Monty took out a yellow legal pad and uncapped his pen. “You’re going to tell me. Tell me everything.”
“There’s nothing to tell.”
“Adam, if there were nothing to tell, you wouldn’t be in jail on murder charges. Now tell me. I want to know who you were fucking, who you weren’t fucking, who is Violet Perkins, and what she could know about you that’s got the prosecution so goddamn happy. I want to know what happened the last time you saw Rachel alive, why you left her alone with Albert knowing full well his history of violence. I want to know why there wasn’t a single drop of blood on Albert when there was bloodspray on the walls and ceiling. But the first thing I want you to tell me is, did you kill her?”
“This is insanity.”
“Be that as it may, I have to ask you. I have to know, Adam. Did you kill her?”
“No. I loved Rachel.”
THIRTY-FOUR
He was feeling like a million bucks. No, make that two million. And, surprisingly, Leo found, he wasn’t even worried about the phone ringing. He knew it would ring in its own good time. Nothing had gone wrong so far; why would something as little as that all-important phone call disappoint him now? Everything had come together so nicely, so fucking . . . orgasmically, that Leo could hardly believe it was actually happening. Yes, the sensation was sexual, it felt so all-consuming. It was what he’d hoped for—absolutely and without a doubt, it was what he had hoped for—but he had never dared dream it would actually happen. Even if he had dared dream it, he would never have dreamed of everything coming together so perfectly, like two bodies coming together for intercourse. Violet, the Watkins couple, everything. Everything had merged just beautifully.
Around him, the office workers busied themselves in their cubicles, but today Leo was unaware of their presence. Today he didn’t even notice the four tiny walls closing in on him, the lamination peeling in long spidery strips from his desk, or the pinch of the surplus chair that was too tight for his round bottom. Today was the day everything was going to change.
Leo kicked his feet up on the wobbly desk and reclined back. The desk chair groaned in protest, pinched his ass a little tighter, but he didn’t notice. As he reclined, he could feel the fat Dominican cigar in his breast pocket, pressing comfortably against his chest. The potent aroma of it penetrated his suit jacket and assaulted his nose delightfully. It was an expensive indulgence. For celebration. Celebration after the word came down. And there would be cause to celebrate. He knew that. Just as he knew that he deserved whatever praise he received. After all, he had single-handedly put the whole case together. He knew that. Paula knew that. Soon, Bob would know it. Paula was meeting with him now. And Leo knew, he just knew there was no way Bob could say no. How could he? If it weren’t for Leo, there wouldn’t even be a case.
He patted the cigar in his breast pocket and smiled contentedly.
The phone rang.
When she heard the knock on her office door, Paula stubbed out her cigarette and hid the ashtray in a desk drawer.
“Open!”
Leo stuck his head in. “You rang?”
“Yeah, come on in. I’ve got some news.”
“What’s up?” Leo asked, and the open expectancy of his face sickened her a little, but only a little. It was going to be unpleasant, and Paula really didn’t care for unpleasantness. She knew he was expecting to hear good news—all is forgiven, please come home—but, in the words of Theodore Roosevelt, tough titty.
Paula retrieved her ashtray back out of the desk and lit another cigarette. She exhaled a long plume of smoke and said, “Word just came down.”
“Yeah?”
“Bob wants me to handle the case myself.”
“He does?”
“That’s right.”
“And second chair?”
Paula took a deep mental breath. “Bob will be second chair.”
“What?” The word barely made a sound as it fell from Leo’s mouth. To Paula, it sounded like what you might hear come out of the mouth of a man who had just taken a vicious blow to the stomach. Leo took a deep breath. “Why would Bob want second chair? That makes no sense.”
“Think about it. It’s Monty Lee’s brother. This is about justice, but it’s also a little bit about revenge. A way to send Monty Lee a message. Settle accounts.”
“I wanted to settle some accounts myself.”
“I know. It’s your case. You did all the work. You made the case. I told Bob, but he doesn’t want you in the courtroom. This shouldn’t be a surprise to you. Bob Fox is not a man who forgives and forgets.”
“Fuck Bob. This is my case.”
“I know. I’m sorry. I was your advocate in there, believe me. I told Bob I wanted you in the courtroom, backing me up, but he wouldn’t go for it.”
“Did you tell him there would be no case if it weren’t for me?”
“Of course I did.”
“You guys were gonna file it away. You were just gonna file it away! I made this case! It’s mine! How can you?”
“Leo, come on, you’re overreacting. You’ll get credit.”
“Yeah, right! Oh, thanks, Leo, for gathering all the evidence. Thanks, Leo, for finding and interviewing all the witnesses. Thanks, Leo, for telling us there was a fucking murder in the first fucking place!”
“Leo, I’m sorry.”
“‘Your faithful fucking servant.’ Fuck you.”
Paula arched a carefully plucked eyebrow at Leo. Pity only went so far, and she sure as hell wasn’t going to tolerate his verbal abuse. “I think you’re forgetting who’s the servant and who’s the master.” She watched as Leo began to pace in front of her desk. He was growing more and more agitated as the magnitude of just how badly he had been swindled sank in. Paula had expected things to get ugly. She had planned for it. She would let him work himself up, let him vent his righteous anger, but then she would yank the leash. There was only so much shit she was willing to take.
“You don’t want to make an enemy of me, too. I told you, I’m sorry. I did everything I could to get you in that courtroom. Don’t blame me if you burned your bridges.”
Leo ran his hand across his smooth head, his fingers for once not registering the lack of hair. His pant legs flapped as he paced. He was simply not able to comprehend this was happening.
“I just can’t believe you guys would pull it out from under me like that.”
“I know.”
“I feel like I’ve been sucker punched.”
“I know.”
“You know! What the fuck do you know? You have no idea!”
His voice boomed out at her, and he slammed his fists violently down on Paula’s desk, hard enough to send the ashtray spinning into the air, cigarette butts twisting lazy curlicues over the desktop. Paula jerked back involuntarily. It was a reflex. Just as when a normally docile pet bites its master’s hand, she pulled back, stunned. Leo’s face had gone a color Paula couldn’t quite put a name to, and for the first time ever, she felt afraid of Leo Hewitt. She was afraid he might do something, well, crazy. His rage was absolute. Then she got hold of herself. Okay, the man’s about to go ballistic, but, hey, let’s remember, it’s only Leo. Okay, yes, it was only Leo. For a second there, she’d been scared, but that had just been a reflex. Fear was a controllable emotion, and she’d be damned if she’d let him know that he’d caused her to fear him. Never show fear. That was something she’d learned as a little girl growing up around farm animals in rural Georgia. No matter how vicious the animal, you could always keep the upper hand if you showed no fear. If a mongrel dog confronted you, growling and barking, you were dead if you showed fear. What you did was bark back. Louder. You had to go to the dog’s level. You had to make yourself mad. And you had to let the animal see your anger. And fuck this little man. Just who the fuck did he think he was yelling at? She wasn’t going to sit here and take this shit off the likes of him.
“Leo, you had best get hold of yourself or you’ll find yourself back out on
the street. And I fucking mean it! You will show me the respect I’ve earned! I do not have to, and I will not tolerate your belligerent attitude. I told you that I did everything I could for you. End of discussion. Now get the hell out of my office.” Her words were harsh, and she liked the sound of them. They had the impact she intended. Just as a loud noise scares a barking dog, Leo heeled.
“I’m sorry, Paula. Oh Jesus, I’m sorry. I’m not trying to take it out on you. I know you did everything you could. I mean, we’re friends, right? It’s not your fault. I’m sorry. It’s just that . . . This was my case. You know? This was gonna be my—”
“I know,” she said, and inwardly smiled.
PART THREE
There’s men that somehow just grip your eyes,
and hold them hard like a spell;
And such was he, and he looked to me
like a man who had lived in hell . . .
The music almost died away . . . then it burst
like a pent-up flood;
And it seemed to say, “Repay, repay,”
and my eyes were blind with blood.
The thought came back of an ancient wrong,
and it stung like a frozen lash,
And the lust awoke to kill, to kill . . .
then the music stopped with a crash . . .
—ROBERT W. SERVICE,
“THE SHOOTING OF DAN McGREW”
THIRTY-FIVE
It is very cold in this cell. But not dark. The lights stay on all day and all night, stark, fluorescent, and humming. But still, the darkness is with me here. Inside me. It has not left. If you are unlucky enough to have known the dark as a young man, then wherever you go for the rest of your life, it stays with you, for darkness is a movable feast.
Paradoxically, I find that I don’t mind the dark. Other things bother me. There are so many things ahead of me, I can hardly wait for them to arrive. I see now that my journey into the light has only just begun. Eugene O’Neill called his autobiographical play Long Day’s Journey into Night. Mine will be the inverse.
Monty tells me that my predicament is the topic du jour. I read the papers and see an out-of-date photograph of myself on the television news. So be it. I know that I will emerge from this unsullied—reborn and new. The process has begun. The stage is set. They have finished with the process of voir dire, jury selection. Monty tells me voir dire is a French expression. It means “to speak the truth.” We shall see, we shall see.
I believe that I am running a fever. My head is hot and my body aches. Dreams stalk my nights. In the mornings, I awake shivering, my thin mattress soaked through with foul-smelling night sweat. And what is worse, I remember the dreams.
They were saying that I deliberately used Albert to kill Rachel. That I used Albert as an instrument of death. That is what they were saying. Now they say I killed her with my own hands. They don’t know yet that Rachel was dead to me for years before she died. And Albert, Albert is my son. He is also Rachel’s son. He is a merging of the two of us. The sum of the parts that does not equal the whole.
I feel the fever on me again; my thoughts grow unclear, confused.
THIRTY-SIX
“And we will also show that Mr. Adam Lee not only premeditated his wife’s murder, but bragged about it before the body was even cold.”
Paula loved this part. Like Leo, she loved all of it, but the opening was her favorite. It must be how an actor felt. If it was, she could certainly see the allure of stardom. Because right now, she was a star. The jury her audience. And they hung on her every word. Her every mannerism. It was tougher for a woman, but that made it just that much more exciting. A female trial lawyer walked a very fine line indeed. Any excess in any direction could be lethal. It could alienate jurors. If you came across as too confident, you might piss off the older gentleman who believes women should know their place. Too demure and you risked appearing weak in your convictions. A dress too short, you looked like a flirt. A dress too long, you looked like a spinster prude. Wear a business suit and half of them would label you a lesbian. A male trial lawyer, as long as he didn’t have obvious personality flaws, could pretty much just make sure his tie matched his shirt and go to town (and even if his tie didn’t match, there would be a woman on the jury who felt sorry for him and wanted to take care of him). But Paula had it all together. Every aspect of her image was presented in just the right doses.
Image was the most valuable lesson she had learned from her mentor, Judge Elizabeth Duran. Elizabeth Duran, who had eventually presided over the Guaraldi case, had been among the first female judges elected to the Superior Court bench in Fulton County and was a figure of aspiration for many young female lawyers. When Paula had still been a student in law school, she had applied for and gotten a coveted clerking job in Judge Duran’s office. The two clicked right away. Duran had taken an immediate liking to Paula, and at the time Paula supposed she must have reminded Duran of herself when she was younger. Even then, Paula possessed the steadfast tenacity, the near-Machiavellian determination that would be the hallmark of her legal career. Because of this and the fact that Paula was putting herself through school on a budget of poverty, Duran took Paula under her wing. She tutored Paula on the finer points of the law and courtroom politics. The woman had nothing but disdain for the people who plied the laws, but the law itself she loved. In fact, the law seemed to be her only love. She had no social or romantic contacts to Paula’s knowledge. In private, Elizabeth Duran was a salty woman, a heavy drinker not given to niceties or small talk. If she was not discussing law or some aspect of law, she simply had nothing to say.
Paula remembered an afternoon of instruction in Duran’s office. Duran paced the highly polished hardwood floors in her stocking feet, a tumbler of scotch in one hand, a cigarette smoldering away in the other. She had been talking at length of the fine line a woman must navigate to become a successful trial lawyer. She had come to the topic of cosmetics, and although she wore not even a hint of makeup herself, claiming a judge could look any way she damn well pleased, she instructed Paula on the finer points of cosmetology. (At fifty-seven, Duran’s angular features could have done with a few softening strokes of the makeup brush, but Paula wouldn’t have dared to presume to say so.) “You have to wear it,” Duran had said in her gravelly voice, sipping her scotch. “Even if you don’t need it, you have to wear it. Just so you don’t come across like a militant bull dyke. But it has to be understated. Too much, and you’re going to walk into that courtroom looking like a hooker in search of a twenty-dollar blowjob.” Over the years, Paula had found that all of Duran’s wisdom had proven to be true. Regardless of how the relationship had ended, Duran had taught her a lot.
Around the time Paula was ready to give up her clerking job for a position in the DA’s office, Duran had invited her for a weekend at her beach house on Jekyll Island. On the second night there, Duran had made a blatant, drunken pass at Paula. Paula demurred at the offer in an offhand way. Thanks, but no thanks. But Duran had insisted, claimed that Paula “owed” her something for all that she had done for her. The situation escalated into an ugly confrontation and ended with Paula driving five dark hours back to the city. They had seen each other in court several times over the years, but neither ever acknowledged what was between them.
And Paula thought of Elizabeth Duran now as she looked each of the jurors in the eye, knowing exactly how each of them perceived her. And she knew that they couldn’t help but be impressed with her. Impressed with her smart good looks and unassuming authority. There was a hardness inside her, a ruthlessness she was proud of, but that was hidden away now. They saw only what she wanted them to see. And, best of all, she was on. Everything was clicking. If she was on during the opening, it set a winning pace for her side for the whole trial. And now her favorite part was coming up. The part where you have to point. It was standard practice, but she got a secret thrill from it. If you were clicking the way you thought you were, you could win jurors over to your side before e
ven a single piece of evidence had been presented. Just with that finger held out in accusation.
She let her eyes meet each of the jurors’. Let each of them know she was talking directly to them and was hiding nothing. Then she turned from the jury and pointed.
“Yes, this man. This man right here. Murdered his wife. His wife of twenty-one years. And tried to place the blame for the murder on his mentally retarded son.”
And she turned back to the jury. More eye contact. A dramatic pause. Let the accusation sink in. Take them back into your confidence. Wrap it up.
“And they’re going to try again. To place the blame. On a defenseless, mentally disabled man. The defendant’s own son. I’m not here today to place blame. I’m here to place the facts. The evidence. In front of you. So you can decide for yourselves. Don’t be afraid to make the right decision. Thank you.”
Paula took her seat next to Bob at the prosecution table. He smiled at her, partly because he was impressed with her performance, partly so the jury could see his confidence in her.
Judge Kenneth Cray, a small, wiry man of sixty, nodded to Monty and motioned for him to proceed with his opening statement. Monty clapped his briefcase shut, thus commanding the jury’s attention and communicating his irritation with the prosecution’s outlandish accusations.
“She’s right,” he said, at once acknowledging Paula’s words while delegating her to nothing more than a she. Not Ms. Manning, not my colleague, not the prosecution, but nothing more than an anonymous she. Monty, too, reveled in the intricacies of courtroom theater. He relished the subtle psychological war that the lawyers waged, each side meticulously manipulating every facet of what the jury would see and hear in the hopes of gaining a minute psychological edge. He knew that with his good looks alone, the minute he stepped into any courtroom he was already one step ahead of the competition. Since he had been a boy, he was well aware of the fact that his appearance just made people like him, and he used that knowledge to his benefit. People were just drawn to him. It made his everyday life more pleasant, and it was his greatest weapon in the courtroom. He knew that his fine features caused people to want to be in his favor. They wanted him to like them, men and women alike. And it was easy, so easy to parlay this need of theirs to be in his good grace into a winning judgment. It was just a question of making the other side look bad.
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