trevor put the meat in a bowl for the table.
Callie loved the idea of a family-style meal. However, they didn’t have enough chairs. “Do you have more chairs?”
“When the kids are here, we usually have pizza in the living room. Uh…”
“Don’t worry. We can fill our plates here and take them in the other room.”
“See? This is what I’m talking about. I can’t even handle dinner.”
She ran a hand down his arm. “You’re doing fine.”
“Not true, but thanks. I’ll call the kids. You might want to make a plate before they come down. This’ll be gone in a blink.”
As if on cue, Callie’s stomach rumbled. She hadn’t eaten much at the luncheon after the service, so she was starving. She loaded a plate. Trevor’s voice boomed in the other room. She munched on a chip while the kids and Trevor got their food.
When they were all settled in the living room, Trevor wasted no time in opening the discussion. “We need to talk about what happens next.”
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